Sorry for the late update, I had exams going on and lots of studying, plus I was busy editing an other yaoi collaboration fic I am working on! Please, forgive me! Thanks for your patience and your support!
Tension
She stared pensive in the waters, admiring the crystal clear reflections of her surroundings, as they shined under the soft moon light that was flowing all over the cerulean sea.
The sound of the waves calmed her down, as if it spoke to her soul, an ancient old ode that she felt so familiar from the times she had spent at her mother's cottage, in Konoha, at those hot slumberish summers, when she would sit by the edge of the wooden deck and she would dive her feet in the water, playfully swinging them around, in and out, making water splash all over them and wetting her legs.
Then, when darkness started to fall, she would run back to the house and her mother would wait for her in the kitchen, food ready for her to rejoice with.
And that smile…that smile that her mother only flashed to her because she hadn't seen her for so long and she wished to make the best out of their few and precious moments in those summers, that smile, it seemed just too perfect to be true…and Sakura would smile back, only that really she wanted to cry because it was a shame, it was a sin, how life could be so nice to you only when you knew it would be only for a while.
If it lasted any longer, everything would fall back into the same old routine, and feelings would lose their color, your memories would become dull dusted books you hurt to open and your heart would return back to its dead calm rhythm, making you feel once more as if it didn't exist inside you, as if you processed everything with mind and work only, and everything else was forbidden for you to have in this world. Cause life had to be painful. And dared you not abide by its laws, you deserved even more pain.
But of course, Sakura couldn't remember those summers by the beach, or her mother smiling at her, or the warm food that she found waiting for her on the table, delicious and made of love. She couldn't remember how much she missed those brief moments of heaven, she couldn't remember how it hurt every time she had to go, or how fast and easily she would forget about them when she would return to Paris, re engaging obediently with her every day routine.
The sound of the waves was familiar…and that was as far as her mind dared her to go to.
Suddenly, she snapped out of her delirium, as she heard soft footsteps on the sand, too soft to alarm her if she hadn't caught a glimpse of an approaching shadow along with the corner of her eye.
She turned her head to look at the walking figure, only to flinch in wonder.
Sasuke had come to her, looking mysterious as ever, his raven bangs hiding his eyes, his pale skin even paler under the moon light.
She watched him, unable to form any coherent speech, as he slowly made his way up the rocks and sat softly down next to her.
He turned his gaze to the sea, fixing it steadily in front of him, a faint smirk shining on his thin lips.
She felt her breath caught in her stomach, as she couldn't manage to snap out of her light shock. She kept looking at him, no, staring at him as if she was waiting for something, an explanation maybe. Shouldn't he be with his girlfriend, sleeping with her?
It all just felt so out of place, but for some reason, she knew she felt less lonely ever since he joined her.
Sasuke finally broke the silence, gaze still fixed ahead.
''What did Dai tell you?'' his tone was soft, almost too low to be heard but Sakura did, because at the moment her ears had shut down any other sound but Sasuke;s melodic voice.
''The truth?'' she finally returned, now shifting her gaze to the sea as well.
A slight hint of mockery had lingered in her shaky voice.
''How do you know it is the truth?'' Sasuke asked after some moments.
Was it her idea or did he sound a bit angry?
''Because…'' she stopped, she really didn't have a way to know. That little locker Dai had shown her might be fake for all she knew…At this point, she just couldn't trust about anyone.
Sasuke turned his head slightly to the side to look at her, cocking an eye brow in question.
His smooth characteristics looked even more angelic under the pale light, and she found herself feeling unfocused under his influence.
''Because what?'' Sasuke finally, snapped, sounding a bit impatient after the prolonged silence.
Sakura snapped in her turn and looked at him, angry.
''What's it to you? It is my business.'' She whispered, voice kind of hoarse, as a weird bitterness had taken over her senses.
Sasuke turned to look back at the sea, his characteristics slightly relaxing as if he was focusing his thoughts on something that kept him sane.
''Sakura…, I…know you. I have known you since high school.'' Sasuke finally said, his voice sounding more determined and stable this time.
Sakura's eyes widen, turning to fully look at his profile.
He knew her? Why hadn't he said anything all this time? He felt familiar…but…
''How? Why?'' she muttered low, her voice broken by the inner storm inside her.
Sasuke turned to look at her, and she could notice obvious hesitation in his eyes.
Could it be that he was lying to her?
He was about to talk, when she cut him off, standing up in a flash, obviously angry.
''If that is true, why hadn't you told me before? In the fire? When I asked everyone if they knew me? '' tears had started threatening her eyes, so much confusion was enough for one day.
Sasuke stood up as well, onyx orbs straring at her.
''You went along with Dai, I was looking for the right time.'' Sasuke retorted, angry as well.
''There was no right time for this! Any time would have been good! Just…just,…''
Are you guys messing with me here?
''…tell me what you know, please.'' Sakura said trying to calm herself down.
Sasuke looked at her pensive for some moments, then he decided it was time to talk.
He told her everything he knew about her, leaving out their common erotic past, as if he didn't feel ready to bring it up yet as if it was nothing.
