Luke moaned softly feeling a hand shaking his shoulder. He mumbled out something incoherent while using his hand to swat away the one shaking him. However, it didn't cease the incessant motion.

He groaned again and cracked an eye open.

"Hey Luke you should wake up," Luke blinked lifting his head up to look at the person standing behind him. Luke rubbed his eye in question. "Chris, wha- what're you doing here?" Luke asked.

"Well...I work here," he said. Luke sat up rubbing his head again. "Reid's surgery is going to be in a few minutes, we're just waiting for the nurse to come in to help get him to the operating room."

"Yeah cause I can't walk on my own," Reid spoke up from his spot on the bed. Chris rolled his eyes as he walked over to the other side of the bed.

"Your going into surgery we're not going to have you walk there." Reid grunted in response.

"Well excuse me," he murmured under his breath. And winced slightly feeling a pain in his side. A nurse walked into the room with a gurney, "Dr. Hughes the operating room is all ready." she said.

Luke found himself practically shaking as they moved Reid onto the gurney. He could feel his throat tightening again and his anxiety rising. Reid groaned softly feeling the pain shoot through his side again and in turn drain his energy.

Luke was ringing out his hands swallowing the huge lump that seemed to have formed in his throat.

"Alright lets get moving," Chris said as the nurse began to pull the gurney through the door.

Luke felt something inside his brain snap and quickly rushed to Reid's side grabbing his hand.

"Reid please don't," he pleaded. His entire body shook and tears began to fill his eyes again. "Sir we need to get this man into surgery," the nurse said pulling him away. "Wait," Luke sputtered. Staring at Reid's face.

"Luke," Reid said, his voice silent and raspy. Luke was immediately right back at Reid's side. Reid's eyes drifted up to the boy; Luke found himself frozen staring down at him. Reid lifted his hand up slowly; sliding it onto the side of Luke's face.

Luke closed his eyes when he felt the surgeon's hand carefully pulling him down. Feeling his lips press against his own; he instinctively tried to deepen it only to have Reid turn his head, effectively stopping him.

"Huh?" Luke stammered looking at him confused. Reid turned his head back to look up at Luke again. The smallest smirk on his face.

"To be continued?" he asked softly. Luke stared down at him his eyes widened slightly hearing him say that. He immediately recalled Reid saying the same thing the time their kiss had been interrupted at Katie's.

Luke found himself smiling a little at that despite his teary eyes. A chuckle escaping his sore throat as he looked down at the others face. Which still looked up at him holding that small smile. Luke nodded slightly.

"To be continued," he agreed. Reid smiled at the blonde, "Good," he muttered letting his hand slide off his face finally. Allowing his eyes to close while another groan escaped him; the pain growing. Luke forced himself to release his grip on Reid's hand, his breath hitching when he felt Reid's hand slide from his own.

Luke watched unable to breathe as they wheeled him away. His breath hitched when he lost sight of his boyfriend. He quickly lifted his hand to cover his mouth hoping it would stop the sob that wanted to come out.

...

"Now all we have to do is wait for the anesthetic to kick in," Chris said looking down at Reid. "That shouldn't be to long, after all you gave me enough to drug an elephant," he drawled out.

Reid could feel himself slipping, but for some reason he felt like he had to stay awake. He knew the drug was taking its toll on him. But there was a nagging feeling in the back of his head telling him not to sleep.

Chris watched the others movements with concern. He could tell that the surgeon was obviously not letting the drug do its job with ease.

"You know Reid I would think you of all people should know your not supposed to fight the anesthesia." he lectured. Reid mumbled a little opening his eyes again.

"I-I'm not," he argued feeling most of his coherent thoughts fade into oblivion. His eyes fluttered closed before he opened them again. Chris sighed heavily. "Reid your going to have to stop fighting it." he instructed.

"I-I'm not..fighting it," he argued still. He could feel the heavy dosage finally beating him down; his eyes began to sink lower. "I..have ta...Luke," he murmured incoherently. Chris looked at the red head furrowing his brows. Wondering just exactly what Reid found so important, even under the influence of the drug, to make himself stay conscious. "Can't...have ta..stay awake...fer...him." he murmured before closing his eyes and felt consciousness leave him.

...

"Baby please, try and relax," Lily urged her son. When Holden and herself had arrived Luke was an awful wreck. Luke spun around to face his mother; his eyes were reddened and tears were running off his face.

"I can't relax!" he snapped at her. Almost making the brunette flinch at the harshness in her sons voice. "I will never be able to relax until I know he's okay!" he yelled at her. "Why the hell doesn't anyone understand that!" he cried out.

He allowed a soft sob to escape him his distressed glare holding firm though. "Reid is the only person who will ever make me feel better," he stated. Lily frowned feeling her sons pain, "Honey we can make you feel better," she spoke quietly gently touching his shoulder.

Luke jerked his arm away from her touch,"No you can't!" he argued. He panted lightly, "Reid..is different."

"You know Luke, with this surgery and all the risks, you have to realize that it is a possibility that Reid might not make it," Holden said gently. Luke's eyes flared at that he clenched his fists until they were practically shaking at his sides.

"Reid is not going to die!" he nearly shouted at him. "He told me so!" he said his anger being overcome with fear. His body shook again as sobs poured from his mouth. "He can't!" he stated.

Lily frowned her eyes filled with pity and worry for the blonde. She stepped forward, "Honey," she started trying to comfort him. Luke reacted violently, by pulling himself away from her. Luke's eyes frantically searched the ground as he stumbled backwards a little.

