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Chapter 4

Heaven Was Needing A Hero- Jo Dee Messina

Day 33

Logan was finally at the military cemetery. He put his car in park and walked to the familiar gravestone he had come to know so well. He read the cold stone. Here lies LCPL Kendall Joseph Knight. Logan frowned at the sight in front of him. He sat down in front of it and pulled out the notebook he had with him. He took the pen out of the spiral part and flipped open to the first open page he saw. He started writing, trying to hold back the tears that were close to falling.

I came by today to see you
Oh I had to let you know
If I knew the last time that I held you was the last time
I'd have held you and never let go
Oh it's kept me awake nights, wondering
I lie in the dark, just asking why
I've always been told
you won't be called home
till it's your time

I guess heaven was needing a hero
Somebody just like you
Brave enough to stand up for what you believe
and follow it through
When I try to make it make sense in my mind
The only conclusion I come to
is heaven was needing a hero like you

I remember the last time I saw you
You held your head up proud
I laughed inside when I saw
how you were standing out in the crowd
Your such a part of who I am
Now that part will just be void
No matter how much I need you now
Heaven needed you more

Cus heaven was needing a hero
Somebody just like you
Brave enough to stand up for what you believe
and follow it through
When I try to make it make sense in my mind
The only conclusion I come to
is heaven was needing a hero like you

Cus heaven was needing a hero
thats you

Logan couldn't help but let the tears fall down. Whenever he thought about this song, he couldn't stop thinking about Kendall for hours. He quickly wiped his eyes before he continued writing.

Dear Kendall,

I haven't talked to you in a while. I saw Hayley and Jo today for the first time since your funeral. Jo seems to be taking it well. She cared about you, but her feelings for you died long ago, so I guess that is making it easier on her. She is just heartbroken that Hayley will never know you. She was very sweet today and it amazes me that Hayley can say the saddest thing and not even understand the meaning behind it.

Logan stopped writing. Thinking about his visit with Jo and Hayley made him want to roll over and die. He thought back to just a few hours earlier.

He knocked on the door. Jo answered with Hayley in hand. "Daddy numba two!" She screamed while reaching her arms out for Logan to hold her. Logan smiled and took her into his arms. He looked at her and when he met her eyes, he felt like he was going to lose it. They were Kendall's eyes. He handed Hayley back to Jo.

"Daddy will be right back." He ran into the bathroom and closed the door and allowed the sobs to overtake him. He sat in the bathroom for several minutes before he splashed some cool water on his face and stepped back out. Jo was outside the bathroom. "Oh, I'm sorry about that."

She gave Logan and encouraging smile. "It's okay. I figured that seeing his eyes on her would make you upset. I knew that this visit would be a sad one." She walked up to Logan and wrapped her arms around him. "She's missed you so much. She asks when she can go see you all the time. I didn't want to rush you though, Logan."

Logan gave her a gentle smile. "Thank you. I needed time." She nodded. They both walked back out to the living room where Hayley was quietly playing with a toy tea set.

"Daddy numba two! Tea party, tea party!" She shrieked at Logan.

He gave a small chuckle before he sat down next to her and took a tea cup from the table. Logan watched as Hayley poured him a glass of fake tea and then reached her own tea cup to take a sip. He followed her, feeling silly but knew that she really wanted him to play with her. He hadn't been expecting her to come up and wrap her arms around his neck.

He pulled her onto his lap. "What's wrong sweetheart?" He asked soothingly.

She looked at him. "My daddy died." She said. She didn't seem to quite grasp what that really meant. She hugged his neck again. Logan let the sobs take him over. Hayley rubbed his back like Kendall had used to do when she was upset. "It's okay daddy. That means you can be daddy number one. And mommy said that Daddy is watching over all of us."

He finally was able to control his sobs. He wiped his eyes and kissed Hayley on the forehead. "Mommy is right. You're daddy will always be watching you. He loved you very much." Logan said looking at her.

"Well, I love you!" She said and hugged him again.

"I love you too honey."

He put her down by her tea set. Jo walked him to the door. "I'm so sorry, Logan. If you need anything I am here. And you can see Hayley whenever you would like." Logan nodded and went to his car.

