/Flashback to March 17th 2007/
"A-Axel...can you come with me for a minute?" Roxas asked the redhead after school ended.
"Sure, Rox!" He lead me to a bridge and he stepped onto the ledge.
"I-I can't do it anymore Axel!" Screamed Roxas, standing on the ledge of the bridge.
"Don't go Roxas! I-I...I love you!" I screamed back, knowing what he was about to attempt. He smiled.
"I love you too Axel, but...I cannot live in this world anymore! I can't only live for you! You're the only thing that's worth living for...but only you! That's why...I've decided to end it all now...the pain and suffering I've been through...everything...there's just one thing...that I need to do before I do end it..." He jumped off the ledge back onto the bridge and approached me slowly, in his hand...2 notebooks. One blue, one red.
"Axel...I wrote all my life into that blue notebook...I want you to write your side of the story after you met me in the red one..." Is all he said before he ran back to the ledge, and...jumped. I ran trying to catch him before he hit the water but it was to late. I turned around tears staining my vision and saw Zexion, Riku, and Demyx, standing there, shocked. Zexion walked over to me and slapped me.
"Axel...why the fuck did you push Roxas?" He screamed, letting out his emotions. He then pushed me. Off the ledge, and into...the icy cold waters below. I heard Demyx scream something but,...I couldn't make out what it was. Soon, it all went blank.
I opened my eyes and looked around, I was in the hospital. To my left, Demyx and Xigbar were sitting in the love-seat, holding hands, asleep. I couldn't remember why I was here. I looked to my right, feeling a pain in my shoulder, and saw, a broken arm and leg.
/End Flashback/
My eyes widened. So...that's why Zexion and Riku blame me...it looks like I pushed him...I let the tears fall. I fell to my knees and heard footsteps through my hands that were entangled in my hair. The person knelled down beside me and rubbed my back in soothing circles. They hugged me and...I actually let them. I was sobbing hard and loud. I couldn't hear anything but I knew it.
"I-I remember! It wasn't my fault Roxas died! I know it!" I cried. Why was telling a stranger all this? Maybe...I just needed a stranger right now.
"I know. I know. It wasn't your fault. I don't blame you." Said person whispered in my ear. That's when I heard him. He had started to sing into my ear.
It hit me like a ton of bricks to my chest,
It's something that I never would of guessed,
That you would be walking out that door,
All the times I shared with you it was the best,
I never would-a thought you would-a left
Don't wanna stick around with me anymore,
Now I, I wish you would-a told me,
Why, Instead of just up and leaving before you said goodbye,
If you ever love someone,
If you ever really ever love somebody,
What do you do when you lose somebody,
This one is for the broken hearted,
For the one's that's feeling all alone,
If you ever really loved somebody,
Know how it feels when you lose somebody,
This one is for the broken hearted,
For the one's who's feeling all alone.
I cried harder after he sang that. It was perfect how he sang it. I took in his smell. It seemed familiar...I must know this person. I glanced up. I saw some blonde hair and...aquamarine eyes...It was Demyx...he was crying with me...
"T-Thank you..." I cried. He just chuckled sadly.
"D-don't mention it..." He cried back...He stood and helped me up. "Axel...will you come with me back to my house? W-We need to talk about that day..." Demyx asked me worriedly. I nodded and followed him to his house. He sat be down on his couch and sat beside me.
"Axel. You remember everything from that day, right?" Demyx asked. I nodded, agreeing. "Well...remember after school ended that Roxas asked you to come with you and he lead you to the bridge and all that shit happened?" Demyx pried on.
"Yeah..." I replied sadly.
"W-well...I was...uh...curious...because he was talking weird...so I followed you two to the bridge. I know that Roxas committed suicide..." He finished for the moment, taking a breath. "Zex and Riku only saw him fall and since your arms were over the side of the ledge they thought you pushed him." He finished completely. I moved over and hugged him. He was shocked I wasn't mad. The tears started coming again.
"T-thank you...Dem...if you weren't there and you didn't believe me...I'd probably had committed suicide..." I cried into Demyx's chest. He patted my back comfortably. That's when Xigbar walked in.
"W-what happened?" He asked, a little worried because I was never here. Demyx looked up at him tears welling up in his eyes as well.
"It's okay Xig-Babe. 'M-member when I told ya 'bout the Roxas thing? On Axe's birthday? We went to the hospital...?" His eyes widened.
"O-oh. What about it?" He asked worriedly taking quick glances at me every so often.
"Axe...remembers what happened that day again..." Demyx replied, knowing I was getting a little uncomfortable. Xigbar's face lightened and he gave me a smile.
"That's great!" He said happily. I looked down.
"Demyx." I said seriously and coldly. He looked over at me. "Just because you and Xig believe me...doesn't mean Riku and Zexion will..." I stated coldly, remembering exactly what Riku had said.
"Sora...you know what happened to Roxas..."
I hated Riku...after he said those words. He had avoided me for awhile but,...he...he never said anything. Then I remembered what Zexion said the day of the accident...
"Axel...why the fuck did you push Roxas?"
I unconsciously began to shake, remembering the hateful things the 2 had said. I couldn't even blink.
"We hate you, Axel! You don't deserve to live!" Zexion and Riku said in union.
"I never loved you! I lied! I've always hated you, Axel!" Roxas screamed at me.
"N-no! I love you guys! I did nothing wrong!" I screamed back.
"Axel, you're the reason I died. Admit it. You pushed me!" Roxas said.
"I- I didn't push you!"
"You did. Not physically but mentally! Ever since I met you my life began to fall apart! It's all your fault!" Roxas screamed. Tears streamed down my face.
"Axel killed Roxas! Axel killed Roxas!" Riku and Zexion were chanting while running in a circle around me.
"I didn't do it! I swear! I didn't do it! I didn't! I wouldn't hurt a fly! I didn't kill Roxas!"
"I DIDN'T DO IT!" I screamed. My upper half of my body flew up. I was sweating and crying. Demyx was holding me and Riku and Zexion were standing in the doorway, Xigbar leaning against the wall. I was in Demyx's bed. They didn't notice I saw them so I looked down at Demyx. I must've passed out in my daze of hateful statements.
"D-Demyx?" I forced out my mouth. He looked up, tears staining his flawless face.
"Axe? Are you okay? You suddenly passed out on the couch so me and Xig carried you up here and called Zexion, Riku, Sora, and Leon! Sora and Leon just came in!" He breathed. I was shocked. How could he say all that in one breath? Anyways, back to the subject at hand. How did I even pass out? I looked to the bedside table on my right to see my-Roxas' notebook and the one he gave me, my book-bag on the floor, and gave a sigh of relief. If I lost that, I probably would've died. Literally.
"I-I...I didn't know all that happened...I'm...sorry..." Zexion mumbled under his breath while avoiding eye contact.
"I'm also sorry. I shouldn't have assumed it was your fault he died." Riku said quietly. I smiled. I wouldn't let the tears come now. I've cried enough in one day. I looked up and into Zexion's eyes. I glared. He deserved it. Even if he said sorry. He said he hated me for a year, pushed me off a ledge, and caused me to break an arm and a leg and he expects me to forgive him? Hell no! Riku, I could forgive him because he never once mentioned it to me and of course, he didn't push me off the ledge. I stood up, walked to the door, in front of Zexion and slapped him. He was obviously shocked. His eyes were wide and his face now red. I then pushed by him and walked out the front door, passing by Sora and Leon. I was going home to get my stuff and then was going to head to Sora's place. I mean, they did say I could live there? Why spend everyday being hit and beaten when you can just live a happy, normal, life?