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Chapter 6

This wasn't in the book!

The sound that Isaac made as he hit the floor was deafening. I was frozen to the spot bodies appeared to come from out of no where. Alice was stood in front of me.

"Mackenzie, we need to leave now. Kenzie please, we have to go..." she begged urgently.

"Alice, get her out of here." Edward ordered. I looked up realizing what was happening. Edward had tackled Isaac to the floor and Emmett was now holding the red eyed vampire along with Edward. The look of anger on Edwards face scared me but thrilled me as well. Alice took my hand and dragged me out of the store. I could hear shouts and screams from inside and fear for Edward and Emmett made me try to return. "Mackenzie if I don't get you out of here right now I am going to be in so much trouble, now I don't want to hurt you but WE HAVE TO GO!"

This sounded so ridiculous coming from the tiny girl who was barely up to my shoulder, but I knew not to underestimate her and finally got into Rosalie's car. Jasper was driving and didn't say anything as I got in the back seat. Alice got in beside Jasper and we set off away from the gas station at a frightening pace. I kept looking back, worry for Edward and the Emmett all over my face.

"They're going to be ok Mackenzie, you don't need to worry." Alice said correctly reading my face. I nodded, but didn't say anything.

Jasper drove me back to the truck and I got out of Rosalie's car and got back into the familiar cab.

When Alice went to get in the cab with me I rudely asked to be left on my own.

"We're in the car behind you if you need us." She said ignoring the slight and smiled at me as she laid a gentle hand on my arm before she went back to the other car and Jasper. It was perhaps half an hour later when I heard the deep rumble of Emmett's 4x4. I heard car doors opening and closing and eventually the cab passenger door opened and Edward jumped in gracefully. Before he was sat properly I had propelled myself at him and wrapped my arms around his shoulders. Clinging to him like he was my life raft, not ever wanting to let go. "Are you all ok?" I demanded still not relinquishing my hold.

"We're all fine Kenzie; everyone is on their way home."

"Good!" I said still trying to press myself into Edward.

"We're going to need to get you some new tires for the truck but I will sort that for you later. For now I will take you home in my car."

I grabbed what I needed and got out the truck. Edward looked briefly at my overnight suitcase, but didn't mention it. And 5 minutes later we were on the road heading back towards Forks.

Before we got into town Edward pulled into a lay by and turned off the engine. I sat looking at him, wondering why we had stopped but not wanting to speak first.

"Don't you want to ask me?" Edward almost snapped out after a while.

"Ask you what?" looking to him confused.

"Oh Mackenzie, I would have thought you would have a thousand questions!"

"No not really."

Edward looked unconvinced.

"Well actually there is one question." I said looking straight into his heart stopping eyes.

"I thought that there would be." He stiffened his shoulders, looking like he was preparing to go to war. "What did you want to know Mackenzie?" He asked me sadly, but with a resigned expression.

"What took you so long?" I blurted out, not able to hide the catch in my voice.

"What took me so long? You want to know what took me so long?" he almost chortled!

"That's what I said. I thought I was toast for a second there."

The look of total disbelief hung on his face for seconds

"Can you tell me what happened to you first, can you tell me exactly as it happened?" Edward tried again. I could see that he was gathering information of how much I had witnessed before he told me anything that was unnecessary for him to tell me.

"Ok." I allowed. I spent the next 10 minutes explaining how I had got a flat tire and how I had stopped. I couldn't hide my anger at the phone or my disgruntled expression at having to walk through the pouring rain. I didn't say anything about why I was on the road to Seattle or why I had a case with me. I told him about how I had found Jim and how I had tried to save him but despite my efforts he had died. Edward looked like he was going to ask me his own question on that matter, but decided against it and I carried on. I then explained that was when Isaac had jumped me.

"Shit! I phoned Jake for help I think Isaac cut the phone wire on me. I'd better call him and let him know im ok."

Edward looked a bit sulky but agreed passing me his own phone. I called Jake, sketching over what had happened and I assured him I was ok, I hung up promising to visit him tomorrow.

"You really are a full time responsibility." He said not angrily.

"Edward I'm not your responsibility, I can make my own mistakes without any help at all. Half the time I don't know if you're running from me or towards me. You tell me one thing and then act in the totally opposite way. You shrink away when I touch you, yet you seek to protect me. I'll admit it, I really don't know where I am with you. So my apologies for being a pain in the arse"

He took my hand in his own. The coolness of his skin igniting the paradox of flames on mine. "I feel very protective of you, I get very…anxious when I don't know where you are and if your safe or not." He looked into my eyes and begged with my soul not to push the point.

