Thank you to:
Tristan Kang: even though it was only to call me a plagiarist (you worm! Actually post something THEN you can start to point fingers acting like your stuffs been plagiarized, please! Like you know what it feels like to have your hard work stolen from you!) I appreciate you took the time to write something
roger
Tokio Hotel Cutie: you'll see
Infinitive-Insanity: Thanks for not making a bigger deal than it is
Decembers-Coldest-Rain: Thanks for liking it so much, flattery will get you everywhere haha
DriftingAwayoo8: Now you have more and thanks
and
Nao.xx: Love your honesty. And that's the good thing about fan-fiction you don't have to write it the way it was intended.
What Happened to Him? Ch. 2
Edwin woke up roughly to an empty bed that he knew belonged to Derek. He started to hyperventilate and tears began to well up in his eyes. He heard a sound come from his left and turned to see Derek on the other side of the doorway. Derek saw Edwin and smiled softly. Edwin ran to his brother nearly tripping twice on his way to him. When Edwin reached his way to Derek's body he started hitting his chest with his own fists but not hard enough to cause any pain to Derek.
"You lied to me; you said you wouldn't let anything happen to me!" Edwin shouted
"I didn't lie!" Derek argued Edwin's claim
"How can you protect me if you're not here?!" Edwin yelled out continuing to cry, resting his head in Derek's chest as Derek wrapped his arms around him.
It actually hit Derek for the first time that whatever had happened to him had to be really bad. Derek knew that at this point he was unable to comprehend just how bad it was. He thought the only thing he could do to calm Edwin down was to agree even if that hadn't been the case. Regardless Edwin was right. How could Derek protect him if he wasn't there? Derek suddenly grasped a great sense of worry for his younger brother. He couldn't help but think 'What if this happens again? What if its worse next time?' Derek never realized when he did it but he found himself squeezing his brother a bit tightly and began to loosen his grip on him.
"No. Don't let go, keep holding me tight." Edwin begged
As Edwin was in Derek's embrace he couldn't help but think back to that terrible time and place. Almost as if out of nowhere memories from the night before came rushing back to him. He remembered the smell of musk and alcohol. The smell that he began to remember the most was the smell of nicotine. Edwin could remember it so clearly he thought he might suffocate from its memory. But then Edwin began to remember where he was and who was touching him. Not lying on his back on a bed, but standing in the embrace of his older brother. Edwin's sense of smell began to become less focused on the memory of the previous night and onto what he was now clutching onto. The sweet smell that radiated from his brother that could only be described as Derek was his saving grace from the terrible reverie.
Derek and Edwin both stayed in this position until Edwin's grip started to loosen and pulled away. Derek didn't want Edwin to let go. He thought that as long as he was touching him he could truly keep his promise and protect him. A twinge of fear began to creep through Derek's body as Edwin let go. Edwin turned and took two steps out of the doorway and into the hallway. Before he could advance anymore Derek grabbed him by the wrist without either boy looking at the other.
"What happened to you?" Derek asked in a monotone voice
"I can't talk about it yet." Edwin said trying to push the memory further away from his mind.
"Well whenever you are ready to talk, I'll be here." with that Derek pulled him into another embrace and kissed him on the forehead.
"Thanks Derek." Edwin said half-heartedly
Derek gave a weak smile and hoped he could do more to help his brother. Edwin began to walk into the hallway and downstairs and into the kitchen to see if he could keep something down. Derek had originally planned to get something to eat after going back to his room but didn't feel like eating anymore. Derek hesitated walking down the steps as to give Edwin some space. After he gave himself a few minutes he walked down the flight of stairs and into the living room. Derek plopped himself onto the couch, reached over to his chair, and grabbed the remote from the arm.
