A/N: Hi! This is a translated version of my Finnish story called Jumissa. I'm translating it on my own so I'm sorry for all of the spelling errors. I'm a big supporter of Joella, but it just didn't work for this story. But if you want to read about Joe and the lovely Stella, please check out my story Lovesick. You can find it in my profile. In the meanwhile, I hope you enjoy this story. Please remember that Joe is going as Matthew and Susie as Natalie in this story.
This is pretty much fluff and a little smut. Consider yourself warned.
By the way, I own just my crazy ideas.
Time passed by and now we had been in Alaska for over four months. We had found some kind of a routine in our daily life. Matthew had built a gym to the basement of our house and he spent a few hours of every day there. It was the time everyone thought he was working.
So I had about three hours to kill every day without Matthew. I usually went for a walk with Henry and on Zachary's days off I spent time with him. We had become great friends. He was a warm and compassionate person. I hated to lie to him about my true identity but I had no choice. I couldn't tell anyone. We usually went to the park and just talked while Henry was in the swing or taking a nap in his baby carriage.
I had also become much closer to Matthew. We were still in the early stages of our physical relationship but it was only true if I said that I was deeply fond of him. I already loved Henry. I wasn't really waiting for the day we would get back to our real lifes.
Today was the five month anniversary of our stay and also my birthday. Matthew had been working out when I left the house with Henry in the afternoon. We had spent the day with Zachary. He had taken me to the store to be his personal Barbie doll again and I was wearing a new dress. It was long and had a nice floral print on it. I had a cardigan over it and a jacket. It was pretty cold so I had my white UGGs on. Henry had fell asleep on the way back. It was almost eight when we got back. Zachary drove us to his house and I walked home carrying Henry. I got inside and kicked of my shoes. It smelled like food but like it had been cooked a few hours ago. I didn't see Matthew on my way upstairs. I took Henry to his crib and walked to my walk-in closet. It was pretty full. Since Zachary and I had become friends, my closet had started to fill with clothes. I took off my jacket and the cardigan I was wearing.
- Finally decided to come home? I heard a familiar voice say. I turned around and saw Matthew leaning to the door frame.
- There you are, I smiled and walked to him. I wrapped my arms around his waist and kissed his cheek. But he didn't move. Usually his arms wrapped around me as soon as I was close.
- Where were you? he asked.
- We were at the store with Zac, I told him.
- Zac? That's what you call him now? he asked sounding irritated.
- Yeah. Is there a problem with it? I asked and pulled away from him to look at him. He was angry.
- No, he just said and walked away. I could tell he was pissed off about something. I was kind of pissed at him too because it was my birthday and he was picking a fight. I'm sure he knew it because we had just been talking about it last week. I had told him that I didn't want a party. I was suppose to turn 24 and in this town we were suppose to be 25 so I was turning 26. That was confusing enough.
I pulled my hair pins away and let the curls fall around my head. I decided to try to make things better. I walked to Matthew's study where he was pacing around.
- What's the problem? I asked irritated.
- The problem? Ill tell you what the problem is. It's you. You got me twisted into this relationship and now I'm all fucked up. I can't go on a half of a day without thinking you, he shouted.
- And that's a bad thing? I asked. I felt the same way. I thought about Matthew all the time. And in ways that I wasn't suppose to think him since we weren't intimate with each other.
- Yes, it is, he said but he half-smiled. I smiled at him too.
- Are you still mad? I asked carefully. I walked to him and he kissed me hard. This wasn't really Matthew. This was an angry version of him.
- Yes. You make me so angry. You're such a tease. You tease me with your body but don't ever give in, he breathed against my skin when he pushed me against a wall.
- Just because you told me about your purity promise, I said as his hands were on my breasts. It was hard to think coherent thoughts when he was touching me like that.
- I think you were like this with your previous boyfriend too. No wonder he cheated on you, Matthew said angry. I pushed him off me, slapped him on his cheek and ran out of the house as fast as I could. I didn't have any shoes on and my arms were bare. It was freezing outside but I couldn't go back inside. I ran to Zachary's door and knocked. I was sobbing really hard when he opened.
