Chapter 3 - Again

"He's going to find you." He told me, in the voice that had once brought me comfort. Now, it was cold and frightening.

"No he's not." I told him, not knowing what I was doing. Then he smiled the crooked smile that made me swoon and the door to the closet burst open. But when I turned around to look at it, I woke up. And I was screaming. Screaming like someone was trying to murder me. I looked over at Jacob to apologize, because I was sure that I woke him up, and he wasn't there. I have absolutely no idea why, but being the baby I am, I started sobbing. Jacob left. My Jake left me just like Edward did. Melodramatic, much? Then the flap of the tent that led outside burst open and Jacob sped into the tent. He was in defense mode that was for sure.

"What happened?" I couldn't answer. My sobs made my whole body shake, along with the extreme coolness of the night. The blankets that Jake was using were balled up in the corner. "Bella! You're scaring me! What's wrong?!" He sat down next to me, giving up on asking questions. He wrapped his arms around me and brought me into his lap, my head rested on his warm chest.

"I…I...," The shaking was making it very hard to talk. "I had a bad dream, that's all. And when I woke up, you weren't here, and I got these crazy thoughts that you…" I broke off and began sobbing harder.

"That I what, Bells?"

"That you left me, just like he did." I curled tighter into his warm chest, causing him to tighten his arms around me.

"Bella Swan," He began, making sure I was looking at him. "I would never leave you. Not in a million years. I love you more than life itself, and now that you love me back, it's like something new for me. Hell, I've imprinted on you, Bells. I know I've already told you that but I need you, just as much as I want you. I could never physically or mentally leave you. It would cause me more damn pain than when I broke my leg in the fourth grade. I jumped from a tree and landed on a rock, vertically. That was the most physical pain I've ever felt, besides the change, of course." He smiled at me, and then wiped my tears. His hot, rough hands felt good against my cold face.

"You mean that?" I unwillingly smiled and sat up a little in his lap. He nodded and looked around.

"Are you cold? I totally forgot that you don't run at the same toasty temperature I do, you need warmth." He reached for the blanket and held it in front of me.

"The only warmth I need is you, Jake." I ran my fingers into his hair and kissed him urgently on the lips, as if I needed him to live. Actually, I think I might actually need him for that. He kissed me back almost instantaneously.

He put his big hands on the small of my back and began to make his way down to the floor of the tent. We deepened the kiss and before then I realized, I was lying on top of and making out a guy I was madly in love with, after feeling totally rejected a few hours earlier. I deserved a bit of an apology before I was going to do this.

"Jacob," I pulled away from our kiss. "What the hell happened to you earlier? You were like, anti-Bella and anti-pack brothers."

"It has nothing to do with you or the pack, Bella," He gently put me on the ground beside him, instead of on top of him. "So much is happening. Earlier today, Seth and Leah Clearwater phased, and it adds to the pain when your father died the exact same day." My jaw dropped.

"Leah and Seth phased? But Leah, she's…"

"A girl, I know. But she's a direct descendent, and things happen. It's a little hard on all of us right now. And if I'm mean or nasty or anything bad to you these next few days, it's just the mourning part of things." He took one of my hands in his, a kind gesture.

"I understand. I really do." I smiled and looked into his warm eyes as he spoke.

"How in the world did I get lucky enough to get you?" He flashed a toothy grin and cupped my face with his hands, practically covering my whole face. I didn't answer, but instead, I leaned in to kiss him again. He expressed his amusement at first, but when the kiss was once again deepened, he was different. This kissing was different than kissing a rock had ever been. There were no boundaries, and I could do things that Edward hadn't allowed. Our tongues explored each other's mouths and we moved together, both of us not knowing where this would end. I eventually broke away for air, but Jacob continued. His kisses trailed down the side of my face and down my neck and arms, and then he moved to hover above me. He was gentle, yet urgent with me, something Edward was never able to be. Jacob and I rolled over so that I was now on top of him again. Our legs and mouths were entangled, and his hands were everywhere. Our embrace became tighter, and my body pressed against him. I felt something inside me, and I had a possible idea what it was.

"Jake?" I broke away for just a moment, and saw the passion in his eyes.

"Bells…" He moaned and pulled me close again, he must have felt it too. Once again, his hot skin was soothing my goose bumps and our lips were moving mutually. This is really happening, I thought to myself. I couldn't think straight. But I did know one thing for sure; I did not love Edward Cullen anymore.