Days fly by like the leaves off of a tree and they slowly pass and kill me even more inside. Every time a leave drops to the ground a tear slowly leaks like a plague from my eye down my cheek. My once big heart full of joy and the naivety and innocence to the true horrors of the world seems to have crumbled and died under the weight of such reality. Time and time again I wonder why. You didn't have to be a physic to be able to see the negative dark aurora that constantly surrounded me. Even a blind man could see that I was as miserable as a beached whale was away from the sea.
My father Charlie I believe his name to be. He was not exactly all that happy of late. Though I just barley noticed. My own self pity had already consumed me. Today though he had a smile on his face that even my foul moody self could not erase. The thing that seemed to have saddened even more than my inability to deal happy that he was happy was that I could not remember once in these last 2 years of being truly happy. The notion of unturned, raw happiness was like a foreign language to me. What was he doing with his mouth? What a silly person i wanted to say out loud. What was this fool doing to his face. He looked almost weired. This caught my unbridled attention.
It actually took me awhile to r remember that the curve of the lips in and upward motion was a signof cheerfulness. Had I really let this simple boy who did not want me let me loose my faith in myself? Had I really let him control my life and me a I wanted him to be happy? What about my happiness? What about my joy and freedom? Rage. Yes rage flowed through my veins like a bull seeing red.
How dare that no good, stupid, ugly. mother trucker, skinny ass of a man try to control me. Isabella Swan. I am my own person and I allowed him to dictate me. To dictate and question everything that I had decided to do in my life. How dare he make me feel worthless when all i gave him was my love. My life. How dare he. I barley noticed that I had gotten up and was standing before charlie with a crazy grin on my own lips. My eyes as I looked at them in the reflection of Charlies looked unbridled and out of control. My face so close to his that i could see the different colors of his eyes.
Taking both of my hands and resting them on both side of his face I brought his mouth to mine and gave him a smacking kiss on the lips. Yes on the lips. Charlie instantly turned red and looked a little distorted. I giggled kissed each cheek and whispered.
Thank you for being you. I love you daddy.
Running out the door I saw his smile and tears he quickly wiped off his face.
"I'll be back i have something to take care of."
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