- Honey, what's wrong? he asked and pulled me into a hug.
- Matthew, I sobbed and Zachary took me to sit on one of their livingroom couchs. I leaned on him as he tried to get me to stop sobbing.
- What did he do? Zachary asked gently.
- He said something that he really shouldn't have. I don't think he really meant it. He was just angry because I had been with you all day, I said. My sobbing was turning into little tears.
- Maybe he was jealous? Zachary offered.
- Yeah, maybe he was. But he was so angry. I haven't ever seen him so angry, I said sadly.
- If he's jealous, it just means that he loves you. And you love him, don't you? Zachary asked.
- More than anything, I said quietly. After a while I calmed down and decided that it was best if I went home. I thanked Zachary and walked back home. Zachary had insisted for me to wear his woolen socks.
I walked inside and took the socks off. I looked around for Matthew and found him from the livingroom. He was sitting in front of his piano but not playing. His face was in his palms and his elbows rested against the piano. I sat beside him and rested my head on his shoulder. I put one arm around his waist and just sat there for a while.
- I'm sorry for slapping you, I said gently.
- I'm sorry for saying that horrible thing to you. I really didn't mean it, he whispered.
- I know. Do you want to tell me what's wrong? I asked gently.
- There's nothing wrong, he said.
- I can see something is wrong. Don't you dare lie to me Joseph, I said sternly. He looked up to me from his palms. His real name did the trick.
- It's just that you're spending all your time with Zachary. I'm starting to feel like you don't want to be with me anymore, he said. I could see the hurt in his eyes. I forgot all about my stupid fears about him forgetting my birthday. I hugged him to me and this time his arms wrapped around me.
- No! Don't even say that. I just spend time with him when you are working out. I'm sorry that I was away for so long today but we kind of got carried away and didn't notice it was so late. I love spending time with you. He's just a distraction, you're a priority, I said gently and caressed his back with my fingers. I felt him relax in my arms.
- I love you Susie, he whispered. My heart melted. It was the first time he said it to me. And he used my real name. I was on seventh heaven when I pulled away to look at him.
- I love you too Joe, I smiled and kissed him gently. He pulled me to sit on his lap. I put my hands on his shoulders. It was pure love I felt in his kiss. I wanted him to feel that coming from me too so I deepened the kiss. I smiled widely when he pulled away.
- I've been waiting all day for you to come home so I can tell you, he smiled.
- Tell me again, I whispered to his ear.
- I love you, he smiled. I'm sure my grin went from one ear to another. I kissed him quickly and then caressed his cheek with my fingers.
- So, what have you done all day other than waiting to tell me that? I asked smiling.
- I made you dinner. I waited for an hour for you to come home when the dinner was ready. I had to put it away when you didn't come, he said. I glanced around and noticed that the dining table was set beautifully. There were lilies, my favourite flowers, and candles and two small gift boxes on my side of the table on the plate. I sighed.
- I'm so sorry I ruined the night, I said.
- It's not over yet. Happy birthday darling, he smiled.
- I love you so much, I smiled and kissed him before he lifted me from his lap and got up. I was so happy. He returned my feelings. I had been so close to saying the word aloud for a few months already but I had bit my tongue every time. I smiled as he walked me to the table and pulled my chair out. I sat down and he went to the kitchen to heat some food and soon he returned with a tray full of food.
- Chicken parmesan with pasta, he smiled and served me some food after I had moved the gifts away from my plate. I was anxious to open them but I decided to wait.
- Aren't you going to open them? Matthew asked.
- Lets eat first, I smiled. We ate and I told him about our day.
- Oh, you'll never guess what happened today! I said when he was taking the dishes to the kitchen.
- Tell me, he smiled as he returned.
- Henry said mama to me, I smiled with tears in my eyes. He pulled me up from my chair and hugged me close to him.
- He must have known it was your birthday, he whispered and kissed my neck.
