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Chapter 7

This may sound crazy…

I woke from my totally restless night feeling uncertain of any future action. I had waited in the bathroom, after Edwards's rejection of me, for what seemed like hours until I heard Charlie come home. I had shouted down to him and he had come upstairs as I knew he would. Successfully stopping any chance of Edward staying around to talk to me.

I asked about his day and we chatted easily. I explained to him that I would need to go and retrieve Bella's truck and would arrange it in the morning. I let Charlie know that I was going to meet Jake and Billy the next day and Charlie said that he would run me over there as he wanted to see Billy about something. I had stayed up watching football with Charlie until late, happy that he was a man of few words and didn't expect or want me to talk to him all the time

. The rest of my night had been spent securing the window in the bedroom tightly, shutting the curtains and making sure that I had the bedroom door wide open so that any sound would be heard by Charlie.

I had slept fitfully, images of Edward and all the Cullen's were flitting through my sub-conscious. The disturbing thing was that what ever decision I made in my dream, they always ended in some terrible way for Edward or one of the other Cullen's or even all of them. It was me who usually caused this by pushing Edward to continue on this road with me, him getting pushed too far by my constant attempts to be with him or seduce him and ending up always with him draining my blood. I wouldn't wake up in horror at this, I knew I deserved the gory end, what would wake me terrified was the sight of Edward being torched by robed and hooded figures, his body surrounded by flames, or Edward being ripped to shreds by a pack of huge angry wolves, tearing him apart and his beautiful face ripped beyond recognition, but not before he was forced to witness this happening to his whole family. So when I had eventually woken up it had been a blessed relief.

I knew that I wasn't strong enough to stay close to Edward without wanting to see him, talk to him and to touch him. My body and soul was drawn to him in an inexplicable and destructive way. For both our sakes I needed to find a way home. No matter what the cost to me personally.

Charlie gave me a lift to Billy's and I jumped out the car as I saw Jake by the garage. He looked up as I approached not able to hide the look of concern behind his eyes.

"Everything ok Kenze?" He asked me in a casual way. Though I understood that this was more than just a casual greeting.

"I'm fine Jake, thanks for asking." Smiling at him hoping he saw my gratitude.

"Mackenzie, so you want to use the cabin?" Billy asked coming forwards with Charlie helping him across the bumps in his chair.

"Erm, if it's ok with your friend Billy, I would love to take it on." I agreed happily.

"Well Jakes already told you he's agreed, so I guess these are yours." He said smiling and handing me over a set of very old fashioned keys.

"Thank you Billy I really appreciate you sorting this for me." I grabbed him in a hug and his face coloured but he smiled.

"You going to come in for a bit before you go?" Billy asked me.

I looked towards Jake and he nodded fractionally. "I would love to see what Jakes up to! I'm a bit of a petrol head!"

Charlie said "I'll shout you when im going, I wont stay long."

"Thanks Charlie, I'm in no rush." I turned and followed Jake back to the garage.

Confined in the small space of the garage Jake seemed even bigger than he had before when he had been to see me at the Lodge.

Before I had even got the door closed properly. "So what happened?"

Without answering his question, "I'm sorry if I worried you Jake"

"That doesn't answer my question!" The need to be honest with Jake was at war with my need to protect Edward and his family. Edward won.

"Bella's truck broke down, and I had to walk back to a gas station. Someone had got hurt."

For a second Jake looked like he would make something of this, and then he seemed to change his mind and accepted my explanation.

We spent the next hour just chatting and catching up, Jake offered help to do the cabin up and I offered to feed him in return!

Jake was so easy to be around, he had such a happy attitude to everything, that you couldn't be anything but enthusiastic around him. I liked him, and I felt that he would be someone I would be able to depend on.

When it was time to leave Charlie shouted me from the drive.

I hopped down from the work bench and hugged Jake and said I would see him at the cabin at the weekend.

His huge arms wrapped around me, not seeming at all embarrassed that he was bare chested as he took the liberty of nuzzling into my neck and risked a kiss!

"Oi!" I yelped, as I pulled away, jabbing him in his perfect ribs.

"See ya Kenze!" He said laughing.

"See you Jake!" I replied, not able to hide the humour in my voice.

