Transformation: New Dawn
Chapter 3: whispers…
A/n: well it is nice to see some of my old fans embracing this one as well as those who are new and liking it anyway. :D
Well, here's another chap. I bet if I didn't have to focus so much on my other stories this one would be top priority….
Well, enjoy!
Disclaimer: I do not own Pokemon, Nintendo does. TurtlesandMonkeys made the Transformation series and its virus, so they belong to her and I'm only borrowing it with permission. Sarah and John belong to Swack16. MEE-YAA!
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Where am I?
There was Darkness everywhere Cindy looked. She saw nothing but blackness…
Soon an object came into her focus. She began to move toward it and saw something she thought she'd never see again.
There was a girl in the distance, a girl with an orange headband, orange jacket, and a familiar face, her hair in a ponytail…
Lina! Cindy began to run excitedly to her old friend, barely noticing that she was running on four legs. When Lina saw her however, her face became on of horror as she gasped and backed away from Cindy. She raised her arms defensively.
"Get away from me!" She called out as she reached for a Pokeball. Cindy then notice that Lina seemed taller the closer she got and she looked at herself and saw that she was still a Quilava. Oh no, Lina doesn't know it's me! "Lina, it's me Cindy!" It sounded like Quilava snarls to Lina and her face grew more desperate as she began to amble away from Cindy blindly, not seeing the pokemon ahead of her…
"Lina look out!" She called out to her friend but it was too late. The pokemon bit her and she began to scream again, the cries piercing through Cindy's body. Lina seemed to crumble and melt away as her body grew smaller and sic tails tore violently from her backside and her eyes became sunken pools of black. Cindy felt anguish pierce through her as the newly formed Vulpix turned and faced her with cold eyes, devoid of any emotion. "Why couldn't you save me…" It said in Lina's voice.
Cindy felt tears sting in her eyes as her voice began to break. "I-I tried L-Lina….I tried….I tried…"
Any sign of sentience in Lina completely vanished as her eyes became even blacker without any definition and she stared at Cindy with those cold eyes, eyes that didn't seem human at all. Cindy tried to shield her self from the unforgiving stare but she could still feel that laser stare piercing her very being. I tried...I tried...I tried…
"Vulpix Vul…" The fox pokemon said with a tone of resentment, and Cindy watched as the Vulpix began to dash into the woods and into the darkness. Cindy began to run but soon stopped as someone else walked between her and the fleeing fox. She saw a girl with light blue hair staring at her with emotionless eyes that soon closed as pink fur began to race all over her body and her ears grew, a tail sprouting from her behind with a thick round end that had three extensions. She shrank and became a Skitty and didn't run at her with the hyperactive attention that Skitty are normally associated with, no, Cindy felt contempt from this Skitty. Umi…
"Why didn't you protect Maku?" She asked and each word burned through Cindy. A boy walked out of the water, turning blue with each step and sprouting fins as he got closer until he became a Mudkip that stared at her with sad eyes. "Why didn't you keep your promise?" .
Maku...Umi...Lina...I tried…
Cindy felt like screaming, wishing that the world would just open up and swallow her. She looked and saw Quilava there, staring at her with burning hatred. Cindy felt her tears stream harder down her face as she hid in shame from all her friends.
I tried...I tried!
And then she looked up and saw a girl with blond hair and blue shirt and jacket staring at her with an emotionless look and dead eyes.
"No, you didn't…" Her former human self said.
All of a sudden, they all just seemed to shoot away into the darkness, leaving Cindy all alone as they disappeared…forever…
NO, WAIT! COME BACK!
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"…Cindy! Cindy, Wake up!"
Cindy was shaking in her sleep, reaching out with a paw, murmuring. "…Wait, come back…come back…"
She then felt a light shock jolt her and snapped her eyes open with a gasp. She panted, staring at the ground when she sensed some movement next to her and turned and saw Sarah, a worried look on the Luxray's face. "Sorry, only thing I could think of…" She said. "You okay? You were shaking and crying in your sleep."
Cindy brought her paw up and felt the wetness on her fur. "I was dreaming…"
Sarah saw her face sadden. "About your friends...right?" Cindy looked down as she nodded. Sarah walked over to her.
"I..I couldn't save them Sarah…" Cindy sniffed. "I..I tried…but….but…."
Cindy felt the tears resurfacing as her voice broke when she started to cry. Sarah looked to the side as she tried to search for the right words. "Now hold on, it's not your fault-"
Cindy snapped her head towards Sarah, a face full of tears and sorrow. "Yes it is! I didn't try hard enough...I led them to that city…I couldn't save them and now they're gone forever!" Cindy put her paws over her head as she curled up and continued to cry.
