The next couple of weeks went as good as expected. Charlie hadn't had a clue a teenage boy was living with me, and Alice and Rosalie were completely oblivious. School went by slowly, but only because I was counting down the seconds until I could be with Edward again.

Charlie had almost caught Edward twice. Once, when Charlie came home early from work. Of course, I was at school during this time, but Edward had told me about it that evening when I got home from school. The second time I was in the shower, and Charlie never heard the water running in the bathroom. He had walked into my bedroom, thinking I was asleep. Of course, I wasn't there for that either but Edward had told me about it. He was so scared, and so incredibly adorable when he would tell me what happened with his eyes wide.

I often found myself day dreaming about being with Edward. What we would do and how we would act if we could go out in public. Or if Edward could take me out for supper, for a real date. I wondered what his parents looked like, and if Edward had his fathers or mothers hair. Or where Edward got those incredible green eyes from.

Sleeping with Edward was perfect. Every morning I would wake up wrapped up in his arms. We wouldn't start out like that of course, both of us were way too shy. I would fall sleep facing the window, while he would fall asleep facing the door. When I would wake up, I would snuggle into Edwards warm chest, yawn and quickly cover my mouth. I would do this every morning. I'm sure Edward wouldn't of minded my morning breath, seeing how he was without a toothbrush for how long. But it bothered me. I would quickly and quietly dig through my closet to find what I would wear that particular day and creep to the bathroom. Of course Edward never heard me, he was such a heavy sleeper. I don't even think he's ever noticed that we gravitated towards each other in our sleep, that we cuddled for most of the night. But I was fine with that.

The weekends were the hardest. Of course, we had only spent three full weekends together. But they were tough. Edward refused to use the bathroom or take a shower. He wouldn't leave my room unless he was sure Charlie was gone for work. Charlie had ended up going to Billy's for a visit, for those weekends. So it wasn't to difficult. I had to leave Edward home alone last Saturday because there was a sale in Port Angele's and Alice wanted to check that out. I didn't want to go with her, and I had told her that, but she refused to take no for an answer. So I agreed because it was easier then her coming to get me, and risk her seeing Edward.

I didn't mind if Alice seen Edward. I wanted to tell her that he was living with me. I thought it would be a lot easier for me if Alice knew. I could talk to her. I could ask her for boy advice. But I wasn't sure if Edward would mind, he was giving up all his dignity to live with me already and I didn't want to make it worse. I wanted him to trust me. So I kept quiet every morning at school when Alice would ask me about Edward. I hadn't said much about him, that I went to Port Angele's to see him and we made-out a couple times.

Making-out with Edward was like.. Chocolate. It was better then chocolate. It was like shopping for Alice. He was so addicting. And truth be told, I haven't thought my plan out very carefully. I knew I was falling for him fast, every time he looked at me, I fell harder and faster. But I wouldn't let myself think about the consequences of what would happen if Charlie found out. He would kill me, that I knew for sure. Or he would kill Edward, if Edward couldn't run fast enough. I was terrified of the future, where he would go or what would happen to Edward if anybody found out. So I refused to think about it.

"Belllllla." My eyes quickly scanned the cafeteria table.

"Yes?" I smiled. Of course, I had been thinking about what Edward was doing at this exact moment. It was 12:30, so maybe eating dinner? A shower? Or he could quite possibly still be in bed.

"Where are you? I've been trying to get your attention for like two minutes? Stop day dreaming about making out with Edward. We have important stuff to talk about." I blushed, looking over at Jessica Stanley and Micheal Newton, making sure they hadn't of heard that she had mentioned Edward. Of course they didn't, to busy in making goo-goo eyes at each other. Really, it was worse then Alice and Jasper.

"Sorry." I mumbled, blushing slightly. "So what to we have to talk about?" I grinned, sitting up straight at the table, giving Alice my full attention.

"Lauren's Halloween party."

"Oh.." I frowned. Me and Lauren weren't the best of friends. Well, she hated me. And I didn't really like her either. "I don't know Alice."

"Why?" She pouted.

"You know why." I sighed.

"So what? Lauren's a bitch. We probably won't even see her. But Jasper wants to go, so I'm going. And I want you there. You should bring Edward."

"I don't know.." My first response would of been no, but the moment Alice mentioned me bringing Edward, I thought of scenarios about how I would get him there. How I could get Edward to want to go, what I would tell people, what I would get Edward to wear. And I was excited. I wanted him there, I wanted him to meet my friends, and I wanted girls to be jealous that I was with Edward and they weren't. "I don't know if he'll go." I replied after a couple moments of thought.

"Why the hell not?"

