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Chapter 31 - Confessions
Well the last two weeks have been interesting. I've mainly been doing interviews and bits and pieces with WWE Home Video as I found out they're producing a DVD on me after I retire which is so cool as I've always wanted one. I can't wait to see the final product it's gonna document my career and I let the fans in on a few secrets about my relationships within the company! Everyone had been telling me they'd been called in to do the same starting with Steve and even John's dad got to give his opinion on me!
They wanted me document my last week as a WWE superstar so I've had a camera following me during work time documenting what I've been doing, I've also been doing a video diary of the week.
After taking care of Alanna on Tuesday then doing SmackDown, I had also been doing the normal Wrestlemania promotions throughout the week. John and I had a Q&A session together on Thursday where I was asked about my feelings on retiring etc, I was even asked what my favourite Stone Cold moment was to which I answered out of all the great moments Steve has, his return to the company in 2003 was defiantly my favourite.
So as you can imagine by now I was nearly half dead!
Tonight I have no cameras with me expect the ones filming the Hall of Fame which would give me a little time to relax before tomorrow.
Yeah it's that time of year again and my last Hall of Fame induction Ceremony before I say goodbye to the WWE Universe.
"Where the hell is he? We're gonna be late" Randy said angrily pacing up and down the floor of the lobby of the hotel. He was looking very handsome in his suite. I looked over at Dave who smirked at me.
'Oh no the Viper's coming out to play' I thought to myself
Him, Sam who was dressed in a gorgeous white sparkly dress, Dave and I were waiting in the hotel lobby on John's sorry ass to get down here so we could go. I had chosen a grey jersey fabric dress with a draping neckline, beaded straps that went into a beaded band across the mid back, gathered drape at the back, shirred effect on bodice and train splash. My hair was down with a slight wave, I had a locket round my neck that my parents bought me and the bracelet I wore last year on my left wrist.
"Calm down honey" Sam said calmly placing her hand on her husband's arm as he walked past her. The action caused him to stop, his expression turning soft as he looked down at his wife.
"Want me to go up there and drag his down by his ear?" I asked cheekily.
"That's not necessary" Randy shook his head.
"Maybe he's having trouble with something" Dave then suggested.
"Like what? What does guys have trouble with?" I asked.
Dave and Randy looked at each other realising.
"His tie" they said in unison.
"Should of know he had trouble with the damn thing every year" Dave chuckled.
"Em go up and help him" Randy said volunteering me, why is it always me?
"Sure if I'm not down in 5, I've probably killed him by stringing him up by the damn thing" I stood up and was just to about to walk to the elevator when they opened and John stepped through them all dressed up.
However he wasn't alone, my eyes narrowed when I saw Liz step out after him all dressed up in horrible green dress then take hold of his hand then they began to walk over to us.
"What the hell is she doing here?" Sam hissed, she wasn't exactly Liz's biggest fan either, she was always on my side.
"Who knows, she never comes to these things" Randy stated just as confused.
I just stood and stared with no expression crossing my face. I wasn't giving anything away on the inside my blood was boiling.
They soon approached us and the fake smiles showed up.
"Evening guys" John said happily.
"Hey John, Liz what a pleasant surprise" Sam said not meaning a word and shaking her hand.
"Yeah I decided to surprise John. I know I don't usually come to these things but I thought what the hell why not share something that means a lot to him" she smiled so fakely. I wanted to knock that look off her face. I knew she was doing this purposely rubbing in that she had John, not that she knew how I felt about him but she knew she would always come first to him and I would come second. Especially after the little warning I gave her after the wedding.
"That's sweet" Sam replied so fake, I was had to laugh on the inside.
Liz greeted Randy and Dave before turning to me.
"Nice to see you again Emma. I heard about you retirement such a shame" yeah I bet you think that.
"Yeah you too. Have to hang them up sometime" I shrugged.
"I'm sure you'll be missed" she then said just as fake, I've never wanted to kick the crap out of someone more than I do now.
"Shall we get going?" John said interrupting obviously sensing the tension, he hadn't looked me in the eye yet. They walked ahead and I turned to Sam and Randy.
