A/N Sorry that this chapter took so long. I was having some serious conflict on how I wanted to introduce their back story. All of the reviews were split down the middle on the Jacob's thoughts/Bella's dreams debate so I just did it like this. This is actually the longest chapter I've written so far. I would also like to thank all of my reviewers so far. You guys rock!

Chapter 5:

Five years ago:

"It'll be as if I never existed." Those words echoed through me as I lay in the fetal position in the middle of the forest. I can't believe he left me. Time seemed to stop while I was on the ground. Nothing mattered any more now that he was gone.

"Bella" I heard my name. Did he come back for me? I knew that he wouldn't leave me. A pair of strong arms wrapped around me and picked me up. They were too warm for his. Who was holding me? Why won't they let me just die out here. My life is over.

The months passed in a fog. I went to class, work and then came home. I didn't socialize, hell, I barely even talked. I wanted nothing more than to just lie in my bed and die. I really was worthless. He didn't want me. After five long grueling months, I finally started to come out of the fog. What was the catalyst that saved me? It was the same person that pulled me out of my forest grave; none other than my personal sun, Jacob Black. Every day he came by to see me. He would just sit on the edge of my bed while I cried. He saved me from my own personal hell that I walked myself in to. Once out of the fog I was able to develop a strong friendship with Jacob. We spent nearly every moment together that I wasn't at school or work.

Another few months passed and our friendship slowly became something more. I remember the exact turning point of our relationship. One night I was at Jake's place hanging out and playing Rock Band. Now I may be clumsy as hell, but I can sing, and play the guitar. I was extremely shocked when I realized that I was pretty good. Well that night, after playing for hours, I decided that I was just too tired to drive home. This was a typical occurrence for us. So much so that I even had some stuff stashed at his place and an understanding with my dad that if it was after two am that I wasn't coming home. I walked into Jake's bedroom and grabbed one of his shirts and a pair of his boxers to change into.

Jake always ended up getting kicked out to the couch on these nights, which I'm sure he was fine with, since it meant that I was going to be there in the morning. That night was different. I hadn't had a nightmare in quite a few months so it was quite a shock when I woke up screaming. Once I realized where I was and that it was just a dream, I stopped screaming. It was then that I realized that there were two very warm arms wrapped around me with a soft voice cooing in my ear.

"Bells, it's ok. I'm here. Nothing is going to happen to you." He continued whispering until I calmed completely. As he started to get up I grabbed his arm and whimpered, "Can you stay here with me?" "Of course, Bella."

The next morning I woke up wrapped up in his arms. It was the first time we had ever done that. Opening my eyes and seeing him there made my heart feel something that it hadn't felt in a long time. I wondered what it would be like if I were to wake up in his arms every morning. I was broken from my daydream by his arms tightening around me and two brown eyes gazing down on me. I snuggled closer and gave him a large smile.

"Bella, I could definitely get used to this. Now that I have you here, I don't want you to leave."

"Me too," was my only response.

Needless to say, every night after that one, it didn't matter whose house we were at, we always fell asleep in each other's arms. The feelings only grew from there. Over the next few months my life started to feel normal again. Not only did I spend time with Jake, but I also started hanging out with Angela and Ben again. It was great having Jake in my life and everyone seemed fairly pleased, especially my dad. I knew that he never truly liked Edward, so when I started dating Jake, my dad was over the moon. He was so thrilled that he didn't even mind when Jake spent the night, as long as we kept my door open. I always thought it was funny. Jake and I had actually talked at length about our sex life, well lack thereof. We did a few other things but wanted to save true intercourse for our wedding night. There was no doubt in my mind that Jake was the one for me. He was my savior, but he was also my equal and I his. He never treated me as his equal. I was always too fragile, too human for him. It's no wonder why he left me. He didn't really love me, and truthfully I didn't love him either. It was just an infatuation that I thought was love.

Three years ago

I looked one final time in my mirror after fixing my hair again. Jake only told me to dress up, so I hoped that this was ok. Heck, I think even Alice would have been proud of me. Thinking of Alice no longer crippled me like it once did. It still saddened me that I lost my sister when he left me, but I had Jake now. We had been officially dating for a year now. I had no idea what surprise Jake had in store for me, but it was sure to be great.