"It isn't really his thing."

"It's not mine either. But I'm going with Jasper, so maybe he'll go for you. Just talk to him about it."

"Okay. I'll try." I grinned. "I'm sort of excited. I want you to meet him so bad."

Alice giggled, "I want to meet him too! I was wondering when I finally would."

Lunch continued on like it had any other day. Rosalie was missing in action almost every lunch hour. Actually she wasn't around much anymore. She was always with Emmett, not that I minded. I had Edward and I completely understood, maybe I wouldn't of a couple months ago, but I get it now. I missed her though, and it seemed like we were drifting apart. She was still close with Alice. Alice would tell me every morning before school started that Rose had called her and told her about her date with Emmett. Sometimes I wish she would call me.

After school, I wasted no time in asking Edward. "Edward?" I called, the moment I opened the front door. At first, I didn't hear anything, so I called his name again. The second time, as I was climbing the stairs to my bedroom, he popped his head out of my bedroom door.

"Hi." He grinned.

"Hi." I grinned back, blushing a little. He swept me into a quick hug, which was something we did everyday after I got home from school. Sometimes I felt like a working women, that I had a long hard, stressful day at work, and I came home to my husband, who was there to greet me with hugs and kisses as soon as I got home, but of course we didn't kiss. He only ever kissed me before we went to bed.

"How was school?" He asked automatically, walking back into the bedroom, sitting Indian style across my bed. He wasn't looking for an answer, he was way to interested in the television. Laughing every time something funny happened. I couldn't help but smile at him, whenever he would let out one heart filled laugh. He was so adorable and I loved to see him happy.

"Good." He let his eyes gaze over me for a second, giving me a quick smile, and his eyes went back to the television. I walked over to the bed, and sat down beside him. "Can we talk?" I asked, picking on the sleeves of my sweater.

He looked at me cautiously before asking. "Sure. Is anything wrong?"

I shook my head. "No, not at all. I just wanted to ask you something."

"Okay.." He said slowly. I wondered what he was thinking.

I breathed out heavily. "Look, this girl at school is having this Halloween party, and I was sort of invited. And I know it isn't your thing, but Alice is going to be there, with her boyfriend. And I don't know. Never mind." I sighed. What was I thinking? I couldn't ask Edward to do this for me.

"Bella."

"Never mind Edward, it's stupid." I gave him a dull smile.

"Bella." He said again. "Do you want me to go?"

"No, it's fine. I don't want to make you uncomfortable."

"Bella. I want to go."

"What? Really?" I asked, trying to hold back my grin.

"Of course. "

"Thank you Edward." I giggled, leaning over and hugging his neck.

"It's no problem. I've been cooped up in this bedroom so long, I really need to get out again." He laughed, I laughed along with him.

I woke up Halloween morning, cuddled into Edwards side. I looked up at him and smiled, though he was practically dead to the world. I picked out a normal outfit for school. I wasn't one for dressing up in costumes and wearing them to school. I didn't like to stand out, I liked to fit in, and not be noticed. I got ready quickly and left for school with plenty of time to spare.

Edward had decided that he didn't want anyone to know that he was homeless, because he didn't want the word to spread. He didn't want Charlie to find out. And I was glad that Edward had came up with this all on his own. I was scared if I mentioned it, then maybe he would take it the wrong way, that I was ashamed of him or something, which wasn't the case at all.

Alice was planning on coming over after school to help me do my hair and make up for tonight's festivities. I had lied and told her that I was picking up Edward in Port Angele's and I would call her when I got home, so she could come over right after. Everything was planned out, and I didn't think anything could go wrong.

I thought wrong obviously.

Instead of fitting in, I stood out. Everybody looked at me like I was some sort of freak, dressed in my normal clothing. Everybody, and I mean everybody was dressed up. The girls dressed in slutty clothing. I was sure I was the girl with the most covered body. I couldn't help but think, if these girls wore this to school, what would they wear to the party tonight? Would Edward look? I didn't know. I wasn't sure if I could trust him enough yet. So, my nerves set in. I couldn't stop thinking about tonight. I was for sure that it would go horribly wrong.

I called Alice a little after four, she showed up a half hour later. Charlie was working late today, which made this whole thing a little easier. I really didn't want to make the awkward introductions with Edward and my father.

Alice seemed to love Edward. At first it awkward, and I could tell Edward felt uncomfortable. Alice was trying her best not to be so.. Alice. She did my hair, in loose curls and my make-up was light. I wore a black dress that wasn't completely revealing, that Alice had suggested. Edward seemed to like it, which made me giddy. He just stared at me when I walked into the room all done up. I was happy. I wore pink bunny ears to look like I attempted to dress up. Edward wore jeans and a black button up shirt, he looked handsome like always.