"Do you know who guys are sitting next to?" I asked
"No, not till we get there, why?" Randy asked confused to my question.
"Do you think they'll switch with me?" I asked hoping my plan would work.
"You always sit up front next to John" Sam said.
"I know I don't want to if she's here" I said almost giving up.
"Don't let her win Ems" I nodded knowing that if I did switch I was letting her win.
"If I were you, I'd so want to kick her ass right now, did you see how fake she was with us? We know she can't stand any of us why bother" Sam huffed crossing her arms.
"You were just as bad" Randy informed her smiling.
"Yeah well she really grinds on me, come on Em kick her ass please. I know you want to" she smirked at me, I laughed shaking my head.
"I've got no reason too…. just yet" I smiled, we turned and walked over to the door to leave.
I caught up with Dave and walked along side him and started to chat to him.
"Why you travelling with John anyway? Aren't we supposed to be in semi character?" I asked him.
"If no one sees us we'll be fine" he shrugged.
"I guess so but that's the reason why Ted and Cody aren't riding with Randy. Another thing why are you wearing shades? You do know we're gonna be in doors right" I was well and truly being annoying now.
"It's called fashion Emma, try it sometime" he said looking at me.
"I may not be a fashion guru David but I at least I'm not sporting sunglasses indoors. You're like 41 years old maybe you should act your age" I said playfully nudging him.
"What are trying to do annoy me as much as possible before Monday night?" he asked grinning.
I nodded smiling brightly which he returned, he knows I was only joking around with him.
When we arrived at the Dodge Theatre in Phoenix, we found out that Liz had to sit away from John as the seating had been planned out in advance. He was on the end of one of the front rows with me on his right and Shawn next to me on my right. Dave was sat on the other end of one of the front rows away from John to stay in character I assume with Jerry Brisco on his left.
Sam and Randy were two rows behind us on the end also in the middle section.
The ceremony went well and entertained everyone in attendance as we give these legends the respect they deserved.
Personally I was truly honoured when Wendi Richter mentioned me during her induction speech, she said…
"I always felt like a women's wrestler had to work twice as hard to receive half the recognition and half the pay as a male wrestler and I feel so honoured to help pave the way for today's women wrestlers. Especially when I see how far they've come and speaking of recognition someone that helped them become what they are today happens to be saying goodbye tomorrow night in her last match as a Diva. Emma Austin is the epitome of women's wrestling right now and it's a sad day when one of best decides she's had enough, she leaves behind quite a career and hopefully the next generation of women's wrestlers can follow her lead."
I never stopped smiling when she was talking about me, for her a great legend to say those things was just overwhelming. When she mentioned me the crowd even started a little Austin chant.
The After Party
"Thank you so much for what you said. When someone as great as you says something like that about me I know I've done well" I said hugging Wendi Richter, I pulled back to see smiling.
"Don't mention it. I meant every word, you're the leader of that locker room and don't let anyone tell you otherwise"
"I won't and congratulations" I said again.
"Thank you" I embraced her one last time before moving on.
"Hey, Congratulations" I said hugging the Million Dollar Man.
"Why thank you very much darlin'. I have no doubt you'll have this honour one day just like Steve" he said in his southern accent.
"I don't know about that" I shook my head.
"That's one thing I like about you Emma even after all your success you're still humble" he smiled.
"Well I owe my success to a lot of people and I wish he was here" I replied talking about my bro.
"I know darlin' I'm sure he wishes he was too" he said softly "Well excuse me I got a Hall of Fame honour to celebrate"
I smiled watching him walk away, I turned and headed back to our table where I took a seat next to Sam who was chatting to Dave.
I looked around the room to see a lot of people who I care a lot about, thinking I was gonna miss them and all of this, the whole crazy world of sports entertainment, the good the bad, everything. I was gonna miss working for the greatest wrestling company on the planet: World Wrestling Entertainment.
"You ok?" I snapped out of my thoughts to see Sam and Dave both looking at me.
