Roxas's POV
I opened my eyes, but I still couldn't see. Where am I? I lifted a hand above me and felt wood. Okay. Now I have no idea where I am. I'm obviously in something wooden, dark, and cold. Why am I laying down too? Then, I remembered some parts of what happened. I raised my hands to my head and held it. It hurt.
"If you don't do exactly as I say...I'll kill Axel." Tears started running down my face in realization. I had died. I'm in a coffin buried in the ground! Wait...if i died...how am I alive right now? I lowered my hand from my face to my chest. My heart was beating. I took my right hand an checked my pulse on my left. There was a pulse. My eyes widened in pure horror. If I'm alive...won't I die if I stay in here? Shit! I'm gonna have to bust out f here or something... And there was one thing I really wanted to know...when was it? I didn't have anything that told me the time, month, nothing. Well, no time to ponder on that. It was already getting hard to breathe. I punched the top of my coffin (it creeps me out to think this is my coffin. I mean, you know?) and it instantly busted. How long had I been dead? I ignored that thought for a moment and began digging myself out.
After what probably was an hour, I finally reached the ground. I took a breathe. It felt good to be alive again. I looked around. Of course. I was buried in Twilight Town Cemetery. It's a good thing I only live like a mile away from here. I began walking. When I walked out the gate, I got worried. I mean, how do I explain this to Axel, Leon, Sora, and the rest of my friends? And did Axel have someone new now? Well, I didn't know how long I'd been dead so I can't say anything for sure. It could've been only a week, who knows?
I was standing in front of my old house, worry starting to build in my stomach. Then, I had an idea. Demyx lived right down the street from me. I could tell him everything first. He would trust me, right? I walked down to Demyx's and stood in front of the door. Demyx lived alone so there's no one else here to see me. Good. I think I can only handle Demyx for now. I knocked loud enough for him to wake if he was sleeping. A light turned on and a fully awake Demyx opened the door. When he saw me his eyes widened in shock. Time to test my voice...
"Demyx? I did die right? This is Roxas. Can I come in and talk?" His mouth dropped open. Thank god my voice still sounded the same.
"R-Roxas?" He asked, his eyes filling up with tears. I smiled. I went up and hugged him.
"Yes. Demyx, it's me." Demyx instantly, after he heard that, hugged back and started sobbing. I smiled wider and started rubbing his back in circles. Me and Demyx were best friends. We had met when we were in 2nd grade. Ever since then we were close.
"May I come in and talk, Demyx?" I asked again. I really needed to figure some stuff out. He pulled back and wiped his nose with his arm while nodding, going in, and sitting on the couch. He just kept staring at me, as if I would go away the second he looked away. I walked over to the chair that was across from the couch.
"First question, what time, day, month, and year is it?" I asked, really curious.
"It's 2am, it's the 17th of March, now, and it's 2008." He answered, quite robotically. I sighed.
"Demyx can you stop acting like that? And by the way, didn't I die on March 17th?" I asked. He nodded and calmed himself down a bit.
"You died on March 17th, 2007 at 4:37pm." He answered. My eyes widened at him knowing exactly when I died. It was really surprising to me.
"So, today's..." I led off. He nodded.
"Today's the 1 year anniversary of your death." He finished. Shit! It's been that long?
"I-...wow. Now to answer the question I know you wanted to know, how am I here? Am I correct in knowing you're curious of that?" I knew he wanted to know how I was here and why because you could tell he didn't believe it. He just nodded slowly. I sighed.
"I just opened my eyes in my coffin and dug out of it. Apparently I came back to life because I know I was dead...I don't know how I came back though." I answered, truthfully. He looked down his lap. He looked sad. I wonder...
"Why did you kill yourself, Roxas?" He asked, cutting off my thoughts. I looked up at him in shock he'd asked that. I looked down at my lap as well and let some tears slip.