"So how did you find me Edward?"

He looked from my eyes out the window and back to my gaze.

Edward was trying desperately to find a way of explaining what had just happened and in the end I couldn't bare to watch him struggle.

"Look Edward, let's cut the bullshit shall we?" His eyebrows rose up in surprise and a flash of uncertainty crossed his beautiful features.

"I know what Isaac was. Does that help?"

Edwards's eyes opened wider warily. "And what exactly was that?" He had picked up on my usage of the past tense.

"He wanted to drain my blood Edward; he had drained most of Jims already. He would have finished the job if I hadn't come along and interrupted him."

My casual acceptance of this baffled and even angered him. He was struggling to find words. "Doesn't this knowledge freak you out?" he asked. Not finding a better way of putting it I guessed.

"Someone really smart once told me that it's not what we are that matters, its what we do that shapes us. I really believe that Edward. It's those choices that we make every day that make us into the people we are."

"I know what you are Edward and I know what all your family are."

The look of total shattering despair on Edwards face nearly broke my heart. Not releasing his hand, "I know what you and your family are," I repeated. "You are good, kind, decent people, nothing else matters."

If you weren't I couldn't have possibly fallen in love with you. I said to myself.

I brought his hands to my lips and kissed them gently, savoring the smell and the taste and the feel of him.

His incredulous look made my breath catch in my throat.

I loved him, I loved Edward Cullen and I didn't know how long I would get to be with him but for now that was enough.

Edward eventually found his voice." You don't know what you're saying; you don't know what I've done in the past." He still seemed stuck in the thought that I hadn't fully grasped what he was.

"Edward I get it, but that has absolutely no bearing on how I feel about you."

He gasped, shocked at the throw away nature of my last statement. For many minutes he stared into my eyes trying to read something in them. Eventually in defeat; "You don't know what you're saying."

"I know exactly what I'm saying Edward and I know that you and your family wouldn't hurt anyone, let alone me. I know what you are and I know what I'm saying and you had better get used to it because frankly im too tired to keep fighting."

'Click'

That's why things had been so off! I was just fighting the wrong things all the time, that's why I was having such bad luck here. At least that was my theory.

I wrapped my hands around Edwards's strong shoulders and gently placed my lips towards him. "I'm going to kiss you Edward so be warned, do what you have to do, I just want you to know. It doesn't matter that you don't feel the same as me, but I can live with that."

I placed my mouth over his, his breath sweet and his lips so cool; it was the most gentle, most innocent, most emotion fuelled of kisses I had ever experienced. I sighed into his mouth and pulled away before my raging need over rode my wish to be sensible for Edward.

A look of total bewilderment was on his face, but the worry frown that had seemed to almost always be present had gone.

We drove the rest of the way to Charlie's house in silence. I didn't take my eyes from his face.

For what seemed a lifetime we sat just looking at each other. Eventually Edward asked. "You do know what your saying don't you? You realize what you're getting mixed up with?"

"Yes Edward I know, now if it's ok with you I need to go to bed. I got out the car and shut the door without another word and made my way inside.

I ripped up the note I had left for Charlie earlier on in the day and scribbled another quick note saying I was tired and that I was going to bed and that I would see him in the morning. Edward hadn't followed me indoors but I wasn't surprised to see him sat on the bed as I entered the bedroom.

"You could have used the front door this time Edward!" nodding towards the door.

"Force of habit." He said a bit distracted. I told Edward to wait and I went across the hall into Charlie's bathroom. I stripped off the clothes that were stained with Jim's blood and ran quickly downstairs and put them in the washer before Charlie could see them. Running back upstairs I stood in front of the bathroom mirror, looking at the dark circles that were evident under my own grey eyes. So much had happened and so much I couldn't explain. I pulled the plug out of the basin watching the water swirl its way down the drain, raising my eyes to the mirror again I saw Edward stood in the doorway of Bella's bedroom staring at my near naked form.

'shit. I always forget to shut the bathroom door!'

