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Chapter 2
We walked toward the stands which were practically empty now,
"So Bella have you always been interested in driving?" Jasper asked, Emmet started laughing and I glared at him,
"No, not really. More of an obligation, Emmet didn't either though, until I went away and stopped whipping his ass" I smirked; it was Emmets turn to glare.
"So there was sibling rivalry?" Jasper enquired, wickedly amused by our little glaring competition.
"Na, not really I was the more mature one and let Emmet have the lime light, I went to study" I said, Emmet nodded until he heard mature,
"Hey! I can be mature!"
"Yeah like last night when you danced to the title sequence of SpongeBob" I said sarcastically, Emmet blushed, Jasper laughed. Suddenly Jasper stopped laughing and a huge grin lit up his whole face, his eyes were sparkling,
"Alice!" Jasper jogged up to her and hugged the small woman to him, I heard a very bell like giggle and then Alice look over a Jaspers should and her eyes landed on me and Emmet,
"Who are your friends?" Alice asked, her voice was so light and excited I was momentarily shocked, how could someone so small be so…hyper? She skipped over to us Jasper in tow; I don't think he minded though, his eyes held amusement and love. Love for Alice.
"This is Emmet and Bella" jasper said, smiling at us,
"Hey" Alice said extending her hand to Emmet,
"Sorry to hear about your injury, I never did like Vettle, just a weird feeling ya know?" Alice rattled on and I smiled at her enthusiasm, she shook Emmet hand and I knew he was making and effort not to use his full strength,
"And you must be bella, love the hair" I smile and shook her hand,
"And you must be Alice, Jasper's gone on and on about you, non-stop, for hours. And I like your hair" our hair was very similar but Alice's was more sophisticated mine was just wild, I didn't particularly care.
"I did not!" Jasper protested, embarrassed, Alice smiled knowingly,
"You did Jasper, it was a three and a half hour speech and don't tell me it wasn't that long because you forced me to listen! Oh and Alice I like border terriers too, Jasper never did get to that part after your dog ate the frog, was biscuit ok? You'd think he'd get a stomach-ache or something, frogs can be nasty" Emmet elaborated.
Alice grinned,
"Yeah biscuit was ok, got run over by a bus a few weeks later but you know, what can you do?" Jasper looked embarrassed but intrigued all at the same time.
"Alice do you know where Edward is?" Jasper said, I'm pretty sure just so that Emmet couldn't come out of his momentary distraction and tease him.
"Um…" Alice seemed to think for a while,
"The last time I saw him he was running away from Tanya and Lauren, but I haven't seen his since" Alice said, Emmet chuckled,
"I can so imagine that" Emmet said,
"You imagine my brother chased by girls?" Alice raised one delicate eyebrow,
"Um…"
"ALICE!" we all turned to see a frantic bronze haired man running up to Alice, he hid behind her at a blinding speed and looked petrified,
"Hide me" he said through gritted teeth,
"Stalking you again?" Alice said, inspecting her perfect nails,
"No, it's not like they do this every time I'm in the same continent" Ah sarcasm I could get to like this guy,
"Edward?" huh? Emmet sounded as confused as I felt, was that really him? I mean same hair colour and everything, but Edward had these eyes…
Edward turned around and I bit my lip, there were they eyes, a striking green so potent that they are impossible to miss.
"Dude seriously, you're hiding behind Alice, why not hide behind me I'm scary"
"Or Bella" Jasper coughed, I got it now, Emmet wasn't confused over Edward, he was confused over Edwards actions.
"Well what can I say, I enjoy the kill" I said, Edward was staring…at me. I sorta felt uncomfortable.
"Yeah, I guess that when you evil laughed the whole way home after the shooting practice" I glared at Emmet,
"That was the best day of my life can you blame me?" Emmet rolled his eyes but was grinning he conveniently left out the part where he cried when I accidently shot a real bird not a plastic one. I mean seriously, why do they make them so realistic?
