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Chapter 5 – Explanations

I knew that it wasn't the cold air that was making me nervous. I was a freaking werewolf that was always hot, for crying out loud. It must have been the fact that I was not supposed to be a werewolf at all, and that everyone in the room was about to argue and discuss why it happened.

"Bella!" Quil cried out when I walked through the door. "Vamp lover gone Wolf; what a tremendous sight! Bella, what happened exactly the night when you 'made love' to Jacob?" He was mocking Jake's exact words from the day that he had set me off before.

"Quil…" Sam used his warning voice, and Quil shut up quicker than I had imagined. I wondered if Sam grilled him about causing me to phase and making me that angry. I hoped he did.

"So you all know what we are here to discuss," Everyone shifted their glances to me as Sam talked. "Bella, do you have any idea why this might have happened? Anything about you we need to know about?" I searched my mind for the answer, but nothing came up.

"Sam, I have no idea. It's not like a secret power that I didn't tell anyone about."

"Maybe you're just Special, Bella." Emily walked into the kitchen with a platter of cookies. Special, I thought.

"Wait! There was something…" I began, making sure I had everyone's attention. "When then Cullen family was here, none of their powers worked on me. I mean, Alice could still see me in her visions, but Edward couldn't read my mind. I was kind of," I paused, hunting for the right word. "Impervious to their powers." I watched Sam's facial expression change from concern, to confusion, to understanding. Embry was the first one to speak after my spill.

"Damn, Bella," Embry ran his hands through his crew cut. "You're a freak." Jacob shot him a mean glance.

"Watch it." He said, making a point of grabbing my hand.

"Well, there are exceptions to you being a werewolf since you aren't one by blood," He made room for Emily to sit down beside him. "This happened before a long time ago. Old Quil told me about it. You will heal normally, instead of quickly like the rest of us, and you most likely will not be able to phase as easily and often, either."

"Of course, the klutz doesn't get the cool wolf power she actually needs." I joked, trying to light up the situation. Instead of laughing, everyone looked at Emily, and Sam tensed. Her face turned a darker shade and she got up.

"I'll, um, be right back." She said with her head down as she walked into the kitchen. Sam followed.

"Good job, leech lover." Leah stood and ran after Sam. The rest of us stared at each other awkwardly. Leah's words still hurt, and brought Edward's perfect face into my mind. This meeting was going to be shorter than it was planned on being. I heard Leah screaming at Sam in the kitchen and looked towards to door.

"She's not supposed to be in the pack! She should just go home and leave us alone before she causes more problems! We already have a parasite on our tails all the time, and we need to get rid of her before she causes one of us to get hurt, or worse!" I heard Sam quietly trying to calm her down, but she was still red hot on the anger scale. I stood and went straight for the door. I don't know why, but I went into the woods. It was still just late afternoon, but the sky was dark due to the storm clouds moving in. I turned and looked at the house. Through the front window I saw that Sam, Emily and Leah had returned, but they were standing up talking to the rest of the pack. Jacob was still sitting in the same place, only Leah was next to him now. Emily smiled at something someone said, and they all laughed in amusement.

"I don't belong in the pack." I said out loud, right as thunder boomed. I jumped a little, and walked farther back into the trees. Jacob hadn't come to get me yet. I realized that something I said had hurt Emily's feelings, but Jacob was supposed to love me and that meant he was supposed to make sure I was ok. So why was he not here with me?

I don't know how far I walked. The dress Jake had given me to wear was muddy and soaked by the rain, and since I was barefoot, my feet were aching and I had stepped on something sharp one too many times. The rain poured on me and the trees shook with every blast of thunder. The droplets came down in sheets at a time, and the trees didn't do much to block them. I hadn't eaten since breakfast, and my guess was that it was past seven o'clock. Why had I come out here in the first place? I wanted a hot shower and my Jake. I don't know where I was headed, or where I was. I also don't know when I reached the edge of the woods that led to the Clearwater's house. I just remember seeing Seth standing in the backyard.

"Seth!" I yelled out to him, and he walked towards me. The Rabbit was in their driveway. Jake was going to have to answer as to why he didn't come after me. I was tired, and dirty from walking in the woods until nightfall.

"Bella, you need to get home. It's getting late and your dad is probably worried about you." He put his hand on my shoulder and started to lead me away from the house.

"Isn't Jacob here?" I spun out of his grip and tried to look in the house. Seth grabbed my arm to pull me away again. Why am I not allowed in the house; what was Jake doing here that I wasn't allowed to know about?

"Yeah, but…" Seth thought he had me safely in his grip again, but I went under his arm and ran towards the open back door. I was about to turn the handle, but I saw why I wasn't allowed in.