- Can I open my gifts now? I asked. Matthew nodded and I pulled away from him. I turned around to get one of the gifts. I ripped the paper off the first one and there was a small box inside it. I turned around to look at Matthew.
- Open it, he said gently. My heart was beating really fast when I opened the box.
- Oh! I sighed as I saw the beautiful white gold ring with a little diamond on it. I looked at Matthew who was kneeling in front of me now.
- Susie, will you marry me? For real? he asked. I could see the love in his eyes.
- Yes! I smiled and knelt too. I hugged him close and felt him kiss my neck.
- I love you, he whispered.
- Oh, I love you too, I said crying for happiness. His lips moved against my skin and soon they were kissing my mouth. I kissed him with all the love I had. When the kiss broke off, Matthew took the box I was still holding and slid the ring to my finger. He put it on my right hand because I was already wearing an engagement ring and wedding band on my left hand.
- The engraving doesn't have any names on it but if you want to, we can always have it done when we go back, he smiled.
- What does it say? I asked looking at the ring. It was beautiful and it fit perfectly.
- Forever yours, he smiled. I kissed him gently.
- This was the best birthday ever, I smiled as Matthew pulled me up.
- Then I have to work really hard to top it next year, he smiled. I laughed.
- I guess you do, I smiled. We walked up to our bedroom. Matthew took my dress off and I was left to stand there in my underwear. I shivered from the cool air. He tugged me in and took his clothes off. He climbed into bed in his boxers and took me in his arms.
- Honey, I have to go brush my teeth, I smiled as he started to kiss my neck. His hands were on my breasts.
- In a minute, he said. I laughed at him. Usually his minute turned into an hour.
- Honey, I said again.
- Just a moment, he said against my skin. His lips were against my collarbone and they were moving down. I squealed from surprise when he took off my strapless bra that opened from the front and started to suck on my nipple.
- You're beautiful, he whispered against my skin. I hissed from the contact. My fingers got tangled in his hair and I pulled his up to kiss me. His fingers continued the work he had done with my nipple.
- Sweetheart, I gently whispered against his lips. He didn't stop.
- Yes, darling? he asked. His body was now on mine, his erection pushing against my wet center through the fabric of our underwear.
- You have to stop, I said gently.
- I don't want to, he panted.
- I know. But you have to, I said and tried to move away from under him. He kept me in place.
- Do you want me to stop? he asked smiling lopsided. He twisted my nipple and that made me arch my back which caused our bodies to crash against each other. Matthew pushed himself against me with force and I could tell he was very aroused.
- No, I said and kissed him passionately.
- There you have it, he smiled and twisted my nipple again. I was so close it was hard to think.
- But you still have to stop, I said.
- Do I? he asked again. He twisted my nipple one more time and I came hard. I started to scream his real name but he shut me down by kissing me hard. He hadn't come yet, I noticed from his erection still pressing to me, and I moved my hand towards his boxers. Before I got there, his hand was on my wrist stopping me. I looked at him puzzled.
- You didn't finish, I simply stated.
- I'm perfectly happy like this, he said and moved away from me. I had to respect him for his strength.
- I love you, I said as I kissed his shoulder. He was sitting on the edge of the bed. I kissed his shoulder one more time and walked to the bathroom.
I took a shower. When I was behind the shower curtain, I heard Matthew enter the bathroom and brush his teeth. When he was done, he walked back to the bedroom and closed the door. I finished my shower, brushed my teeth and braided my hair. I walked to my walk-in closet and dressed in a top and shorts set.
I walked to the bedroom and slid under the covers. Matthew wrapped his arms around me and pulled me close to him.
- I love you, he whispered and kissed my cheek.
- As I love you, I smiled.
- So, was it good for you? he asked referring to the earlier. I smiled against his neck.
- It was perfect, I said.
- I was thinking we could get married on Valentine's Day. No one will notice if we are gone. I asked Mandy if it was alright and she said that they would take care of everything. All we need are a couple of witnesses and a minister so they are happy to take care of that. If you want a big white wedding, we can have one when we get back to LA, he said.