"You've changed" Edward stated,
"I should hope so" I said, Edward seemed taken aback by my abrupt backfire; I wasn't the shy little girl anymore.
"Yep my lil sis has all grow up, won't even watch Scooby-doo with me anymore, it's sad. I miss that bonding time bells" I scoffed,
"You were fine without me for the past 5 years" I said offhandedly, we got talking and finally decided we'd all go out for a walk later that evening, Emmet had to go pick up some medication so Jasper and Edward went with him and Alice came with me.
"So you're engaged?" I asked Alice, as soon as I mentioned it her face lit up much like Jasper's had,
"Yeah, I never thought I would marry, ever no one would put up with me, but then Jasper came along and he wouldn't leave my side, I think you were there when we first met" I looked at Alice in shock,
"I don't remember" Alice laughed,
"The only reason I remember you is because Edward wouldn't shut up about you the whole ride home, it got a little tedious" I blushed bright red, Alice was amused by my reaction,
"Do you think you'll ever marry?" I scoffed,
"Defiantly not, I can't even deal with guys at the moment, they're all ass holes, minus Jasper he's ok" Alice grinned,
"You're wrong, I know another guy who loves you bella, very much" I shook my head,
"No guy loves me Alice, I'm me" I stated like it was fact, I came to terms with that long ago. Alice gave me a sceptical look,
"Bella, c'mon look at you" I shook my head,
"I'm not normal enough, apparently" I said bitterly,
"Bella what are you talking about?" I gave her a small smile,
"I'll tell you when I know you a bit better ok? It's a really draining story" Alice nodded without question.
"C'mon I want to torment Emmet" Alice gave me an evil grin I didn't think she had it in her to display. Well, I guess I see a wonderful friendship blooming.
Emmet's POV
"I can't believe Bella did that!" I said gritting my teeth,
"I'd thought you'd be happy for her" Jasper said calmly, as usual,
"I am, but damn! Her first frickin' race man! She didn't even have a proper test run, she hasn't been in a F1 care for years" I shook my head,
"Wait…it was Bella out there?" Edward said, I nodded I could see his eyes darken and get angry,
"You let Bella race on a track full of maniacs! One of which seems intent of paralyzing you?" oh god,
"Look I needed someone to drive for me and Bella was always a natural…"
"You never told me she drove!" Edward was really firing off now,
"I don't see why you care, she my sister! What's that got to do with you! I've never understood why you always asked about her, it's weird man, no other guys asks about his best friends sister" Jasper kept shaking his head at me, telling me to stop but I didn't I really didn't understand, they seemed to though. Edward got this far away look in his eyes and my for head wrinkled,
"What'd I say?" Jasper slapped hand to his forehead,
"If Alice was here, she'd hang you"
"Nah, I too scary" I laughed,
"Ok then Bella would do it for Alice"
"Holy crap don't even joke about that" Jasper gave Emmet a confused look,
"What wrong with Bella?" Edward re-joined the conversation,
"There you go with the interest again Eddie boy, weird, and bella can be scary as shit, trust me" I shivered,
"For example last night, all I said was "Hey Bells, when you gunna settle down?" and she went all ninja on my ass, it was all roundhouse kicks, turning kicks, uppercut punches, and cross jabs! It was terrifying!" Jasper was laughing, clutching his side,
"Who would've thought that little Bella would do kick boxing…or F1 driving…what else does she do now?" Emmet cringed,
"Well she takes out random guys" I added tentatively,
"What?" Jasper and Edward said in unison,
"It was that damn psy- no I said I wouldn't" I shook my head and held my toung.
Bella's POV
"We are evil genius'" I said proud of our work, Alice wiped her hands on the worn rag,
"I'd have to agree, Emmet's gunna kill us" Alice said giggling, I nodded,
"I wouldn't count on it, he's still scared after the last time I whipped his ass" I said, yeah yesterday you'd think I'd feel bad about beating up my brother who's on crutches but no, meh, I guess I'm gifted with a lack of conscience.
"There coming!" Alice stage whispered and we saw Alice's porch coming up the drive, Jasper driving, we his behind the trees.
"He better be careful with my baby" Alice warned her eyes narrowing at her soon-to-be husband. I laughed under my breath. The car came to a standstill and Emmet hopped out, and clicked towards us, his jaw dropped and I saw Edward hiding his amusement,
"WHAT THE FUCKING HELL HAPPENED TO MY FRICKIN' JEEP!" you see me and Emmet have that in common, swearing repeatedly in the same sentence when annoyed, angry or aggravated.
Me and Alice came out laughing,
"Oh Emmet, that was payback for forcing me to race" I said sweetly,
"I didn't force you!"
"You used blackmail! You said I'd have to go ahead with the arranged marriage for fucks sake!" I covered my mouth, why can't I keep my mouth shut,
"Well done Bells" Emmet muttered,
"Thanks for that, hope you like the car, SEE YA!" I dashed for the house; I swiftly ran through the door and closed it behind me,
"Bella don't leave me out here with the guys!" Alice whined through the letter box flap, her puppy eyes pleading through the slit in the door. i got down at her level,
"Back door" I whispered, Alice grinned,
"I'm going to the garden then, if you're going to be nasty and leave me out with the idiots" I had to applaud her acting skill, I really did.
I found my way to the back of the house and unlocked the patio doors, and let Alice in. I couldn't believe after a few short hours I felt like the little pixie was my best friend.
"How do you put up with them all?" Alice breathed, she looked frazzled.
"You've only lasted five minutes Alice" Alice nodded, and swallowed,
"5 minutes in hell, they never stop talking…about stuff I really don't need to know, like what Emmet-" she gulped and I patted her shoulder,
"It's ok Alice, I'm ok with it because in many way I act like a guy, had no choice with a brother like Emmet, then there's my dad, and Michael, and Alec, and- yeah let's not go into that" Alice gave me a sympathetic look,
"It's ok, I liked the martial arts lessons, and my own tool kit, meant I could hit Emmet with a spanner at will" I shrugged,
"I'm thinking of getting you a pink one, you know for self defence against my brother and his non-filtered conversations" Alice smiled and nodded,
"I still can't believe what we did Emmet's jeep!" She squealed, we had painted it pink, well, more like got the left over pink paint that we had from when Emmet thought I wanted my room pink, then had to go and get black instead. Anyway, we got those four tubs and chucked them on his jeep, they would wash off but not for a week, and then Alice carried around little stick on jewels and we decorated it to say "I totally love SpongeBob and my awesome sister!" I was proud of that, it was great.
I walked up stairs and motioned for Alice to follow with my hand, we made it to my room,
"Bella?" I turned to Alice,
"Yeah?"
"Are you Emo?" I was momentarily stunned,
"Um no, why?" Alice shifted, I entered my room and sat on my bed. Alice was looking around wide-eyed as she made her way over to me and sat beside me on the bed.
"Well, there's your hair…" my hair was cropped short, Alice's length but my swooped to the side slightly and was spiky and wild, the under-layer was dyed a teal blue colour and had a few streaks of the same blue through the front of my side fringe. It wasn't really emo; I just liked the style,
"And then there's the way you dress…" I looked down, under my overalls I wore black jeans that weren't originally ripped but were now, and a deep blue V-neck, just casual you know? I mentally shrugged,
"Then there's your room…" it was painted black from when I was a few years younger, true but I never bothered to paint it and I was in a bad way back then.
"And then I notice, that-" she pointed to my bare arms I looked down and swore, my arms were covered in deep, white and pink scars. I flinched at the memory, they had been deliberate, and I went into a sort of daze,
"They had said to me, "down the street bella, not across the road" they said it would end it all, I believed them I really, really did" I bit my lip and looked away from Alice, and out the window where I could look over the hills and image my perfect life. I knew it was too farfetched but I liked it, but it did mean I suffered permanently disappointment in life.
"Bella, don't listen to them ok? You've got me now, and I don't want to lose you"
"Alice that was months ago" I said to her, gently,
"They still look sore"
"They're worse on my stomach" I said offhandedly, Alice hand flew to her mouth,
"Bella, you seem so happy, with Emmet, and Jasper you are happy aren't you?" I shrugged,
"Sorta, better than I was, there was too much shit going on, I'm sorry I shouldn't be bombarding you with this" I shook my head, ashamed,
"I haven't even told Emmet, or dad, or Alec, Jane knows but I'm not going to tell people that don't notice, they don't care enough" Alice flinched at my words,
"Bella they do care they're just men" I shook my head,
"Edward noticed, when we were in high school" I said,
"He didn't push me, he waited but I ran away, he never knew why, or what happened to the family" I was, once again, ashamed with my behaviour.
"Oh Bella, he does care, I promise its just hard for him to show it, he's used to helping other people with their feelings, not dealing with his own" I looked at her,
"What do you mean?"
"Well Edwards a Psychologist and-" I shook my head,
"No, no, no I can't talk to him, I have to go Alice I'm sorry" I ran out of my room and out the back door, I flew through the garden and to my bike that was parked in the garage out back, I hopped onto my BMW K1300S, I loved it more than my family at times, and friends, my bike was the only reliable thing in my life. I took good care of it in return, it could go up to 200 mph if rode in the right conditions that it.
I sped passed the guys out front who were sat on the grass casually, my helmet was on and I kept my face hard,
"Bella?" Emmet called,
"BELLA!" he yelled, he had a right to be worried, last time I ran off I ended up in Spain for five years. I closed my eyes momentarily and took a deep breath, I heard another vehicle approaching and opened my eyes, not that I had swerved even slightly but it was better to be safe than sorry. You couldn't see my arms under my leather jacket; that was a plus. I pulled up outside Alec's house, sure there was a misunderstanding of feelings but he was still a good friend, and I needed someone to talk to, mainly his sister but I lost her number all the time, I break my phones a lot, ok?
I drifted onto the curb, yanked my helmet off and lay it on the seat, storming up to the front door. I knocked swiftly on the door, my hand agitatedly pounding against the polished wood. I gave an exasperated sigh when no one came to the door, no lights were on, and no cars were parked out front. Great. I knew Emmet would come here to look for me so I hopped back on my bike, helmet back in place. Gunning the engine I raced off again, going nowhere in particular.
That's when I saw it, a big skip truck speeding far too fast down the narrow lane, a small little beetle coming out of the T-junction that the residents near by kept on saying that either a mirror or traffic light needed to be put into place, the government never listened or the neighbourhood committee, why would they? They get paid to do nothing, why exceed that nothing? They collided with a sound so earsplittingly high that my eardrums felt numb, the tension in the air was almost unbearable as I clutched my head. I should have done something, anything but what could I do? I couldn't do anything they had said so.
The beetle was completely mangled, the man from the truck got out and went to the side of his truck were the beetle had collided with him, he was stood there desperately trying to prise open the passenger door, and then I noticed the skip wasn't held by chains or any support and excruciatingly slows fell away from the truck bed, creaking slowly, the noise reverberated in my ears, my head, now engraved deep in my memory, the yellow skip leaned further, about 40 degrees now,
"MOVE IDIOT!" I shouted, tears springing to my eyes, he looked up just as the skip fell on him and the front part of the beetle, I screamed as blood oozed out from under the skip, the man's arm just visible under the hunk of mettle, a glint of white bone splintered out of the outer flesh, I squinted my eyes shut.
"NO! NO! NO! That's not fair!" I screamed at the top of my lungs, I fumbled with my phone,
"What service do you require?"