There was a soft knock at our bedroom door, "Bells, you ready honey?"

I sighed and grabbed my purse. Opening the door, I was met with a bouquet of daisies and my handsome boyfriend. We had decided to move in together while attending college in Seattle to save money. While we still slept in the same bed, nothing ever went past some pretty heavy make-out sessions with a little touching and grinding.

Once we got into his car he reached over with a piece of cloth and wrapped it over my eyes. I raised my eyebrow in question and he just chuckled. "It's a surprise silly. I can't have you peeking."

I decided to just go with it and enjoy the ride. After only twenty minutes or so the car came to a stop and I heard his door open followed by my own. I felt his hand grasp mine and pull me gently from the car. He held me tight while we walked a short distance making sure that I didn't trip. I was extremely grateful for his arm around my waist because the ground wasn't even and I would have fallen on my face by now. After a few minutes, Jake stopped and told me to wait right there. It seemed like forever that I was standing there waiting on him to finish whatever he was doing, but it was well worth it. I could hear him walking up behind me and slowly untying the knot that held the blindfold on. I closed my eyes in anticipation and when I finally opened them, I gasped at the sight that greeted my eyes.

Jake and I were standing in front of a small lake with a waterfall cascading into it. Sitting next to the water was a blanket with candles surrounding it. On the blanket was a medium sized cooler. I smiled and turned my head to kiss my amazing boyfriend.

"Happy Anniversary baby! You like?" "Oh Jakey, it's perfect. I love it!"

He grabbed my hand and gently led me over to the blanket. He lowered himself onto the blanket and I sat on his lap. I looked over at the cooler and wondered what goodies he brought for us. He pulled out two large Tupperware bowls. They both contained a chicken breast with fettuccini alfredo pasta. Next he pulled out a second set of bowls that contained two salads. I smiled up at him and then looked back at the feast in front of us. I was sure that Jake didn't know how to cook so I was mildly curious how he pulled it off. Almost as if he was reading my mind a single word slipped from his lips. "Sue." I giggled.

I moved off his lap but sat down directly in front of him turning around so that I could see him. We both began eating and occasionally leaned forward to kiss. This meal was perfect and I was amazingly happy at how this evening has turned out. After we had finished the food I looked at Jake expectantly, wondering what else was in store. That was when the most unexpected thing happened. Jake looked nervous as he fished around in his pocket. I just looked at him with all the love I could muster. He smiled when his hand finally grasped whatever it was that he was looking for. My heart stopped when he retrieved a small velvet box from his pocket.

"Bella, we have been together now for a year and in that year I have realized that you are the one that I want to be with for the rest of my life. You know all of my secrets, and all of my faults, and yet you still love me all the same. I have never been happier than when you are in my arms. Will you Isabella Marie Swan do me the honor of becoming my wife?"

I stared at him for a moment as he opened the box and pulled out one of the most amazing looking rings I have ever seen. "It was my mom's. My dad gave it to me when I told him that I wanted to ask you to marry me." I looked at him one more time and then back down to the ring. My heart was overflowing with joy as I nodded my head yes and he slid the ring on my finger. Once the ring was on my finger I flung myself at him, taking him off guard and toppling down on the blanket. I straddled his hips and began kissing him with earnest. His hands immediately went to my hips.

The emotion was overpowering as I slowly ground my hips on his. He moaned into my mouth and thrust his hips up to meet mine. His hands went to the bottom of my shirt and started slowly rubbing circles on my back. The longer I grinded my hips into his, the wetter I became. He quickly flipped us over and started kissing all over my neck and collarbone, while still thrusting into my core. I briefly wondered what that would feel like if we were naked but then brushed off the thought because I knew that we wanted to wait until we were married. Even with that knowledge I knew that we were going to go farther tonight than we have ever gone before. I just couldn't control myself. His hands went back to the bottom of my shirt and slowly started lifting it up. I arched my back to make it easier for him.

"Oh god Bella. I need to do something. Please. We can't go all the way but I need to do something. Can I touch you? Please." He all but begged me. How could I refuse? I nodded and he completely removed my shirt.

