Okay this is early for me.
I got this book on entomology...and I love I love bugs and I've got an a assignment on entomlogy wich is sooo coool.
so anyway...any problems regarding the story PM me as always.
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"Who were you talking to?" Said the voice behind her.
Sara jumped a mile, what did she do? Did she tell him what she was doing? Or did she keep it secret?
She decided.
"Catherine"

Grissom looked at his wife he knew she was lying. She always rubbed her knee when she wasn't telling the truth.
"You said you'd hurt me?"Grissom croaked coming to sit down beside her. She turned to face him placing a warm hand just above his beard stroking the skin there with her thumb. Locking eyes with him she whispered tenderly.

"I have Gil...I have and I don't want to do it again, our whole relationship has been about hurting each other" Something snapped in him and he flinched from her touch. Then he stood up and looked at her accusingly.

"Well Do you think going behind my back is going to solve anything?"He spat with venom "I don't even fucking know what rights you had snooping around in that box" He stormed off into the the bedroom slamming the door behind him. She'd never ever seen him this angry, he'd never swore at her before he never took his temper out on her. Yes they did have arguments but never this stormed after him only to find the wedged shut against his body weight.

"Do you seriously think that I did it on Purpose?"She yelled through the door She sunk to the floor head in hands, against the door "I thought you would have done this a long time ago" Sara Muttered
"But evidently you spent most of the child's life boozing and smoking on Halloween" She was angry not just at him for being pig stubborn but at herself for making such a stupid mistake. She started this argument.

"Do you have any Idea How hard this is for me?" "A secret I've kept for over 30 years Living with the fact That He could be dead, calling someone else daddy...something I created that is'nt mine" She could hear his voice breaking and feel his sobs through the door It hurt her so much that she couldn't hold him. "the fact that my entire fucking life is a failure and you and Jackson are the only good things that ever happened to me" Gil had it in his head that It was all his fault he blame himself... that he and Becky split was his fault, It was his fault he lost jack.

"Gil, you are not a failure...you never screwed us up" She pleaded, but he didn't listen.
"Sara...I almost got you killed...because I wanted to keep us a secret... I was thinking of me" Every word Grissom spoke was so full of self hatred...that she just wanted to grab hold of him and shake him and tell him that he was wrong.

"Gil you can't blame yourself"
"Then I slept with heather...pretending she was you" He murmured just loud enough for Sara to hear through the door. She was angry...she wanted to scream at him but she knew when he meant. When she said in her words that basically it was over.

"Which is what I did before" He continued talking about before they actually got together "I paid her to pretend to be you" She closed her eyes causing painfully hot tears to fall down her face...she wished she hadn't found that box. It was her week off it was suppose to be happy not an angst rollercoaster. He carried on through the tears "Because I was too fucking screwed up to put all my insecurities aside and tell you that I love you"

He was speaking with no emotion just self hatred and bitterness about himself, talking about the past bringing all those scars that were fully healed; Screaming open. "You Were doing the same with hank pretending he was me...Pretending you loved him when really you were the other woman" Sara had enough she wanted her husband back. Her happy husband who could ramble aimlessly about bugs and still entertain her. The happy husband that all along was a mask covering his deepest scars the one's that hadn't really healed.

"Gil don't do this" She begged as the tears were falling freely, on both her face and his.
"You started drinking because of what I did" Again he continued the bitterness "Jackson was the reason I met you" Jackson was the reason he was like he was.
The bedroom door clicked and opened a fraction. She walked in finding the room totally dark And found her husband in the closet She knelt down in front of him like she would a little child. Grissom's eyes were glazed, tear stained, empty and unfocused as he spoke the words that nearly killed her "The reason why you're better off without me" she slumped down next to Grissom and cried in his arms as he did the same. they rocked against each other soothing what had happened in the last 20 minutes. After the crying ceased Sara spoke.

"Yeah gil your right maybe I am better off without you...but I'm not gonna leave you again" She kissed his nose, each cheek then rested her forehead on his stared in to his eyes, his bright blue eyes, sad eyes. She was desperate to see his smile again. Sara chuckled as she thought of something to cheer him up "I choose you Pikachu" that did it. He remembered the morning they first made love as they lay in post coital bliss watching T.V with the funny looking yellow creature. He chuckled along with her then his smile quickly turned to tears again.
He tried to turn away to hide his tears but she grabbed his face keeping her eyes locked with his "For better or for worse remember" reciting their wedding vows"para bien o para mal" she said in her best spanish.

He smiled briefly then he buried his head into her shoulder.
"I miss my baby Sara" Grissom snuffled against her neck, closing his eyes as tight as he could wishing the tears would stop.
"I know, I know" Sara stroked the soft curls of his head as she promised "We will find him.. we'll get there in the end we always do" He kissed her hard with so much love...so much he started crying again he snuggled back into her neck.

"I'm sorry I-" he choked up "I can't stop crying" because he'd been crying so much he started hiccupping. Her big strong husband so vulnerable and child like. She understood it now. He'd grown up way too fast. He was barely 21 when he became a father, barely a man.
"Come here you big Bug" She tugged him closer kissed the top of his head and hoped to hell that brass had good news.

TBC