Chapter 18:
I couldn't believe it. I woke up. I awoke. I was done with my eternal rest.
I'm in heaven. Maybe.
This wasn't heaven. I opened my eyes and saw a white room. I felt nothing. I was in a fog. I saw things.
I looked around. I saw a tv that wasn't on. I saw alot of cords that were hooked up to me. I saw Paul in a corner staring at the wall. His eyes were blank. I opened my mouth. I looked to make sure that no one else was in the room before I tried to speak. Nope I was good.
" P-p-p" I said in a whisper. His head twitched. He hadn't heard me. So I tried again.
"P-p-p-p-p-p-aul." I finally spit out his name. He shot up out of his chair and ran over to me. He sat down in the chair. He gave me a pen and pad of paper.
" Here," he had tears trailing down his cheeks. " write on this. Don't waste your beautiful voice." He said as he hugged me and gave me a peck on the lips.
How long was I out? I wrote. I gave Paul time to read it.
" 3 weeks. You were asleep for 3 weeks. I was so worried." He said. I started to cry. Thats when doctor cullen came in. He ushered the crying Paul out. I immidiatly tried to get up, but I was tied down with something. I tried to move again, but I couldn't feel my back.
" Hello, Ms. Blake." Carlisle said.
" Hey carlisle." I said as I tried to move but ended up in major pain. I gasp. I looked at the spot and there was a blanket over me. I moved it carefully only to see a huge bandage on my hip.
" I'll have you know it completely missed." he said as I put my hand on my aching hip. I was trying to soothe my pain. HE thought it was something different.
" Missed what?" I asked carefully not knowing what to expect. He sighed.
" Your pregnant. The object that peirced through you completely missed your baby. Your having a girl by the way." He said. Then walked out of the room. Embry, Sam, and Paul all sauntered into the room. Sam and Embry walked over and hugged me. Embrys arm hit my boob on accident. He didn't realize it.
" Hey. Hands off the priceless merchandice." I said as I put my hands on my boobs. I pushed them up a little bit. Sam laughed. Paul mumbled something like" No there mine." Sam growled. And Embry just grinned.
" Does that mean I get to be in the bathroom when your taking a shower?" Embry asked. Paul growled. Sam smirked, he knew that he and the girls were the only ones in the bathroom when I'm showering. I don't even allow Paul in. Don't ask...
" No." I said immediatly. I glared at him. HE looked hurt.
" But Sam and Em and kim and Clair and Leah are allowed in! Why not?" Embry yelled. He was sitting on the floor beside the bed. Paul was laying in bed beside me. Sam was watching tv in the corner. Sam was the one who answered.
" I had to miss patrol just to pody train the little demond. I was the one who changed her diapers untill she was 5. Not you. ME. I think I've seen her before. So don't worry. Who do you think she came to when the 11 year old first started her period? Me. She made me go to the store and buy pads for the very first time in my life." Sam shuddered. Paul looked over at me. I blushed. I remembered that day. I was 11 and thought I was dying. Who wouldn't think that if you hadn't had a mom to tell you.
" You were 11 when you started?" Paul asked me. My blush got deeper. I nodded.
" And she thought she was dying. Mom was never around to tell her about it so I had to explain it to her... kinda." Sam said with a smirk on his face. I grinned.
" He messed it up. He ended up giving me a creepy style of the sex talk.'Now you can have kids. Don't have Sex untill your married.' He unded up having Leah explain it." Paul had a wicked grin on his face. I had said the word Sex in a sentance. No way was I going to do it with him again. Not untill I'm married. No way.
Everyone was silent from then on. It was comfortable. That was untill Dr. Cullen broke it.
" Ms. Blake you may now leave this awful place." He said. Then left. How rude?
I got Paul to help me home. I rode in his car. There was an ackward silence in the air the whole time. We were half way home when Paul finally spoke.
" Whats wrong?" He asked. I was thinking about the baby. A girl. I wasn't ready to be a mom. And Paul wasn;t ready to be a dad. I knew that. And I was on some birth controll thing. I had to take a pill every month. Not fun.
