I didn't know where I was, but I was on a beach, watching the waves pass by, Eli was by my side, his arms securely around my waist, the ocean breeze swept my hair back and the sun warmed up every inch of me from head to toe. Then it all vanished. Everything, Eli wasn't by my side and it started down pouring, lighting coming from everywhere I looked. The waves so big, they seemed as if they could drown you with one sweep. I tried to get up, but I couldn't like someone grabbed me by my ankles and chained them down. I screamed, but I wasn't heard. Then the scene changed again.
It was nothing, it was all white, and then slowly someone appeared, A girl with long black hair and dark brown Eyes.
"What's happening?" I screamed, tears seemed as if they should be falling down my face, but my cheeks were dry.
"I'm Julia." The girl said, I was confused, then I remembered when Eli took me to the park, he killed a- Julia, also his room, the picture. It was his Julia, the girl that he thought he killed.
"Please, I am so sorry, don't hurt me, I am so sorry for being with Eli" I pleaded, I see why she would kill me.
"Clare, I'm not going to kill you, far from it actually it would be kind of hard-, anyways I had to go through this scary-ass process alone, and I wouldn't even wish that on you, even the girl who stole my soul-mate" Julia looked mad, at first then burst out laughing.
"I'm kidding! Clare lighten up!" I closed my eyes and shook my head.
"Where am I? What process?" I asked trying to stand up once again. This time I could stand, no imaginary chains were keeping me down.
"You're dead" She said shrugging her shoulders. "There is no point in screaming, or crying, because it doesn't bring you back" Julia offered her hand to help me up, I grabbed her hand a got on my feet, I didn't feel different, then again I'm not sure what being dead feels like.
"I'm… Dead?" I asked running a hand through my hair.
"Yup, I saw the whole thing happened, so I waited for you." Julia smiled.
"Waited for me where, where is this?" I asked looking around at the all white canvas.
"Well, this isn't heaven, and not hell, unless you're scared of white…" she said "But where you're going to go is where ever you want, a place called, Grassi" She said linking arms with me.
"Grassi? Like De-Grassi? How do I get there?" I asked looking at her.
"Simple, just run and nothing like De-Grassi, its nothing like your old high school or highschool in general" And with that we took off running, as fast as I could, then all I saw was a town, or a city, with a bunch of people I knew who were dead.
"How did you?" I started to ask,
"It's a dead thing" she said, I saw a huge city with dozens of people I knew- or used to walking around. Julia pulled me over to a bench by a huge fountain and kids playing in it, the thought of a bunch of dead kids made me feel sick, until I realized I was one of them.
"I am going to explain this now, Okay, this is the main town, but you can go literally where ever you want, to the beach, mall, a city, anything. You can also see earth when ever you're at the beach, just look out into the ocean and you will see what's happening with your friends, family, or you can ever watch a concert if you'd like, it's like a big screen TV" she explained
"But-"
"It's sometimes painful to watch, and yes, you definitely can go back down to earth whenever you want you just have to go to the very bottom of the ocean, but nobody can see you. And you can move objects and scare the shit out of someone" Julia smiled, but it soon faded.
"But it hurts most to see someone you love moving on, especially with another girl…" Julia looked down into her lap, where she had folded her hands.
"Julia- I am so incredibly sorry- I would have never-" I said. Julia looked up and gave me a small smile.
"I know you made Eli happy, I am- was okay with that, well I was eventually" she said chuckling.
"It takes a long time to get your mind wrapped around the fact about being dead, and you can't die here, I tried killing myself, but it just doesn't work, but you can still feel the pain" I glanced down and her arm, it had a foot long scar from her wrist up. She quickly pulled down the sleeve of her shirt.
"As I said, It doesn't work"-Julia but her lip-"Do you having any questions?" She asked meeting my gaze once again.
"When, Eli or- any of my friends or family dies- will they come here?" I asked trying to keep my voice steady.
"Yeah, They will- oh you can move on to heaven, but you're stuck there, and usually people wait for their loved ones to die first… I've been waiting for-"
"Eli" I finished her sentence.
"Yeah, but then he found you and didn't commit suicide-" She started again, I could feel my eyes widen.
"What?" I asked in a worried tone.
"Oh he's going to kill me for saying that-" We both looked at each other and started hysterically laughing.
After us both calmed down Julia continued.
"He wanted to die after I did, and he tried drugs, inhalants, CeCe stopped him once, but he tried again and failed. Then the next day, he ran over your glasses, he threw out all but one of his sharpies… The one he colored his nails with" Julia laughed.
"He would always color his nails black, but he would never tell me why, but every time something bad happened, like a fight between us, or his parents, he would remove the sharpie from one hand… And I think every time he took one off, was the closer he was to ending it- his life I mean" She let out a shaky breath.
"When I met him, he only had one nail colored, his pinky, then when I walked in the next day he was coloring his nails" I said and looked up at Julia who had had he lips pressed in a line.
"I saved his life" I whispered. Julia nodded and started crying.
"I am so sorry" I said gently rubbing her shoulder.
"When you're dead, you become extremely selfish" She said, tears still falling.
"I don't blame you" I said in my most sensitive voice.