In Charlie's Car I chatted madly about the cabin and what I would do with it, how I would decorate it and what I would cook for Charlie, Jake and Billy when they came for a house warming meal.

Charlie stayed quiet and just made encouraging murmurs every now and then.

I glanced sheepishly towards him, but he was looking ahead and had a slight smile touching the corners of his mouth, so I continued my excited babble until we got back to Charlie's house.

As we pulled into the drive Bella's truck was there with new tires. I made a mental note to send a thank you note to the Cullen's and then unable to resist, I ran ahead of Charlie towards the track that would lead me to the cabin, which was to be my new home.

Although I hadn't seen it before I knew that it would be perfect for me.

I broke through the trees into a slight clearing, and set off to the left hand side of the meadow, was the quaintest little cabin I could have imagined.

As I got closer to it I realized that it wasn't as small as it had first appeared and would easily have been big enough for a family. The dirt road that led to it was slightly obscured by the trees, but I could hear the traffic on the road that would take me into town if I didn't want to cut out by Charlie's place.

The old key slipped into the door easily and the door swung open with a creak, showing its lack of recent use.

An orange coloured light filtered through the windows, and showed off the array of dancing dust particles that had been disturbed by my entrance.

The mismatched furniture was worn and loved and it looked like Billy had someone in here recently clearing things in readiness for me, as there were fresh flowers in vases on the table in the kitchen and the lounge.

There was a gentle hum from the gargantuan fridge in the kitchen. I walked around touching all the surfaces as I went. It was a way for me to feel the cabin and I relished in its warm glow.

Charlie's knock on the opened door sprang me back to reality, I skipped over and opened the door wider and pulled him in. I couldn't disguise my pleasure and Charlie said as much, "It's ok for you then?" He said with the faintest of grins reaching his eyes.

"It's Perfect!" I stated resolutely.

"Are you sure you're going to be ok out here on your own?" He asked doubtfully.

"I'll be fine," I reassured, "anyway, if I shouted, you could probably hear me from your house! Plus I have my phone and I promise I will call if im worried about anything."

I reminded Charlie that I had my own house back in England and he admitted that he just found it hard to think of me older than Bella, though I obviously was.

Charlie helped me move my stuff over from the lodge, and despite his attempts to get me to stay at his house for one more night, I cried off and said I just wanted to sit in the cabin and get myself settled. So after we had had dinner Charlie walked me to the meadows edge and said goodnight.

I hugged him and thanked him for all the help.

He quickly passed it off with a wave of his hand and a call of…"See you tomorrow Kenze!"

I watched Charlie disappear back through the trees and watched as I caught site of a light being switched on in his house.

Feeling suddenly very tired I went in and put the water heater on as Charlie had shown me.

I sat down on one of the big gingham sofas and looked around; a deep sigh escaped me as I relaxed for the first time in what seemed like months. I was so comfortable that I didn't try to stop my heavy eyelids shutting down over my eyes.

Black!

"…Keep talking to her Ruby, that's what will bring her around, hearing someone who is familiar…"

My eyes shot open and for the briefest second I wondered where I was, I expected to find Ruby sat next to me, then I recognized the cabins interior and let out a small disappointed breath.

It had gotten cold and I was too tired so I grabbed the quilt from the bed and wrapped it around myself as I sat waiting for the dawn. My mind drifted back to the gas station and Isaac, and a flash of pity hit me when I thought what Edward and Emmett would have done to him, but this only lasted a fraction of a second. As with all things Edward, my mind screamed at me for putting him in any danger and not only him but his family as well.

I couldn't understand why fate was turning me into this troublesome person, I had always been so self reliant and capable, now I wondered if I could tie my shoes without some sort of catastrophe?

I spent the Sunday getting my new home how I wanted it, I had a couple of visits from Charlie and Jake also gave me a call to check that everything was ok. It felt good to have my mind fixed on something ordinary and mundane, and I took great pleasure in the simple task of cleaning house!

I didn't hear anything from Edward.

I made dinner for me and Charlie and we had spent the evening, with me catching up on some reading and he sat watching the television.

It was getting quite late when Charlie looked at his watch and saw the time.

"Geez Kenze! I'm sorry I didn't realize I had been here so long, I better be on my way."