Stood there with my back to Edward in only my knickers and bra, I may have well been naked. His eyes seared across every inch of my body. I didn't really have any body issues I was what I was, but I had never been examined and looked at in the way that Edward now looked at me. I was sure with his keen vampire eyes he was able to see my very pores and every imperfection in my skin. I turned to face him brazenly, and looked directly into his eyes trying to ignore the hunger that was very evident there. This time I knew that my own hunger was a match for his, my appetite was not for food but for Him. My breath caught in my throat and made my chest heave as I took in a shuddering breath. Edwards's eyes moved to my breasts and the swell of them over the edge of my bra. I followed Edwards gaze down and was horrified to note I had on a pair of men's boxers

'Fuck there goes my seductress image'

Feeling for the first time uncomfortable I turned away, back to the mirror, in the fraction of a second it took for me to do this Edward appeared directly behind me. He was stood so close that I could feel the electricity jump from my body to his and back again. I looked at him in the mirror with his head slightly bowed staring at the pulse that was thrumming in my neck. Almost sensing my gaze he looked up into the mirror and saw me staring at him. Every cell in my body wanted to melt itself into Edward, his body was as close as anyone would get without there being any physical contact what so ever. His eyes were half closed but they sparkled with the golden flecks that I had noticed before.

He inhaled along the side of my head and I watched in fascination as the tip of his tongue came from the shelter of his divine mouth and lapped at his lips. As close as I was I saw the moisture trail left by the exquisite movement.

I moaned ever so gently, my own tongue mirroring his movements and licking my bottom lip. My heart was pounding a rhythm that reverberated through my chest down through my diaphragm and hit my pelvis with repetitive thumps, making my knees become severely in danger of collapsing. My body had started to sway now and I knew that I was in serious sensory overload. I took another shuddering breath and several strands of my hair fell over my eyes. Edward looked at the hair like it was the most interesting thing he had ever seen, he raised a long beautiful hand to tuck the wayward strand out of the way as I had wanted to do to him on so many occasions. His hand grazed the tip of my left nipple fractionally, like a feather falling.

The shock wave of sensations that erupted from that accidental touch nearly brought me to my knees. I staggered, falling back towards Edward. Instinctively he put out his arms to catch me and as soon as his arms were around me and his hands were on me I could no more stop than I could stop myself from breathing. I twisted about in his arms facing him again. My arms remained at my sides but I lifted my chin and placed my lips on his. There was no hesitation this time from Edward and I exulted in the feel of his kiss deepening as he pushed my lips apart with his tongue. I let out a gasp into his mouth as a cool hand was placed on my back pulling me into him, the electric shocks as each pore met his body sent me spinning in a new round of sensation. His hand moved down my back, eliciting another audible gasp.

I thrust my pelvis forwards and was met by the extraordinary size and hardness of Edwards's arousal. My hand moved of its own accord wanting to envelope his erection. As I made contact with him it was Edwards turn to moan! My fingers ran along the feel of the shaft through Edwards jeans. He was from a different era but I knew that he was not an island and he was no novice in what he did to me with that kiss.

The sound of him talking was deliciously musical, the sound of him moaning in sexual pleasure almost sent me over the edge, my knees buckled and I almost ended up in a heap at his feet. I wanted to be nearer to him I wanted to have him fill me, I didn't want to be a separate entity from him any longer, my need was about to overtake me, kissing Edward my tongue dancing across the edges of his own tongue, I was lost, I was reborn I was nothing without him, no person had the right to feel what I was feeling, but I wanted more, my hand reached into the waistband of his jeans and traced a line across his cool skin, his breaths were coming in short sharp gasps, almost animal in their nature, I looked up into Edwards eyes with all the love I could show and undid his jeans button…

"NO" he pushed away from me and I found myself almost falling again, but alone in the bathroom, whilst Edward was facing me like I was the enemy, from the window in Bella's bedroom. Edwards's eyes were hooded and dark, and his breaths rasping as he stared at me his hands gripping onto the window sill as his body still arched forwards towards me. My own breaths were raking my chest, confusion and loss and arousal and dejection were all flying around my body, I didn't know what feeling to deal with first. I tried to slow my breathing so that I could at least look like I was in control, but what I really wanted to do was run over to Edward and surrender myself to him totally.

"Mackenzie," he said in a hoarse voice. "I have to keep in control; I can never let myself go around you, not even for a second."

"Its ok I understand, I'm sorry I don't have the will or control that you do, you obviously find it easier to resist me than I do you. I'm sorry for being so selfish again Edward."

I turned away, back to the bathroom mirror and as I did, like a spoilt petulant rejected child, I kicked the door closed.

'I'm a total bitch!'

A/N would love to know if this is a worthy tale? I found this chapter really difficult to write I would love to know if I am going in the right direction ? was wondering if I need an EPOV in here?

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