Sakura looked at him carefully, all the time, measuring his words up and down. It was more or less what Dai had told her about herself back in the woods. Were those two together in a plan or something? Or was she just paranoid and they were telling her the truth? But did that also mean that Dai was indeed her boyfriend?
After Sasuke finished, Sakura fixed her blurry gaze back on him.
''That is what Dai told me as well.'' She said seriously, keeping her distance.
Then, he must do know her. Sasuke thought pensive.
Sasuke looked at her in curiosity. Was it all just that? Why did he feel the need to drag her away from the fire if he only meant to tell her general information about her persona.
''What else did he tell you?'' Sasuke asked, his tone suddenly serious and deadly. He wasn't buying it, that Dai guy just looked off to him and he wasn't sure his intentions in the forest were as pure as he had made them out to be.
Sakura blushed at the thought a bit and looked at Sasuke kind of embarrassed. Why was he pushing it so far? Who was he? How did she know him?
''What was I to you?'' she asked, avoiding his question.
She noticed the slight change of his eyes under the moon light but he quickly managed to mask his surprise.
''We were…just… classmates.'' He finally said after a very brief tensed silence, thinking it was partially truth either way. They had never declared an official relationship, so actually you couldn't say they used to be girlfriend and boyfriend. Either way, it was far too complicated to try to explain to her right now, not before he knew what was Dai's role in Sakura's life.
''Classmates…?'' Sakura cocked an eye brow. She didn't know why but she felt a bit disappointed in that, because for some reason she wished they were a bit more than just random acquaintances.
Is this all? Then why are you going so far for me?
She looked at him in disbelief but a part of her kept telling her that for all she knew, this could be the case. And she knew nothing…
''Yes, classmates…Now, what is Dai to you?'' he asked, rather not caring to leave her some time to let the information sink in. He needed to know and she wasn't getting away with it so easily.
Sakura snapped out of her confusing thoughts and looked at him a bit angered.
'''Why should this be your business?'' she asked, eyes looking defiantly at him.
''It 's not. '' Sasuke said rather coldly, leaning his head a bit downwards.
''Then why…?''
''Just tell me!'' Sasuke snapped, raising his tone a good bit, gaze returning to her, as if he was trying to burn holes in her.
She was taken aback by the anger in his eyes, it scared her. What was it to him? What was his problem?
''Shhh, you will wake up the others.'' She finally snapped back after she recovered from the brief shock.
''Fine, I will tell you.'' she said calming down, eyes fixed on him with a bit of hesitation.
Why am I bothering to explain to him, either way?
''He is my boyfriend.'' She whispered. But almost immediately she regretted for having given into his questions, as she witnessed a miracle for the first time she had been watching this guy.
His usually emotionless face had been transformed by anger, bitterness, disbelief…and hatred?
She took a step back, not understanding his reactions.
''What?'' he asked, his voice hoarse but soft.
Deciding she wasn't a pushover and not feeling like playing the weak here, she raised her voice to him, taking a step forwards.
''I said Dai is my boyfriend. What's so wrong with that?'' she asked, voice trembling whatsoever from anger and confusion.
Sasuke stayed silent for a little while, then he asked:
''Are you sure about it?''
In his mind, it was a 50 50 case. The guy could be a sick pervert that knew Sakura from the past and was lying to her. Or he could just be telling the truth.
Afterall, he did had noticed them sitting together in the plane and talking with each other as if the had been friends for years. Or maybe something more than that?
It was the possibility of it being true that was driving him crazy. The jealousy was filling up his veins, rationality losing its ground second by second.
He tried to take a few breaths to calm down himself but it was no use.
''I guess I will find out when I get my memory back. But again, what is it to you? Can't you mind your own business, …classmate?'' she added the last word mockingly, though she couldn't prevent the bitterness that laced her tone, as a reminder of her disappointment for not having some great wonderous history with the raven.
At that moment, Sasuke shut down completely the voice of reason inside him, eyes burning determined onto emerald ones.
''Do you love him?'' he asked flatly, whispering the words as if it was an everyday question.
Sakura looked back at him not understanding.
''I …I don't know yet. I guess I will remember if he helps me…'' the question had really taken her by surprise. How was she supposed to know if she loved him or not? Wasn't it supposed to be a gradual process, the one of recovering your memory.
''This isn't something you remember. This is something you feel. Unlike memories, feelings don't disappear when you hit your head.'' He cut her off, his serious voice dripping with irony.
Sakura found herself thinking seriously of how valid the point he had given her sounded but then she snapped out, furious over the fact that he was trying to confuse her more.
Tears gathering at the edge of her eyes, she looked up at him, her breath caught in her stomach, not understanding why he was having this talk with her.
''Stop being so unfair, it isn't all as simple as you make it out to be. It isn't like that.''
''How does he plan on making you remember your feelings then?'' he asked in a low tone, eyes looking t Sakura dangerously dark.
''I…'' she stopped right on, breath caught on the back of her neck, as Sasuke covered the small distance separating them and was now standing only a breath away from her.
She could feel his cool breath fanning over her tired face, his pale characteristics looking even more perfect from close observation. His skin seemed so soft, that it made her feel it would tear in pieces if someone did something as much as to touch it.