- No, it's perfect if it's just you, me and Henry, I said. I didn't really have anyone else.
- Alright. I'll make the arragements then, he said happily.
- It's only a week away, I smiled. I would be married in a week. I couldn't believe it was actually happening to me.
- I know it's soon but I can't wait to call you my own, he said. I smiled.
- I'm already your own, I smiled and kissed him gently.
- But then you'll be mine forever, he said.
- I already am. Forever yours, like the ring says, I smiled.
- When did I become so lucky? he asked.
- I ask myself the same thing every day, I smiled. He kissed my forehead.
- I can't wait until we are married, he said.
- So, can I take your last name then? I asked.
- Of course. Susie Lucas, it has a nice ring to it, he said.
- Yes it does, I smiled.
- And then, when we actually are married, I don't have to stop. I'll make love to you until we both are so tired we can't move, he smiled at me. I giggled.
- Do you want to marry me just so you can have sex with me? I asked.
- No, of course not, he said quickly.
- Really? I asked.
- Really. But it's a nice bonus, he smirked. I moved away from him and I slapped his chest.
- You pig. You always have to turn it into a joke, I laughed.
- And still you love me, he said smiling the smile that always melted me.
- I do. More than you'll ever know, I smiled at him. He kissed me very gently and I pushed myself closer to him. I rested my head on his shoulder and drew circles to his chest. It had been waxed bare when he became Matthew but I know he had chest hair when he was Joe.
- Tell me about your brothers again, I said quietly. I loved to hear him talk about his family. They were very close, from what I could gather. I had always wanted siblings. It felt like I already knew them when he told me stories about them.
- Well, Kevin is the oldest. He might seem a little dump but he's very intelligent in his own way. And he's really funny. He is, or at least he was, single. Nick is a few years younger than me and he's very smart. He's always called the serious one. He likes to be by himself a lot. And he's the one that writes most of our songs. He's pretty much a genius. He and his girlfriend Macy just got engaged. They've been together for about three years. Macy is also Stella's best friend. And then there's Frankie. Frankie's thirteen. He's super cute and really good at playing hide and seek. And he's a little master mind. He's always begging for us to take him to the band. Maybe he's even replaced me by now, Matthew laughed.
- Do you miss them? I asked.
- Very much. But I have you so it's not that hard, he said and kissed the top of my head.
- If Kevin is the funny one, Nick the serious one and Franklin the master mind, then what that makes you? I asked looking up at him.
- The sexy one of course, he said smugly wiggling his eyebrows. I just laughed.
- I should have known that you say that, I said. He pulled me on him and looked me into my eyes.
- Don't you think I'm sexy? he asked pouting.
- Well, I don't know. I'll have to think about that, I teased him.
- Fine, he said still pouting but I could see he was putting up an act. I moved closer to him.
- I think you are the sexiest man I've ever seen. And once we are married, I'm going to show you just how sexy I think you are, I whispered to his ear. That made him kiss my shoulder. I moved back to my earlier spot on him and felt him aroused against me.
- I can't wait, he said and kissed me fiercely.
- I can see that. Do you like it when I whisper to your ear? I asked.
- You have no idea, he said. I moved again to whisper to his ear.
- I promise to kiss and suck and lick and bite every part of your body as long as you want me to, I whispered and felt him press his body harder to mine. I was actually getting aroused too. He kissed my shoulder and I moved my face close to his.
- That could be your wedding vow, he smiled and kissed me.
- Nah. I like the traditional better, I laughed and rested my head on his shoulder again.
- I'm sure the minister likes the traditional more too, he laughed.
- Are you sure you want to do this? Get married here, that is? I asked.
- Are you having cold feet? he asked.
- No! I meant that don't you want your family to be there when you get married? I asked.
- Of course I would like them to be here but it's not possible. And we have no idea how long we are going to be here. I want to marry you for real. It makes you mine and that way we'll have one less thing to lie about to our friends and neighbours, he sighed.