"S-Seifer said...if I didn't kill myself he'd...he'd kill Axel..." I answered, now sobbing. "Everything I said to him that day was a lie!" I raised my voice, mad at what I'd done. "I gave him the my blue notebook that day before I had to kill myself so he would read it! I skipped my last to classes on that day and wrote the truth on the final page! He-He was supposed to read it...did he?" i asked myself, sobbing very loudly now. Demyx stood and sat beside my and hugged me tightly. He was crying as well. I looked up at him. "Why are you crying?" i asked him, ignoring the crack in my voice.
"I-I was there when you...when you killed yourself. I followed you and Axel there out of curiosity, and Zexion and Riku came as well. I'm the only one who knows it was suicide, not murder. Zexion and Riku believe Axel pushed you." Demyx finished, now ashamed not sad. I was shocked. I stood.
"Demyx. Are you and Zex still dating?" I asked. This had to be settled. Now.
"Well...we broke up...then i went out with Xigbar but, we broke up last night at like 10. I called Zex and we're back together again now, though. So I am dating him." He finished.
"Good. Call him over if you don't mind." I said icily. I will not allow him to blame my lover. Or recent lover. I didn't know if he was dating someone new or not. Demyx looked up at me in utter shock. "What?" I asked. I just wanted to give that ass a piece of my mind.
"Roxas. You just came back to life. I'm the only one who know this o far, correct? If so, wouldn't it be unwise to invite Zexion over?" He asked, worry laced in his voice.
"I don't care who finds out. It's not like I care." I answered slyly. He laughed at this and got out his fine and dialed Zexion's number.
"Hello?" Came the voice on the other end.
"Hey Zex! It's Demyx! I have something important to show you sooo...can you come over?" Demyx asked in a pleading voice. There was a sigh from the phone.
"Fine. But just so you know. After this, no more coming over at 2 in the morning. Okay?" Zexion's tired voice sounded. Demyx perked up.
"Okay! Be here soon!" Demyx said before hanging up. I laughed. This was to good. I always found Demyx and Zexion as a cute couple.
The doorbell rang and echoed around the house. Wow. Instead of knocking I could've just rang the doorbell... Before I could finished my inner grumbling the door creaked open and a gasp was heard. Shit. I was supposed to hide and after Demyx explained some things, I would come out. Well, too late now. I looked up at the door to see a shocked Zexion. I smiled awkwardly.
"Come here." I gestured to the couch in front of me. He did as he was told and sat down, gaping. I sighed and looked up and him and full out glared. "Why are you blaming my boy-...Axel...for me dying?" I asked, quite pissed. His eyes widened more (if possible).
"H-He...I don't anymore! I apologized yesterday about blaming him! And how are you even here?" He asked, completely dumbfounded. I smiled.
"I have no idea how I'm here but...thanks for apologizing to Axel because...it really wasn't his fault. It was mine. I don't want to talk about that right now though. Okay? Let's just be...normal. Like we used to be. Are you okay with that, Zexion, Demyx?" I closed my eyes and gave a worried smile. I assumed it was Demyx but when I opened my eyes I saw Zexion, clutching on to me.
"Thank god you're back." He said, shakily. It was obvious he was trying to hold back his emotions. No matter how emo Zexion was, he only was emo by himself. He rarely shared his true feeling with others. I patted his back. Then, worry struck me. Wait, what about Axel. Is there anyone new? Is he still alive? Is he okay? How's he been?
"Demyx...Zexion...where's Axel and what has happened? I mean, does he have anyone...new? And where is he? Do you know?" I asked, very worried and paranoid. demyx looked down.
"Do you want me to take you to see him? I know where he is. And before you ask, yes he's alive he's just gonna be in the hospital for awhile. I think you know about what happened. When Sora called he said it was something his father did-"
"Yes! Please take me!" i cut him off. "If it's no trouble that is..." I started to trail off. I didn't know if it would be selfish to ask him to do that. I don't know.
"Of course it isn't a bother! Do you want me to drop you off? Leon, Sora, Riku, and Reno are there. Or do you want me to come in with you?" He asked, worried. He obviously didn't want to go in. I knew Demyx was afraid of hospitals so I told him politely no. Me and him walked out to his car after saying Demyx'd be back soon. He understood and Demyx began the, not too long, ride to the hospital.
