Chapter 6 for you. I'm incredibly freaking sorry I haven't update for a couple of months. I hate it when authors do that and I hate that I did it as well. But, real life is a pain in the ass sometimes and you have to deal with it.
I promise to update more frequently now and if I don't, you have my full permission to message me and tell me to get my shit together. J
Ok, now onto the story.
This story is Rated M for a reason peeps. This contains strong language, violence, the aftermath of rape, and lemons in future chapters.
Disclaimer: I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT. *Pouts in a corner*.
BPOV-
I struggled to keep from hyperventilating.
Breath in and out, in and out, in and out. I kept the mantra up in my head as Edward walked out the door.
He had killed the only family I had left and the only thing he could say to me was that it was because of business reasons and he was sorry.
What the fuck did that mean?
I was vaguely aware that Alice was sitting beside me on the bed, hugging me and talking to me, but I couldn't make out the words she was saying .
I tried to concentrate harder on her and was finally able to hear what she was saying.
"Bella, it's ok, please don't cry sweetie. Edward's just a little oblivious of peoples feelings. It's ok. He won't hurt you." She whispered in my ear.
I was crying?
I reached up to touch my cheek and found that it was wet. I hadn't even realized I was crying.
"He-he-he killed my f-father." I choked out through my tears.
"I know sweetie, I'm so sorry. I wish there was something I could do to make it better." Alice said, sounding desperate.
I immediately felt guilty for making Alice feel that way.
There was another knock on the door and I feared that Edward had come back, but when a woman called through the door that it was my food, Alice got up and grabbed it for me.
"Do you still feel like eating?" Alice asked softly, setting a tray down on the table beside the bed.
I am hungry, but I wasn't sure if I could keep what I ate down. I was feeling a little sick to my stomach.
"I'll try to eat something." I sniffled.
I wiped the tears away with the back of my hands and looked the food.
It actually looked really good. I could tell that Alice wanted me to start out light and that was fine with me.
There was a large bowl of chicken noodle soup that had steam rolling off of it and two large glasses of both water and orange juice.
"This looks good Alice." I told her truthfully as I picked up the spoon.
Alice smiled brightly, seeming very excited that she could do something to help me. Her mood was contagious because even I smiled when she started practically vibrating in her spot.
"Thanks Alice." I said.
"Bella, you don't need to thank me. You're my best friend and you need some help, this is the very least I can do." She stated like it was as obvious as saying the sun rose in the morning.
"Alice, no offense, but when did I become your best friend?"
She giggled. "Oh Bella, I knew you were going to be my best friend the moment I saw you."
I was touched that she thought that way about me.
I was a virtual stranger to her and she was taking care of me and calling me her best friend.
I felt my eyes starting to water again, but I was able to blink them away before she noticed.
I finished the rest of my soup as Alice continued going through the bags of clothes were she left off.
"Bella, would you like your own room? Jasper and I don't mind you staying here, of course, but I figured you might be a little more comfortable with your own space." She asked me, folding up a blue shirt.
Oh no, I thought. I feel horrible. This is Alice and Jaspers bedroom. If I stayed here, were would they sleep? I'm sure a place as big as this had guest rooms, but I didn't want to force them out of their own room. I decided to tell Alice that would go to my own room as soon as possible.
"Bella, there's no rush. Jasper and I really don't mind at all. In fact, Jasper was getting prepared to stay in a guestroom for a few days because he doesn't want you to feel uncomfortable." She said.
"I don't care, I should stay in my own room anyway, I don't want to kick you out of your own room. Besides, in a few days I'll be leaving anyway." As I finished, Alice froze from digging around in a bag and slowly turned around to look at me.
"Bella, I thought that you realized that you can't go home yet."
"Well of course I know I won't be in any condition to leave for a few days, but after that I should be fine."
She got a sad look on her face and took a few steps toward me.
"No Bella, I don't mean that you can't go home for a few days. I mean that you probably won't be able to go home at all." She said quietly.
What? Not at all? I wasn't allowed to leave? I then thought of Edward and figured out what she meant.
I wasn't going to leave because he was going to do something to me. He said he killed my dad for business reasons, so it must be a pretty nasty business. Which meant he was going to do something bad to me too.
"Alice, you're going to let Edward hurt me?" I whispered disbelievingly. I thought that Alice wouldn't let anyone hurt me, she said so herself.
The look on Alice's face was one of a child watching their puppy dying.
"Oh my god Bella, no! You mean Edward? He doesn't want to hurt you. You just need to stay here so we can figure some things out, that's all."
"Edward won't hurt me?" I asked.
"If Edward does anything to upset you, he's going to have to answer to Jasper and I." She said with conviction.
I relaxed a little at that, but still didn't like the idea of not knowing when I could leave, if at all.
Alice's cell phone started ringing and she skipped over to answer it.
"Oh, it's Rose!" She squeaked and flipped it open.
"Hey Rose!" She greeted.
Rose said something into the phone that caused Alice to purse her lips.
"Mmmm… I don't know if that's such a good idea yet." Alices eyes flashed briefly to me and I had a feeling that this phone call was about me.
Great.