Leah and Jacob were sitting at the table, their hands clasped. Jacob's back was to me, but Leah was looking right at me. She smirked in my direction when he looked down, then went right back to the unreadable expression she was faking. They stood up, and locked each other in an embrace that looked like what Jake would have given me. Then Leah pulled back the slightest, and they kissed. He was kissing her, she was kissing him. He moved his hands to her waist and she moved hers to his hair. Hot tears began to swiftly roll down my cheeks. She was beautiful, and they looked like they belonged together. She was perfect, and I was just a girl from Phoenix who had a knack for falling for strange creatures. I felt the scar that had finally been sealed come back to life. It felt like being stabbed in the heart with a million knives, watching him kiss her.

"Bella?" Seth's tiny voice came from behind me. He grabbed my forearm lightly and tried to pull me away from the door. "Let's go." He spoke a little louder to get my attention. Jacob turned around, still holding on to Leah. When he saw me standing in the doorway, streaked with tears and mud, he dropped his hands to his side and got to the door in three strides.

"Yeah, Seth," I turned without looking him in the eyes. I think it's time to go. Jake opened the door as I was walking swiftly down the steps. My truck was at Jacob's, so I was on my own to get home. There was no way in hell I was going to his house right now. He just freaking cheated on me, and with the girl who hates me! He was a liar, and a jerk. I thought I was his imprint. I thought he loved me. I thought wrong.

"Bells let me explain, please." Tears were still streaming down my face as I walked towards the beach. I needed to be alone.

"Jacob, I don't think she wants to talk to you." Seth stood in front of him and Jacob pushed him out of the way.

"But I didn't do anything!" He did not just say that.

"Like HELL you didn't do anything! You were just making out with Leah! I saw everything! You were holding her hands, you hugged her like you hug me, and you kissed her, maybe even better than you would if it had been me!" I screamed in his face, not realizing that the rest of the pack had just come out of the woods in human form, and were watching this whole scene.

"You made out with LEAH?!" Quil and Jared said at the same time.

"What the fuck…" Paul said under his breath, knowing we all could hear him.

"I thought you said you imprinted on Bella?" I saw the hurt in Sam's eyes as Embry said this. It was the same situation with Leah and Emily.

"That's what I thought too." I turned on my heels, leaving Jacob to answer the questions being thrown at him. How could he hurt me like this? I tore the dress off once I was out of sight, and left it laying on a rock on the shore. Then I phased. I don't know how I did, but I was so angry and sad and confused at the same time that it didn't matter. I took off running down the sand, throwing it up and my paws skid the surface. He promised. He lied. He broke the promises. Then the voices in my head started up.

Bella, where are you going?

Away from him; Anywhere.

You can't just run away from this. That was Jacob.

Yeah, Bella, you can't run away from the fact that-

Leah, Shut up! That was Quil.

Quil, could you please kill her?!

Sorry Bella. No can do. Sam would not approve of us killing each other.

Bella, This was Sam. Tell me where you are. I'm coming to talk to you.

I couldn't say no to Sam, could I?

I'm by the pier.

I'm on my way. Sam's voice was reassuring, like he could make it better. I looked back at the rock where my dress was. I needed to phase back. I didn't want to pack to listen in on us. This was a personal matter. Jacob Black has brought back the pain.

Sam showed up sooner than I thought. He was in human form, as was I. Wearing the dress that Jake gave me made me feel bad, but it was all I had.

"He wants to explain to you what happened." He told me as he sat down in the sand beside me. The tide reached my toes, yet the cool water didn't make me shiver.

"I saw everything. He has nothing to explain. They were kissing, hugging, and holding hands. That's all." I ran a hand through my messy hair and sighed.

"He wanted me to tell you it was Leah, not him. He wanted to tell you himself the rest, but I think that I should." He turned to face me instead of the horizon.

"Is he breaking up with me? I knew this would happen." He laughed.

"No, he's not breaking up with you. He told me the whole story," He put his hands on my shoulders, turning me to face him. "Let's walk." I stood and brushed the sand off of me, even though the dress was already soaked through with mud and water anyway.

"Ok, let me have it." We started walking away from the end he came from, going farther away from the others every second.

"You can't interrupt me, ok?" I nodded and kept looking forward. "It's vital that you don't try to put your opinion in this story at the moment. You can do that when you talk to Jacob." He smiled and I couldn't help but smile too.

"Ok, so here goes. I'm sure you know that Jacob's mother died when he was young, and Leah's father just died. For some odd reason, she's taking it harder than Seth. Jacob figured he could help her out by talking to her, and maybe it would make her less sour to you." He paused; probably remember the pack meeting earlier. "So after you left the pack meeting, he thought you went to cool off outside or to get away from everything. And when a recently changed pack member is upset, you really don't want to get in the way.