I made supper after that, but kept it light. Just a few grilled cheese. We ate at the table, while keeping conversation light. We talked about school and shopping, while Alice aimlessly flipped through a magazine. I kept stealing glances at Edward, and ever so often, I would catch him looking at my breasts. Maybe I should of been disgusted, but I wasn't. I was happy. I felt sexy and the way Edward was gaping at my top, made me think he thought I was sexy too.

"So how did you guys meet?" Alice asked, smiling up from her magazine. Of course, for anybody else this would be a normal couple question. But the problem was, we didn't talk about it. We didn't talk about what we would say. I had completely forgotten about this question.

"I.." I stumbled, trying to think of something. I looked at Edward with wide eyes. I hated lying.

"A couple months ago, Bella walked into McDonald's, and couldn't open the door with all the food in her hands." He smiled at me, I smiled back, remembering that night. "I held the door open for her. A couple days later, I seen her again and we introduced ourselves."

I breathed out a sigh of release. I felt better that we didn't.. technically lie to Alice.

"Aw," Alice cooed, "that's adorable. What did you first think of Bella?" Alice giggled, winking at me.

"That's enough." I glared at her, grabbing her by the arm. "Let's go."

"But it's only 6oclock! The party doesn't start until at least ten, and we need to be fashionably late."

I sighed and smiled timidly at Edward. "Well, Charlies going to be home soon, and I don't want to be here when he gets home."

"Why?" Alice asked oblivious. I looked at Edward, and Alice understood. "Oooh, Edward hasn't met Charlie yet?" She asked with a big grin on her face.

"No, and I don't ever intend on that to happen."

"Why?" She asked genuinely confused.

I looked at Edward and gave him a small smile. I didn't want him to think I was ashamed with him. "Because Charlies intimidating and I don't want him to scare Edward."

Alice and Edward laughed. Edward more nervously then anything. "Oh, don't worry Edward. Charlies a sweetheart."

"Yes, he sure is." I said sarcastically. If only Alice knew.

I cleaned up, and did the dishes shortly after we finished eating. Edward helped by drying and putting the clean dishes away, while Alice mumbled to herself while reading a magazine. The evening couldn't of went better. I was sure Alice hadn't suspected anything, and Edward and Alice seemed to like each other. I could tell Edward was extremely nervous, but he did great. He didn't talk a whole lot though, mostly just smiling and talking when spoken too, but overall it was great.

We left around 7, just in time to dodge Charlie. We went to Alice's place so Alice could put the finishing touches on her outfit and hair. We left at ten, and since I was driving we drove aimlessly around Forks until Alice decided we were fashionably late enough.

I gripped the steering wheel in my fingers, the knots tightening in my stomach. I was nervous. The moment I parked the car, and the doors opened, I knew this was a mistake. The music was so loud. Alice walked in front of me, as we walked down the damp stone to the front door. Edward was also slightly ahead of me. He seemed like he had gained more confidence. His head high, while mine hung and my feet dragged. I was regretting the sexy choice in clothing. I didn't feel sexy anymore, standing next to Edward all dressed up, walking into a house full of teenagers, all practically naked, where I was sure Edward could have any girl he chose.

I sighed, straightening my shoulders with the fake confidence I had. I gripped Edward's hand with my own, while Alice opened the door. The music automatically getting louder, I could feel my ear drums popping. Edward smiled shyly at me, and I returned the smile. I scanned the room, I spotted Jessica and Lauren right away, sitting on the bar stool in the kitchen, pouring drinks. Micheal and Tyler were there too, of course. I noticed Rosalie, and Emmett cuddled on the coach in the living room. Automatically I tugged on Edward's hand into the kitchen. Rosalie would for sure notice Edward from the night, a couple months ago in the ally.

People were drawn to Edward, coming up to us off and on throughout the night. We mostly stayed in the kitchen, talking to whoever came by, sometimes we sat on the stairs where it was more quieter for us to talk. "So, how are you?" I asked, finally being able to get a word in tonight.

He laughed. "I'm okay. This is fun. I'm glad I came, Bella."

I smiled. "Me too. It probably would of been ten times worse if you weren't here."

He smiled. "I'm going to get something to drink, do you want something?"

"Coke?"

"Okay. I'll be back in a second."

I nodded and smiled, leaning my head into my hands. I watched him leave, around the corner and into the kitchen.

