Kurt knew that Dave wasn't stable. It was too obvious and maybe it became more noticeable when bruises started to show up on Kurt's body. And he swears to god (if there was one), Kurt would never feel bad for being gay because it's who he is. And that's how it is. But. Dave actually makes him feel sick. It makes him feel ashamed that people like him actually exist out in the world. People who are afraid to be who they are and accept it. And trying to figure him out, trying to see if he meant any of his threats and everything else was killing Kurt in the inside. He just didn't feel like doing anything anymore and he's quite confused himself. Because he doesn't belong here. He feels that he doesn't fit in at Dalton and his parents wasted the honeymoon money on him just for his selfishness. He needed to face his own fears and when he thinks about, no matter how perfect Dalton might be, he does not belong here.

Thinking about how his mind works, what home must be like, it boggled with Kurt's mind. It's as if Dave was from a different planet and he couldn't understand a single thing he was going through. Why Dave hates Kurt one minute and wants to love him and protect him the next – a person's emotions shouldn't flux like that because it's not normal. And he doesn't want Dave to love him because it's one-sided and aggressive. And he feels terrible, like it's his fault that Dave's attracted to him and that's why he stole that kiss from him. And it pangs him mentally, physically, and emotionally to know this.

Kurt assumes, at this point, that Dave isn't human. He doesn't care if he's struggling with his sexuality but he's a raging monster who's out to make Kurt's life miserable, to monitor every step that he takes, to make him feel like he's worthless. And he shouldn't feel this way, but whenever he hears a mention about McKinley a flashback comes in the back of his thoughts and he feels the pain of getting slammed against the lockers, getting tossed into the trash, and so on. He was actually alright with it at first because he's going to be a big star on Broadway and everyone is going to regret the day they mess with Hummel while they're cleaning the floors he walks on.

But everyone has that breaking point.

And Dave destroyed that. He mutilated it and threw it back to Kurt and expected him to put it back to together.

Then the flashbacks of Dave tormenting him came around and it's not the bruises he left and the pains that came in the morning. Dave, for some reason, is still pressing against Kurt and he's still pinning him down against the lockers like a few days ago. And no matter how hard he tries he can't get him off.

Kurt tries to get the monster out of his head but he can still hear his husky voice when he said that he loved him, he can still hear the death threats, and he can hear him trying to own him like a possession. He thinks that his tormentor is invincible towards everything and everyone and will never be stopped. And he's careful about everything he does because Dave knows every move that Kurt takes. And he tries to listen to Dave whenever he speaks because he doesn't want to be killed. He tries to resist but it never works.

Kurt's not sure if he's selfish or not, but he has every right to fear for his own safety and in two years he'll be gone from crazy conservative Lima. He'll be in L.A. or New York. Or somewhere that wasn't here. And he'll pay back for the honeymoon money once he makes it big because that's the right thing to do but for now he's trying to work it off by doing most the of the work in his dad's shop (his dad tells him not too, but Kurt has to do this since he believes it isn't a choice).

"Hey Kurt!" Blaine comes over with two books in his arms and – ah – he was bringing over Harry Potter because Kurt said he wanted to read it a few weeks ago. He's surprised that Blaine actually remembered since Kurt only mentioned it once and that was over a month ago. "I brought my books over."

"Oh."

"It's first two. Right after the first page you'll be hooked. And later on the movies, Daniel gets super-mega-awesome-foxy-hot," he jokes and he Kurt shrugged. He wasn't up to Dave's humor, to be honest but he gives him a pity laugh.

"...Yeah, uh, thanks Blaine," he takes the book out of Blaine's hand and he wants to cry. That people like him – nice people that is – actually exists and aren't out to hurt him. So why does he think that Dave's empty threat is going to stop him from talking to a really, really good friend? Screw Dave. "Thanks a lot." The tone of his weary voice comes out to sound more sarcastic than thankful but Kurt only hopes that Blaine didn't take it personally.

"Aw, what's wrong, pal?"

"I...I'm kind of...tired. This school has more homework than my old school does and I'm...I'm...still trying to get used to it. I pulled an all-nighter studying for my government test," he fakes a tired yawn and stretches, "to be honest, I probably won't even get to reading these books this weekend. Plus, I promised Mercedes that I'll take her out shopping." He hands them back to his good friend and he does actually look quite tired. He was studying most of the night but the other half was spent worrying about his family.

"...Kurt – Kurt, if something is actually wrong, I'm here to talk to you. And my phone is always on. You can call me anytime you want."

"Yes," but after his magical words of wisdom, Kurt still feels a twinge in his heart. "I know this. My dad's here. I'll see you later Blaine. And I'll read those books later." Blaine pulls Kurt into a hug and Kurt immediately responds back by pulling him off. It's not because of the death threat Dave imposed, it's not because he doesn't want people thinking they were a couple, but because it pains his body more than anything right now . He wishes to hug Blaine and never let go but instead he just gives him a hearty handshake and walks away quickly.

"I didn't know my hugging sucks too," Blaine comment with a half-smile and walked back into the school.

...

Dave hasn't talked to Azimio since he got expelled after getting in an intense fight with some of the glee kids. And Azimio shouldn't get expelled, but maybe it's for the best.

