One more breath, then over come step one Chapter 3: Difference, a twilight fanfic

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A/N: I did a previously thing here, cause' I just jumped right into this one =] reviews please and thank you!

Previously

I couldn't take just standing there, after his body was thrown into the fire and my mind registered fully what just happened as I started to smell him burning, I ran, as fast as I can, and luckily enough not stumbling, and started banging on her chest, not that it fazed her, just have be bruises, nobody noticed what I was doing they were to occupied, then out of no were, she bit me, she bit me and wouldn't stop, she only stopped when Jasper came out of no were and attacked , I gave him a look begging him not to tell anybody she bit me, he felt out bad I felt and that I couldn't do that to the family, so he gave me an alright look and finished her off as I walked back to were I was standing before, all I could feel was fire, fire was burning in my veins. 'Okay, okay I'm turning ,this is fine, ill be fine, at least I can walk, witch is really surprising' I looked around, everything was fading quickly but I new I couldn't tell anybody, if I tell anybody then they'll be to concerned with me, and they might get hurt, thank god Jasper didn't tell anybody.

I wasn't paying to much attention to the fight except to make sure nobody else in my family of vampires and wolves died. But other than that, I was pretty out of it.

Difference

After everything was done, and the new borns were dead, Carlisle and Esme looked exhausted like tired exhausted not even just week. They came over to me and hugged me.

"Carlisle, Carlisle I was bitten, sometime after Edward was…was…." I trailed off I couldn't even finish; Emmett was dry sobbing for a loss of a brother and the loss of his wife.

"How is that possible, I saw you walk over to the fire…but you walked back, and stayed quiet, you didn't scream or anything, and now, your talking? How…" he trailed off babbling

"I know I couldn't tell you, you guys would have been too distracted by me being bit to watch your back and I couldn't let anything happen to any of you. So I stayed quiet, and everything's dim right now, along with the hearing, your sort of….sort of….owe..." I gasped, I needed to pee. I didn't think that happened when you were turning, of course, I didn't think I would be able to talk when this happened, and I defiantly didn't think it would happen under these circumstances.

Jasper and Alice grabbed a hold of my arms, making sure I don't fall.

"Bella, Bella, listen to me, Bella, you're not changing like normal vampires, you're a lot more aware of your surroundings, and you're having a lot easier time then most vampires. Now that means you might have different pains, so, I need you to tell me exactly what you feel." Carlisle said, of course he wanted to figure out why I was so different maybe this is because of my mind block.

"What if this is because of my mind block?" I asked projecting my thoughts.

"No, I've met somebody that had a block similar to yours Bella, and when they changed and they changed the same" Jasper said, we had to believe him, considering how many humans he changed from his past.

"Alright Bella, so what hurts?" Carlisle asked professionally

"Uhm, well, I feel like I'm on fire, I have a terrible headache, and it feels like somebody is repeatedly kicking my stomach….that's about it…oh...it also feels like somebody's cutting my wrist open again and again" I looked at everyone's shocked faces "is that bad?"

I was scared, I wasn't supposed to be able to talk, or move, tell them what hurts, and by there expressions, I'm not sure if I'm supposed to hurt like this. I didn't realize I was crying until Emmett came over and hugged me tightly dry sobbing. After he let go I couldn't take it any more, I fell to the ground crying. After about a half an hour, they brought me back to the house while I screamed Edwards name at the top of my lungs over and over again.

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I can't take it anymore! I lost him, he's gone, this can't be happening.

"I'm sorry Jasper" I whispered, I know how much pain he must be in, with everyone so depressed and I'm not helping, I heard him say once about me having very powerful emotions, so he must be really hurting, feeling his own pain for the loss of a brother and sister, and everyone else's pain. In the matter of seconds Jasper and Alice were by my side. I've been in Edward room, crying for the last 8 hours, I haven't moved for anything. Everyone was a little surprised I could cry at first but they all quickly got over it.

"Bella what are you sorry for?" Jasper asks concerned.

"For all the pain you must be in because of me, and Emmett, and Esme and Carlisle and Alice, and your own pain, it must be torture, and I'm sorry." I whispered quietly afraid to trust my voice to much, but I knew everyone in the house could hear me. Alice sat to my right and held my hand while Jasper was doing the same on my left.

"Don't worry about it Bella, I completely understand all your pain…okay bad choice of words, just, don't worry about me, okay." He said and pushed the hair out of my eyes.

"Were going to go hunting for a little, but I know Emmett wants to come in here with you. I know he's scared for his little sister; extremely scared." Alice giggled and kissed my forehead, and jasper gave me a hug and they were off. Minutes later Emmett was next to me, in a chair that was brought next to his bed that was put in here for me. Emmett and I didn't talk, we just sat holding each other hand, crying/dry-sobbing, for hours, even though I could cry I still couldn't sleep, so that wasn't a problem any more. 'I can cry but I can't sleep, yay, right now's the time that I want to sleep the most! I can't believe he's gone, I can't do this, I just cant, Edward, Edward I love you, I love you so, so very much, I'm sorry this is all my fault. After thinking that though, I cried harder, and just felt more guilty, 'somebody save me from my misery please!'