His hands trailed fire up my torso as he cupped my breasts, slowly massaging them into hard peaks. He leaned down and captured one cloth covered nipple in his mouth and sucked. I moaned and grabbed fists full of his hair. While his mouth was working on my peaks his hand moved down to my skirt. I felt his fingers on my thigh as they massaged slowly up to my panty clad core. He tentatively brushed his fingers over my lower lips and then looked at me for permission. I was so on edge and in need for some kind of release. I nodded as his fingers slipped under my panties and circled my clit. I cried out and arched my back into him. His fingers moved down to my entrance and slipped one inside. I moaned again and started pulling on his hair. He added a second finger and used his thumb to rub my sensitive nub. I couldn't help the convulsions that took over my body as I began to cum. I screamed out his name over and over until my body stilled and he removed his fingers. The thing he did next almost made me cum again. He slid each finger into his mouth and sucked my juices off of them. I lay panting on my back as Jake lay down next to me. We just experienced one of the most erotic moments of our lives so far. It made me love him even more to know that we experienced that together.

A few days later it was the weekend and we knew that we needed to tell my father. That was going to be interesting. I know that he loved Jake like his own son, but I wondered how he was going to feel about his only daughter getting married. On the drive from Seattle back to Forks I could see how nervous Jake was. I looked over at him and slowly started rubbing my hand up and down his thigh, trying to comfort him. He let out a mixture of a sigh and a moan. It was then that I noticed the bulge in his pants. Oops. After the experience on our anniversary, we hadn't touched each other like that again. In fact, I have yet to touch him in an intimate way. I was really nervous that I would do it wrong or something. I really wanted to help him with his problem. I looked over at him and decided that I would try.

I moved my hand further up his thigh and whispered, "Baby, just promise me that we won't crash. Keep your eyes on the road. I want to help you, but I might need your guidance." I bit my bottom lip and moved my hand up to the zipper on his jeans. He groaned and nodded at me.

"Baby, you don't have to do this, but if you really want to I'm not going to stop you."

I slowly unzipped his jeans and moved them down to reveal his throbbing cock. I was a little shocked at the fact that not only was he not wearing any underwear, but he was also huge. I hope that I can do this. Ok now what do I do? I tried remembering everything that I read online and mimicked it. The more I rubbed the more he groaned and started lifting his hips to meet my hands. He got closer and closer to his orgasm but he was able to keep the car on the road.

"Yes, yes, I'm so close. Baby, keep going. Yes right there." His cries got more frantic until he began cumming all over my hand. I rubbed his cock until his orgasm was completely finished. That was amazing. I never thought that I could bring him that much pleasure. "Baby, that was amazing. Thank you."

I decided to go ahead and try something. I unbuckled my seatbelt and leaned down to lick the cum off of his now soft cock and my hand. He moaned again and when I sat back up nothing could wipe the satisfied smirks off of both of our faces. While putting back on my seatbelt a large semi truck honked at us and the driver gave Jake a thumbs up. I thought it was hilarious. Jake just grinned and grabbed my hand. The rest of the drive was very uneventful. When we pulled up to my father's home, he came running out to greet us.

"Bella, I didn't know that you were coming home this weekend. What are you doing here?" He pulled me in to an awkward hug and gave Jake a quick handshake. Charlie never was one for excessive affection.

"Well Charlie, we have some pretty big news for you. Why don't we go inside?" Jake wrapped his arm around my waist and began walking inside. Charlie followed us in to the living room and tentatively sat down in his recliner. Jake and I sat on the couch and joined hands.

"Charlie, I would like to inform you of some pretty exciting news. Wednesday night while we were celebrating our anniversary, I asked your daughter to marry me. She accepted and now we are here to ask for your blessing."

I squeezed his hand tighter and looked over at my father. What I saw was completely unexpected. My father looked overjoyed. I always knew that my father loved Jake. Charlie stood up and pulled me into his arms. "Bella, honey, I am so thrilled for you." Then turning to Jake he said, "You are finally going to be my son. I couldn't be happier for the two of you."

A/N Next is the death of Charlie and the wedding.