When people asked, we introduced Edward and I as just friends. Of course, I was the one who said it. When Jasper came up to us, and made some joke about us being boyfriend and girlfriend, I automatically said we were just friends. I don't know why, it just came out. I guess it was because I didn't want Edward to think I was telling people that because we hadn't really talked about it. The moment the words, "we're just friends," left my lips, I couldn't bare to look at Edward. I could tell the energy between us had shifted. I wasn't sure what he thought. I didn't want him to think I didn't want him, because I did, more then anything.

Edward was taking a long time to get our drinks, probably not as long as it felt, but I couldn't wait any longer. So I stood up, and started walking to the kitchen.

I shouldn't of though. I should of waited. Maybe the outcome would of been different if I had of.

I stopped the minute my eyes found Edward. He was standing in the middle of the kitchen, I wanted to smile at the sight of Edward, but I couldn't help but notice another girl at his side. Lauren. She was laughing at something he said, and in his hands.. my drink. He was planning on coming back. So instead of making a fool out of myself, I walked quietly back to the stairs to wait for Edward. He was planning on coming back, I kept telling myself that. Except I couldn't get Lauren laughing at something my boyfriend had said to her.

I sat, and waited and waited. I was sure it had been an hour, but it was probably only a couple minutes. I decided a little look wouldn't hurt. I would walk to the edge of the kitchen, take a little peak, to see if their conversation was close to finishing, and walk back and wait for Edward. I would apologize for saying we were just friends to Jasper. I would tell him I liked him, and everyday I liked him more. I would tell him that I wanted to be his girlfriend and he was the best thing that ever happened to me. That for the first time since my mother had died, I felt happy. I felt like I had a reason to get up in the morning.

Except, I wouldn't get a chance to tell Edward because the moment I turned the counter, Edward was being pulled away by Lauren into the living room. I could see the big grin on his face, his head fell back in laughter as she tugged him away from me. Our drinks forgotten on the kitchen counter. And I couldn't describe what happened after that. I felt hot, I couldn't breath. I started to sweat, my eyes stung. I wanted out of here. So I left. I pushed people out of way, not caring what they thought of me. People called me names as I pushed them out of the way, but I didn't care. Finally, I made it outside. I felt like I could breath again. I leaned my hands on my knees, and took deep breaths, the rain pelting on my head and neck. It felt good. Cold.

I ran to my truck, not looking back. I stumbled a few times, but I always managed to keep my footing. My mind was racing. Maybe I was over-reacting, but I couldn't help it. I was mad, mad at Edward. Mad that he would forget me after everything I've done for him. Mad that he would even talk to Lauren. Mad at Alice for telling me to invite Edward. Mad at myself for wanting to be close to Edward, to being there for him, and helping him and spending money on him.

I wanted to believe that Edward was good, but I could only think that he used me. I got him all cleaned up, fed and showered and he runs to the next girl he finds. I pulled on my hair, I tugged, ripping random hairs out of my scalp. I wanted to scream. I was so mad at myself. And I didn`t care if I as over-reacting.

I sat there, while the rain poured hard onto the tin of my truck, my head shoved against the steering wheel while my breathing went back to normal. I jumped slightly at the passenger door opening. I didn`t dare look over, because if it was Edward, I was sure I would hit him. But it wasn`t him. I felt the small hand rub soothing circles on my back. "What happened?"

I sighed. "Edward ran off with Lauren."

I heard Alice take a deep breath in. "I'm sure it's nothing." She was lying to make my feel better. I could tell by the tone of her voice, she didn't believe it.

"Maybe, but it hurts." I sighed.

"You should talk to him."

I shook my head. "I don't want too. Not yet. Can you get a drive home with Jasper tonight?"

"Sure. What about Edward?"

"I don't care about Edward right now."

"Okay.."

"I'm going to go home." I yawned, rubbing my red, wet, stinging eyes.

"Okay. I'll call you tomorrow. I love you Bella."

"Yea. Bye."And she left. Her feet met the wet gravel, and the door slammed shut behind her. I stuck my keys into the ignition, and I started my truck. I didn't look back, as I pulled onto the street.

Maybe I was being selfish, but I didn't care. Mine and Edward's relationship; I was always the selfless one. I did everything for him. Everything, and he couldn't walk the five second walk back and forth to the kitchen to get me a drink? He couldn't do one thing for me? After everything.

Edward didn't come home that night. I didn't blame him, I didn't except him too. I wasn't sure if he knew I was mad at him, or he chose not to come home because him and Lauren were having sex. I wouldn't put it past her.

I didn't sleep that night.

Okay. Yes, this chapter sucks. Well, I think it does. If it feels rushed, that's probably because it was. I wanted to finish this chapter tonight so I could post it for you guys.

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