" Nothing." I said quietly. I looked down trying to avoid his eyes.
" What?" He asked as he grabbed my hand. He slipped my engagement ring on my finger. I smiled.
" I want to get married soon. I just have to talk to Emily about the whole thing. We'll tell Sam and Embry," I shuttered mentally." about it together. Don't think about it or anything. We need to tell him together." Paul nodded.
" Am I not allowed in the bathroom?" he asked suddenly. I stared at him like he was crazy. He repeated his question 3 times before I finally got it.
" No." was my final answer as we reached Sam and Ems house. This was going to be a long weekend...
~big brothers stink~
When all the guys went on patrol they left all the girls at the house. I decieded to spring all the news on them. Paul had to give me back the ring. Or he would loose it when he phased. I just laughed.
"Hey Em." I said. I was way too nervous. I hadn't even told Paul yet. She was a the counter with all the other girls.
" Yeah honey?" she asked me in her motherly tone. She took my left hand. She started to rub it.
" I have som-" she cut me off with her gasp. Everyone else looked down too. They also gasp. I smiled.
" That is one big rock, girly." Clair said. She just stared at it. I decieded to spring the news on them while they were-
Sam walked in with Embry, Paul, Brady and Jake. Sam walked over and got something from the fridge and walked over to us. I pulled my hand back. The others went to watch football on the tv.
" Whats this I hear about a 'big rock?'" he asked. I mouthed no. She nodded.
" Clair here found a really big rock at school." I said causually. He sighed and went into the living room with the rest of the guys. As soon as he was out of sight they turned to me.
" I'm-" I cut myself off. I made the circular belly thing. Everybody in the room did a blood curtling scream. I screamed too. The boys were out here so fast that you would have thought that the house was falling in. Sam nocked his head on the baseboard on the way.
"WHAT!" they all screamed.
" AHHHH!" They screamed as they came at me for a hug.
~big brothers stink~
My day at school was awful. Everyone thought I was pregnant. I was but I wasn't going to tell people.
I was releaved when I got home. This was an awful day.
I walked into the kitchen and saw Sam sitting at the table waiting for me.
I walked beside him. I sat down in the chair beside me. I knew I was in trouble. I looked him in the eyes. He lowered his gaze to my stomach. I knew he knew. My body started to shake.
" When were you going to tell me?" he asked. I bit my lip. Tears were starting to come out of my eyes.
" When I told you me and Paul were getting married." I said. Sobbs were controlling my body. I got up and sat on my older brothers lap. I put my head on his shoulder. I cryed as I tryed to talk.
" I'm so scared." I spit out. I couldn't talk clearly. Sam put one hand on my stomach. He was feeling. I already had a little bump.
He put his other arm around me. I just cried untill I had no more tears left to cry.
" I still don't see why you didn't tell me when you found out." He said. I looked up at his big brown eyes. " And don't worry. Emily only let it slip to me. I didn't tell Embry. Or... Paul." He hissed Pauls name. I got off of Sam.
" Don't blame him. It was my fualt. I let him do it." I said as I got a napkin and wiped my eyes. Sam looked really mad.
" No. He didn't use a condum! Its his fault! Its not yours. I don't believe that." Sam yelled. I turned away from the tissues. I looked at him.
" NO IT'S NOT! ITS MINE!I'M ON THE PILL! THE STUPID PILL FAILED!" I yelled back. Thats when Embry and Paul walked in with Brady, Seth and Quil. They looked between us as we both yelled at each other.
" NO! UGH! ITS STILL HIS FAULT HE FORCED YOU!" Sam yelled. I was really mad now.
