Hey guys!
Listen to Until We Bleed by Lykke Li when you read the series it fits the series well in my opinion!
I've always been a wuss.
I've never been strong.
I couldn't be strong for my mom.
I couldn't be strong for Quinn.
I couldn't even be strong for Beth.
I'm not even going down with a fight.
Because I can't.
Because I have AIDS.
Because I let myself become obsessed with sex.
And now I'm dying.
I wish I wasn't.
I wish I was as badass as I seemed.
I wish I could've died in a fight.
I wish I could've married a Jew.
I wish I could've had Jew babies.
Beth could've been enough.
So could Quinn.
But I sexted Santana.
So now Quinn will never get to be enough.
I'm sorry mom.
I'm sorry I let you down.
I'm sorry I let dad leave.
I'm sorry I made him leave.
I'm sorry I didn't tell you I was dying.
I'm sorry you didn't know.
I'm sorry you're going to lose your child.
Just like I lost my Beth.
Beth.
You could've been my world.
But now you cant.
I let my badass reputation get in the way.
I cried for you.
I cried because I lost you.
When I lost you, I lost myself.
I'm not supposed to cry, I'm badass.
But I'm not really badass.
So I cried.
Even though I wasn't supposed to.
Quinn.
I really did love you.
No matter what you thought.
What did you think?
What did you think of me?
I'm sorry I told you to trust me.
Because you shouldn't of.
Because no one can.
I'm sorry I tricked you into having sex with me.
I'm sorry I tricked you into loving me.
Because I knew no one else ever would.
Rachel.
I'm glad you never let me touch your boobs.
I'm glad you kept your innocence.
I'm glad you didn't let me take that away from you.
You washed slushy out of my hair.
You cleaned me off.
I'm sorry I never cleaned you off.
I'm sorry I was the one that got you dirty.
I'm sorry I threw that slushy at you.
I'm sorry it got in your eyes.
I'm sorry you fell.
I'm sorry you hit your head on the floor.
I'm sorry you went into a coma.
I'm sorry you died.
Mercedes.
I'm sorry I told you that we were meant to be.
I wonder if you knew I really did think you were special.
I wonder if you knew you were special.
You really are.
I wish I could've gone to the hospital.
If I was at the hospital there would be a nurse.
If there was a nurse I wouldn't be alone.
But I am.
I wish I wasn't dying alone.
But I am.
I wish I was stronger.
But I'm not.
My body aches.
And I'm crying.
I'm sorry I didn't give you a tribute Santana.
You were my first.
And you were my last.
I wish I didn't pass on my AIDS to you, Santana.
I wish I wasn't a sex shark.
I wish I slept with people my age.
I wish I only slept with one person.
I wish I only would have slept with Quinn.
But I didn't.
I wonder where my dad is.
I wonder if he ever really loved me.
I wonder if he ever really loved my mom.
I'm sorry I wasn't good enough for you dad.
Mom, I'm sorry I got AIDS.
I'm sorry I didn't stay with Quinn.
I'm sorry I didn't do more solos.
I'm sorry I let my mom down.
I'm sorry I let Quinn down.
I'm sorry I let Rachel down.
I'm sorry I let Beth down.
I'm sorry I let myself down.