Chapter 3: The Date

I'd been more of ghost the last 3 days than I would ever admit. I'd spent most of my time on my room dialing Jacob's number, deleting it, dialing it, deleting it and so on. Once I accidently pressed the calls-button, and then as panic struck I couldn't find the cancel-button. I heard his voice answer the phone and finally found the right button. That little event had ruined a whole day for me. When the teachers told me to answer a question in class I would break down, because everything reminded me of him. Nobody knew what to say. Some people would come over to our lunch table, and then turn around when they were two feet away, not knowing what to say. I didn't blame them. How could one boy affect me so deeply? I knew the answer: He was the one I confessed all of my problems to, and now he was my problem and I didn't have anywhere to go. My throat got thick with emotion as I thought of it. I was absolutely pathetic.

"Tell me again why I decided to be friends with you." Ally said, interrupting my thoughts. She gestured toward me, obviously referring to the fact that I – according to her- was much prettier than her. I was dressed in a tight plum colored top and a black skirt, that made my peach colored skin look pale. My hair was pinned up with a few loose strands hanging down. My makeup was minimal, because Ally had refused to lend me hers saying that I looked so much better than her already and that with makeup she could just as well go dig a hole to sit in. No one would notice her.

"Because we share the same room, because you know you're my only friend here, and because I would be miserable without you." I said and shot her a loving smile.

"I don't care about those things, when you're so much more beautiful than me!" she said in an irritated voice. I didn't get it. How could she be jealous of my look? She was stunning. She was wearing an ocean blue summer dress that complimented her figure in a way that would make any guy drool. Her long golden hair was curled into long princess-like curls, but in a cool way. I'd done her makeup, and it was pretty cute, if I had to say it myself. Grey eyeliner highlighted her green eyes and made it almost impossible to look away from her. Aaron was a very lucky guy.

"Stop it, you're astonishing, and don't even think about arguing; the guys will be here any second, besides we're both over dressed" I said and smiled at her. I could see a response forming in her head, but she was interrupted by a knock. Ally fluttered to the door, and took a deep breath before she opened.

It was Aaron who'd knocked. He looked very sweet and a little shy. He had short dark hair and pale skin. Not vampire pale, just normal human pale. His smell reminded me of the smell of wet wood, nice and refreshing. He was wearing a black shirt and jeans. His face turned into a smile of aw, when he saw Ally.

"Allison" he said almost breathlessly and smiled hugely. Ally returned his smile, blushing, and nodded once.

"Hi" she said in a tiny voice and stepped aside to let him in.

Aaron looked at me, but not for long, his eyes were quick to find Ally's again.

"Luke will be here soon, I think." he said absentmindedly to me, and then sat down on Ally's bed. Ally sat down next to him and they started talking, while I stood awkwardly in the corner, trying to be invisible.

Another knock interrupted Aaron telling about his dream of becoming a professional guitar player. Everyone held perfectly still, glancing around the room. After an awkward moment I realized, I was the only one glancing around the room; Aaron and Ally were looking at me. I was supposed to open, I realized, and hurried to the door.

Luke had a cocky smile on his face, when I opened. He was wearing a white shirt he'd unbuttoned at the top where a leather necklace with a cross was visible. His hair stood straight up in the air and looked greasy, because of the tons of gel he'd used. His face wasn't exactly ugly, most girls would probably swoon if they saw him, but to me he looked too arrogant. Even his blood smelled bad, or maybe that was just me, stereotyping. Blood didn't smell bad to me, not even if it was the blood of a jerk.

I faked a smile and decided to wait before I judged him any further. "Hi. I'm Nessie" I said in a polite voice and offered him my hand.

"Nessie? Like the Loch Ness, Nessie?" He snorted and walked inside without shaking my hand. I let my hand fall and took a deep calming breath before I closed the door behind me.

"Yes" I said.

"Wow… I guess your parents hated you from birth" he said and waited for someone to laugh at

his joke. When nobody did, he did himself.

"We should get going, the museum won't be open forever" Aaron said and broke the awkward silence after Luke's joke. Ally rose and grabbed Aaron's hand without hesitating. I saw how Aaron squeezed her hand in response as they walked out. I walked after them with Luke right behind me. He reached out for my hand but I cringed away.

We drove to the museum in Luke's car. Ally and Aaron got the backseats, and I stared at the passenger seat with horror; this meant I had to talk to him. Having an actual conversation with him, seemed like a rare occasion. I got in and put my seatbelt on, wishing I'd said no to Ally in the first place.