" SHUT UP! ITS MY FAULT! SO SHUT UP SAM! I'M ALREADY AFRAID OUT OF MY MIND. WHAT IF I DIE? WHAT IF SHE DIES? WHAT WILL PAUL SAY? WILL YOU AND EMBRY KILL HIM? I'M ONLY 6 FUCKIN TEEN, SAM. MY MIND SHOULD BE FILLED WITH HIGH SCHOOL DRAMA! NOT THAT THAT STUPID MISTAKE! IT WAS A MISTAKE! I'M SORRY ABOUT IT! MY LIFE IS SO FUCKED UP THAT I CAN'T STAND IT! I SHOULDN'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT THIS UNTILL I'M 30! DAMN IT! SHIT! SHIT! SHIT! FUCK IT! I DON'T CARE! JUST SHUT UP!" I screamed at him. I was crying now. Paul came over and tried to comfort me.
"PAUL GET AWAY FROM HER! YOU DID THIS!" Sam yelled. But Paul still comforted me.
" ITS NOT HIS FAULT! ITS MINE!" I yelled with tears filling my eyes. " AND IF YOU EVEN CARED ABOUT ME ONE LITTLE BIT YOU WOULD BE REALLY HAPPY! JUST LIKE EMILY AND KIM AND CLAIR AND LEAH WERE! THEY WERE FINE! SO JUST SHUT UP! I HATE YOU, YOU STUPID BASTARD! I HATE YOU! YOU JUST WANTED TO BE NICE TO ME WHEN DAD CALLED YOU! YOU DON'T LOVE ME! YOU HATE ME BECAUSE I DIDN'T COME TO YOUR WEDDING! DID YOU EVEN CALL THEN?" I yelled. Everyone was afraid of us both." NO YOU DIDN'T! YOU DIDN'T EVEN KNOW WHY SAM! I WAS JUST ABOUT DEAD IN THE HOSPITAL! AND WHAT DID YOU DO? HUH? YOU GOT MARRIED AND WAS HAPPY WHEN I COULD HAVE BEEN 6 FREAKIN FEET UNDER! I WAS UNCONCIOUS FOR A WHOLE YEAR! BUT DID YOU CARE? NO!" I yelled at him. Everyone looked at me. None of them new it. " I WAS BIT BY A VAMPIRE! I HAD VENOM IN MY SYSTEM!" I yelled as I pulled away from Paul. Sam looked speechless. Thats when Emily and Leah decieded to show up.I walked over by the wall.
" What in the world happened to you?" Leah asked me. I decieded to answer her truthfully.
" I'M PREGNANT AND I'M PART BLOOD FREAKIN SUCKER! I DIDN'T WANT THIS! I DIDN'T WANT TO BE PART VAMPIRE, WOLF AND HUMAN! AND I'M SO FREAKEN SCARED OUT OF MY MIND THAT ITS NOT FUNNY!" I yelled. I was pissed. I slid down the wall and stared at Pauls face as millions of tears streamed down my face.
" Yo-o-o-u-u-u-r-r prrrreegnant? " Paul stuttered. I nodded as I sobbed even harder. I was shaking. I couldn't move. Paul came over to me. He sat down beside me and wrapped both arms around me. I leaned onto him. This was way too much for me to handle.
Embry just looked like he was about to pass out as Leah pulled all the guys and Emily outside for a talk. After they were out Paul lifted my shirt over my stomach and placed his warm hand on the little bump that was there. I just smiled and the tears stopped. I wiped the tears from my eyes.
" Man," Paul said. He looked like he couldn't believe his looked up from my stomach and to my eyes. " I'm gonna be a dad." he said. He had a smile on his face. I smiled back.
" Ya. We're gonna have a little girl. A perfect little girl." I said softly. His smile widened.
" How about we name her Skylar with an A." He said. My smile turned into a grin.
" Skylar Samantha Walker." I said as Emily and Embry walked in. Embry would have heard the name but Em didn't.
Embry walked over to me and grabbed my hands. Paul suported my butt as Embry pulled me all the way up and into a hug.
" I'm gonna be an uncle to a baby girl." he said to me. I could tell he was crying. I smiled.