"Yeah. I'm just going to get some air" I said quietly.
"I'll come with you. Excuse us Dave" Sam said.
"No worries ladies"
We stood up and Sam linked arms with me before we walked over to some doors that led out on to a balcony, I smiled to myself as I remembered that's where I found Steve last year in Texas.
We went outside and I breathed in the cool Phoenix air before we sat down on a bench that was out there.
"Are you sure you're ok?" she asked concerned I nodded my head with a smile. "Can I be honest with you?" she asked nervously I nodded again "I've always envied you"
"Me? Really? Why?" I said taken back that she was envious of me.
"I've always envied what you guys do, I don't know how you do what you do. I see when Randy comes home and he's beaten up, sore, tired but I know he loves it and wouldn't have things any other way. I can't imagine what it's like for you girls, it's got to be 10 times as bad trying to dominate in an male dominated business. Trying to keep up with them but you did Em your whole career you keep up there with them. You're the best and I'd hate to be the ones following your act" she smiled softly.
"I had a lot of help including Randy. Those guys have kept me going over the 8 years I've known them. You shouldn't envy me Sam, I actually envy you. You have a normal life, you have a husband who adores you, a beautiful daughter, a family…. everything a normal women could ever want." I said sadly looking down at my lap.
"Exactly that's my point. That stuff is all normal, you're not normal…. you're special. You do a job not many women can. I used to teach gymnastics before I had Alanna, not exactly mind blowing" she laughed.
"You do what you have to get by. I'm just lucky I do what I love" I shrugged.
"I love gymnastics but it was just someway of paying the bills. You know then I look at you and you could actually teach me a thing or two"
"I doubt that, you were a professionally trained teacher I just picked it up at school then learned from there" I shrugged again.
"Look….. what I'm saying is you're the whole package and someday you're gonna have all the things I have" she said sincerely "is this about John too when you said about having a family?"
"Kind of. In the back of my mind I know I can never have those things with him, the one person I want to have them with. Let's face facts even if he knew how I felt, he still wouldn't want me, he wouldn't leave her. Since he got married I just tried to forget I ever felt this way about him, it's been hard"
"I don't know what's going on in that head of his and I understand I know you've never mentioned him in that way till now since the wedding"
"Do something for me?" I then asked her.
"Anything"
"Promise me we'll never lose this friendship" I said with tears in my eyes.
"I promise we won't" she leaned over and hugged me I closed my eyes and held on tight. She's like my female best friend and I'm gonna miss her.
We held onto each other for a few minutes till we heard someone clear their throat causing us to pull away, I looked out to see Shawn stood next to the bench.
"Sorry to interrupt ladies. I was just wondering if I could talk to you for a minute?" he asked me.
"She's all yours, Shawn" Sam said smiling, she gave my hand a quick squeeze before standing up and brushing past him heading back into the building.
Shawn sighed before taking the seat Sam just vacated.
"How you holding up?" he asked.
"I'm ok, you?" I replied.
"Better than expected" he said then turning to me "Look Emma I wanted to talk to you about tomorrow night and Monday night since we're both in the same boat, I thought it would be appropriate to have a little talk, see how you're feeling, give you a chance to vent" he said seriously. I haven't seen him this serious before.
"See how I'm feeling huh? Steve put you up to this didn't he?" I raised an eyebrow.
"No absolutely not." I gave him an unconvinced look "Alright I confess…. he did. He just cares"
"He's not even here and he's a pain in my ass. Guess he's trying to make up for not being here" I figured.
"Seriously though… you and me are going through the same thing this weekend. Who better than to talk to than me. Now tell Uncle Shawn how you're really feeling"
"I'm ok considering, what about you?" I told him again.
"I'm ok too"
"We're not really good at this are we?" I laughed that we were both hiding the fact that retiring is killing us.
"Not really" he shook his head "Can I be honest with you Emma?" I nodded, everyone seems to be saying that to me tonight "Ok I never told you this because I was sworn to secrecy"
"Alright"
"When Steve retired or left the company however you want to put it, he asked me to keep an eye on you, he actually asked me and Paul to watch out for you" he confessed.
