Me: Zdravo!

Cal: …What?

Me: It means hello in Serbian

Cal: I see…

Me: Anyway so that last chappie was really just background…now for some fun :D

Cal: ;-) FINALLY

Me: So seriously this chappie earns the merit of the M rating so if you're not into that stuff don't continue reading yeah? However if you don't mind it please continue

Cal: Yeah, and since the author of this story doesn't own anything to do with LTM she would really appreciate it if you would just drop a review off on your way out.

Me: He's not lying :D

The next morning Cal woke up to the blinding light of the sun and his liver punishing him for consuming so much alcohol. Cal grimaced as he got up and headed for the kitchen to get his tea ready. Once his tea was going Cal stumbled to the bathroom, opened his medicine cabinet and popped some aspirin with some water. Cal looked at his reflection in the mirror, a worn, defeated looking man stared back at him.

"Today is going to be a very long day."

Cal shook his head, went to his room, got dressed, drank his tea then walked out the door, bracing himself for work.

When Cal got to work he went straight to his office, today was essentially a free day at the Lightman Group, or rather a day with no cases as there was still paperwork to be done. It was like this every year on this day as well as yesterday, the day of and the day after his mother's death. Cal had made sure that he was not to be bothered by anyone unless he was needed to avert a nuclear war, and even then he might not even take on the case. The day went by without incident, however Cal was just a little worried, Gillian usually came in to see him and he hadn't seen her all day. At around 5:30 Gillian walked into his office, it was dimly lit but she could see him give her, her favorite lopsided smile.

"Hey luv, how are ya? I haven't seen you all day."

"Hello to you too Cal, and I'm sorry I had a bit of a rough night last night. What about you? How was your night?"

Cal looked at her closely and he could tell that like him she had been drinking last night, except he had no idea why.

"My night was alright."

"How many?"

It was a question Gillian asked every year, how many bottles had he drunk.

"All in all I had 4 and a half, I was working on my 5th one when I fell asleep."

Gillian frowned a little, he usually only had 3 and maybe on a bad year 3 and a half, but 4 and a half was more than he'd ever had at one time.

"Bad year?"

"I've fucked up more than usual this year."

Gillian sat down on the edge of his desk, the hem of her dress riding up a little, but she didn't seem to notice, however Cal certainly did.

"Cal I have an idea!"

Cal smirked and feigned horror.

"Oh no this can't be good."

"Cal you are going to go home right now and get changed, I'll be at your house in an hour."

Without giving Cal a chance to respond Gillian was out of his office and out the door. Cal found himself smiling as he grabbed his coat and walked out the door. When Cal got home he took a look around and what he saw reminded him of his college days the day after a dorm party. There were scotch bottles scattered around the house and everything was a mess. Cal sighed as he hung his coat up and began cleaning the house, he finished just as it turned 6:25; 5 minutes before Gillian was suppose to be there. He jogged up the stairs and took a shower, not worrying that Gillian would be stuck outside in the cold, she knew where the spare key was. When Cal was done he turned the water off, grabbed his towel, got out of the shower, dried his hair, wrapped the towel around his waist and walked out of the bathroom. When he walked into his room he jumped, there was Gillian, her back to him, looking at his room. Then as if realizing she wasn't alone anymore she turned around and noticed Cal. She couldn't help but look him up and down. He was fairly muscular, his biceps were of a respectable size and she noticed the tattoos that she'd only seen glimpses of. She also found herself wanting to know what the rest of him looked like that is the other half that was covered by his towel. He looked amazing, a few stray water droplets clinging to his chest and his hair, it was all Gillian could do not to jump him.

"Uh sorry luv, I wasn't counting on you coming upstairs, I just wanted to take a shower before we went anywhere."

"Oh, well that's ok, I, uh, I just came up here to help you pick out what to wear seeing as I didn't tell you where we're going."

Gillian smiled then went to his closet and began looking for something for Cal to wear.

"You still haven't told me where we're going."

"Just relax, we're going to have fun. Here try these on, they're perfect."

