Disclaimer: Still don't own a thing, not a Beastboy, Terra or the name Raven. Blah blah blah
A/N This is another Terra story, sorry for the people out there who are Terra haters, I am too, but she just has such an interesting story to tell, that it's just hard not to write about it. But to make all of you who are Terra haters, this is not a romantic story per say, I see it as a new begining for Beastboy in his life without her. Hopefully this will be my last story with Terra in it because I simply can not stand her. Oh and every thing that is in Italics, it is part of his letter to her, and not really part of the narration. Also read my note at the end because i have a special message for you guys. Enjoy!
He needed to do this, even though every nerve, every thought every sound he heard all told him not to. It would be easier for him and the others to try and forget the damage that had been done, but that was easier said than done. He missed her of course, her laugh, smile and sense of humor but that has been gone for a while now. He missed how care free he could be with her, and her eyes, but he really missed how he had the sense of being an alpha male with her. He was sways regarded as the young one, not mature enough, but he could be a leader, a protector and with her he was able to let it shine. He was able to protect, and save her from herself so many times, and that's what he truly missed about her. Sometimes it would make him have this terrible pang in his heart whenever he would save a girl, like Raven, though she mostly saved him.
It would have seemed that it would have been easier for him to get over it because all of the times she left, but this time, this time felt it permanent. She could stay in her rocky form forever, and he would just continue on with missing her. But at least doing this he could try to move on slowly, even though what he would write she won't be able to read it, but it was just something that seemed like a good idea to him. It was closure.
He got out a piece of paper and a pen, but for what seems like an hour he just stared at it, not really sure what to write to her. She meant so much to him and he meant so much to her, so why couldn't he write to her? It just blank, no eraser marks or anything just a stark white paper that he knew he needed to fill out with his own thoughts and words. But he wasn't even sure if he should start out with the conventional "Dear Terra" or just say Hi as an opening. The conventional opening seemed to dead to him, to unlike himself, but it also felt like the proper way to talk to someone without them hearing or reading what you said. But saying Hi as an opening seemed to feel like she was still there, alive, just living off somewhere else, But he knew she wasn't and that would just hurt him too much pretending that she was still alive. Both choices had to many cons to them, he just stared blankly at his paper until he found his hand writing something already. He wrote "Terra," that seemed to fit perfectly for this, it was just something and to the point which seemed good to him. And with that words started appearing on the paper from his hand, his sentences felt awkward and shy to him, but that's how the little green changeling was feeling right about now.
Terra,
Hi or um hey, I just wanted you to know that I miss you. Well not only me, the others miss you too, and I mean all of them not just a few of them, even Raven. And this is from the rest of them too, I mean they haven't said it directly but it's just something we all agreed upon in silence, and it's that we all forgive you for what you did and tried to do for us, and that you are a true Titan and a friend, like what it says on the plaque on your base. Raven said she's empathetic for you, that you were just a lost and confused girl, not really sure who to trust. The others agreed with her, and I did a little but you had me. I was always there to help and protect you, how could you not trust me? You knew I was always there for you, all of us would be, I just think that this would have been all avoidable if you just kept your faith in me like I did with you. But you still betrayed us.
His hand and arm started to quiver slightly, and a sharp pang hit his heart where it already ached. It was a sore subject for him, something he was able to forgive, but never really able repress or forget. When that happened she broke him, he stayed so faithful and hopeful for her and she just burned every bridge she built with him, and through all of this he stayed faithfully broken to her, while she for the most part, was just broken.
I was able to forgive you for your betrayal to us, I never gave up on you. I was... faithfully broken, everyone even you lost their faith in you, but I didn't. It's because I always hoped that you were able to make your own choice, without me or Slade influencing your decision, and you did which restored all of our faith in you and with us.
So maybe this was all for the best. Maybe it was to show you that you did have the strength to do what you needed to do for yourself, maybe that's why we met. You know like in the grand scheme of things, I was the person you had to meet for you to find your true strength and confidence, not the brave face you tried to hide behind. Whatever it is I'm just glad that we met, because you were and are my best friend.
He smiled to himself, fang showing and all. This all felt right to him, this is what was needed to be said that hadn't and now he could relax a little. He read it over and over, but every time he read it over it felt less and less like him. Well it did, but it needed something to make it less sad and serious, to make it seem like he was the one who truly did write this.
Now that all of the heavy stuff is over, wanna hear a joke?Why do men like love at fist sight? Because it saves them a whole lot of time!