Derek thought he could use something light to watch as to lift the dismal mood his second eldest sibling had left dancing on his chest. When the TV turned on the Powerpuff Girls was the first thing that showed up on the screen. The channel was no doubt left from before George, Nora, Casey, Lizzie, and, Marti left for Casey's waiting boyfriend-to-be, Toby. Casey was pretty sure Toby would be a good boyfriend but brought the part of the family that she trusted to make judgment calls. The Powerpuff Girls were only on for a short moment and seeing as the show was about to end and the screen soon after showed Dexter's Laboratory. Derek began to search through the channels trying to decide what to watch. He saw Ocean's 13 on the listings, turned to it, and began to watch it. Derek looked at the time that read 2:30 PM. It was customary for Derek to sleep in on Saturdays but very rarely had he ever stayed asleep this late.
While Edwin was in the kitchen he walked over to the oversized plastic yellow bowl on the counter about to pick a fruit lying inside the bowl. For some reason Edwin was having an unusual time trying to pick between a banana, a red apple and a white nectarine. For some reason Edwin looked at the banana in disgust which was a bit strange because Edwin had never been one to dislike bananas; it was merely something about the color. He looked upon the nectarine and found himself thinking that he didn't deserve something the same color as white. White was the color of purity and right now Edwin felt about as far away from pure as one could get. He finally looked at the red apple and found it somewhat comforting. He picked the apple up took it over to the sink to rinse it off and bit into the apple again, and again, and again.
After Edwin had finished his fruit he trudged into the living room to join Derek on the couch. Edwin was a bit surprised to find Derek on the couch and not on the reclining chair which he had claimed to be his.
"What are you doing on the couch?" Edwin asked a bit confused
"Watching T.V., what does it look like?" Derek mentally slapped himself for sounding so insensitive
Surprised Derek looked over to find Edwin with a small smile on his face a chuckle escaping from his mouth.
The two boys heard a sound that sounded like a car pulling into the driveway and then keys penetrating the lock on the front door. The door opened with Nora walking through it.
"Hi boys." Nora said in a cheery tone
"Hi Nora." both boys said in unison
Nora quickly ran upstairs to grab another pair of shoes because after all high heels can become a tad uncomfortable after a while. She now realized she should've listened to George when he said 'You know we're going to have to come back to the house so you can switch shoes.' After Nora changed into some slip-on shoes she stopped to see Edwin and Derek sitting on the couch still in their pajamas.
"It's three in the afternoon what are you two still doing in your pajamas?" Nora asked
"We didn't go to sleep until about four thirty in the morning; we just woke up not too long ago." Derek explained unaware of the actual time they went to sleep
"Well alright but could you at least put some clothes on, it's the weekend, you shouldn't spend the whole day in the house in what you slept in." Nora tried to persuade the two
"Alright we'll change. C'mon Ed." Derek grabbed Edwin by the collar of his shirt trying to act normal and keep Edwin's new state of well-being hidden from Nora
As the two walked upstairs Derek behind Edwin Nora walked out of the door and into the car where the rest of the Venturi-MacDonald family drove off to destinations unknown to Derek and Edwin; although before Nora left the house she said they would be back soon. The two went into their own separate rooms to change out of their pajamas. Derek walked out of his room wearing a shirt with the Canadian flag on it reading 'Canadian Pride' and a pair of blue jeans. Derek then walked downstairs and resumed his position on the couch. Soon after Edwin walked out of his own room wearing a blue T-shirt with light blue jeans.
"What are you watching?" Edwin asked walking towards the couch
"Ocean's 13." Derek simply answered
"What part is it at?" Edwin asked trying to ease himself in
"The one dude and the Asian guy met up with that one uptight chick." Derek explained
"Cool," Edwin said jumping over the backside of the couch "mind if I join you?" Edwin finished, trying to sound relaxed and as if nothing was wrong
"Hey it's a free couch, well for us at least." Derek said trying to be humorous
After Edwin had seated himself comfortably in the couch he couldn't help but smile for some reason. And for the moment it was simply nothing more than two brothers sitting on a couch watching a movie. Neither boy said anything to the other and they both sat in a comfortable silence that neither wanted to be disturbed from.
About an hour into the movie the two were now beginning to feel drowsy. Derek was having a hard time keeping his eyes open. His eyes had closed for a few seconds and in those few seconds Edwin's head had drifted more and more towards Derek. Eventually Edwin's head ended up on Derek's knees. Derek's eyes opened up, he looked down, and saw his brother apparently asleep.
