Disclaimer: I don't own Terra, Thank God! I do not like her at all! Or the picture I linked!
A/N: Ok so sorry for the really short chapter, but I really had this need to write this and I couldn't make it as long as usual because I simply just can not tolerate Terra. She bothered me when I was a little kid while watching Teen Titans, and she bothers me now. I will acknowledge her being important and all but I don't like her, so I didn't really try my best with this one. I also redid Terra's history or origins so yeah. Better story tomorrow... probably. Also sorry if its a little confusing I tried at least 7 different rewrites of this chapter and this was the least confusing of the bunch.
As a little I guess reward, I found the PERFECT picture for chapter 3, Time Can Not Erase, just copy and the link right here: .com/spots/teen-titanscouples/images/11200391/title/beast-boy-raven-fanart
I sighed, and quickly ran out the door of my school. I walked to a shaded area of my school's property and tried my best to hold myself together. Nobody came out here, and that meant nobody would look for me here. I was safe in my own little corner for the time being, no matter how short it would be. I would be safe from encountering him again, but being safe from myself? Well that's just a long shot. To my dismay my own words started to echo in my head, "I'm just a girl with a Geometry test next period and didn't study," I was right, I can never be safe from myself, no matter how secluded I may feel and be from everyone. Was that the best I could come up with! I know I could do better than that, can't I? I just sent away a world class, super powered teen away with that lame of an excuse, and I couldn't even think of anything better than not studying for a test that doesn't even exist. And for some odd reason I started to tear up, I sympathized for the guy, I really do, but me trying to be a girl I'm not won't help either of us. I'm just human, no special powers, no martial arts skill, just a plain old, normal, teenage girl, and yet he just doesn't seem to grasp it.
But part of me knew that I'm not just any human girl, I am special, just not special enough to be her. I saw a few kids in my school laughing and talking at the other end of the yard. I don't really know them, I could name maybe two of their names, and I'm absolutely jealous of them. Why did they have a chance to be normal, happy kids without having to lie their way through everything? Why couldn't I be part of that. Than out of no where everything started getting hazy, and loose, my body it felt, weak and than stronger than ever before. Something was wrong, I... I was her, in a memory of hers. She or I was feeling confident, on top of the world but I could feel in the pit of all of this confidence was a scared a little girl. But where the hell was I? Nothing looked right, it was dark, and empty and sad. I was or she was wearing something that hugged every part of our body, it felt like I was part of a machine, what... what did she do? The streets were empty, there was only her floating on a rock throughout the streets, and than everything blacked out. What the hell did she do? I felt a little drained, the strength that she had was immense, and the sadness was ten fold of that, but why did she do it?
Another shared memory came up, I was her again, but this time it felt like she just wearing normal clothes, and that feeling of being afraid was nearly gone, she was just happy and laughing. But where was she? It was having her memory, but I couldn't see it. That one past by quickly, and it didn't drain out my energy that quickly. I need to sit down, I started slowly dragging myself to the ground every time a part of myself that touched the Earth gave me something back. Everything started coming back to me, my pasts, her pasts, everything. And for once I felt even more alone than I ever did. She is really gone and sooner or later that would mean I would be too.
I am not Terra, she and I have shared the same body, the same memories, but after what she had done to save everyone she is gone. Her soul no longer remains here, nor do her powers, I am her more human other half. I still share the same connection to the earth as she, but I can not control it. I am, in a sense, the essence or soul of the Earth. With her now gone, I will live on Earth until the day it dies, like the other planet's essences.
I am no longer part of Terra, Terra is no longer me. I am now only part of the Earth, waiting out the days of my death, wishing that I was the one who had died and she was the one who had to wait. She is gone forever. As I was having my little epiphany, the grass roots were wrapping around me, reminding me who I am part of, my duty, and telling me that I can never go. They started to recoil back to the ground slowly. With that I walked back to the inside of my school, acting like who I was before I remembered it all. The happy, normal, teenage girl I so tried to make myself to be. But I know, I know that I am not happy, not normal, I am a disaster, a nightmare, a lost cause. I can not help anyone, not like Terra did. I am not Terra, not any more.
There is no where for me to run, to go to, only back inside the hollow halls of my school waiting this life out. And then my friends called out to me, " Hey, get over here1 We've been looking all over for you," they gushed and started laughing. I put back on the face of a normal girl and headed to my friends.
A/N Ok so how'd you guys like it? And to Phoenix Flight I actually wasn't getting sick of you, your reviews for all of my stories made me laugh, and I promise you I will never quit writing. About the second story where it seems too Percy Jackson like, yeah I know the way it sounded it did seem a lot like Titan's Curse, but I'm taking it in a different direction from Riordan's book. And about Jericho's name in my other story, I was going to explain in a later chapter that his real name was actually Joseph and he only goes by Jericho for a reason I haven't figured out yet, and I was only going to reveal it later on because I wanted to use it as a distraction for Rachel, Vic, and the rest of them to use during a fight Dick has with Babs at a party. And the two new stories I'm working on probably won't come up soon, maybe in a month or two, but not yet.
Review everyone? Please? With a cherry on top?