"He did?"
"Yeah, so we did from a distance. I didn't want to interfere with your life or your career so I watched you secretly making sure you were ok." he told me.
"He didn't mention anything" I said confused.
"I guess he just didn't want you to think he was interfering in your life and that you were old enough and mature enough to live your own life" I nodded understanding, good old Steveo.
"So even though he wasn't here he was protecting me?" I said coming to a conclusion.
"He was. You know I watched you grow up from that little girl who used to come and watch Steve's matches to support him to a strong successful woman. I couldn't be more proud" he smiled sincerely.
"Is this you talking or Steve talking?" I smirked having to ask.
"It's me talking now"
"I'm proud of you too Uncle Shawn" I told him "let's face it though your retirement is gonna out shine mine"
"I have no doubt it will" I gave him a playful shove "Even so… no one will forget you like they won't forget The Heartbreak Kid" he said cockily.
"Whatever" I rolled my eyes.
"I'm gonna head back inside" he said standing up "now don't stay up too late, get a good night's rest" he said playfully pointing a finger at me.
"Yes Uncle Shawn" I said sweetly he grinned before walking back inside leaving me on my own.
I stood up and walked forward to the railings that indicated the edge of the balcony.
I leaned over then resting my forearms against the cold metal and looked out at the view of the buildings in the city.
"Nice night huh?" I heard a familiar voice behind me a few minutes later. I turned my head to the right to see John standing there.
"Yeah the city is so beautiful all light up" I said softly turning my attention back to the city, I felt him come and stand beside me.
"You know that's one thing I like about you, you're not fazed by material things. You appreciate the natural things in life. You don't need possessions to make you happy" he said sincerely.
"What like you and your millions of cars back home" I teased.
"Hey! I don't have millions" he defended pretending to look hurt.
"So you come out to give me a lecture too. I've already had one from Sam and Shawn and I'm sure Steve will be calling me tomorrow with the rest of my family"
"No I just came to see how you were holding up and to listen instead of lecture incase you had anything to get off your chest" he said and I rolled my eyes.
"That's a change so far no ones giving me a chance to talk" I said "I'm ok. Great ceremony huh?"
"Always is a night to remember" I nodded.
"Man was it just me or was Piper totally hammered" I laughed causing John to laugh also.
"I picked up on that too" he chuckled "I know I say this every year but you look pretty" he said, I smiled weakly.
"Thanks you too" I returned the compliment.
Silence came over us for a while till I cleared my throat and began my rant.
"You know… growing up girls at my school and even some of my friends wanted to be famous singers, dancers, actresses or models. I was never popular, was never a cheerleader so I thought I'd never become what I wanted. They all wanted to be famous probably for the wrong reasons and me…. well I wanted to be different. I wanted to be a wrestler. Ever since I was 9 years old and believe it or not they all thought I was the crazy one. Well I showed them cause I was the only one that succeed, they're all still stuck in Texas when I got to travel the world doing what I loved" he nodded just listening to me get some things off my chest.
"To be completely honest I never thought I would succeed too, I wanted to be wrestler or diva or whatever. I just didn't have the confidence or I never thought I had what it took I guess I did huh?" I asked before continuing.
"You know…. I've been this Austin chick for 10 years now and the thought of letting her go and going back to being old Emma Williams kinda scares me. She is every thing I wanted to be as a kid maybe not as bad ass but confident, outspoken. And the one thing I like the most about her is she doesn't take no shit from anyone and I was the total opposite when I was younger. I wouldn't hurt a fly and now look at me. I did everything and became everything I wanted to be." I said looking at him.
"That's good right?" he asked.
"Yeah it did have a downside" I sighed "Do you know what it's like to live in your brother's shadow?"
"I can't say I do" he shook his head.
"Can you imagine getting into this business….. the one you love and have critics tear you down because your someone's sister, to have them say you're only here because of your last name, things aren't that bad now but they were when I started and even when you and Randy started I know he had the same. That's why I had to work twice as hard to keep up with girls like Amy, Nora, Jackie and even Trish eventually. It's hard enough being a woman in a male dominated business but having the Austin name meant it was twice as hard. I always thought if I could be half the wrestler Steve was I could retire happily" I repeated the words I said to my brother.
