I always knew I wasn't perfect.
I always knew I was a slut.
I always knew I would never get married.
I always knew I would never be truly loved.
I never knew it would come to this.
He raped me, he shot me.
Blood is surrounding my body.
All I can see is red.
I think of my cheerleading uniform.
I think of how it was so comforting.
I think of how boys would look up it when I bent over.
I think of how I was a slut.
I always thought my hair was prettier down.
Just like Quinn's was.
I'm sorry Quinn.
I'm sorry I didn't warn you about Puck.
I'm sorry I didn't protect you like I protected Brittney.
I'm sorry we haven't spoken in ten years.
I'm sorry I can't remember your last name.
I'm sorry I sexted Puck.
I'm sorry your life sucked.
Brittney.
I loved you.
I wonder if you knew that.
I wonder if you knew it wasn't just sex.
I wonder if you knew I was in it for the long run.
I wonder if you knew that I took every slushie for you.
I wonder if you know it's going to be your name I'm screaming in Hell.
Mr. Schue.
I'm sorry I tried to destroy your glee club.
I'm sorry I let you down.
I'm sorry you were my only father figure.
I'm sorry I had to depend on you.
I'm dying.
I'm crying.
I'm wondering how it got to this…
To this.
Rachel
I wonder if she would've ended up with Finn.
I wonder if she knows that I'm sorry.
I'm sorry for taking his Virginity.
I'm sorry I switched the votes for Nationals.
I'm sorry I made us lose.
I'm sorry that because of my actions you lost your Scholarship.
I'm sorry that you lost your Broadway.
I'm sorry you jumped off that bridge.
It feels like I pushed you.
I wonder if I will see my parents in hell.
I know there's not much time left.
My vision is blurred.
It's either from the amount of blood I've lost.
Or the tears I've shed.
My dream was always to be a teacher.
I can be a teacher.
But I'm dying.
I'm bleeding.
So, I guess I could've been a teacher.
If I wasn't dying.
And I wasn't bleeding.
But I am.
Finally my thoughts rest on you.
You loved me like a daughter.
You thought the world of me.
You were always so cruel to me.
I wonder if I ever lived up to your expectations.
I wonder if I filled up your dreams.
Coach Sylvester
Did you even have any dreams?
I had dreams
I won't anymore soon.
I want to scream.
I'm sobbing.
But I can't move.
I feel so stupid, so stupid.
For letting my life turn out like this.
For letting my life end like this.
I wonder if anyone will ever find me.
I wonder if the Glee Club will recognize me at all.
I wonder if they will say their goodbyes.
I wonder if any of them ever loved me.
I wonder if Brittney ever truly loved me.
I wonder if anyone has ever loved me.
Probably not.
But I loved all of you.