He couldn't help his reaction. He was worried to death; it was true there was no guarantee that the surgery would be successful, and that scared Luke. He wanted to make himself believe Reid so desperately, but at the moment his fear was getting the better of him.

Lily frowned and tried to reach out to the boy again. Luke shook his head then and did the only thing that came to mind.

Run.

So he did; he ran out of the room like a bat out of hell. He made his way up to the roof of the hospital and finally stopped once he was standing there. He panted heavily his eyes still blurred with tears.

He could feel his lip quivering uncontrollably, he slumped back against the door. Luke felt his knee's buckling underneath him and he allowed himself to slide down to the ground.

He lifted his hands up to cover his mouth; and tried to silence the cries that poured from his mouth. Luke shut his eyes tightly hot tears sliding down his face. His body shook with every sob he stifled.

He had his knee's pulled against his chest, he hung his head, rocking himself forward gently. He felt so utterly pathetic. He was terrified that Reid wouldn't make it, and the worst thing was that he couldn't do anything to help him.

He had finally reached a point in his life where he was completely powerless.

And he hated it.

Luke's eyes were shut so tightly it almost hurt now. His tears only came hotter and faster; he tried to bite his lip only finding himself nearly drawing blood in the process. He finally stopped rocking; pressing his back against the door instead.

Taking in a sharp and shaking breath while keeping his hands clamped over his mouth. Though it did little to help him. Luke finally let his hands fall into his lap in defeat.

His frame shook violently, he laid his head back against the door. His mind was thinking of Reid though; and that made the tears come rapidly again.

His lips pressed against his own, his fingers in his hair and on his face, his piercing blue eyes, the sound of his voice.

What if he never got to feel those things ever again?

Luke cringed painfully his fingers curled against his sides as he doubled over.

"Reid!" he choked out loudly. Luke finally allowed his cries to pour from his mouth without protest. Luke couldn't live without Reid in his life. He couldn't live with knowing that when he woke up each morning Reid wouldn't be next to him

Knowing that he would never hear Reid's voice, never feel his arms around him again.

Never be able to kiss him again.

He had already felt that pain with Noah, he couldn't go through it again. Knowing that this time not only would he never experience those things again, but that Reid would be gone from his life completely.

"Reid!" Luke cried out. It was softer then the last one but it expressed the same amount of pain as the latter.

Luke clung to Reid's last words to him.

"To be continued?"

Luke curled himself into a ball again his fingers tightening around himself.

He clung desperately to Reid's reassurance. He prayed that he was right, he prayed that he could make himself believe him.

Luke could feel himself losing his energy quickly. He whimpered as the pain finally got to him and he helplessly released his grip on himself. His sore digits twitched slightly in pain. He choked and whimpered silently; his throat sore and burning.

Luke finally forced himself to open his eyes relieving them of the pressure he had put on them. His eyes stung and felt heavy, he knew he was running out of tears.

Luke felt so helpless...he had to expose himself like this now. No matter how much he wished he could go back to wrapping himself back in a tight ball. He knew it hurt to much to do that now. He was vulnerable and he was scared, he was helpless and exposed.

Luke wished he was with Reid right now, he wished he could feel the warmth and comfort of his embrace. But he was only greeted with the harsh cold breeze that swept over the rooftop of the hospital.

Luke closed his eyes and pulled his knee's closer to his chest whimpering softly at feeling the sting of the cold against his cheek.

Luke knew he couldn't be with Reid right now, he knew he wasn't there. He knew Reid couldn't hold him like he desperately wanted him to. He knew Reid wasn't going to be able to comfort him.

And that made Luke feel scared.

For the longest time Reid had always been the one to offer him stability. When Noah left him and pushed him away eventually breaking up with him. When Luke felt so hopeless and beat himself up over it. Reid had given him stability, made him feel appreciated and wanted.

He made him feel so good.

Reid had always had that effect on him.

And Luke wished he could feel that now. But all he could do was curl up and blubber silently.

Praying that Reid was there with him, comforting him like he had done the night before. Holding him and kissing him.

Luke's face scrunched up slightly. Expressing fear and pain. He felt a tear fall from his eye again earning another whimper from his abused throat.

His body shook in the aftermath, shuddering occasionally as his body began calming down. Luke gave up, he cried himself out, he didn't have any energy left. He had hoped crying would make him feel better, but he felt as weak and pathetic as he did before...maybe even more then before.

Even his sobs began diminishing, only allowing a few soft sobs and little whimpers to pass his bruised lips. He couldn't find it in him to do anything else now his eyes were red and puffy and his tears were beginning to dry on his face.

He was powerless...and he hated it. But there was nothing he could do...and he hated it.

Luke allowed another word to pass through his lips, his voice was sore and silent, and the words came out barely above a whisper.

"Reid..." he all but whimpered.

TBC

I know i haven't updated this in awhile but im working on it i have a 4 day weekend so yays! and im currently working on the next chapter for my other LuRe fic the do disasters one. So yay again! I'm glad to finaly post this because this is the whole basis of the stories name! You know when Reid said 'to be continued' SQUEEL! And you know how in ATWT luke and noah's 'phrase' to each other was 'worth the wait' well i like to believe that luke and reid's phrase is 'to be continued'. I hope you guys like this i told you guys and whoever knows my fics knows this too. I like to make my fav characters helpless! So whimpers..I luv! and i have him doing that a lot...i hope you don't mind to much. Wait ..what am i thinking if your still reading this of course he guys like a whimpering Luke! AND A COMFORTING REID!

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