"And I guess I showed them huh? Had the last laugh. I proved to all those bastards that doubted me wrong and I guess you did too, I'm one to talk about getting stick… you get the most and still show them by something you live by; not giving up. I don't know how you do it" I said turning this about him, I really do admire him for what he goes through.
"Like I say I take care of those who ride with me" he said.
"I'm so proud of all of you guys, you've all come a long way since the day we met." I smiled remembering that very day.
"Yeah look at us now. Who would of thought it huh?"
"Come to think of it you all go on to be 3 of the biggest superstars in the WWE since that day you met me. I like to think I had something to do with it. I hope you didn't just become friends with me to higher up or were you just using me?" I joked laughing.
"I promise Em we weren't. We love you for you not your status" he said "I know your down about leaving and when I say this, I mean this with all the respect in the world but do you not know how lucky you are?" I looked at him confused "To have the last name you do. Any wrestler here now or coming through the ranks would love to have the training and the guidance you have had from Steve including me. I idolise your brother, he was always a hero of mine. Do you not know how lucky you are to be apart of the biggest marquee in the history of this company? To do the things you get to do in the ring, to continue where Stone Cold left off. I personally would of loved that and I know a few million people around the world who would of too." he told me and I smiled knowing he was right I was very lucky.
I was just about to open my mouth to say something when….
"John! Are you coming?" I heard Liz's voice causing us both to turn in the direction of the door where she stood.
"In a minute" he yelled back.
"Unbelievable" I muttered under my breathe turning to look back out to the scenery. Now she made me mad, interrupting the moment we were having.
"What?" John asked. I stood up straight and turned face to face with him. I had nothing to lose, I'm leaving on Monday might as well tell him what I think of his wife.
"Her" I said pointing towards the door "she's unbelievable. We're trying to have a few minutes to talk and she's beckoning for you, John."
"Err yeah sorry I guess she didn't know" he said running a hand sheepishly over his head, there he goes defending her.
"I don't know what you even see in her anyway" I spat with venom in my voice
"She's my wife. I've known her for 12 years" he informed me, something I already knew, I rolled my eyes.
"So? When are you gonna wake up and smell the coffee? She's a god damn gold digger. She loves the money and the fame and all that goes with it. I don't give me that crap that you knew her before you made your money cause were was she when you were struggling, when you first started out. It's a little weird to me she came running back." I then spat.
"How could you say that? I thought you were on my side" he said almost not believing I was telling him this.
"Ain't it obvious, John? She doesn't love you" I said the last sentence slowly.
"How do you know that?" he asked beginning to get angry.
"Because she will never love you as much as I do" I blurted out and a look of shock came over on not just my face but John's too after the words left my mouth.
"W….What did you just say? You….you what me?" he stuttered in disbelief.
"In in love with you." I said quietly "There I finally said it, you know, conversation over" I began to walk away he grabbed my wrist pulling me back.
"You can't just say what you just said then walk away" he said looking me in the eye.
"Why not. I can't keep doing this to myself. I can't keep beating my self up over you. I tried to get over you but tonight I realised I can't no matter what I do. I see you everyday nearly, talk to you all the time. I can't get you out of my mind because you're my best friend" I said tears filling my eyes.
"Emma" he whispered "I need to get my head round what you just told me" he said softly releasing my wrist "how long?"
"About 6 years" I muttered.
He rubbed his hands over his face and sighed heavily. The shit was certainly hitting the fan.
"You've kept this hidden all this time and you didn't care about me enough to tell me something this important" he began to yell.
"Don't turn this around to be my fault, John. Of course I care about you for Christ sake. I was scared to admit to you because I didn't want to lose you in case you didn't feel the same way. That's why I bottled this up, I got on with my life and my career like everything was fine and now I've got nothing to lose by telling you now."
