In My Heart: Live For Today
By: TheFifthCharmedOne
Disclaimer: I own nothing.
Summary: Third and final part of In My Heart trilogy. The road of love never did run smooth, but it seems things may finally be going the way they were meant to go. Though as the old saying goes, everything is not what it seems. Poke and Contest ships.
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Chapter 3: Never Say Never
Some things we don't talk about
Rather do without
And just hold the smile
Falling in and out of love
Ashamed and proud of
Together all the while
You can never say never
While we don't know when
But time and time again
Younger now than we were before
Don't let me go
Don't let me go…
Never Say Never, The Fray
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MISTY POV
As we rode the bus toward the blimp port, May played with the twins and I stared out the window, deep in thought.
Ash had offered for me to stay with him. For us to live together, as parents. Did that mean he still loves me? He said he did, but how can I trust him? He didn't seem to care that we had gone all the way when he went out with Dawn! I know I should let that go, but how can I? In every essence of the word, he had cheated on me. Even though we were never actually together, I gave him my virginity, my innocence. Though it was willingly and everything, I thought that it made a bond between us. That bond had given me the twins, and the fact that he could just throw that away for Dawn made me angry. I know he said that he did it to get over me, but how can I be sure he's telling the truth?
We pulled up at the port and went to the blimp. After showing the captain our tickets, we boarded.
The twins were amazed and enthralled by the clouds. They kept reaching at the window in pure elation. Pichu watched too, and loved it almost as much as they did. Togetic floated around and chirped happily. I sat in one of the chairs and stared out the window.
"Misty? Are you okay?" I turned and Drew was standing there. May was playing with the twins still, and it seemed the only one who wasn't happy with this trip was me.
"I'm not sure." I said honestly. Over the past two years, Drew and I had become close friends, and it helped that he was practically going to be my brother in law soon. May isn't technically my sister, but we're close enough as friends and cousins that technicalities don't matter.
"You're thinking about Ash aren't you?" he asked me. I nodded and pulled my legs to my chest in the chair. Drew sat down next to me.
"I never thought I'd see him again Drew. But now that I have, now that he's met the twins, how can I make them live apart anymore? He has to stay in Kanto for the League, and Hoenn is my home now."
"You can still visit each other, right?" he asked me. I nodded.
"Sure, but it's not the same. I don't want Alex and Jake to grow up thinking that their father abandoned them or something. I….I don't know what I want." I finally admitted.
"Don't give up Misty," said Drew wisely. "Things might work out right in the end." he smiled at her and went over to May.
What did he mean by that? I wondered. Shaking the thoughts away, I looked out the window and put my chin in my hand. I thought about the past, and the present, and the future. I wasn't sure where my life was headed next, but I hope I can learn to live with it.
"Mama?" Alex had toddled over to me and I smiled, picking her up.
"I'm okay baby, I'm just thinking about Daddy again." Alex clapped as though she knew who Ash was. That made me smile and forget my worries.
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We got back to Petalburg and the apartment was covered in dust. It had a faint smell of abandonment to it too. I guess we were gone too long. Togetic flew around and inspected her new home, while Pichu ran upstairs to take a nap. I was ready to join him when May called me into the kitchen.
"Misty, I wanted to talk to you about the wedding." said May slowly. I sat down and nodded, telling her to continue.
"Well, I've been thinking about it, and I want you to be my maid of honor." My eyes nearly bugged out of my head.
"Really?" I asked in astonishment. She nodded enthusiastically. A big smile came to my face and I hugged her. "I'd love too!"
"Of course I want Alex as my flower girl and Jake as my ring bearer," she said dreamily. I smiled.
"Done." I said. The twins were sitting in the living room with Drew, watching something on television. I had told him from the start not to let them watch battles; they were too violent. They had to be a little older yet. And he had listened. He showed them Contest preliminary rounds, which had attacks, but on a prettier and less violent scale. Alex seemed particularly enthralled with contests though. "Have you decided on a date yet?"
"Not yet," she said, looking at Drew. He must have felt her gaze because he turned around. He smiled at her, and she blushed and smiled back. They were so cute it was almost ridiculous. "Have you seen my dress yet?"
I tried to think back to what it had looked like and realized I had never seen it.
"No, you were about to show me when I had that personal tragedy with Ash." She smiled sadly. I tried not to think about that night. "Well, you can show me now!" I said, clapping to keep from upsetting her. "Let's go!"
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"Oh, my gosh, May, it's amazing!" And it was.
The dress was gorgeous. It was a halter type dress with a flowing skirt. The corset would fit her abdomen well, and it would match her skin, which would surely be glowing on that day. There was a sapphire gem on the buckle and it matched her eyes perfectly. I couldn't help but be happy for her.
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ASH POV
I told myself that I wouldn't give up on Misty, but I gave her tickets to leave me behind. As stupid as that sounds, it's how I feel. I love being Pokemon Master, it's always been my dream, but I never imagined this would happen. I never imagined I'd feel so empty without Misty by my side.
"Ash?" I turned and saw Brock, who had been staying here with his girlfriend, Elena. "Are you all right?"
I sat down on my bed and sighed, not answering him. "I'll take that as a no." I looked up at him; was I really that transparent? "You miss Misty, don't you?" Apparently I was. I sighed again and nodded.
"I love her Brock. I always have; and now even more so. I need her in my life; but we have to be apart. It's killing me."