As soon as we were speeding down the streets, Luke turned on the stereo. A rap song burst through the tuned speakers in the trunk, and I covered my ears in reflect. The rapper was singing about the normal rap stuff; sex, money, girls with no other use than being sexy and of course how cool he was. Luke started singing along out of tune, while rocking his head backwards and forwards trying to do it to the beat, but failing completely.

"You don't like rap?" he yelled over the noise that he called music, when he saw my covered ears.

"Not really, though all loud music never cease to annoy me" I yelled back in a very polite voice, my dad had taught me.

"Seriously, you don't like rap?" the yelling annoyed me and I turned down the volume, until it was just background noise. He looked at me like I'd just broken his car. "Rap is like the best music ever. Don't you like music at all?" he said almost offended, it sounded like.

I snorted, at his poor judgment; he thought it was music. Cute. "Of course I like music, I just wouldn't call rap music" I said, not bothering to seem nice anymore. I felt a nudge in the back of my seat; Ally was not pleased with my insult. She still hoped it would work out between me and Luke, but that plan was long gone. I ignored her and waited for a response from Luke.

"You wouldn't… you wouldn't call rap music?" he yelled and his annoying voice jumped up an octave in shock. He was definitely offended now. I smiled a sly smile. He stared at me with a dumb expression on his face.

"Look where you're driving" I muttered, and then continued in a normal leveled voice. "No, I wouldn't call rap music." I said with annoyance because I had to repeat myself.

He snorted, turned up the volume again and focused on the road. Aaron and Ally chattered away and I could hear how they got flirtier and flirtier as the time in the small car passed.

We finally arrived at the museum and I almost threw myself out the door to get away from him and his horrible noise.

Luke flirted with the woman selling tickets, but I didn't care and ignored it completely. The young woman found him cute, for some reason, and I almost considered going home so they could date instead. But Ally would probably feel bad for staying if I left, and I didn't want to ruin her evening with Aaron.

We went in and I was instantly overwhelmed with panic; there was dead animals everywhere. If hybrids could feel fear, this was it.

"I can't do this" I whispered in Ally's ear.

Ally didn't even consider responding. She had other ideas. "Luke?" she asked.

"What?" he said and removed his gaze from a dead gorilla.

"Renesmee is a little scared of the… exhibition, and was wondering I you would hold her hand" What? The last thing I needed right now was his icky hand in mine. Ally was crossing a line.

"Okay" he said with confidence, apparently he hadn't noticed my hatred. Did he just roll his eyes? Obnoxious little creature!

He got closer and closer, and then grabbed my hand. It felt out of place there, too cold and too round.

I sighed and started walking towards one of the animals. It was a tiger, placed so it was looking right at the person looking at it. I shuddered and I could hear Luke giggle – there was no other way to describe that sound – beside me.

I removed my hand from his and walked towards the opening leading into a new room of… dead animals: This was going to be a long day. When I got into the new room I instantly stopped, my eyes almost popping out of their sockets of horror. I was standing nose to nose with a brown wolf, behind it were three others. One sand colored, one black and one gray. They looked like a copy of Jacob's – the name made my heart explode and then collect itself slowly again – pack. Jacob as the leader; Seth, Embry and Leah behind him, I was frozen into place. The feelings rushing through me were so overwhelming I nearly screamed. What if Jacob had been shot? A loud "Buh!" and a sudden pair of hands pushed into my back, giving me no other options than grabbing the nose of the front wolf – "Jacob" - to support myself so I wouldn't fall, did strange things to me. I was running on instincts now.

I growled, the same way I did it when I was hunting, and swirled around to grab the arms of the laughing Luke standing behind me. I shook his body violently while yelling profanities into his horror struck face.

"What are you doing?" he whispered in a little voice. I let go in an instant and realizing what I'd done, ran out of the room away from Luke and away from the wolves. I could hear footsteps behind me, and not just any footsteps; Ally's footsteps.

"Wait!" she said breathlessly.

I stopped to explain myself before I would run away completely, all the way home. "Why? He won't forgive me for that, he will just think I'm an idiot. And even if he did forgive me, I still don't like him. He's a complete jerk" I said it in a calm voice, except for the last word I spit through my teeth.

Ally sent me something between a pitiful and disapproving look. "Can you please stay? We can go home now and I promise we can listen to the radio instead of rap." I was about to interrupt her, when she quickly added. "If you go home, I have to go too, and I really think it could work out between me and Aaron. Please" I hated to be the reason; Ally and Aaron's date didn't work out, and due to my lovely personality I gave in.

"Fine I'll stay" Ally gave me a big hug, while I added. "If you promise we won't be listening to rap music."

"I swear" she mumbled into my shoulder.