He said as he gathered up his coat.

"No worries Charlie, it's good to have the company," I assured him.

I watched Charlie's light go on and then shut the door. I was surprised I wasn't more worried about being in the woods on my own, but I felt some how safe in the cabin, like nothing would be able to get me.

I tidied around and switched off the T.V and the lights as I made my way to the bedroom. I glanced out the open curtain into the meadow, the trees and meadow grass had taken on a silvery sheen with the moon glow. It was as I was about to close the curtains fully, that my eyes saw something flit through the tree line. I stuck my nose up close to the window trying to get a better look at whatever was staying conveniently out of full view.

My first hopeful thought was that it was Edward coming to see me at last. Then as quickly as that happy thought hit me, then it left twice as quickly, as I felt sure that I had burned all bridges where Edward was concerned.

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I looked around the dark cabin trying to find my cell phone. I finally spotted it on the kitchen table, making a dash for it, I grabbed it and found Jakes number. As it dialed I ran to the kitchen and picked up the heaviest cooking pan I could find and went back to my window. Feeling somewhat ridiculous brandishing my kitchenware I looked back out to the silvery tree line not sure if I was hoping to see something again or not.

As hard as I might I didn't see anything, or hear anything that sounded like it shouldn't be there. My heart beat started to return to its normal rhythm and I was berating myself for again over reacting when I definitely heard something just outside the cabin.

The shriek that came from my mouth, didn't even sound like my own voice. I squared my shoulders bracing myself for an attack.

As the door exploded inwards I swung with all my strength, acting purely on instinct. I heard the contact of the pot against something hard and heard the thud as the huge shadowy form hit the floor. Taking the advantage I moved in to deliver another blow before the shadowy form had a chance to regain their feet, when a familiar sounding moan stopped me in my tracks.

"Kenze, what are you doing? It's me, Jake; I heard you scream, what are you trying to do? Kill me?"

"Oh my God Jake, are you ok?" I gasped falling to his side on the floor.

"Yeah im fine!" He said more good naturedly than I deserved.

I helped him up and found the switch to the lights. Jake looked sheepishly at the door that was now on the floor. I told him not to worry we could sort it out later and that I was more concerned with checking his head. He tried to pass me off but I insisted in taking a look. He eventually lowered his hand from his head to let me examine his wound.

I ran my experienced eye and hands over his head and apart from a small fading red mark there was no evidence of the huge hit I had made to his forehead. I was of course almost expecting this but from Jakes point of view I was going to need some plausible explanation.

"Look I know this may sound crazy," he started. "But I have this genetic thing going on… it makes my skull twice as thick as everyone else's…"

"Yeah," I agreed, "I think I heard of it!"

Jake looked please and relieved that he thought his deception had worked.

"Yeah where the person gets massive bone growth, really quickly…"

Jake was nodding eagerly.

"…Or it could be that you have that other genetic disorder…"

Jake waited for me to finish with a genuinely curious look on his face.

"..You know...like being a wolf and all!" I finished triumphantly.

The look on Jakes face switched from amazement, to chagrin, to being just plain pissed. He eventually managed to splutter out, "Don't be stupid Kenze, there's no such thing, you've been reading way too many books."

"Look Jake you don't need to explain I know all about you and the pack."

"You know about the pack too?" He choked out.

"Look to save time Jake, just believe me when I say that I know everything!"

He still looked suspicious, but as a testament to his good nature he just said, "OK, well before we go any further let me fix your door and then we can talk!"

I nodded to him and the next half hour I spent watching Jake put his natural skills to work as he fixed my front door back expertly.

We chatted little, and when we did, we carefully avoided the subject of myths and legends.

At last the door was back in place and Jake was deposited on the sofa with a drink in hand.

"Ok Mackenzie, I think you better tell me how you seem to know so much about my err…little quirk! And don't say you just guessed, it's not the sort of thing anyone just guesses…ever!"

I sat for a few seconds contemplating my answer before I spoke. I desperately needed a friend here and I needed to have someone I could confide in, so I took a deep breath and started…

"This 'Will' sound crazy, but I'm hoping that you're going to be good with crazy…"

I was babbling, trying to find a way of saying the un-sayable.

