Demi-Ako

Know that it's hard work when writing a story. When you first open up that Microsoft word page, or rip out that piece of lined paper, your mind goes into many different directions just thinking about plots and characters.

She was a walking figure of glass, porcelain skin and bright blue eyes of outstretched ocean. Her hair flew with the golden sky behind her. The sun was setting, and as she struts towards me, those eyes looked between my arms, searching for my soul, kept so well yet found by two beautiful eyes. People stared and made way as she walked through the crowd, watching my heart beat continually.

This was love.

With only inches away from each other her first instinct was natural. She dug those fingers into my hair, as her mind listened to the heart inside of me. I welcomed her with a smile, a shocked smile, remembering that I had a hot girlfriend who loved me more than the world felt pretty incredible. Her nails soothed my scalp, and those eyes were revealed to me as I looked down to my chest. Her cheeks rose, gleaming a smile.

And with no words I only touched her cheek, wondering how it felt. Then…lips, soft lips connecting with mine. Blurry vision. Slow moving people watching with envious eyes. A hand on my ass.

THIS was lust.

As we parted, my lips searched for more. They lead to those eyes, I marked her eyes, and the lashes skimmed my lip. Her soft mouth was placed onto my neck, as she waited for my soft silent kisses to ease.

"I love you," My mouth reacted on its own. She removed her hands from down below and slunk them lazily behind me. A hug was received and my mouth again, blew off words of love, "I fucking love you." I spoke out.

Her answer came as a shock, but I was always waiting for it. "So does Shun."

I backed away, my arms still surrounding her back, "Shun?"

"Shun." She slurred his name from the lips I kiss and obsess over; she enjoys the name Shun, and says it delightfully.

"Shun?" The word burns my tongue and makes my mouth shrivel. "I thought that was all behind us," My eyes search hers, "…the whole, "Shun and Runo" thing."

She pulls away, her arms leave me be. And a sudden sadness takes over. "It was never over." Her eyes were cloudy, almost confused, "He still likes me."

"But ever since you and Julie made up he hasn't even acted weird around us once." I reach for her shoulder, trying to pull her back into my warmth. "How could you possibly know that Shun still has a thing for you?"

She turns. Her back faces me, teasing my emotions, knowing that I was looking for the true answer in her eyes. "Oh," She scoffs, "I can tell."

"So that's your answer then?" My heart feels stomped on, smacked around, beaten with a bat. "Your answer to when I say "I love you" is Shun?"

She never faces me, "I'll call you." And I watch in silence, as her boots slap against the pavement, away from my still form. Crowds of walking people clear for her, and she was gone. The golden sun was now black. Those oceanic eyes were now far away. And my mind was rattled.

"We had plans." I whisper to the frozen air around.

"Come back."

I sit in the seat directly behind Shun at school. He's quiet, doesn't say much, but when I tap his shoulder he is more than welcoming to happily tell me the problem on the board. His black deep eyes graze mine in a fashion of quick flirts. I bite my lip, swirling the tongue inside. I don't really believe that anyone notices when we make out in the corner of class. We do sit in the back. And the teacher hasn't even caught us yet.

And you know that unbearable guilty feeling you get when you cheat? I don't get it. It mainly turns me on, to know that there's a boy who is suspecting of me cheating in the first place.

This is control.

As I back away, sliding into my seat, my eyes seeking through his black pupils. He's such a rebel, somebody who doesn't follow the rules. He's fast and easy to get along with.

He's not Dan. And that's how I like it.

I think I've changed, maybe not as eager to find a boy as I was in the beginning of the year. I believe I'm more mature, I can now capture anyone in my grasp. I've changed everything about me. The old Runo was a no go. A class act. She was boring, plain, the opposite of the new and improved Runo.

As Shun turns back around I touch my lips, and calm the urge to straddle him uncontrollably. But in my attempt to relax I spot Dan, I could notice that mop of brown hair anywhere. His eyes are large, nobody else notices him.

And then it hits me.

Dan knows I'm cheating.

He sulks away, the window empty. I cling onto the desk. The date he planned last night didn't go so well. And I didn't even call him like I promised.

My actions were clear, I was a slut. An attention seeking whore with too much makeup.

Out of bad judgment and nervous emotions, I tapped Shun's shoulder once more. Seeing his lips in plain sight I tackled the boy with no rest. His desk rattled, and my chair shook.

We were out in the open now, no doubt. The kids watched. And I deepened the kiss.

And I heard the words of envy whisper along the walls of the math room silently. The cellphones were flipped out, and texts came out of the room like lightening.

I can now feel the unbearable guilt I never thought I had.

Well its been a while since i wrote a chapter. Here you go guys.

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