When we arrived Demyx let me out and told me to call if I wanted to be picked up. I agreed and walked into the front entrance. Memories of the many times I'd been here rushed in my head. I went up to the receptionist and stood on my tip-toes just to reach to seeing level with the woman.
"I'm looking for Axel Lea. What room is he in?" I asked, very anxious to see my lover and family in over a year.
"He's in room 813 on level 5. Are you a family member or friend?" She asked.
"I'm his boyfriend." I answered proudly. She looked disgusted. Retarded homophobe...
"Go right up." She answered, looking down. i nodded and headed towards the stairs. Elevators scare me and the longer I have, the better.
Once I got to level 5 it took me about 30 minutes to find his room. I stopped once my hand was centimeters from the door. Here's goes nothing. I hope they don't freak out...I turned the knob and pushed the door open. All eyes turned to stare at me. Everyone was shocked at what they saw. I turned around and closed the door then approached the group slowly. I had no idea how they would react so one I got to about 3 feet away from them, I stopped. I looked to my right, to the hospital bed, to see Axel with tears pouring down his thin face.
"Roxas?" He asked, his voice cracking. I nodded and stepped closer. I took another step. Then another. Another. Soon, I was right by his side, watching, waiting, needing. I didn't know what to say, what to do, or what to look at. It was very awkward. I soon found my voice and started to break the silence.
"Hey Axel. Leon, Sora, Riku, Reno. How are you guys?" I asked awkwardly. It wasn't cool. I opened my mouth to say something else when suddenly, my head whipped to the right, pain obvious. I raised a hand to my abused cheek and look at Sora, who was now crying bullets. Every tear I saw, hurt like hell. Worse than the pain in my face. Much, Much worse.
"Where have you been?" Sora asked. He obviously thought the body they buried was fake and I'm the real one coming out of hiding for a year.
"Under the ground, Sora. You should've known that. You went to my funeral, correct?" I answered then asked. He was shocked at what I'd said.
"Yes, but...that must've been a fake body. Because if that was you, you wouldn't be here right now!" He accused. I looked at Leon. He asked me if what I was implying was true, with his eyes, and I nodded in response. He raised a hand to his mouth.
"Sora. That was me. The real me. I came back to life somehow. I have no idea why though...I just woke up in my coffin, dug out of it and I was going to go to our house but...I went to Demyx's instead first. He told me pretty much how long I've been dead and about what happened the day I killed myself. He drove me here after telling me what Axel's "father" did to him and dropped me off. I just climbed the stairs to get up here to see you guys. So, here I am." I finished, gesturing to myself. Sora was dumbfounded. More than usual. Leon stepped towards me and hugged me, sobbing.
"Roxas...why? Why did you kill yourself in the first place? Why?" He asked in-between sobs. I sighed and knew I'd have to tell.
"Axel. Remember March 17th, 2007? The day I killed myself?" I asked hopefully. He nodded sadly, looking at his lap. "Everything I told you that day...was a lie." His head shot up faster than a bullet at this. "Except when I said I loved you and about the notebooks and such. What I mean is everything I said about wanting to die was a lie. You know Seifer?" I waited for a nod to continue. "He said if I didn't kill myself, he'd kill you. And he said I have to say I did it because I hated everything except you. He said I couldn't tell you the reason I'm killing myself or he would kill you as well. Do you still have the notebooks I gave you that day?" Another nod. "The blue one has from day one when I met you, all the way to the day I died. Do you have the notebooks with you?" He nodded and pulled up his backpack, pulling out the notebooks and setting the backpack back on the side of the hospital bed. "Open to the last page in the blue one. It says everything. Why and how I killed myself. How I felt about, about you, about everything. And the last line, was so true. I still really do. no rhyme intended." Tears started to pour down Axel's face and onto the ink writing on the notebook. I went over and hugged him. I loved him.