I calmed down enough to talk to Carlisle for a while, after he left I freaked out, he closed the door quietly behind him, and minutes later I screamed at the top of my lungs. It hurts so bad, so, so very bad. Everybody ran in and came to my side "what is it?" they asked

"It hurts! Make it stop please!" I screamed I couldn't stop screaming the pain wouldn't stop

"What hurts Bella, what hurts?" Carlisle asked"

"The fire, its hotter, I feel like I'm 900 degrees hot, and my heart, it feels like its about to explode, it feels like it did explode, if feels like it was ripped out of my chest stomped on, tore apart and but back, it hurts, please, somebody help me, everywhere hurts, everything, … oh god… oh please. Please help me!" I just kept talking, babbling random things, wishing the pain would stop. All of a sudden everything want black and my buddy started freaking out. Though I could steel hear everything everyone was saying even better than before. Maybe, just maybe, this is the end of the change. I tried to tell somebody that that's what I thought but I couldn't make my mouth move, my body was twitching to much

"Carlisle she's having a seizer!" I heard Alice screamed. Well maybe she didn't scream it, but that's what it sounded like, everything's so much lauder than before, and I can hardly bare it.

'tired, so tired…must…sleep' and with that I was gone, everything turned blacker than the black before, and I couldn't hear anything, I couldn't see, hear, feel, smell, say, or imagine anything. It's like a blank page. A blank page of black construction paper. I liked it though, no hurt, no remembrance, no confusion, no isn't replays, no nightmares. Nothing.

Emmett's POV.

After getting Bella home, talking with everyone, then talking to Bella alone for a little, I ran out into the forest to fuck up some trees.

"Rosie!" I screamed dry sobbing "Rosie, I love you" I fell to the ground sobbing, wishing that tears would fall from my eyes, but knowing it would never happen again. "Rose" I whispered.

'why is this happening to our family, everything so suddenly, why, Edward… my brother…gone…Rose…my wife and the love of my life…gone!, Bella, my little sister…my human little sister…changing…and not like normal vampires, something's wrong with the way its happening, she's to coherent, and she can cry, why is she getting put through so much pain, Why is this family having to go through so much pain.'

I punched trees and hunted as I thought.

'Why are you doing this to us, Why?! We're good vampires, our family, were the best kind! We don't harm the human kind! We hunt animals yeah, but we don't even hunt animals near extinction!'

I sighed. I should get back. I want to make sure Bella's okay. And with that, I ran back to the house just in time to hear her scream an ear splitting scream. I ran up to her bed room.

"What is it?" we all asked

"It hurts! Make it stop please!" she screamed crying her eyes out.

"What hurts Bella, what hurts?" Carlisle asked

"Carlisle she's having a seizer!" Alice confirmed my throats. 'Carlisle please do something help her' I couldn't get my voice to work so I screamed in my head even though Edward was the one that could read minds.

Carlisle gave her medicine to help her calm down and stop with the seizer but it was visible that she completely passed out, I looked at Alice, my eyes pleading for her to look into the future to make sure she's going to be okay I cant loose my brother, wife and sister all in a day. Alice nodded knowing what I was asking, then went into a vision. I waited. About 5 endless minutes later, she came out and said "she's going to be okay, it was a seizer, right now she's seeing total blackness, she's not having thoughts and she cant hear us, but she'll wake up in about 3 days shell be fine, she wont be a vampire though, its going to take her another week for that to happen. She won't sleep or eat; she's just going to feel pain, worse than our pain when we changed." She finished and Esme started sobbing, sobbing for her lost son and daughter, and for the pain he daughters feeling. While Carlisle comforted her, and Jasper comforted Alice, I was left alone, no one to comfort or to comfort me, as if Jasper knew what I was thinking he looked over at Carlisle.

"Uh hey, Carlisle, should somebody be up with Bella, you know, to lay with her and keep her fever down? I mean we feel like were on fire we don't get hot on the skin."

"Oh, you know what, your right son, one of us should" he answered

"I'll do it." And with that I ran upstairs to Edward's room, anything to get away from that feeling, and as long as I'm helping Bella. I'll be fine.

A/n: yes I'm taking this slow, I'm sorry, there may be a lot of chapters, for this story, I know I'm uploading quickly… or well… sort of quickly, but don't count on it to happen every time, when I start righting, I get right into it and want to keep going, but I may get bored or get a block, and wont upload as much. Don't get mad if that happens. Reviews and Comments, Yes and Please!