It wasn't his best of jokes but that's the best he could do while feeling what he felt. But a joke is a joke, and she usually laughed at them, no matter how terrible. Which was another thing he loved about her, her ability to laugh at his jokes no matter how corny, or bad they were, she always laughed. He was over thinking what he wrote as a joke, maybe I should change it he thought to himself, but in his memories he saw her laughing with him, and left the bad joke alone.
Yeah I know that was a pretty bad joke, but I bet you still laughed, well if you could I bet you did. I really don't wanna end this to you like that so I'm just going to tell you something I read on a juice carton a while ago.
If you love something set it free
If it comes back than it was yours
If it doesn't, than it was never yours from the beginning
I don't why I remembered it, just you know stuck with me. I guess it kinda reminds me of you and me. I do love you, your my best friend and I've let you go so many times before this and you've always came back to me, I guess I'm hoping this time you come back too. Not saying you're a piece of property or anything, I just mean that I wanna know that you'll be mine, but not in that sense. What I mean is I want us to be the best friends that I know we could be, and I'll only be able to know this is if you come back to me, like what it said in that little poem.
He signed his name at the end, and held the letter close to his heart. He stayed in his room preparing himself for what the next step in his little plan. The paper was rolled into a very tight cylinder, and tied it a little sloppily with a piece of yellow yarn. He dressed in his civilian clothes somberly and crept out of the tower as an eagle, heading towards the park. He didn't take too much time taking in the beautiful day that was today, or the fact that he was actually flying, like he usually did when he would. Beastboy was on a mission that took in all of his attention, and maybe later he thought he could enjoy life again.
When he arrived at the park it was usually filled with people enjoying themselves, but he was looking for a certain type of person. He was looking for a vendor, more importantly a balloon vendor, but he couldn't find one anywhere near him. He knew they were going to walk near his area sooner or later but he was growing impatient, he needed it to be done right now before he started to attract attention. It wasn't normal for any of the Titans to be out by themselves and the public usually didn't notice until a few minutes later, but when they did, it would usually end in a chaotic frenzy.
And then, there it was! A street vendor with so many colorful balloons, casting a huge shadow on the ground that resembled a bunch of grapes. He went up to the person selling them, the people waiting in line parted for him like the Red Sea, all of them had never seen a Titan so close or even in the their civilian clothing, and all they could do was stare at him and whisper to each other. At first the person was just slack jawed to be up close and personal with the changeling, but soon realized he had a job to do, and sold Beastboy a transparent,blue balloon. When he turned his back on the people he could feel all of their eyes burning the back of his skull, he thought that sometimes people really need some better people skills. It's really rude to stare at someone, even if they are famous and is a protector of your city, sometimes all that person really wants is just your respect and not the stares and rumors.
He took out his little scroll of a letter and tied it towards the end of the balloon. The colors he chose for the string and the balloon were all significant, yellow for her blond hair, and blue that were her sad eyes, and all of this started to make him second guess his small plan . He knew he had to let it go, but he didn't want to, it started to feel like he was saying goodbye to her, and he just couldn't do that.
So he was making his way out of the park, until someone bumped into him and made him let go of the scroll tied balloon. His mind was yelling at him to go catch it, and turn into an eagle to get it back, and not turn his back on her. But he knew in his heart that, it was meant to be like that and sometimes the mind could be wrong of what we truly want. And for what seemed like in a long time he smiled a smile that was just so free, and happy, a smile that portrayed how he really felt. Beastboy knew there was no longer a need to he faithfully broken anymore, he was the one set free now, not her and it is now his choice to come back to her, through all of what had happened to him today he smiled, and was able to feel whole again. Somehow in all of his happiness, he turned into a small, little green dove, and started to fly through the city as carefree and happy as anyone could be.
A/N: Ok so first of all did you like it? And now to the special message. Since it might be a little hard for me to post 365 chapters in a year, I'm asking you guys to help. All you have to do is write a oneshot for this little collection, and email it to me and I will give you all of the credit you rightfully deserve for your chapter that you wrote. There aren't really any rules, but keep it rated K so everyone could read it, because this is a rated K collection, a. If you"re wondering what my email is just go on my profile and click the thing that say email, I would say what it is here but there are privacy filters so I can't. I actually wasn't the one with this brilliant plan, the author Baconbitz told me about it, and I thought it was a great plan, so they will be the first person to have their chapter up here, yay! Anyways if you were wondering what couples not to write about for this, try to stay away from any Slash, or Femme Slash cause I personally don't feel very comfortable reading them, but if it has like the story why the two fell in love or like, than that is perfectly fine with me. Oh and the couple I will never, ever read about is RobRae. If you send that to me i will not post it, but if it is just a friendship story than i might consider it, even though I am a hardcore RobStar person. So review, write and a good week :)
Hopefully you gus will send me some of your work :)