"But when you didn't come back immediately, he thought maybe you went home, and that you were waiting on him there. He went back to the Clearwater's with Seth and Leah, not planning on doing anything but talking. According to Seth, they talked for a good hour before you came. They had some serious heart to heart, also. When you got there, they were wrapping up. I talked to Leah, and she said she was trying to make you angry. She saw you watching them, so when they hugged at the end of their talking, she acted on a whim and kissed him. Jacob also told me that He didn't know what he was doing; all he was thinking is that she was trying to make him feel better. But when the kiss lasted longer than he intended, and he saw you watching, he immediately cursed Leah for it, and felt like dying. You see, it was Leah. She's jealous that you're a part of the pack, when you're not Quileute. She's also jealous that you found Jacob, when she's lonely." He cut off there, knowing where this conversation would lead if he kept on that subject. I didn't want to bring up the Emily and Leah situation at the moment.

"Thanks for the, um, information; I'll be sure to let Jacob know that I've heard his side of the story." Sam looked disappointed, like he had failed at making me un-mad at Jake.

"Sam? Why do you look like you haven't accomplished anything?"

"You're still really mad at him, I can tell. And trust me, Bella; you don't want to hear all the stuff Jacob says when he's upset. When you were in complete lockdown mode after Edward left, Jacob always thought about you and how he could win you over and help you to get better. It was torture for us, actually." He laughed quietly.

"He's really hurt me this time. He has no idea how it feels to watch every promise someone has ever made you break in front of your eyes." I realized that I said the wrong thing again. "I didn't mean it like that!" I tried to make up for my mistake, but he put a hand on my shoulder and we stopped walking.

"It's alright. I understand. This is probably exactly how Leah felt, and I'm glad I got to see this kind of situation through your eyes. It helps me to better understand." He smiled once again, but it didn't last. His face went blank and he froze. He turned to look at the woods.

"What's wrong?" My muscles turned to ice as it clicked. Victoria. Sam turned around, and the blaze of red hair was flowing in the sea breeze. She was standing on the sand, not 20 yards away from where we were standing.

"Run to the pier." Sam mumbled under his breath, only loud enough for me to hear. I looked at Victoria. Her smile that had haunted so many of my nightmares was more terrifying than I had imagined. I looked at the pier, and then took off full speed, sand flying behind me. I heard Sam phase as Victoria registered I was trying to get away. The others would be here soon. Sam could call them when he was a wolf. The knot in my stomach tightened when I thought of Jacob fighting Victoria. He might not even fight. He and Leah might stay behind and have a rendezvous, while I was running for my life.

I heard Sam and Victoria fighting behind me. If he was down for even the slightest second, she would catch up to me. I wasn't as fast as the rest of the pack, yet I was almost at the pier. Then I heard her.

"Hello, Bella."

I continued running to the end of the pier. She was standing at the end, she had beaten me.

"Long time no see, eh?" Her false angelic voice scared me. I heard howling behind me. The pier was long; they would never make it in time. She grabbed me by the neck and spun me around so that I could see the pack of wolves on the beach. We were far out in the water. I saw the russet brown wolf howl at the sight of my face – it was Jake.

Before I could scream, she hurled me backwards into the water. I flew at least 50 yards before crashing into the freezing water. I was being pushed under by each heaving wave that crashed over my head, and I was being pushed farther out, too. I had never been an amazing swimmer, and now I wished I had learned how to be. I tried kicking to come up for air, and succeeded. I took a breath of cool air and tried to look at the fight. They were on the pier. Jake and Quil were taking on Victoria. But I looked at the beach, and there were at least two dozen crazed vampires fighting the rest of the wolves. I turned and saw an immense wave coming my way, so I dunked myself under the water and waited for the swishing yet violent movement of it to pass.

When I came back up I saw I was even farther away from the pier. It seemed even more distant now. I would never make it back to the pier, let alone the shore. Then I was relieved. Jake and Quil were tearing Victoria apart, we had beaten her. The vampires on the beach had dwindled down to only a few, and Jake was back to human form as Quil finished the job. But my heart didn't leap when I saw him, it sunk. He yelled something at me. I couldn't understand what he was saying due to the sound of the waves. Oh my God.

I turned again to see a gigantic wave about to crash down on me. I didn't have time to go under, so the wave knocked me there.

They say when you die your life flashes before your eyes. But I tried to think that I wasn't going to die. Even so, memories came before me like a slideshow. But it wasn't my whole life. The Cullen family, Edward, James, and anything else Vampire related did not come before me. It was all Jacob. Jacob when we were kids, Jacob when I came to Forks, when he changed, when we fought, when we kissed, when we imprinted, when I changed, when I yelled at him and cursed his name in my head.

As these memories passes through my head, I grasped that my throat was burning for air and I in no way could get any. My vision went blurry from lack of breathing. I grabbed for my chest when the pain of the last few stitches being ripped out caused me to black out completely. Aw, Hell.