Edwin was nearly asleep but realized he was now nearly sleeping on Derek. At this moment Edwin remembered that he was really upset about something but couldn't remember what. He knew it was really bad, he didn't want to remember, he tried not to remember but his mind couldn't help but try to find that missing memory. 'That's right' Edwin thought to himself. It came running back to him, but only the memory not the emotions. The only thing he could feel emotionally was how much he adored Derek.
Derek didn't think to move Edwin from his present position; one he was too tired to really care, two if he knew he was touching him nothing could happen to him, and three he liked the feeling of being an older brother by comforting Edwin even if he wasn't aware of it. Not being able to fight off the sleep anymore Derek threw his head back to let it rest on the couch.
Derek woke up to see that the sun was now almost setting; he was still tired so he closed his eyes again. The next time Derek's eyes opened there was paper in front of his face. Derek removed the taped piece of paper from his forehead and began to read it.
'Derek and Edwin, we saw that you were sleeping so we ordered pizza for you two while the rest of us went out to eat. Don't feel left out, it's that one place neither of you like, so see we actually did you a favor. Pizza's in the oven, Derek don't kill Edwin, Edwin don't lock yourself in the bathroom, and NO PARTIES!!'
Derek used the tape from the paper to attach it to Edwin's head. Edwin felt something touch his head and began to wake up. He saw the paper in front of his eyes. He brought up his head from Derek's knees and sat straight up on the couch feeling groggy. Edwin took the paper off of his head and read it even though his vision was slightly blurred.
"Hear that Derek? 'don't kill Edwin'." Edwin said with his biggest, goofiest smile possible plastered across his face.
"Yup but it didn't say anything about hitting you." Derek said punching Edwin in the arm
"Ow cut it out." Edwin said still smiling
"What? This?" Derek asked hitting him repeatedly
Edwin tried multiple times to block the attacks from his brother but to no avail. Derek kept playfully hitting Edwin using both hands hitting him lightly using one hand as a distraction making his other hand hit him fast on the opposite side of his body. Edwin flailed his arms around failing every time to hit Derek's hands. Both now smiling and Edwin letting out a laugh every now and again. Edwin was able to catch Derek's left hand in his own. This caused Derek to move over him and try to use his other hand. Edwin's back was against the seat of the couch as he caught Derek's other hand. Edwin locked his elbows out so Derek couldn't move his hands forward. The smile that Derek wore began to fade slightly; simultaneously Edwin's smile began to fade as well. Both slowly leaned into one another. Edwin brought his head upwards with his eyes completely shut; Derek brought his head lower, eyes closing slowly. Each boy turned his head to the right so the other would have better access to the opposite boy's lips. The boy's lips weren't even half an inch apart from each other.
"What happened?," Derek said, Edwin having lowered his head in response "last night."
"C'mon don't ruin a moment we're having a good time aren't we?" Edwin tried to change Derek's mind about bringing up the subject
Derek really didn't want to ruin the moment they were having but thought that this was a good a time as any.
"You need to tell someone." Derek said in all seriousness
"No I don't." Edwin said in a harsh tone, letting go of Derek's right hand, and using his palm to push against Derek's chest in order to get out from under him
Derek and Edwin both got up from the couch but Derek took a firm hold of Edwin's left hand, the hand Edwin hadn't let go of.
"Why won't you tell me?" Derek said his own voice level beginning to rise
Derek's question hit Edwin hard. Why wouldn't he tell Derek? He couldn't think of a good reason but just knew he couldn't tell him. Deep down Edwin really did want to tell Derek, but he thought, would Derek think he was a freak? Would Derek never want to touch him again, hold him the way he had the past two days? He couldn't live with that after discovering the feelings he had for Derek, he couldn't go back. He couldn't live to have Derek never take hold of his hand again, or to never hold him again and whisper promises in his ear. He couldn't go back. He wouldn't go back.
"Why won't you tell me!?" Derek said yelling this time causing Edwin to flinch
Edwin slipped his hand out of Derek's and turned to face him, as he turned around there was a tear coming down his face.
"…because,"
to be continued…