A/N:
Hello my lovely readers:) Sorry this update took so long. This summer has been extremely busy, and I haven't really had time to post any updates. I've had this written for a while, reading over it a couple times, making minor changes and such. I feel like it's a pretty good chapter, so I hope you like it:) Reviews make the next chapter come even quicker... :D PS. Does anyone this that Alex's last name being White is too...obvious? Personally, I think it's cheesey but adorable haha. Just curious!

My footsteps echoed around me as I walked down the now empty alleyway, the small 'Pop' of Remu's apparition still ringing in my ears as I opened my black umbrella out in front of me, raising it above my head as the rain started to fall around me steadily, almost reflecting my mood perfectly.

As I walked down that dark road with my heels clicking rhythmically behind me, I found myself getting more and more lost in my memories, some happy, but some of them terrifying and sad also.

My first kiss had to go with the first category of course, how could I ever forget it?

It had been my fifth year at Hogwarts, only a week after my sixteenth birthday, and Sirius-of course it was Sirius. It was always Sirius-had woken me up in the middle of the night.

My eyes flew open in surprise, a scream building in my throat before his hand suddenly clamped over my mouth, silencing me before I had a chance to do anything rash. I stared up at this impossibly handsome teenager that was kneeling beside me, my eyes wide in shock, and my body too terrified to even move as I silently screamed profanities at him, wildly hoping that he somehow knew Legimins so that I could convey my intense dislike of him right then.

He chuckled lowly at my expression, his dark brown eyes twinkling mischievously at me as he raised a finger to his lips, signaling me to keep quiet, and slowly taking his warm hand off of my mouth, staying knelt by my bed.

"Sirius-" I started to whisper fiercely, before his hand smacked back on my mouth again, and he was hissing my name.

"Shush! I don't need another detention this week." He whispered threateningly, narrowing his eyes teasingly at me, "Just stay quiet, and follow me." He whispered even more quietly than before, taking my hand in his and pulling me up from my bed, his eyes flashing to my pajamas in interest.

I blushed fiercely, shoving his shoulder and growling at him while my hand pulled down the old muggle band shirt of my Dad's nervously as my eyes narrowed in dislike as he grinned at me, laughing softly as he pulled me down the stairs and into the common room.

"Sirius." I said quietly, tugging on his arm before he pulled me out the portrait hole, "Where are we going?" I asked tiredly, stifling a yawn as he stopped to face me.

"I want to show you something." He said, smiling at me mischievously, "Just trust me." He said breezily, winking.

I sighed, appearing oblivious to his charm, and grumbled, "Why does something bad always happens when you say that?" Looking up at him with grouchy eyes, making my attitude towards him very easy to read.

He gave a short bark of laughter, and pulled on my hand again, "Just come on." He said, leading me out of the portrait hole and down the corridor quickly, looking over his shoulder occasionally to flash me one of his trademark, 'Don't worry, it'll only be five detentions!' grin, which, of course, (Blast my bloody teenage hormones...) made me practically weak in the knees.

I followed close behind him, my bare feet slapping against the stone beneath us as my eyes looked over Sirius's shoulder and down the hallway cautiously for Filch or Mrs. Norris, praying that this boy holding my hand-I tried frantically to ignore the steal butterflies in my stomach-wouldn't be the academic death of me. And now that I thought of it, probably the death of my physical life too. Curse him.

"Here we are." Sirius said softly, coming to a gradual stop at the base of the stair that led up to the Astronomy tower, looking up it with a slight smile on his face, glancing at me, "Ladies first." He said charmingly, gesturing grandly in front of him, grinning at me broadly.

I rolled my eyes, and walked ahead of him, muttering, "If you're looking at my arse Black, so help me..." As my eyes flashed dangerously at him, suddenly very aware of how exposed my lone shirt made my legs and bum.

His chuckle was right in my ear, making my hair stand on end and my breath hitch in my throat as his low voice said, "Guilty as charged." His hands holding on my waist to steer me in the right direction up the spiral staircase, "It'a a very nice Arse." He said after a pause, sounding thoughtful.

I snorted, rolling my eyes at him as I elbowed his in the chest, murmuring, "Git." Quietly, chuckling despite myself at his utter lack of tact.