Gillian handed Cal a dark green half-zip sweater and a pair of blue jeans. Cal took the clothes and placed them on the bed then went to his dresser and grabbed a pair of boxer briefs from one of the drawers. When he turned around again he saw that Gillian was turned around again, he hesitated in getting dressed as she was still in his room.

"Go ahead Cal, I promise I won't peak."

Cal blushed then quickly got dressed.

"Alright I'm done."

Gillian turned around and smiled at him. Then she grabbed his hand and dragged him downstairs. Once they were downstairs she got his coat, gave it to him and did the same with his shoes, scarf and gloves.

"Just where are we going luv?"

"We're going ice skating."

"Uh Gil I don't do very well on the ice."

"Aw c'mon Cal it'll be fun."

"Alright but if I die it's your fault alright luv?"

"I promise you won't die. C'mon let's go!"

"Alright, alright I'm coming."

Cal smiled as he followed her outside to his car. Gillian got in on the passenger side and Cal took the driver side.

"Alright luv, where are we going? I have no idea where the nearest ice rink is."

"First you have to get out of the city, then there'll be this run down looking gate on the side of the road, turn there and then we'll be there."

Cal looked at her a little incredulously then started the car and started driving. Sure enough once he was out of the city there was a little run down wooden gate. Cal turned in towards the gate then Gillian got out, opened the gate and Cal drove through. Once Cal had parked the car he got out and joined Gillian who was waiting for him.

"C'mon it's not too far away from here."

"Luv, I just remembered I don't have skates."

Gillian laughed then held up a duffle bag for Cal to see.

"I brought a pair for both of us. Now c'mon."

Cal grabbed her waiting hand and followed her a little further into the wooded area. A few minutes later they came to a little clearing, a pond of ice in the middle.

"I used to come here a long time ago and ice skate. No one has ever come here besides me and now you."

"It's beautiful luv."

Gillian smiled at him then pulled him to a log where they sat down and put their skates on. Gillian got up, stepped on the ice, and laughed as she skated around the small pond.

"C'mon Cal it's fun!"

Shakily Cal got up from his seat on the log and made his way to the ice.

"I'm not so sure about this luv."

Then just as he stepped on the ice he began to slip and slide, his arms flailing in an attempt to keep his balance. Finally after what seemed like forever he caught his balance and began to SLOWLY make his way around the pond. Gillian came up beside him, smiled and held his hand. Cal looked at her and before he could read her expression she took off leaving Cal flustered and once again flailing in an attempt to keep his balance. This happened several more times until when Gillian came to hold his hand again he didn't let go. Cal turned his head to face her and what he saw astonished him. Her face usually guarded was open and her eyes showed nothing but love. He was so captivated by her that he tripped over his own feet and fell, bringing Gillian down with him. Cal fell on the ice hard but whatever pain there was, was ignored by the fact that Gillian had fallen on top of him, her lips just inches above his and her body pressing against his. Cal wanted so badly to kiss her beautiful, luscious lips but he forced himself to obey her line. He waited for her to get up off of him and end this now awkward situation but she stayed there, her body still pressing against his and her lips just above his. Cal looked into her eyes and noticed that her pupils were dilated and realized that his probably were too. Just then Gillian leaned in and kissed his lips. Cal was at first surprised but he quickly recovered and was soon kissing her back. Gillian grabbed a hold of his jacket then rolled so that he was now on top of her. Cal held himself up by his forearms and they never once broke their kiss. Gillian groaned as Cal's tongue demanded entrance and ground her hips into his, feeling his erection hard against her. Cal gave a low guttural groan as he imagined himself inside of her. Their breath coming faster Gillian began to work at the zipper of his sweater, needing to feel his skin. Cal pulled back from their kiss and stilled her hands.

"Are you sure 'bout this luv?"

In response she leaned up and sucked on his now exposed neck making him groan again.

"Alright then come on luv."

"Where are you going Cal? I want this."

"I know, me too luv, believe me."

"Then what's the problem?"

Gillian was confused, she'd given him permission, saw and felt how she affected him, why had he stopped?

"There's no problem luv, I jus' don't fancy doing this on frozen water. So I thought we'd go back to my place."