"I don't care, he's so big, he'd probably scare her to death." She said, sound a little frustrated.
Yep, definitely about me.
Alice sighed and put her hand over the mouth piece of the phone and turned to me.
"Bella, my brother Emmett wants to come up to see you. Is that ok with you?"
I thought about it. From what I could remember, Emmett was a very big man, but he had help Alice and I with Edward. And I knew that Alice wouldn't even think about letting him up here if he was a threat. I decided to trust Alice again.
"It's ok Alice, I don't mind." I said.
She looked me up and down carefully and turned back to the phone.
"Ok Rose, but only for a little while. And if he scares her, he's dead." She threatened.
Alice giggled into the phone. "I know you would Rose. Ok, I'll see you in a few minutes." She flipped the phone closed.
"Bella, are you sure about this? Rose is coming up too, but you have nothing to worry about there."
"Alice, I can't stay up here forever. Eventually, I'm going to have to go back to the real world. I mine as well get used to being around people I trust." I reasoned with her.
She turned and started grumbling about it being to soon and me being stubborn. I would have laughed if I wasn't so nervous.
A few minutes later, there was once again a knock on the door. Alice glanced at me warily and walked over to answer the door.
A very attractive blond woman, that must be Rose, walked through the door first, followed by a very large, muscled Emmett.
Rose was extremely beautiful. She was tall, around 5'8", curvy in all the right places, with long blond wavy hair that went down to her waist, blue eyes and a slight tan.
Just looking at her made me want to crawl under the covers and hide there until she was far, far away.
Emmett wasn't exactly ugly either.
He was really tall, over 6'5", with short, curly dark brown hair and the same emerald green eyes that Alice and Edward have. The only thing that made him less intimidating was the dimples that were currently gracing his smiling face.
I looked back at Rose and saw that she was staring at me intently, with a burning look in her eyes.
She was probably horrified that she was in the same room as someone that looks like I do.
Alice came to stand in between us.
"Bella, this is my older brother Emmett and his wife, Rosalie." She gestured toward each.
"Hi." I whispered shyly, not able to resist looking down at my hands in an attempt to hide.
I heard someone huff and glanced up to see Rose still staring at me with a burning look on her face with her arms crossed over her chest.
Great, she hates me already.
"Hey, Bells. I just wanted to come and say hi and make sure you were ok. Also if you want me to kick Edwards ass, just say so. I'm always looking for a good excuse to throw a few punches at him." He said cheerfully.
He wanted to beat his brother up? It was a little weird, but I couldn't say I blamed him.
I offered a small smile. "Thanks, I'll think about it."
"Bella, can I talk to you?" Rose spoke for the first time since she stepped in the room.
I was a little shocked that she wanted to talk to me, alone. I was kind of scared of her actually.
"Rose, I don-"
"It's ok Alice." I interrupted her.
"Alright, but I'm going to be in the hallway if you need me." She said, walking out the door, dragging a puzzled looking Emmett with her.
"But, I wanted to talk to her more." He whined to Alice.
"She's going to be here for awhile dummy, you'll have plenty of time to talk later and when she feels better." Alice retaliated, shutting the door behind them, leaving Rose and I alone.
Oh fun.
She walked toward me slowly and sat down in a chair a few feet beside the bed.
"So Bella, do you feel alright?" She asked nicely.
I was floored. I didn't expect her to be nice, but I was still wary, she could be acting so she could get to something else.
"I'm fine considering the situation." I replied carefully.
She looked up at me with great interest and something else I couldn't place. Concern….pity…..?
"Which situation? The one involving Edward, or the one that you were just raped?" She asked quietly.
I gasped. How did she know? She couldn't possibly have just guessed that….could she?
"How….how could….you know something like that?" I stumbled out.
Rose grimaced and leaned toward me a little.
"Bella, when I was 19, my boyfriend at the time raped me." I gasped at this. "I know the signs first hand, and you aren't very good at hiding the emotions on your face. Bella, who did this?" She questioned gently.
I shook my head almost violently. I didn't want to tell anyone about this. I was so ashamed and felt dirty that that had happened to me, it felt as though it would make it worse if I admitted it out loud.
"Bella, please tell me. I won't tell anyone, I promise. I know what it feels like, but once I was able to tell someone about it, I felt a little better. It didn't fix everything, but it was a start. To no longer feel all that weight on my chest, suffocating me. To have someone to talk to about the pain. You can trust me Bella, please." She begged.
I broke down completely, sobs tore through my chest and up my throat. Tears pouring down my face. I felt the bed shift and Rose wrapped her arms around me and began to run her fingers through my hair. It oddly reminded me of what my mom would do when I would cry as a child before she died. It was very comforting, so I leaned into her touch.
"Shhh Bella, it's gonna be alright now, you're safe here, no one will hurt you." She whispered.
I wanted to say that there was a chance that Edward would hurt me, but all that came out was Edwards name and that caused Rose to tense up.
"Edward? Edward raped you?" She asked, sounding absolutely infuriated.
"N-no." I choked out.
At that, Rose relaxed a little.
"Then what about Edward, honey?" She asked, calmer now.
"Edward might hurt me." I sobbed out.