"Everything makes sense now. That's why you were mad at me when I told you I was engaged." he turned away from me "You were there when I got married, Emma" he said disbelief in his voice.
"You damn right I was. Do you know what that felt like? I'll tell ya, it broke my fucking heart in two. I felt numb and empty. I had to sit there and watch you give yourself to another woman" I said catching my breathe.
"I admit, I had feelings for you once but I moved on, I guess I thought the same you did. I thought telling you would complicate things but now it's too late" he shook his head.
"Don't you think I don't know that. It eats away at me everyday." with a scowl now forming on my face "I admit I hate her. I hate your wife with a passion. I hate her for taking you away from me because she doesn't want you, she doesn't know you like I do. She doesn't deserve you"
"Sounds like to me your jealous" he spat with venom in his voice.
"Jealous" I scoffed "Don't be ridiculous jealous of what?"
"Of Liz. At least she was straight up with me." he said.
"Straight up with you? Don't make me laugh. You know when you got married I actually thought of ending our friendship to makes things easier so I didn't cause problems between you too and some reason I decided against it, maybe I was being selfish" I spat.
"Don't flatter yourself" he said hatefully standing toe to tow with me and I wasn't backing down.
"Oh so you're telling me I haven't caused any martial difficulties between you. It must be hard for her knowing that you spend more time with another woman on the road away from home than you do with her" he kept quiet and looked down to the floor giving me my answer "I thought so"
"Like I said you're just jealous" he said through gritted teeth, lifting his head back up.
"Why would I be jealous huh, John? Enlighten me" I said egging him on.
"Because she has what you want… well believe this or not we can't have everything we want Em, even you" he said hatefully.
"What's that suppose to mean? That I'm some sort of spoiled brat that gets her own way all the time" I asked wanting to know what he means.
"Not exactly. Just that you think because your Steve Austin's sister…" he trailed off, I narrowed my eyes.
"No go on" I urged him to continue.
"It doesn't matter" he shook his head.
"It does matter. Nice to know what you think of me and to think all this time I thought you were my friend" I said through gritted teeth.
"Well now I'm not, consider our friendship over" he said anger still in his voice.
"Fine by me" I spat looking at him with hate. I began to walk past him until..
"You know what's funny John? At least I wasn't this close…" I gestured with my thumb and index finger only millimetres apart "to getting fired" I spat at him. He wanted to bring my career into this, I'll bring his.
"You bitch" he spat back.
"Aww you almost hurt my feelings." I said sarcastically holding a hand to my chest mocking to be hurt. "Don't you remember who your talking to? I've been called worse than that on a good day Cena" I said emphasising on his name "I guess I'll see you around or maybe not cause after Monday I never have to lay my eyes on you again"
"I couldn't be more happier" he said with hesitation like he didn't want to say that.
"Nice come back" I went to walk away again but took a step back and looked closely into his eyes "When she finally hurts you, don't come crying to me" I spat hatefully seeing the hurt in his eyes.
I remembered something at that moment. Randy told me at John's wedding that he told him he had feelings for me so I decided to ask this knowing I could get hurt.
"Just answer me this one thing. Look me in the eye and tell me you don't love me too" I said softly waiting in anticipation.
"I…. don't love you" he whispered quietly as I felt my heart break all over again.
"That's all I needed to know" I whispered sadly putting my head down feeling defeated.
I walked away leaving him behind with a mix of emotions I was still mad yet sad. How did me confessing my feeling for him turned out to us hating each other?
I headed back inside and didn't talk to anyone just wanting to head upstairs to bed.
When I was out of his site that's when the tears began to fill my eyes. I walked back through the doors leading into the hall where the party was and straight for the exit.
Only when I was out of the room and in the lobby was when the tears began to spill down my cheeks like a river. I managed to act all tough in front of John while we were fighting showing that it didn't bother me but that wasn't the case at all, inside my heart was breaking once again.
I felt all the bad feelings a human being could possibly feel: sad, angry, disappointed, upset and most of all rejected. I cannot believe he once had feelings for me especially when I felt the same god damn way. I well and truly blew it big time.