His best friend found out somehow and Dave got a taste of his own acidic and nasty medicine. It was hard to get down and the lump in his throat wouldn't go away. Even though Azimio is gone (Dave has no idea where the hell he went) he still attempts to blackmail him. Azimio is fine with telling Dave's homophobic parents and telling the rest of the McKinley jocks. Dave's actually...Dave's actually scared. The years of playing football in the backyard, the precious moments of watching Disney's Aladdin together...it was just a joke and he was betrayed. And Azimio told his former friend that when he slept in his bed because Dave's mom didn't have a sleeping bag, he knew something was wrong right then and there (he was five at the time and sleeping in the same bed with your best friend wasn't supposed to be a big deal back then). So that's when Dave actually wonders if Azimio ever liked him or not.

This fuels his hate for Kurt even more. His friends loved him no matter what. His friends would risk an arm and a leg so he can have his rights.

His friends...his friends.

Dave's other friends are also homophobes, just not as bad as Azimio, and he wants friends like Mercedes. Not her sassiness, but her support. Dave found a Mercedes a contradiction since she was into her religion but so...maybe Dave is getting too redundant.

He needed someone to talk to.

He flips through the student's directory and he flips to the page with 'H'. He finds Hummel's number and star-six-seven it and he hears it rings for a while and he doubts that anyone would ever pick up. If it's his parents or Finn he'll say it's the wrong number but he hears Hummel's voice right off the bat.

"Hello? Who is this? And I'm not interested."

"Don't hang up, Hummel. I mean it," and this was another lie. Dave doesn't mean anything that he says and it's just to build pressure. "We need to talk."

"Leave me alone. My parents and Finn will be home any minute now," Kurt's parents and Finn went off to McKinely to do something and Kurt pardons himself from going because he has three tests in one day to kill. And they believe him too because Dalton enforces success by giving a lot of homework but Kurt made it up because he doesn't know how he'll get tortured this time around. "You don't want my dad to do anything to you again, do you?"

On the other line, Dave rolled his eyes. Kurt, that faggot, was trying to bluster him. "Don't hang up."

"Stop stalking me. And I can hung up if I want to –"

"I'm not stalking you, you faggot, just sit there and answer my damn question and don't hang up," and Dave grabs the closest thing on the top of his head, "and I'm sorry for calling you at a time like this and I'm not trying to ruin your make-out session with your stepbrother. But you know how you did all that gay stuff with me? Azimio knows. And I'm sorry about everything."

It serves you right! "I can't help it that you have concupiscent feelings towards me. And I can't make your meathead friend understand that you aren't going to force your 'gayness' onto him but...but I can't forgive you and I won't forgive all of the things you did to me. And you're only saying sorry because you have no one to beleaguer anymore and someone found out. Your life is so inane without me and I want you to hang up right now."

"That's not true, homo." Whatever beleaguer or inane means. Dave was smart but not...big words smart. Not like it matters, since he thought Kurt sounds so ethereal when he tries to act pretentious when using ginormous words.

"It is – you've just insulted me right over the phone. What is your question?" There a long moment of silence and Hummel's too afraid to press the 'end' button (because if Dave can find Kurt's phone number, who knows what else he could fine?). "And don't ever call this house again after this." Kurt already knew he had to change his phone number but that's no biggy. He just needs to tell his dad that some crazy pranker keeps calling for his invisible car. Or something.

Dave doesn't know what to say, he doesn't know what to do. He can't form the question because he'll seem too helpless so he tries to keep up his façade up for a bit longer. "I know. But..."

Kurt manages to boil down and not scream at him, because that's not helping the cause at all. "Dave, you're hopeless. Until you become comfortable with yourself, I'm unable to help you," Kurt mumbled, "and that's not going to happen."

"Hummel! Wait. I really meant it a few days ago – that when I said I love you. I'm in love you with you. I want you so badly Kurt...I'll do anything to be with you. I love your green eyes. I'm in love with your voice, and Kurt. I bet no one tells you how hot you are. Because you're really fucking hot, especially in that sexy Dalton uniform of yours," Dave continues with his schmoozing because who knows, this might his last conversation with Kurt, "I'll do anything for you and...and I'm sorry for kissing and touching you but at least you wanted it. Right? Of course you did."

Dave's sure that Kurt is playing hard to get and it only makes Dave yearn for him even more.

Kurt's sure that Dave is trying to make him throw up all of the floor. Because he imagines Dave's breathing down his neck and his words caressing his ear as he soothly says this...

...and what the fuck is Kurt thinking? That's gross. Talking to him wasn't a good idea, he was getting a headache and his mind was starting to get fucked up too. "Goodbye, David," he needs to get away from.

"Are you still talking to your boyfriend, Hummel? What's his name? Is it something gay like yours?"

"I'm about to hang up in five seconds."

"No you're not," Dave's voice cooed into the phone. "I'm going to call you tomorrow. And you better pick up."

And Dave hung up, feeling quite satisfied.

He felt good.

an/ not really a big fan of this chapter but the next one is going to have a lot of angst in it so that should be fun to write. oh boy, when is kurt and karofsky ever going to catch a break. P: