I know it has been FOREVER since I updated this story. I have been working on my story Incentive for a little over a month now I think, and it is hard finding time to write more then one. I will try to get this one updated a little more often. Please Review
BELLA POV
Two days have passed since my transformation. I feel like I've drank the blood of the entire forest. My eyes are also beginning to shimmer and I am the palest one in California. I looked up vampires on the internet, but I mean, can you blame me? No one is around who is like me to help me deal with this. It said that vampires are supposed to develop super strength and speed. Well I guess that new part of me hadn't developed yet. It also said that the first month is the worst where thirst is concerned. Then you start to be able to control it better. I still cursed whoever did this to me. And I wasn't going to stop until I found out. Well, I had the whole rest of eternity to do it. I had decided to run away from home for the first two months of my transformation. I couldn't bear to hurt anyone due to my bloodlust, and these past two days have been unbearable. Before I left, I grabbed a few things at home (like the laptop that I looked all that up on.) and wrote a note to my family.
Dad, Alice, and Emmett,
I have to leave for some time. I'm okay though. I can protect myself. Please don't come looking for me.
Love you and hopefully see you soon,
Bella
It was short and to the point. That's how I like it. I couldn't tell them about my condition just yet. It would be a lot to bear to have my entire family scared of me. I also stopped and left Edward a note while he was at school. Saying goodbye in person would be too difficult for both of us. Just hearing his voice and seeing his face would have made leaving 1000 times harder. I mean, yeah its only two months, but its also two whole months to be alone and have no one to confide in. I was leaving for two months rather then 1 just to make sure I have this under control. I left Edward a note on his bed.
Edward,
I'm going to be gone for the next 2 months. I can't bear to hurt you or any of the other people that I care about. So I'm taking this time to make sure I have everything under control. I'm going to miss you so much, but I can understand if someone sparks your interest while I'm gone. If not, on April 23rd at 11:00 a.m. meet me at the park where our parents first brought us together when were younger. I will miss you and I love you.
Bella
It took all I had to give him permission to see other people. I couldn't make him wait that long for me when we had no connection whatsoever. I couldn't have brought my cell phone because everyone would call me asking where I was or they would track my cell phone. So for the time being I was a loner.
EDWARD POV
I walked into my room and dumped my backpack on my desk. Spring break was finally here. Its good to because I really need time to think about all that happened. As I was going to sit down in the chair, I noticed a white slip of paper sitting on my bed. It was folded with my name written on the front. I cautiously walked over and opened it. I picked it up and read the note.
Edward,
I'm going to be gone for the next 2 months. I can't bear to hurt you or any of the other people that I care about. So I'm taking this time to make sure I have everything under control. I'm going to miss you so much, but I can understand if someone sparks your interest while I'm gone. If not, on Saturday Saturday April 23rd at 11:00a.m., meet me at the park where our parents first brought us together when were younger. I will miss you and I love you.
Bella
Tears began to well up in my eyes. And believe me I'm not a crier. She was gone. I mean just for two months but still. But find someone else, was she nuts? I'd wait however long she needed me to wait. I let one tear fall and suddenly Jasper burst through my door knocking 3 of my basketball trophies off of the shelf, shattering one of them. "What do u want?" I asked through my teeth. "I want to borrow-" he started but I interuptted. "Do you really think that I give a shit what you want? You've been ruining my life for YEARS now, and now you want something from me? Do you even remember what you did to make me hate you? Hmmm lets see if I can remember…When I was 12 and you were 13 you and your 15 year old DRUNK friends I might add beat the crap out of me and then you suggested that I be pushed in front of a car, and I quote, 'I wonder what will happen if we push the loser and front of the truck!' And I don't really care if you were drunk when you did it. Even a drunk person should know that you don't risk your own brother's life to be cool. Do you know how long I was in the hospital for? Oh wait no you never came to visit. YOU DIDN'T EVEN VISIT WHEN IT WAS ALL YOUR FAULT!" I yelled at him blowing of steam. It took me long enough to get this out. "And then to make things better you lied and said that I was miserable because I had just been rejected and threw MYSELF in front of the car, and that you ran to find mom but you couldn't! You left me lying there while the person who hit me called 911! The only reason you hate me is because I then told mom what really happened and she got your friends arrested and you grounded for months! Wouldn't you say that that is a small price to pay for what I went through!"
I lifted my sleeve to reveal my still scarred and bruised shoulder that had hit the car head on and was still not healed. "Now get out!" I screamed. I then pushed him out of my room sending him into the wall and slammed the door in his face.
JASPER POV
I had been going to make some snappy comeback but before I could the door was slammed in my face. Yes, that all really happened. And truth be told my mom was still not completely over and, and I doubted that her or Nathan would ever forgive me. But if they're not going forgive me anyway then what's the point in feeling bad? I know right, its crazy! So I just shut out everything he said and turned on my headphones. I was half asleep when I heard Edward's door slam. I was incredibly bored so I decided to take a little field trip into his room. I entered the room and flicked on the lights. I then spotted a white piece of paper laying on his bed. I sat down and yanked the sheets and stuff off and through them on the floor and grabbed the note. I read it. Oh, I love you blah blah blah blah. In other words to me, all this letter is, is i'm tired of you but I don't want to hurt you're feelings so I'm saying that I'm moving so that you'll move on. I mean come on, who could possible love Edward when I'm around seriously.
EDWARD POV
I walked downstairs, gabbed an apple and slammed myself down in one of the chairs around our table. "What's wrong honey?" my mom asked.
"My brother's an ass." I replied.
"I heard you screaming at him."
All of a sudden the doorbell rang. "Ooh Tanya's here!" she squealed. I groaned, and heard my mom opening the door. "Oh Tanya! You look amazing honey!" my mom complimented. "Thanks so much Mrs. Cullen. Is Edward here?" she asked. The day had just gotten a hundred times worse. "Yes sweetie he's in the kitchen."
Why mom why? Tanya then appeared in the door frame.
"Well hello there handsome. Haven't seen you in ages." She said in a flirty tone.
"Yes, I haven't seen you in awhile either. I've been pretty busy with my GIRLFRIEND" I told her smiling. My mom glared at me.
"No problem. Well I'm here now so now we can focus on us. Lets go up to your room." she said while attempting (and failing) to grab my hand.
"I guess." I said in a monotone as she dragged me upstairs. She closed the door and jumped on me, knocking me on my bed. I pushed her off and rolled over. She climbed on top of me again, with her legs strattleing my waist. She bent down and kissed me passionately and I didn't kiss her back. Instead I yanked her off of me and rolled on top of her. "Don't you ever kiss me again you whore." I told her with clenched teeth. "Oh come on, your girlfriend will never have to know" She began stroking my face and hair. I immeaditly jumped off of her and ran to my window, only to find Emmett walking up my driveway. He was my savior. "Oh Emmett's here. Better get the door." I said as a sprinted out of the room. I opened the door. "Thank god you're here. Now I have an excuse to leave." "Come on, get in the car." He said and motioned to his Toyota idled in my driveway. "Mom! I'm going to study with Emmett! I'll be back in a couple hours!" I shouted to her. And with that I ran out the door before she could say another word. I hopped in the passenger seat and Emmett began to back out. "Did she leave you a note too?" he asked. My heart constricted. "Yup." I said looking down. "Did she tell you how long she'd be gone for?" he asked, worry clearly shown in his eyes.
"No" I replied. I know that Avery had written that she would be back in two months. But there must have been a reason that she didn't write that in Emmett's note and I didn't want to be asked why two months because I'm a terrible liar. I'm surprised I didn't stutter on the word no. Emmett and I decided to see a horror movie. We hoped it would get our minds off Bella. And also distract mine off my horrid experience with Tanya and my ass of a brother.