He was right though, it was too late, it's been too late for a long time. Plus he didn't love me back. What I thought would happen happened.
It was amazing how the mood changed so quickly from me pouring my heart out to him to us being pissed at each other and ending up saying some evil things: that's just not me he's the last person I want to argue with.
The tears were flowing fully now as I reached my room.
Randy
I was chatting to Dave with Sam by my side when we all stopped to see Em briskly walking past looking very upset.
I burrowed my eyebrows in confusion as to what the hell just happened, why was she so upset?
"What's up?" Dave asked.
"I dunno" I said "isn't Cena out there?"
"Yeah he is. She looked awful upset" Sam said observing what we had.
"Aww what's wrong with Emma is she all sad because she's retiring how sad" Liz said sarcastically coming over to us.
"Why don't you just shut the hell up?" Sam spat standing up and facing her.
"Sam don't, she's not worth it" I said softly taking hold of her wrist gently.
"No Randy, Emma's my friend and I'm sick of tired of her bull shit" she said with passion, I was a little taken back my little Sam had so much fire in her.
"Sam" I warned.
"What are you even doing here anyway? No one wants you here… you don't belong" Sam said to her.
"John wants me here" Liz replied like a school girl placing her hands on her hips.
"He's the only one. You know what? I hope Emma kicks your ass someday" Sam pointed in her face
"Samantha" I then warned using her full name.
"Don't make me laugh, she wouldn't dare lay a hand on me" she said smugly.
"If she doesn't I will" Sam spat ignoring my warnings.
"That's enough!" I said standing up and standing behind my wife. "you know Liz as much as I want peace… I hope Emma kicks your ass one day too" I said venomously, she's caused too much shit I really hope Em gets her hands on her. "Come on sweetheart" I wrapped my arm around Sam's waist and headed outside to where Em had just come from.
John
I stood grounded to the spot I stood in since I came out here, thoughts spinning round my head. What have I done?
My best friend hates me.
What the hell is happening? it's like one big nightmare, of course I wasn't gonna tell her about the dreams I had been having about her, the ones I told Randy about last year.
My head was down as if I was defeated until I heard footsteps heading my way.
"John man, what happened?" I heard Dave's voice.
I looked up at the three of them, I opened my mouth to speak but nothing came out.
"Em" I managed to breathe out "She just told me she was in love with me then we somehow managed to get into a fight and I don't know what happened" I sighed defeated running a hand over my face.
"What! She told you?" Sam said shocked.
"You guys knew?" they all looked sheepish and guilty "Why didn't anyone tell me?"
"It wasn't our place to tell you, do you not realise what something like that was doing to her she had to confide in someone so she did in us" Randy said. To me that was no excuse.
"She should of told me. Someone should have fucking told me!" I almost yelled getting angry.
"John calm down" Sam said softly placing a hand on my arm. I steadied my breathing as I looked at her, she was right getting mad wasn't helping.
"I told her I didn't love her back" I blurted out sadly.
"And do you?"
"I….don't…I don't know. I'm so confused right now" I said running a hand through my hair. "She's my best friend" I whispered again.
"I know" Sam said softly rubbing her hand up and down my arm for comfort. She turned to Randy "Take care of him while I go find Emma and make sure she's ok" she said causing Randy to nod before Sam smiled at me weakly one last time before leaving us.
Emma
I lay on my bed now dressed in some pyjamas just silently letting the tear fall down my cheeks and drop onto my arm. I couldn't stop them no matter how hard I tried they kept on rolling. I had sobbed for a good 10 minutes before settling myself and getting a little bit of grip on myself. Even though I was upset I felt a like huge weight had been lifted from my shoulders now, my feelings for him were out in the open…. no more secrets.
I let out a huge sigh before hearing a knock on my door. I looked towards the door before climbing off the bed and making my way over. I wiped my eyes on my arm the best I could, I opened the door to see Sam on the other side looking rather concerned.
"Oh honey" she said sympathetically. I must of looked a mess for her to react that way.
"No offence Sam but I just want to be on my own right now" I said gently not wanting to offend her.