" Ya. I'm just gonna have to punch a few people at school, get over awful morning sickness, build a house, get married and have a baby. Sounds easy enough. I have my family to help me." I said as I hugged Embry tighter.
~big brothers stink~
The next morning was awful. I threw up 4 times since 7:00 that morning.
" Hey Em." I said. I was holding my stomach and my head at the same time. I walked into the kitchen. Paul, Embry, Sam and Seth were at the table. I knew I was pale. I just threw up.
" Are you feeling okay?" Seth asked. Paul got up off of his chair and came over to me. He walked me over to his chair and sat me down on his lap. The motion wasn't helping.
" Yeah." I said. My voice was a little horse. " It's just morning sickness. I'm surprised you didn't hear me from down here." I said. Paul stiffened. Sam drank his coffee in silence, he was just looking at me. Seth looked really worried. Embry looked like he was about to barf himself.
" Whats morning sickness anyway?" Seth asked. I laughed.
" Its what you get from being prego. I think you throw up just about every second of alot of mornings." I said as I got off of Paul and ran straight to the bathroom. Where I threw up, again. 8 in all. It was only around 8:40. I didn't have to go in early today. Paul was taking me around 9:00 or so. He wanted to help me with all my books and stuff.
When I came back out Paul had my backpack slung over his shoulder and he had his truck keys in his hand.
I walked over to the door and slid on my flip flops. I walked out the door with a quick goodbye to everyone.
I was kinda really late to school. It was almost third period when we got there because of Pauls little detour to his and Jared house to find me a bigger shirt. I'm getting huge. I'm only around 2 months.
Everyone was surprised to see him at the office.
" Paul Walker. Is that you?" the principal asked. "I could never get you to stay in class, now your taking Ms. Blake to her 2nd period room." He laughed.
" I'm almost Mrs. Walker." I corrected him. He smiled.
" Well congrats." he said before he gave Paul a visitors pass. Paul and the others are fixing the school doors or something today, so he got to see me all day today and tomarrow.
We walked to my third period class when the stupid bell rang. I knew it would ring. The halls filled with students trying to get to there classes.
Paul gave my books to Seth, gave me a quick peck, then went to work. Seth and me had almost all the same classes. Except for first, which I had with Brady and Collin, even though they are younger than me. I was in the same grade as Seth.
We walked into 3rd period Study Hall and got stares from everyone. I grew really big overnight. Well not really. You couldn't see it through my shirt, but people knew something was up.
I sat down next to Seth in my usual seat. The Bitch bergade leader, Sally sat right beside me.
" Hey, Sophie, whats with the buldge under your uncool oversized shirt? Did you drink too much?" she asked me in a snotty tone. I looked at Seth. He nodded. Awesome.
" No. I'm not some slut who has to drink Alcohol to laid like you." I said back to her. God I hated this chick. She just gasp. I heard Seth laugh. I smirked.
" I'm not the slut in the room. Your the one who got yourself knocked up, bitch." she said. I just looked at her. I gave her an are you serious glare.
" Your not serious. Your the whore. I did one guy that I'm engaged to and you've did the entire school. Now how is it posible for me to be a slut and you not." I asked her. She didn;t respond. " See. I'm right, hoe. At least I got the guts to keep it. And not a condom." I said to her. She just stared at me speechless. I smirked back. I turned around just in time to see Embry walk into the room.
I got out of my seat. The office gave me a slip of paper that said if I wanted to during my study hall that I could go see Paul and the others work. I walked over to the Teacher, Mrs. Ven.
" Mrs. Ven," I asked in a sweetheart voice," the office gave me this slip." I handed her the slip. " It says that I can go see my brother durring my study hall." I said. She signed my paper. Seth got out of his seat and handed me my books. I had my math book, and my really thin science book. I had a folder and a notebook with a pencil and pen. I'm sure Paul will freak out anyway.
I walked outside to Pauls truck. I knew he would be in there. I looked there, but they weren't there. I walked into the gym. They weren't suppose to start untill 12:00, but they always come early to play basketball.