Taking a rushed look on his eyes, she noticed he had an unreadable expression, as if he hadn't noticed the light shaking of her body due to their close proximity, or the way she was so flustered just by breathing into him.
Nor did he seem as if he intended for himself to observe much on that, as he kept on his little monologue, raising his hand to entangle his fingers in her pink locks and push them to the side of her face.
''Maybe like that?'' he whispered, sending shivers down her spine, the way his voice was so husky, so sexy, so close to her, she could practically feel him talking.
He moved his hand slightly from her hair to her cheek, his soft fingers stroking the dry skin, making her shiver involuntarily at the sudden touch.
God, it felt so good touching her after such a long time.
''Maybe like this?'' he whispered in an even lower tone as he leaned in closer and his lips brushed against the side of her chin, slowly and softly.
Her heart was racing a million beats per second and in all her dizziness, she didn't know why she was still unable to move, letting him touch her like that.
She didn't know, or more like she didn't want to admit that her body ached for that kind of contact with him, it longed for it that much that in fact she leaned a bit closer, her heart coming to a pause when she realized it.
Taking it as a sign to become even bolder, Sasuke leaned in so close that their noses touched.
''Or like this?'' he practically whispered the words against her lips, as he dove in closer and smashed his lips on hers.
The shock hit her like a lightning, spreading across her body, a moan of pleasure fighting its way up to her sealed lips.
And perhaps she would have done the mistake to let it out if his lips weren't ravishing so needily her own, making her unable for any kind of movement, thought or reaction.
His hand moved on the back of her neck, pressing her against him, gripping on the locks that interwined with his fingers.
Sasuke was the first to break the kiss, in need of air, and stepped back a good distance in order for Sakura to find her breath again and recollect her mind after what had just happened.
She was all flustered and red, as if they had splashed her with a bucket of red paint, as she looked at him, eyes failing to hide their burning longing but also question and fear.
What was this?
''If this doesn't remind you of anything, then I doubt anything your boyfriend does, will.'' Sasuke finally said, wiping his mouth away with his hand.
Sakura was too shocked to think of what he had just told her or process what he could possibly mean in her mind.
Instead, she shot him an angry glare, first thought coming in her mind that he was just messing with her.
Tears of anger were struggling to fall from her eyes, as she closed the distance between them again, glare stably fixed in onyx orbs, as if she could kill him simply by looking.
As if she didn't have enough confusion as it was.
''What the hell was that?!'' she asked, voice considerably high enough for anyone to hear in a range of a mile.
Sasuke looked at her unphased, fixing a cold smirk on his fine face, that face she burned to claw and chew on with a torturing intense desire.
''What did you think it was?'' he snorted, taking a step back, sensing a storm coming, but remaining emotionless and calm non the less.
''Are you messing with me??!!'' she asked enraged, hurt obvious in her voice, eyes shining with disbelief.
No, I am not. I am just jealous. I am so jealous it hurts. I thought that after all these years we could meet and maybe make our lives together again. But then I come to find that you are set up off with the first random guy I see beside you on some plane. How do you think this feels? How do you think betrayal feels, Sakura? I want you…I want you back so much it scares me. But…you seem to be over me…Just like that…
''Could be.'' He replied, faking a playfull yet mocking tone. But all in the same time, he managed to come out as serious as ever, as if talking about his real feelings. He surprised himself, sure Nao was an every day practice but he had forgot how much of a good actor he could be.
HIs eyes had a weird soft shine. Was it revenge? Pay back? He didn't know, he was acting on impulse, Sakura always had that effect on him even if it was very out of character for him to normally behave like that.
It wasn't just mere moments after he had said that, that he heard a sudden flat sound of skin hitting skin, and he felt a stinging pain on his left cheek.
Looking back to his assaulter, he noticed tears rolling down her cheeks, a flow of thick innocent tears staining her dry skin, a ball of hurt curved deeply into her glossy emerald eyes.
''I…hate you!'' she yelled, heart coming to a pause from the hurt she never thought she could feel from a stranger. Why did he affect her so much? Oh god why?
Sasuke looked at her secretly shocked as she lashed out enraged, walking away in a pissed off pace.
''Sakura…''
Sasuke made a try to hold her in place, by trying to grab her wrist but she quickly took notice of the gesture, and his fingers ended up brushing against her soft skin as she dragged her hand viciously away from him.
''Don't. Even. Dare.'' She said, emphasizing the words one by one, hatred poisoning her hoarse voice.
''You're a huge jerk, you know that?'' she asked, bitter tears still rolling down her cheeks, as she turned around half heartedly and jumped down the rocks, heading back to the tends slowly but determined.
''I know…'' Sasuke whispered rather sad when Sakura had left and had already sheltered herself inside the tends.
He would normally feel angry in the thought of her sleeping in the same tend with Dai but he had messed things up pretty bad himself right now and his disappointment weighted more heavily than his jealousy.
Sighing, he sat down on the rocky surface, trying to calm himself down.
So much for a new beggining. he thought bitterly to himself.
Things weren't good. At all.
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