Gillian smiled then got up and watched as Cal tried to get off the pond and to log as quickly as he could to get his skates off. Once they were done they quickly got into the car and Cal started driving. The car ride back to Cal's house was charged with an electric tension that Cal and Gillian could barely stand. It didn't take very long to get back to Cal's house, only 15 minutes in comparison to the 30 minutes it took to get there. Sure Cal may have broken the speed limit a couple times but in Cal's eyes the situation called for exceptions to be made. Cal pulled up to his driveway, parked, got out of the car, then went and opened the door for Gillian. Gillian smiled then walked to the door with Cal. Cal took out his key, opened the door then walked inside. Gillian followed him into his house and jumped a little when he touched her to take off her jacket and hang it up. It was literally as if a shock had gone throughout her entire body when Cal touched her.

"Why don't you go upstairs and uh make yourself comfortable while I lock up alright luv?"

Cal said as he kissed her gently on her neck. Gillian nodded then went upstairs to Cal's room. When Gillian got to Cal's room she sat on the bed and started to shake. What if she didn't please him? What if she wasn't good enough? What if she messed up? What if... Just then Cal walked through the doorway and he immediately knew something was wrong. It was written all over Gillian's face, the fear, the shame, Cal saw all of it.

"Luv?"

Gillian jumped when she heard Cal's voice.

"Luv what's wrong?"

Gillian looked up at Cal, wringing her hands and biting her bottom lip.

"Cal, it's just...well what if...I don't want...

Gillian couldn't form a single sentence, she was that nervous, she Gillian who always had everything under control could barely form a single sentence.

"If you don't want to do this Gill then I'll just go and get the couch ready and sleep down there."

"No Cal it's not that, I want this, it's just what if I...what if I don't...what if I screw up? W-what if I don't please you?"

Cal was shocked and for a moment all he could do was stand there with his mouth hanging open.

"W-what if you don't please me? Why the bloody hell wouldn't you? You're all I've ever wanted. Who got that into your head?"

Gillian just looked down and away.

"Was it Alec? It was Alec wasn't it?"

Gillian gave just a hint of a nod yes.

"He said that I never did anything right, that I always ruined it for him, that it was because I was so bad in bed that he cheated on me."

Cal's nostrils flared, his blood pressure rose and his hands tightened into fists.

"That bastard, that son of a bitch! Who the fuck does he think he is to tell you that? Where is that dirty, lowlife fucker, I'm going to find him and beat his ass until he regrets ever saying that to you!"

Gillian flinched at the sight of Cal. She'd only seen him loose his temper a few times and it hadn't ended well for the people he'd been ticked at. It took a lot though to send Cal over the edge like that and although part of Gillian was a little scared of what Cal might do another part of her was intrigued that all it took was for someone to bad mouth her and Cal would come ready to take someone's head off. Gillian couldn't believe that she had denied that she'd loved Cal for so long. Seeing Gillian's reaction to his rising anger Cal forced himself to calm down. It took him a few minutes to get his heart rate back to semi normal, and push the anger back to a place Cal reserved especially for Alec. If Alec ever provoked Cal and there was a fight Cal wouldn't try to stem the flow of anger that he kept purposefully bottled up inside of him, no he'd give Alec a full taste of his fury. Cal sighed then opened his arms to Gillian.

"Come here luv."

His voice was no more than a whisper but Gillian still heard him and walked into his waiting arms. Cal wrapped his arms around her warm and amazingly sexy body and breathed in the smell of her hair. Gillian immediately felt safe when Cal wrapped his arms around her. She knew that as long as she was with him he'd do anything to try to keep her out of harm's way. They stood there for a while in a silent embrace, somewhere during that time Gillian had begun to cry Cal simply leaned in and kissed her tears away. After Gillian stopped crying Cal realized that what Gillian really needed was for him to show her that there was no way in hell she could do anything but please him, that no matter what she did he'd be happy so long as she was. Gently Cal began to plant feather light kisses on her jaw line, neck and shoulder.

"Cal I…

"Luv you can't really expect me to go and sleep on the couch now and leave you the way you are, do you?"