They were playing all right. They were slamming in to each other and everything. I laughed. They turned to me when they heard my laugh. Paul waved while Sam slipped right past him with the ball.
I went over to the bleatchers with Seth. I sat my books down beside me. Paul came over.
" Hey babe." he said as he gave me a kiss. I kissed him back. He then turned to Seth.
" I thought I told you to carry her books." he said in a commanding tone. It reminded me of Sam.
" Quit that. Your reminding me of Sam over there." I said. Embry said 'ouch' and laughed.
Paul laughed again.
" And," I said. " I can carry my own books. Their not that heavy, jeeze." I said. They ignored me and went back to playing basketball. I started to examine my new Lg touch cell phone. I started out by taking a video of them playing, but I soon got bord of it. I started to text Em.
Sam and Embry are winning. I texted. A few moments later I got the reply.
Wha's da scor? & who day playing against? she asked. I smiled. She could actually text right.
Paul & Jrd. Day losin. 23 to 13. I put as Kim and Clair walked in. They just got here, too.
G2g bye! luvs u! tell sm, pl,jrd, and emby too. l8ter. I smiled as I placed my phone in my pocket.
Kim and Clair both got on the sides of me.
" Hey look how Em spelled the names." I said as I handed them my phone. They laughed as they pushed Seth onto the floor.
" Sm? Emby? Is that Sam and Embry?" Clair asked. She and kim both set there books beside them. I nodded.
" Pl and jrd are Paul and Jared." I said. Pauls head snapped up as I said his name. He smiled as I turned away.
" Hey girls I gotta pee. I'll be back." I said as I got up and walked to the bathroom. I more like ran to the bathroom. I really had to pee.
Kim Pov:
" Hey where'd Soph go?" Sam asked. He was looking all around. Paul looked really worried.
" She said she had to pee." Clair said. She was reading a magazine. She didn't even look up.
Sophie POV:
I came out of the bathroom stall with my hands shaking. Instead of needing to pee, I had to throw up. I wasn't feelin too hot either. I stumbled my way over to the sinks. I grasp the edge to keep from falling over. I was breathing heavily.
The door opened. I expected it to be Kim or Clair. But it wasn't.
It was Sally.
I pushed my hair out of my face and she got a really good look at me.
" I'm not in the mood for fighting." I said. I was almost to tears. She came over to me.
" Are you okay?" she asked in a worried voice. I shook my head no. She put her hand on my shoulder. I got out my phone. I text Kim.
Hey. I callin Emily. I not feelin 2 hot. I just threw up in da bathroom. I feel like I gonna pass out. I text. I called Em as Sally helped me to the office.
Clair Pov:
Kims phone rang ' I love the way you lie' by eminem. It was Sophie's ringtone. I immeaditly got up and ran to the bathroom with Kim on my tail.
~big brothers stink~
Sophie POV:
I was sitting at the table. It was like 4:00 and the dudes weren't back yet. I was kinda worried.
Emily sat a plate of chicken noodle soup with hot sauce on it in front of me. I was craving hot sause.
The door opened and in walked the dudes. They all sat down and they all took turns trying my soup. Not a gppd idea.
After they were done I ate some. My tounge was on fire, but it was really good. All the guys had there toungs lolling out of their mouthes.
" What did you put in the soup, Em?" Embry asked her. He was brushing his tounge with his hand. It was funny.
" It is chicken noodle soup with hot sauce. Sophie there is craving it." she said. I sneezed.
" Ugh." I said. I think I got a cold. I blew my nose. Paul looked at me worried. He reached over and put his hand on my forehead.
" Wow!" he said. " Your burning up. Thats hot even for me." Sam laughed. I glared at him.
" If I knew any better I'd say she was going to phase, but I see she's already done that." Sam said. I coughed. I think it was just a cold.
Hey! It's not over yet. This chappies really long. I wanted to post this Saturday, but I couldn't. It was my birthday! Yay! I'm officially 14 years and 2 days old.
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