Bella's POV –

Chapter four – Wishing

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Dear diary,

My family and I have moved around a lot over the years, although I've never given it much thought until now. Come to think of it, I haven't really given this whole family much thought, if I had then maybe I would have noticed that they never seem to age and I'd notice when they'd disappear during the night.

I'm not sure what's up with them but Edward promised to tell me one day, Soon.

So it is on this very un-fine day that we are moving, moving to a small town called Forks located in Washington. From the looks of it or from what I saw on Google maps it doesn't look that great, but as long as Edward's there it'll be okay. He makes everything okay.

I heard a soft knock on my door and I quickly hide my diary under my pillow, already knowing who was behind my door.

"Come in," I whispered,

Edward came in and closed the door behind him. I don't know how Edward could hear me speak so softly considering he was the other side of the door, but he always heard me. I guessed it had something to do with what he was going to tell me, about him and our family.

"Awake so early?" He asked me raising an eyebrow; he wasn't giving me a disapproving look but he was trying to. But he failed at it; I knew he couldn't be mad at me, no matter how hard he tried.

I laughed.

"What?" He asked sitting down next to me on my bed, there was just enough moon light coming down through my window to see his beautiful face. My heart jumped a few beats every time I saw his face, his smile, his perfectly golden eyes looking at me, I couldn't help but staring he was so beautiful.

"You suck at disapproving looks," I joked.

"Well you can't judge on facial expressions Bella," He said, also joking.

"It isn't my fault you can read my face so easily Edward," I said punching him, he always had a way of knowing what I was thinking, because my face 'is as easy to read as a book is' as Edward told me once before.

"You still haven't answered my question," Edward said.

"What question?" I asked, sounding completely stupid.

"Why are you awake to early?" He asked.

Oh I had totally forgotten about that, I was too busy staring at his beautiful face.

"I haven't slept yet," I told him.

"What? Why not? What's wrong?" He asked me, but he said the questions so fast I hardly heard them let alone had time to answer any of them.

"It doesn't matter Edward," I told him.

"Everything about you matters," He said. When he looked at me like that it was hard to look away and even harder to keep my concentration.

"I'm just thinking about moving. Moving back you know, moving back to my birth place, Forks. The place I remember nothing about," I said. Over the years I sort of picked up some of Edward's speaking habits, it rather annoyed me really.

"Bella, I can help you remember, or we could..." He trailed off from his sentence.

"Or we could what?" I pushed him to finish his sentence.

"Or we could make our own memories," He whispered the last part of his sentence I could barely hear him, but I'm glad I did.

Those words, few as they were made my life worth living, they set my heart alight, I could literally feel the flame climbing up my throat liking at the roof of my mouth, itching to kiss him, itching to touch him, itching just to be closer. This was something I've never felt before.

Before I could answer Edward got up and left my room in a flash, muttering something under his breath I could not make out but I was sure he would be angry with himself for saying something as such, too bad I couldn't tell Alice, my best friend but also my sister, even if we weren't truly related we were still sisters.

None of the Cullen family are related, we are all orphans taken in by Carlisle and Esme. When moving to a new town it was just easier to tell everybody that we were family other than explain the whole story and get the government involved.

Edward said he would also explain that story in more detail as well; I couldn't wait to find out about everything, all the secrets in this family were getting way to out of hand. It was getting harder for me to hide my feelings for Edward. Especially from Alice, she always knew everything but she didn't seem to know this.

I know, it wouldn't be bad if Edward and I got together but it was more of the fact that Edward probably didn't like me in the same way, he only saw me as a little sister, the same way he saw Alice or even Rosalie, my older but bitchier sister that no matter what I seemed to do, still hated me. Reason - I have no idea.

Rosalie and my big bear of a brother Emmett are together, same as Alice and my wise big brother Jasper, they were so happy together all four of them wouldn't be themselves without their other half. One day I wished to be like them, with Edward by my side, even as a dream it seemed too farfetched, but I couldn't help wishing.

I lied back down and slid under the covers of my bed, hoping sleep would come.

Before I was fully asleep I felt someone softly kiss my check and whisper something to me.

"I love you Bella, I tell you this every single night since the very day I found you in that car I've told you that I love you. One day, hopefully soon I can tell you this to your conscious self." Edward whispered to me before leaving just as quietly as he had come.