Rose tightened her grip around me slightly.
"Why would Edward hurt you?"
"H-he k-killed my dad, he'll hurt me too." I sobbed.
I heard Rose sigh.
"Edward won't be a problem, Bella." She told me simply.
"The-the two guys that Edward had k-kill my dad r-r-raped me." I finally whispered to her, unable to say their names yet.
She was right, I did feel a little better now that I told someone, but the pain was still there.
"They can't ever hurt you again, I promise they won't." She said as she rocked me back and forth lightly. We stayed like this for a few minutes, until I started to get tired. Probably a combination of the stress of telling Rose and crying for god only knows how many minutes.
My eyelids began to droop and Rose noticed this.
"You're tired, you should get some sleep." She stated, beginning to unwind her arms from around me.
"Ok." I agreed sleepily.
"I'll be here in the house if you want to talk about anything when you wake up."
I laid down and snuggled under the blanket, quickly falling asleep with Rose still running her fingers through my hair.
EPOV-
I had spent hours trying to find ways to make everything up to Bella, but nothing I thought of could make up for having her father killed and my men raping her.
I finally gave up and decided to just ask Alice for her opinion on what to do.
I was about to go down stairs for something to eat, when a very enraged Rosalie flung my office door open.
Oh shit.
Rosalie was one of very few people I was afraid of. She was scarier than any guy I had ever met when she felt strongly about something and I had a feeling she felt strongly about something at the moment.
Most likely Bella. I can't really be angry at Rose for that.
"What the fuck did you do to that poor girl!" She nearly screamed at me.
I cringed away involuntarily.
"I didn't do anything to her, Rose. I was just doing what my profession demands." I said.
That sound like bullshit even to me.
"That's bullshit Edward." Apparently she thought so to. "Bella's upstairs crying her eyes out. You had her father killed, then the idiots that did it, raped her. Edward, I thought you never let any of your people do that kind of thing." Her voice softened a little at the end and I immediately felt like a total asshole, not only because of Bella, but because I knew this was opening old wounds for Rose.
"None of my people have ever done this before, I don't know what the hell they were thinking, but it doesn't matter now. I had them taken care of." I said.
"Taken care of? What, did you kill them?" She scoffed.
"Only James. I told Demitri and Alec that they could do whatever they wanted to Jake as long as it's painful." I told her calmly.
Her eyes widened in disbelief.
"Oh my god, you actually killed them." She said.
"Yes, I won't stand for my people doing those kinds of things, Rose." I told her, but I was also covering up for something else.
And apparently, I wasn't doing a very good job.
"That's not the only reason Edward. I think that you actually like Bella and that's the real reason why you killed one of them and is doing god knows what to the other." Rose called me out on my bluff.
"Ok fine, I do like her, but what am I supposed to do? She's scared of me, she can't stand to look at me, Rose. I'm afraid to even try to get close to her."
"Why?" Rose asked, seemingly curious.
I sighed and ran my fingers through my hair.
"Rose, she's scared of me as it is. What happens if something makes my IED go off when she's near me? She'll never want to see me again. I don't think I could handle starting to get close to her, only for me to fuck up and send her away forever." I said pathetically.
Rose rolled her eyes.
"Edward, if you really feel as strongly about her as you say, then you would never let your IED hurt her." She stated like it was so obvious.
"Just watch yourself around her Edward, she's in a lot of pain physically, emotionally and mentally and she needs someone to help her. Alice and I are trying our best, but something tells me it's not us she needs." She turned to walk back out my door.
"Wait Rose!" I called after her.
"What?"
"I've been trying to think of something to get her to make up for everything, but I haven't been very successful. Do you have any ideas?" I asked hopefully.
"Yeah, I do actually. Don't buy get her anything." What? Even I knew that wasn't right.
"Talk to her Edward, get to know her, let her get to know you. Let her know that you aren't going to hurt you. She's so afraid that you're going to do something to her. Let her know that you won't." She said and walked out the door and closing in behind her sharply.
With that I was left with my thoughts. She thought that I was going to hurt her? I told her I wouldn't.
Of course she thinks that you dumbass, after everything you've had done to her, unintentionally are not, she's got every reason to think you're going to hurt her. You can't just say that you won't and she'll believe every word you say, My inner voice decided to chime in.
"Urgh." I groaned and flopped my head down on my desk.
Something inside of me twisted around painfully until I wanted to cry for the first time in years at the thought of Bella going through all of that because of something I had set in motion.
I wanted to pound my own face in like I had done to James. I knew Rose was right about everything, but the problem was I didn't know were to start.
How was I going to get Bella to see that I never want to harm a hair on her head and love her if she'd let me.
Hey dumbass, rewind that last part there. My inner voice snapped.
I did as it said and realized what I had thought.
'And love her.'
Oh shit….. I think I love her.
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Ok, how was that chapter?
A little bit of a cliffy there. I know, not a lot of action, but a lot of emotions. I want to draw this out a little to make sure that I can get everything that Bella is going through and poor Edward is just confused and desperate. Classic Edward syndrome.
Hang in there with me, there's still a long way to go and plenty of action and emotions.
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