"No. I'm not leaving you on your own not when you are in this state" she said stepping forward. I automatically moved so she could enter my room, she took my hand and lead me over to the couch where we sat. She looked at me before pulling me towards her and wrapping my arms around me. That was it. I couldn't stop the tears after she did that.
She just held me tight while I sobbed and sobbed, she tried to comfort me by running her hands up and down my back and rocking me like a baby.
"You want me to get the boys?" she asked me quietly. I nodded against her knowing they always made me feel better.
She pulled away before pulling her cell from her bag and calling Randy.
When she was done, she stood up and went to the bathroom. She returned with a glass of water and some pain killers knowing I would have one hell of a headache. I smiled on the inside at how well she knows me. She silently passed them to me and I took the pills, washing them down with the water. I thanked her silently not being able to find my voice.
She took the glass from my hands when there was a knock on the door, she walked over and answered it. I closed my eyes for a split second feeling exhaustion coming over me. I heard voice before hearing footsteps and someone close to me.
I opened my tired eyes to look straight into the blue eyes of Randal Keith Orton.
He was crouched down sitting in front of me resting his hands on my knees.
"Oh baby come here" he said sympathetically before pulling me up lifting me off the ground and hugging me tight. I wrapped my arms round his neck and buried my face in his neck. I couldn't help but begin to sob again as he held onto me. I felt guilty getting tears on his nice expensive suite I'm sure he doesn't mind.
"Shhhhh" he whispered trying to calm me down running his hands up and down my back. I looked up at him with a sad face and he looked back at me.
"Where's Dave?" I croaked noticing he was missing.
"He's taking care of dumb ass Cena" he told me causing the corner of my mouth to twitch into a smile. "Dumb question I know but are you ok?" he asked and I shock my head no.
"I don't know what I'm gonna do Rands" I said sadly.
"I'll tell you what you are gonna do. You're gonna go into the bathroom, calm down, dry those beautiful eyes and crawl up in bed to try and get a goodnight's sleep cause you have a big day tomorrow…. we all do but you have the biggest day." I nodded not wanting to argue with him. "And if you want I'll bring Layni to come and see you in the morning cause I know she'll want to see you too" I nodded again "do you want us to stay with you tonight?" he then asked I shook my head no knowing he needed to sleep before tomorrow night too. "Ok then" he dropped my gently on the floor arms still wrapped around me, he kissed my forehead before pulling away. I sighed before walking into the bathroom and doing as I was told.
Randy
After tucking Emma in for the night, we decided to call it a night too and what an eventful one. I wrapped my arm around my wife's waist as we walked a short distance down the hall to our room.
"I'm worried about her" Sam said as we walked.
"I know baby me too. We're only down the hall if she needs us" I said kissing the top of her head.
"I guess so" she shrugged "I've never seen her like that Randy. I've never seen her crumble so easily like that before. She looked so vulnerable and fragile like she could break if you touched her. She's always been so strong and now because of that asshole Cena she's falling to pieces in a matter of minutes not when she has her last match tomorrow she doesn't need this shit" she said with a little anger in her voice.
"I agree but we have to leave her be for tonight. Knowing Em she'll be ok and focused for tomorrow. And that's exactly what she needs to do as hard as this is she needs to place this at the back of her mind and concentrate on her match otherwise she'll get hurt." I said as we reached our door. I stopped and pulled her into my arms.
"Yeah you're right" she looked up at me "I love you so much. I can't imagine not having you in my life" she said sincerely, obviously what happened with John and Emma made us both appreciate what we have.
I grinned down at her "I love you too baby" I said quietly leaning down and kissing her lips gently. When we pulled away she yawned then giggled "Am I boring you?" I raised a playful eyebrow.
"You could never bore me honey. I'm just beat" she said with a tired smile.
"Well let's get you to bed then" I whispered seductively lowering my head so our lips were inches apart.
"You'd love that wouldn't you" she whispered before placing her lips on mine again in a sweet yet short kiss.
"Hell yeah" I whispered again before kissing her passionately.