"Everything!" I shouted,
"Calm down" I operator said calmly,
"YOU'RE TELLING ME TO BE FUCKING CALM WHEN- UGH!" I hung up and called Dad, he should be with Michael. My hands were shaking, damn it, my whole frickin' body was shaking.
"Bells?" I let out a shaky breath,
"Dad I need you here, I'm at Michaels house, don't come through the root that is near the lake ok? Promise me you won't" I begged, tears streaming down my face, this was too similar.
"Ok Bells, be careful ok, don't talk to the strangers and hide somewhere safe, up a tree, and remember safe sex, still carry around-"
"Yeah dad, got the condoms and pepper spray" I said automatically, wiping my tear stained cheek with the back of my hand.
"Be careful" Dad repeated before I hung up. I held my knees to my chest as I sat on the edge of the curb.
"Are you ok madam?" I looked up and saw Dr. Carlisle Cullen, he had helped me briefly when I was in a bad way, he smiled warmly but I could see the worry in his eyes though. He still called me madam even when I bit him and stabbed him with the sedating needle that had been for me. I mentally shook my head, endless manners. I knew Edward's mum, Esme had a little crush on Carlisle, I never said anything though, no one knows I know, but I do. I was a nosey teenager.
"I am, well better than I was, Carlisle what can I do?" I started crying again, my lip quivering,
"Bella, what's the matter?" he said calmly, I pointed down the road without looking at the horrific sight again,
"Oh dear lord" I heard Carlisle say,
"Bella are you ok? Are you sure you're not hurt?"
"I just stood here, watching, I should have done something, I could have done something, ANYTHING!" I broke down, I kept getting flash back from now, years ago and my own dreams that had been fictional but still haunted me nightly.
"Bella, listen to me, nothing you could have done would have saved them and kept you alive ok?"
"I should have died then, saving people that deserve living! They told me I didn't deserve to live Carlisle! They said!" Carlisle soothed me and rubbed my back,
"Bella have you called your dad?" I nodded,
"I saw Edward" I blurted out, Carlisle was momentarily shocked,
"He's been asking for you for a while" Carlisle said gently,
"So I've heard" I shut my eyes,
"I'm friends with Alice now, his sister, I told her too much I ran out and ended up here, I should call Esme" I said absently, Carlisle's eyes twinkled,
"Esme? Do you have her number I could call her for you…" I nodded and handed him my phone, Carlisle didn't hesitate to enter my pin, he knew the passwords to my phones, iPods, computers, e-readers, house codes, everything, literally, even my bike chains and tool boxes, I had given them to him stating that I broke down frequently and I couldn't usually remember codes, it made sense he knew them. He knew everything else after all, literally he knew more about me than I did, I used to know who I was, that was when I was 7, and all knowledge slowly faded away after that, I did what was practical.
"Esme?" Carlisle said, his voice sounding authoritive, I usually made fun of his telephone voice, right now, I didn't have it in me.
"Yes, Bella said you should be called-"
"She is….yes I think she does need you-" Carlisle looked at me, I nodded,
"She talked to your daughter for the first time today-"
"No I don't think she did anything but Bella left the house abruptly and she needs you here, she needs support and I need to leave and find help, but I can't leave her alone"
"Ok, were by the lake…yes…soon…goodbye"
I looked up at Carlisle,
"What were you doing here anyway?" I asked quietly, innocence creeping back in. under the façade I was too angelic and shy to do much else but innocent act that were in my comfort zone.
"I had to find you and was driving to your garage but found you here" it was helpful sometimes, the set out of my life and where I go. If you start at my house and drive east then you go past Michaels house, Esme's house, my garage and the cemetery, the four most likely places I'm most likely to be in if I'm not home.
"Bella, sweetheart?" I looked up and saw my dad and Michael, both their eyes landed on me, then Carlisle and then down the road.
"Not again"
Hope you liked, sorry if it was sad, or depressing but I did label this drama :D ok review at will, happy reading,
Sasha XxxX