When I left Jo's I knew I had to come here and see you. I don't want to be her daddy number one. I'm suppose to be number two. You were suppose to be here Kendall. We were suppose to be a family.

Logan sighed. He didn't want this letter to be him bitching at Kendall again. He thought for a second before he started writing again.

This song seems to be exactly how I feel everyday. I try to make sense of why you were taken from me. I don't understand it, so me thinking that heaven needed a new hero seems to be the only logic, right? Why else would a twenty four year old be taken from all of us?

I need you so bad right now. I want to tell you how I feel and cry into your shoulder. I want so bad to talk to you. This song seems to help me the most. It leads me to a much needed answer of the one question I can't get off my mind. Why. I guess God figured that you could do more good up there. I'm sure your watching over Katie, James, Carlos, Jo, Hayley and myself and here on this earth you couldn't do that.

While I'm angry and frustrated, I can't help but feel happiness for you. I'm sure that you are happy to be with your mother and father again. I know how hard it was on you when they passed, especially your dad.

Logan stopped writing again. Finally realizing how hard it really had been on Kendall when he lost his dad.

It had been when they were sixteen, right after the trampoline incident. Kendall and Logan were sitting on the couch playing video games, waiting on Carlos and James to show up so they could go to the skating rink to practice for their upcoming season.

The doorbell rang and Mrs. Knight answered the door. Neither of the boys had paid attention to who was at the door, they figured it was one of the neighbors.

"NO!" They heard Mrs. Knight yell. By the time Kendall and Logan were by her side, Mrs. Knight was on the floor crying hysterically.

"Mom, what happened?" Kendall asked in a worried tone. She didn't respond. "What happened?" He asked the two cops standing at the door. Logan had a sick feeling in his stomach. He knew it had something to do with Mr. Knight.

"I'm sorry son, but your father was killed in a head on collision. I'm so sorry for your loss." The cop said with no shred of sympathy in his face. It angered Logan that the cop had no sympathy what so ever for his friend. Kendall hugged his mother letting his sobs out.

Logan spent the day hugging Kendall and letting him cry in his chest. Kendall didn't say a single word to Logan for almost four hours. He just cried, and Logan did his best to soothe him by rubbing his back and wiping his tears away. That was the first time Logan realized he cared about Kendall as more then just a friend.

Logan shook the memory out of his head and then turned his attention back to the note he was currently working on.

But while I'm happy, the bitter and selfish side of me kicks in and is upset that you aren't here with everyone. Katie misses you like crazy. She calls James almost everyday to talk to him about what is going on. She turns eighteen in ten days and doesn't even want to do anything for her birthday.

James said that she misses you and your parents. That her life sucks without her family. I know that we are like her family, but we aren't actual family. James also said that she will cry herself to sleep every night. He is thinking about asking her to come live with him down in South Carolina. He thinks it will be good for her to get away from, if you couldn't have stayed here for me, you should have stayed for Katie and Hayley.

The part in the song above says, "You're such a part of who I am, now that part will just be void." That is how I feel. My heart and soul feel like its been ripped in half. You were the half that completed me and I'm not sure if that half will ever be even partially filled again.

I feel so empty without you. Somedays I go to call you about something that I saw or something I did, only to realize that you won't answer. Then the thought and realization makes me want to die. I still don't fully understand why you were taken away from me, from everyone. But I have to believe that it was for a good reason, because if it wasn't for a good reason then what was the point?

And if you weren't taken for a good reason, I don't think I could handle that.

I less than three you.

Always,

Logie Bear

Logan chuckled. His mind wandered back to when they first started dating. Kendall and him were sitting on the sofa watching some sappy love movie. Kendall was staring at Logan in a very awkward manner. "What babe?" Logan finally asked.

"I less than three you." He said with a smirk on his face.

Logan had a moment of stupidity. "What?"

Kendall laughed. "Come on Mr. Math Nerd. Less than three."

Logan blushed deeply. He should have caught that. "I love you too, Kendall."

Logan smiled to himself before he pulled the notebook back out and added.

P.S- I still feel like an idiot for not knowing what less than three meant as soon as you said it.

Logan walked back to the car, feeling that maybe for the first time, he could make it home without crying the whole way.

End Chapter

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