Gillian realized that Cal was not going to leave her tonight and that was good since even though a part of her was scared she'd ruin everything the majority of her had been waiting for this to happen for a long time. Cal continued to plant feather light kisses on her throat, kissing his way up to her lips. As he reached her lips Cal kissed her with a passion Gillian knew Cal had only for her. Cal's tongue demanded entrance and she had no choice but to comply. As he began an exploration of her mouth Gillian felt as if he was tasting the very essence of her soul and she moaned with desire. Cal brought his hands to her waist and spun them so that her back was now against the wall. Gillian was returning his passion and Gillian found herself thinking how they should both be rid of their clothes. Cal seemed to be of the same frame of mind as he began working at getting Gillian's shirt off. Gillian broke from their kiss just long enough to pull her shirt over her head, throw it into a corner then resume kissing Cal and work on getting his shirt off. Cal was pleased with the new amount of bare flesh he had access to and he found himself having a harder time controlling himself. Cal quickly got rid of Gillian's pants, underwear and bra so that she was left standing completely naked and Gillian had made short work of his pants and boxer briefs. With her back against the wall Cal slipped his hand down between her legs and started massaging her clit. Gillian gave a little gasp then continued to moan as Cal continued his administrations. Cal could tell that in her emotionally exhausted state Gillian wasn't far from climaxing and the way she was gasping for air and moaning his name was taking him past arousal. Next Cal slipped a finger inside of her and then another, thrusting into her with his fingers in time with his kisses. Moments later Gillian arched her back, dug her fingernails into his shoulders and called out his name as she came. When she finally came back down she rested her forehead on Cal's shoulder and he gently nipped at her earlobe causing her to moan a little. Gillian looked down and noticed Cal's cock at full attention. Hesitantly Gillian reached down and gently surrounded his cock with her hand. Cal gave a moan and Gillian jerked her hand back, scared that she'd done something wrong. Cal looked at her fearful face and cupped her face in his hands.

"Gil what do I have to do to make you believe that there is abso-bloody-lutely nothing you can do that won't get me hard for you?"

Gillian tried to look away but Cal wouldn't let her.

"Luv all you have to do is look at me and you can tell how much I enjoy what you do."

Gillian looked nervously back at his big and erect cock. Cal took one of his hands from her face, brought it to one of her hands and guided it to his aching cock. Cal's breath hitched as she gently surrounded his cock with her delicate fingers. Gillian began moving her hand up and down his shaft sending bolt after shocking bolt of pleasure through his groin. Cal buried his face in the crook of Gillian's shoulder and kissed her neck. A short while later Cal began thrusting erratically into Gillian's hand. Gillian paused, waiting to see if he'd tell her to stop and tell her that they needed to take this to the bed. However Cal didn't tell her to stop, he wanted her to do what she wanted so that she would know that he was perfectly fine with what she had decided to do, so instead he groaned and sucked on her neck. Gillian gave a small smile then continued her hand job and then after a short while longer, with a grunt he came. Cal's breath was ragged and he was still seeing stars but even in his blissful state he could finally feel Gillian relaxing.

"That, was amazing luv. See I told you there is absolutely nothing you can do that won't please me."

Cal pulled his head from the crook of her shoulder and smiled at Gillian. She smiled back at him and reached up to cup his face in her hand.

"Thank you Cal."

"For what luv?"

"For showing me that Alec was wrong and you were right."

"Really luv you should've known, I'm always right remember? Besides to be honest I think Alec told you that because there was no way he could last very long inside of you. It probably made him feel like a bloody virginal schoolboy."

Gillian laughed at that and Cal smiled a bigger smile. Gillian was somewhat surprised to see Cal this way, he was usually so guarded, but tonight it seemed like his was trying his best to be completely open with her.

"What is it luv?"

Gillian smiled, Cal had his head cocked to one side and he was staring at her in a way almost everyone else hated but her, the way he looked at people when he couldn't make out what they were thinking.

"I was just thinking about how you're completely unguarded tonight, I appreciate that."

"It's a good thing you appreciate it too because quite frankly luv I'm only doing this for you and it is an extremely hard thing for me to do."

After standing there for a few minutes, staring into each others eyes Cal took Gillian's hand in his own.

"Fancy taking a shower luv?"