- I hate the lying too. Zac and I have become so good friends and it eats me up that I have to lie to him, I said.
- I know. But it's for your own protection, he said.
- I do know that. I just hate the lying part, I sighed.
- Yeah, me too. Darling, I have something to tell you, he said.
- What is it? I asked concerned and looked at him.
- I asked Mandy if it would be okay for us to adopt Henry once we are married and she said it's perfect. He has no living relatives so we can sign the papers when are getting married, he smiled. I squeeled and hugged him close to me.
- Are you serious? We get to keep him? For real? I asked happily.
- Yes, he'll be a Lucas too, he smiled. I kissed him happily.
- Can we have another child too? I asked carefully when we both had calmed down.
- We can have as many as you want, he smiled against my shoulder.
- Let's just start with two. Henry and another baby, okay? I laughed.
- Okay, he smiled and kissed my neck.
- Hey, what kind of a wedding is it? What should I wear? I asked.
- It's our kind of wedding. You can throw on a carbage bag and I still think you're the most beautiful woman in the universe, he said. He was kissing my cheek now.
- I'd prefer clothes. I'll figure something out. Maybe Zac has something white in his store, I smiled against Matthew's lips that had moved to kiss my mouth now. He kissed me passionately and rubbed my breasts with his fingers. He had slid his hand under my top. I moaned into his mouth and that made him smile.
- I love the way you react to my touch, he smiled and kissed my collarbone.
- To yours only, I smiled and tangled my fingers to his hair. He was letting it grow. It was a curly mess of ginger but I loved it. It was a part of the true him. The curls, I mean.
- Never to anyone else's, he said as he took off my top.
- Never, I promised and pulled his face to the same level with mine. I kissed him passionately and moaned again as his fingers twisted my nipples.
- You have to stop, I whispered again.
- Why? he asked but didn't stop. I was close.
- Because I'm going to come again, I whispered.
- Is that a problem? he smiled.
- Please, I said but more in pleasure than anything else. He twisted my nipple and kissed me hard as I came so he muffled all the noise. I was panting really hard as he moved his fingers away and put my top back on me.
- Would you really have wanted me to stop? he asked.
- No. But it's not any fair. You have to do all the work and I'm the only one that gets any pleasure, I panted as I pressed my face against his shoulder.
- Your pleasure is all I want. I want to see you happy. When you are happy, I am happy, he whispered.
- I'm very happy, I smiled and kissed him gently.
- Good, he smirked.
- Oh Gosh! I totally forgot the other present, I said when I remembered it and ran downstairs to get it. I returned to bed with the gift and Matthew wrapped his arms around me. He pulled me closer to him.
- Open it, he whispered to my ear. The little box was Tiffany Blue so the gift was from Tiffany's for sure. I slowly took the white ribbon from the box and opened it. Inside the box was a beautiful heart pendant neclace. It usually says Return to Tiffany's but this one said Return to Matthew. It was so beautiful that it made me cry.
- Thank you, I smiled through my tears.
- Do you like it? Matthew asked uncertain of his present.
- I love it, I smiled and kissed his lips.
- Good. I wasn't sure you would like the engraving but glad to hear you like it, he smiled and I saw he was relieved I had liked the gift. I rested my head on his shoulder after putting the box on the nightstand. Matthew moved us to lie on the bed.
- I love you, I smiled and kissed his shoulder. I was saying it a lot tonight but the words didn't get old. I truly loved him.
- I love you too darling. Now try to get some sleep. We have a lot of planning tomorrow, he said smiling. I was already dozing off. I felt him kiss my forehead as I fell asleep.
A/N: I know they did something although Matt/Joe has a purity ring. But they both had their pants on etc. So I don't think they crossed a line. And they are going to get married in a week. I hope this chapter didn't offend anyone. I totally respect the people wearing purity rings. I never wore any and I sure didn't stay pure until marriage. I have a living five and a half year walking prove of that and I still am not married.
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