DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN ANY CHARACTERS OR THE SONG. ALL RIGHTS GO TO THEIR RESPECTIVE OWNERS.
A/N: This songfic is just to describe what was going on in Cody's head the night he broke up with Mike. His angst, anger and sadness are conveyed here.
SONG: "Black Dahlia" by Hollywood Undead
I loved you, you made me, hate me.
You gave me hate see?
It saved me and these tears are deadly.
You feel that?
I rip back, every time you tried to steal that.
You feel bad?
You feel sad?
Im sorry hell no fuck that!
It was my heart, it was my life, it was my start, it was your knife.
This strife it dies, this life and these lies.
These lungs have sung this song for too long, and its true I hurt too, remember I loved you!
After Cody rushed from the taping, he kicked open his hotel room door. Flushed and shaking his anger, he begin kicking and punching the walls around him, not caring if it hurt him or not. He loved Mike, HOW COULD HE DO THIS TO HIM? He gave him everything he had, was it still NOT ENOUGH? What did Maryse have that he didn't? Is he just meant to be hurt over and over again and just take it?
I wish I could have quit you
I wish I never missed you and told you that I loved you every time I fucked you
The future that we both drew and all the shit we've been through
Obsessed with the thought of you the pain just grew and grew!
How could you do this to me?
Look at what I made for you! It never was enough and the world is what I gave you
I used to be love struck and now I'm just fucked up!
Pull up my sleeves and see the pattern of my cuts!
The pain and angst Cody was feeling was just too much, he thought of everything him and Mike had been through together, and he became a mess of uncontrollable rage and sadness. He grabbed the lamp on the coffee table and threw it on the floor, shattering it to pieces. Him and Mike were supposed to have a future together, him and Mike were supposed be together forever! Still enraged, Cody grabbed the mirror in the bathroom and also shattered it to pieces. He began to cry uncontrollably and the broken mirror began to look so enticing. It looked as if it would be the cure to his misery. He then picked up a shard of glass and began dragging it across the skin of his arm.
Seems like all we had is over now, you left to rest.
And your tears are dried up now, you just lay without a sound.
Seems like all we had is over now, you left to rest.
And my fears are over now, I can leave with my head down.
I've lost it all fell today its all the same
I'm sorry oh
I'm sorry no
I've been abused, I feel so used, because of you...
i'm sorry oh
I'm sorry no
Cody continued to sob while the blood was gushing from his arm and into the sink in the bathroom. His worst fears were confirmed and it was over. He had to convince himself that it was the right decision. He cleaned up the broken ceramic and glass and left it in the closet. He washed and wrapped up his wound then went to bed, where he continued to cry more.