He chuckled, and we kept on walking in a comfertable silence.

We finally reached the top after some time, and automatically my eyes went up to the stars, wondering vaguely if this was what he wanted to show me.

"Oh." I breathed in wonder, falling back into his embrace almost, almost being the keyword here, unknowingly, my eyes wide as I looked up at the sky, amazed at how beautiful the black sky could look when it had a million and one diamonds in it.

"Gorgeous, isn't it?" Sirius whispered against my cheek, sounding as amazed as I felt, his arms tightening around my waist, "I come here sometimes when I feel too stressed about something. It's a brillant way to clear your mind." He said softly, his lips grazing my ear as he did so.

I nodded wordlessly, turning my head towards him, sucking in a breath when I saw how close our faces were to one other, and how clearly I could see his dark eyes. I breathed, "It's beautiful." Watching his eyes as they searched my face, and he bit his bottom lip self consciously as his gaze lingered on my lips.

"They're not the only beautiful things here." He whispered on my lips, and I felt my eyes fluttering closed as his wonderfully soft lips finally pressed against mine, sending sparks up and down my spine as I melted into his embrace finally...

I jolted myself out of my memory with a sharp intake of breath, my eyes watery as I reached the door to my flat, my clumsy fingers fumbling with the key that was in my pocket before finally inserting it into the hole, opening the door and letting the familiar smell of my flat filling my mind as I shut the door behind me and pressed my back to the floor, falling to the ground numbly as my last memory of Sirius filled my mind unwillingly.

My eyes fluttered open lazily as I felt the weight of the bed shift beneath me, causing me to rolling over in bed to watch Sirius with sleepy eyes as he sat at the edge of our bed, running a hand through his long black hair-he really did need a haircut, it was getting rediculious-yawning slightly as he stretched, the muscles in his back tensing at the movement, making my heart flutter pathetically at the sight. Come on White, I told myself, you're twenty one years old, you need to stop acting like a bloody teenager at the sight of him...

"What're you doing?" I asked groggily, pushing the hormonal thoughts of him out of my mind as I blinked slowly and yawned, my eyes closing briefly at the involuntary movement.

He chuckled, turning around to face me, bending his head down to kiss me softly, "I'm just gonna go check in on James and Lily." He murmured, running his hand down my arm, making me shiver at his touch as his brown eyes locked with mine, making me melt under his gaze.

"Mmm..." I murmured, reaching up to knot my fingers in his silky smooth hair, and simultaneously pull him down into our still warm bed, curling my body against his easily, molding myself to him, "They can wait ten more minutes..." I said lowly, capturing his lips with mine again before he could protest, feeling rather accomplished with myself as he moaned softly into my mouth, opening it slightly to allow me more access to it.

"I guess so..." He murmured as he pulled away some time later, climbing into bed with me, crawling on top of me, his half naked body pressing up against my bare skin, making me shiver in delight as he bent his head down to kiss my jaw expertly finding the spots that made me unable to breath.

"Glad you could see things my way." I whispered breathlessly, a smile playing on my lips...

"No." I whispered, burying my face in my hands, letting my tears come down my face, staining my cheeks and tasting salt against my lips as I sat there helplessly, refusing to even think about what had happened so quickly after he had left that morning, going to check on James, Lily and Harry, only to find that, oh yeah, he had already betrayed their souls to Voldemort.

I choked out another sob as another wave of tears fell down my face, my whole body shaking now. It wasn't like I had ever wanted to believe that Sirius could have gone and done something so downright horrible. I wanted to believe Remus when he said Sirius was innocent-but how could I? I had tried to find every loophole there was in his case, trying to prove that he was innocent, that he was still the man I had fallen in love with...but it just wasn't there.

I sighed deeply, and pulled myself up off of the floor, putting my keys in the bowl I kept by the door, and tossed my purse and now wet umbrella on the ground with my shoes and coat. I walked into my bedroom and fell onto my soft, inviting bed unceremoniously, burying my face into the nearest pillow, Sirius's taunting brown eyes and wonderfully handsome casual smirk following me into my dreams as I slipped into a restless sleep.