"Hey, where's the queue for that?" Aaron's voice asked as he came into the room where we were hugging. I pulled away from Ally who was giggling in a sweet way.

Luke came into the room too, looking scared, but with a strange smirk playing on his lips.

I didn't apologize and neither did he, when we were seated in the little car again. Ally remembered her promise and, without asking, reached her arm out from the back and turned on the radio to a normal pop station. Luke was about to change it but Aaron hissed something under his breath that made him change his mind.

It was a very quiet trip home, at least on the front row. Luke was still smirking for some reason, and I was still doing my best to not rip his head off, all in all a hostile environment. A cheesy pop song I usually hated flowed through the speakers, but for a very good reason the song made a lot more sense now, and I hummed along.

I caught a tear escaping from my eye, but I was a strong person, and a stupid song shouldn't make me cry. I looked out the window and suppressed the huge feeling of loss that tried to make its way to the surface.

We pulled into the parking lot in front of the huge grey building we called both school and home. There wasn't light in any of the windows facing the road and parking lot; the school side was closed during the weekends. We went through the big opening in the building, leading into the court yard, where the big apple trees reigned like proud kings over the students walking, sitting, laying and standing under them. The apples were sprayed over the grass, looking like dead crimson flowers.

We took the east entrance to the boys' hall, which surprised me a lot. Ally didn't look like she was taken by surprise, so I just followed them secretly wishing they would start laughing and tell me this whole day had been a joke. But that didn't happen and after 10 minutes of walking through the halls, we arrived at their dorm.

"Come on in, my lovely ladies," Aaron said in a formal voice as he opened the door and stepped aside to let us in first. Ally went first with me right at her heels; no way, she was leaving me in the hall alone with Luke.

The room looked shockingly like I had imagined it. The same two beds, same closet and same old table with a spinning chair next to. The only difference from me an Ally's room was their walls were painted in ghastly blue instead of the ghastly red on our walls. Well, at least the school wasn't sexists, I thought sarcastically and sad down on the unpreserved bed – Ally and Aaron were already chatting on the other. Luke walked in, his head held high like a proud soldier ready to receive a medal. I rolled my eyes and waited for him to sit down in the chair.

He didn't, he sat down next to me on the bed. "So…" I said, trying to make it less awkward, but succeeding in making it painfully more awkward. Luke didn't seem to notice though. He just looked at me with a strange kind of confused look on his face.

"Your heart is beating fast" he said, and smiled a somewhat charming smile, considering it was his lips forming it.

"Yeah…" I said, hesitating slightly. I had no idea what he was doing.

He lifted his hand slowly and touched my hand that lay in my lap. "And your skin is hot" he said this time almost a whisper.

My head clicked and I realized where he was going. He thought I had a crush on him! Stupid hybrid instincts making it impossible to live a normal life! Why me? He could have asked every other girl in this stupid building out, but no, it had to be me, because I just wasn't miserable enough to begin with.

My thoughts were interrupted as an ice cold set of lips touched mine. I was shocked beyond reason. I sat there like a stone as he tried to force his tongue into my mouth. I had to stop him. Now!

I pushed his ugly body down on the floor, with all the force of my hybrid body and jumped off the bed. A huge cry of pain escaping the lips that had crushed mine seconds ago. Total silence encircled the room… Then hell broke loose.

"What the hell did you do?" Ally yelled at me with all the force her small body could produce and rose from Aaron's bed.

"He kissed me!" I yelled back and hissed at the nearly unconscious Luke lying on the floor.

"And that makes it legal to almost break his spine?" she yelled back with tears streaming down her face now.

It was too much. I couldn't stand it. I spun around and ran out the room without stopping before I reached Ally's and my room. I threw myself on my bed, and started punching the pillow while screaming millions of profanities. These weeks were supposed to be the best of my existence, not the worst. Why couldn't I be normal?

Soon the punching slowed and the profanities turned into sobbing. I buried my face in the soft fabric and cried loudly. What had I done? I'd had a life full of people who loved me, and I'd been selfish, had taken off and said: no thanks, I don't appreciate your love. See ya.

Every time I thought of his perfectly formed lips humoring me, saying the right things at the right time, his warm body against mine when we hugged, the smell of raindrops in his shaggy fur, and last but not least his deep dark eyes, a new stream of tears would fill my eyes. Jacob! I needed him. Now and forever.

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I'm sorry for the lack of Jacob and other characters we know and love from twilight, but I wanted to introduce some of my own. I promise there will be some Edward, Jacob, Bella and all the others; I just have to give poor Renesmee some friends of her own.

The song Renesmee is humming along to is Home by Westlife, give it a go

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