"Spit it out Mackenzie." Jacob said a bit too abruptly. Taking a final deep breath I started to explain how I had come to be so aware of what was going on.

"Look whether you believe me or not is irrelevant, but I have seen what is going to happen, at least what could happen, one possible outcome and because of it I have found out about you and the Quileute clan and the fact that you turn into wolves if the need arises and that Edward and his family are vampires and they are the reason that you have all started changing." I said the last part very fast!

Jakes expression soured at the mention of Edward.

"And you're ok with this?" He asked in disbelief.

I didn't answer him but continued, "I do know that there is a real danger to everyone in Forks and around the area. But I can assure you it doesn't come from the Cullen's."

Jacobs's personal feelings were at war right there on his face.

"So you're some kind of psychic then?" He asked with a sceptical tone in his voice.

"Please Jacob, just listen, I know about Sam and what happened with Leah and Emily, how could someone from England possibly know these things Jake unless what I was saying was the truth?"

His struggle was again evident on his face and then all of a sudden it relaxed.

"Actually," he announced, "I'm glad you know, this makes things a lot simpler. Though I'm not sure I'm happy that you seem so accepting of the bloodsucker and his family!"

"Be nice!" I chided him, glad that we were friends again.

"Plus if what you say is true, you may be able to help us with the encroaching vamp problem we've got?" He said, a glint in his eye showing his enthusiasm.

"Maybe," I answered sketchily, "I know what the events should be, but there is always an element of choice which I can't factor in." I answered a little doubtfully. I wasn't prepared to put someone's life on the line because I had read a book a few times!

I wondered if Alice with her gift had the same sort of concerns I was harbouring. This thought quickly vanished as I felt sure that Alice would probably be sure about all her decisions to act or not.

I managed to steer the conversation away from all the horrors that seemed to move freely in Forks and we talked about mundane and more common things.

I don't know when it had happened but at sometime during the night I had fallen asleep, I woke abruptly to find that the reason I had been so un-comfortably hot was that both Jacob and I were laying on the sofa and he had one huge arm behind my neck, the other thrown over my chest, the sheer weight of his muscled forearm making it uncomfortable to breath properly and the heat that radiated off of Jakes body made it feel like I was laying on an electric blanket.

"Jake," I whispered to him, not wanting to startle him.

"Jacob, wake up, you're squashing me!" I said a little louder this time.

Finally the jab in the ribs woke him enough that he opened his eyelids sleepily and smiled.

"Morning Kenze!" He said with a sleepy voice.

"You're a much prettier sight to wake up to than Billy!" He said with a smug little smile on his face. Rather than releasing me, he tightened his arms around me.

"Mm, I could get used to this!" He said as he flashed his pearly white smile at me.

Feeling like a trapped rabbit I managed to wriggle my way out of his hold and jumped to the middle of the room!

Ok he's gorgeous but BOY! He was still only 17! Anyway I had eyes for only one!

The grin he had on his face definitely had a wolfish feel about it.

Jacob got up and said somewhat reluctantly that he should go. I hugged him and thanked him and said I would call him soon. I also assured him that should I get any of my 'mojo' about anything that was going to happen then I would call him straight away.

I hugged him again and watched as he ran off into the trees, his beautifully formed naked torso disappearing in a second.

When I was back indoors I searched for some notepaper and a pen and then I started to frantically note down as close as I could remember the events and the timeline of everything that had and should happen in my beloved books.

As I wrote I became more aware of the differences from my 'delusion' to the books. Whole events seemed to have been spun on their heads and some hadn't even occurred. Others, like Isaac, were not in the books and it got me to thinking that perhaps I had more to do with the events that took place than what I had thought of at first.

Once I had most of the major book events scribbled on my note paper, I set about writing the events as they had appeared to me. I was shocked to see the similarities and the comparisons. The thing that slapped me in the face more than anything was that I didn't seem to be acting as I would normally! It seemed that the old self reliant, feisty and strong willed person I was, seemed to be turning into a very different weak willed and frightened person and the longer I stayed here, where ever here was, the less of me there was going to be left to go back to.

A/N would love to know if this is a worthy tale? And please don't hate Mackenzie too much I mean if it was there offered who wouldn't ?

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