Sarah only sighed and walked next to Cindy and bent down to her weeping face. "Cindy….from what I've learned, sometimes it feels like bad things happen and it seems like there's nothing in the world that you can do about it…" Cindy began to look up. Sarah continued. "Sometimes you can't…but sometimes…sometimes you just have to pull through and do what you can. I bet you did all you can for your friends and they know that."
Cindy only curled up. "But how can you be sure? They're gone…"
"And we'll find them. " Sarah added. "Remember that thing you keep telling me about it being worse before it gets better or something? Well you gotta stick to that if you want to have any chance of finding them.. You're the one who taught me never to lose hope…"
Cindy sniffled some more. "I guess you're right…"
She then got up and hugged the Luxray. Sarah was surprised at first but soon rubbed Cindy's back with her forepaw.
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..."take care…"…she hugged him…
One dormant soul was remembering their first embrace…
…They all hugged in a group…she blushed at… Chad…
Another was remembering a reunion of friends faded long ago…
…the girl…he tired to protect her…
There were two consciousnesses dormant, buried, sleeping. It was only in dreams that whispers of a memory can truly resurface and run free, but that was all that they were in the mind, whispers…
There was a Quilava…that girl, she had a Quilava…
"Who was she?" He asked.
The Quilava had that girl's voice…
"Who is she?" A gentler voice asked the other.
That one moment of confusion and pain…when he tried to speak…
"Ci-Cindy…Cindy…Cindy…"
Pain rushed both of the dreamers, as if remembering that triggered a reaction of rage and pain.
In the forest, the unconscious Doduo snapped awake and began to squawk in rage and confusion.
Fight it…fight it…fight it!
"…I…I'm trying!" A fair and gentle voice was loosing against the instinct…the other voice still fought….trying to reassure the other, trying to regain a lost identity.
…it was after their battle…Cindy, the mystery girl…no not mysterious…He knew her…
"You're pretty good…."
"…John.."
John? That was his name. He was John.
"DUUUUUUOOOOO!" The left head suddenly squawked loud, the cry resounding through the forest.
"Agghh!…!…Cindy! I…I don't know how long I can…can hold it back…"
There was someone else with him. He was trying to remember.
The little Plusle was curled up in sleep…she came out of the room after being cured…
…Missy was calling out to her as the girl shrank into the body of a Plusle…
"Mary! Mary!"
Mary?
"…Mary?! Mary! Can you here me! We have to fight it!"
"…" There was no answer back.
The left Doduo head turned and pecked at the other head, hoping to get a response.
"Duo!" The head responded. Duo, Duo, Duo…can't…duo duo duo, fight, duo, duo, can't re…..remember…
Raaghhhhh! I'm fading again! Have to….have to fight it!
The Twin headed bird began moving its heads about, squawking loudly. Both heads shuddered and the Doduo began to calm down.
Duo Duo Duo duo duo duo…
These whispers can have such resounding effects.
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"We'll make it right?"
She nodded. "yeah, we will…"
The Vulpix woke up in confusion. It was hearing a loud squawking in the distance, two distinct voices crying out loud. One of the voices had a place in the Vulpix's memory…
"Are you trying to say something?"
"…I'm just warning you that one day that thick head of yours is going to land you into a bunch of trouble one day…"
The Vulpix turned its head in confusion at that. It was some type of memory, yet the Vulpix had no recollection of the event happening in its life, but maybe in the other one…
The Vulpix looked to the moonlight and began to move away from the squawking, whatever it was. The Vulpix began running. There was no mother Ninetales to teach it, so it had to fend for itself. It always had, ever since it was born.
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Cindy was on her back staring at the moon, thinking about her friends.
Maybe there's a chance that they were cured and they're waiting for me…but will they recognize me?
John did. John did and he wasn't even in his full state of mind. Cindy thought about her dream with Lina. She was afraid of me…she knew I let her down…
Cindy rolled on her side. Maybe it would've been better if I had lost my mind…then I wouldn't have to live with the guilt I have…
Maybe she should just…fade away into nothingness…
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A.N: That's a wrap for this chapter. Interesting thought Cindy had at the end of the chapter… The dream was a way to show how Cindy still agonizes about the night in Lilycove, more about the fact that she couldn't do anything about her friends. She feels better if her human self were to go into oblivion so she wouldn't worry about it anymore, probably how most people feel when they loose their minds. May and John had a brief resurfacing, but it was only brief…John is fighting, that itself is evident. The "whispers of a memory line" is a direct reference to my one-shot with the same title. Originally, this dream with Lina only had Lina but then I came back to this and decided to add the others…makes it much more agonizing in that respect….
Well, please review! Jonseycat, out! MEE-YAA!