"I understand how you feel. When Elena has to go on business trips, I feel like my heart breaks everyday she's gone." Elena was a Pokemon Breeder that traveled to different regions to help in extreme cases of sickness or health problems for Pokemon. It was part of how they had met.
"Yeah, but you see each other again. We'll probably never see each other again." I said.
"Never say never. You will see each other again. I've known the two of you since you were both ten years old. If I know anything, it's that a love like yours can survive anything. Even separation. Even if you're together or not, you're still in each other's hearts. And that's the unbreakable bond."
I looked up at him. "You don't have to stay here in Kanto Ash. Not really. You're the Pokemon Master of the Indigo League, yes, however, your heart belongs with Misty, and that's where you should go. You need to get permission from your League advisors, but if you explain the situation, I'm sure they'll let you go to Hoenn."
"Do you honestly think they'll let me go? I've left so many times without their permission…"
"Fight for her Ash. It's what you do best, isn't it?"
I smiled and nodded. "You've finally gotten to achieve and live your dream. Now you need to be with Misty. Go."
I stood up, feeling much more confident now then I had a few minutes ago. Brock tended to have that effect on people.
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MISTY POV
The next day, I decided I wanted to take the twins for a walk in the park. They needed the fresh air, and I needed to think, to clear my head.
I dressed myself in jeans and a long-sleeve shirt with my trusty sneakers. It was late October, so the fall winds were creeping in. I dressed Alex in khaki cargo pants and a plain blue sweatshirt, and Jake in jeans and a long-sleeve shirt with a Pokeball design on it.
"Wanna take a walk? Yeah?" I cooed to Jake and Alex. They giggled. Seeing that they were turning three in December, they could talk but sometimes they just chose not to. And most words weren't correctly pronounced anyway. But they're still little, what do you expect?
"I'm taking Jake and Alex for a walk," I said to anyone that might hear me. May was still asleep, and she sleeps like a log, and Drew was at his house, which was right next to us. Pichu's ears perked up and he decided he wanted to come with me. Togetic followed, chirping happily as she floated around and made the twins laugh. My other Pokemon were still in their Pokeballs, but I would let them out later when it was time for feeding. I used to love battling, but ever since I got pregnant, I just don't do it anymore. My Pokemon are probably really out of practice. Maybe I should get back into training and battling, it would keep my mind busy and I wouldn't become one of those annoying housewives (without a husband mind you) at eighteen. I shuddered just thinking about it.
The more I thought about it, the more it made sense. As long as I kept the twins away from the attacks in case they went haywire, it would be okay. I could battle again.
That thought alone made me feel better.
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I put the twins in their double stroller and walked along the street to a small park not far from our apartment. It was a good place to relax and ease your mind. They had just put in a playground next to it not too long ago, so many of the neighborhood kids flocked to it. I took the twins over to the slides, which they loved, and caught each of them when they reached the bottom. Then I swung them in the swings.
"Hiwer!" Alex laughed. I smiled. She was trying to say higher, but of course she couldn't say the word completely.
"Hiwer mama!" Jake agreed.
"Sounds like they want to go higher." a new voice informed me with a laugh. I turned and pulled the twins' swings to a stop. A tall guy with messy chocolate brown hair and deep blue eyes was looking at me. He looked about my age. He must have realized I was watching him because he put out his hand. I blanched slightly, and he laughed again. "I'm Will. You are…?"
"Misty." I said, recovering enough to shake his hand. "Nice to meet you."
"Likewise. Who are these two little ones?"
"My twins, Jake and Alex." I said proudly. He smiled.
"How old are they?"
"Two, almost three." I replied.
"They're always cute at this age," he commented. I looked at him, and he smiled. "I have a little brother," he explained. "I remember when he was this little." I nodded in understanding. Pichu and Togetic, who had been playing with some other Pokemon, ran and floated over to me. Pichu jumped on my shoulder, and Togetic floated on the opposite side. "I guess these are your Pokemon?" he asked me. I nodded.
"Pichu and Togetic, this is Will." I introduced him. He waved, and the two Pokemon greeted him cheerfully.
"I'd like to get to know you better Misty." he said to me. "How about you and I go and get some coffee?" he asked with a slight blush. I thought about it. Should I still boy loyal to Ash? Does he deserve my loyalty?
I smiled and nodded.
"If you don't mind two kids and Pokemon tagging along," I said with a sly smile. He shook his head.
"Not at all. Should we go?"
"Sure." I replied, taking the twins from the swings and walking over to the stroller with Will by my side.
We're just acquaintances, going out for some coffee. I told myself, trying to relax. This was the first guy I'd really talked to, other then Drew (who was practically my brother) in a while. Of course Ash counted, but I couldn't keep myself bound to him. I might be bound by the love I've always had for him, but we aren't technically in a romantic relationship. So why shouldn't I go out for some coffee with Will? He seemed nice, and he liked kids, which was a plus. Any of the other guys I'd gone out with previously hated kids, or hated the fact that I was a mother at eighteen.
Here we go.
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A/N: And so we have conflict. You all most likely hate me for this, but too bad. I can't make it easy for them. Come on, if there is not plot, there is no story, and without conflict, there is no plot. See my point? Yes, you should.
Now excuse me while I do homework and go to the hairdressers. XD
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~Charmed