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Preiviously

"We're going to need to move…aren't we?" I asked looking at them

"We did that come from bells?" Emmett said jumping from a tree next to me.

"Well, think about it, although the pack knows none of you guys bit me, I was still bitten, and although they cant necessarily do anything about it, my bloodlust its going to be raging, and even if its not all that bad, witch I PRAY to god that it wont, I cant live with Charlie as a vampire, I cant spend time a school, then go home, and 'sleep' there, even with the best bloodlust control like Carlisle's, even if I had control like his I wouldn't be able to do it all, all the time for the next year and a half…" I said, and then started fidgeting with my fingers, even though I don't have a need to move constantly its sort of a…habit.

"You know what Bella, I think your right." Jasper said thoughtfully

"Yeah… I can't see anything yet but I have a feeling your right, come on we have to go talk to Carlisle." Alice said getting up and running toward the house.

Goodbyes.

Bella's pov.

When we got to the house Carlisle and Esme were sitting close talking quietly and quickly. Since I'm a new born vampire, I would have been able to make out what they were saying, but they pulled apart and shut up quickly once we came in.

"Hello, how was hunting?" Carlisle said standing up. We all looked at each other and simultaneously said "Interesting"

"But Carlisle we need to talk to you." Jasper said "About the situation" he continued, and told Carlisle what I said in the woods. After a long, very long, conversation, we agreed that we had to move, that we had to talk Charlie into letting me move to Ochoco Oregon, it didn't rain as much as here, but it did snow, a lot, only three months out of the year that it really didn't snow, and those are the years that would be summer. While Carlisle thought of what to tell Charlie of why I had to go with them, Esme searched for houses online, Alice tried to see what Charlie's decision will be, and I tried to prepare myself for saying goodbye to my father, and preparing myself to be in the same room with him without complications, nobody things is really a good idea, but they all know that Charlie will not let me leave unless he gets a proper goodbye, it will be hard, but I wont loose control. Jasper and Emmett were helping me, telling me tips on how to move, and stuff like that, since I had the ability to make people cry (weirdest power I think) my eyes stayed the same, there was no venom in them, so we didn't have to worry about that, I was very grateful that they didn't turn crimson but I kind of liked the idea of them being gold.

"Now Bella your going to be sitting in between me and Emmett, you may be stronger than me, and you maybe be stronger than Emmett, but your not stronger than us both." Jasper said

"Hey!" Emmett said "She is not stronger than me." He stated simply. I laughed and looked back at Jasper.

"Anyway, so that should help me… so I don't…do anything, and I know how and when to move, so I don't look suspicious… but, I'm scared" I said, and then my mind jumped to Edward. Jasper obviously felt the difference in my mood from scared to hurt and sent a calm wave, I looked at him and gave him a smile of thanks, but it didn't help, I lied down on the couch my head on Emmett's lap, my feet on Jaspers. I wanted to dream of Edward, thank god I'm still aloud to dream 'Let me sleep, and wake up in an hour' I thought, and with that I was out.

Dream sequence.

'Wow it worked' I thought, I was in our meadow, still vampire though, it was sunny, and I sparkled like a million diamonds, it was amazing, I sat on the grass of the meadow and began to sob, all the memories this place held, it hurt so much, ' I miss him so much'

"Why did you have to take him from me? Why did you have to take him from this family, why couldn't you have killed me, why couldn't none of us died, Rosalie and Edward were not supposed to die!" I sobbed to the sky 'some dream this is' I thought

"Why are you crying, love?" his voice shocked me, made me cry harder. He grabbed my hand and pulled me up kissing it. He kissed away my tears and looked into my eyes

"You've changed, but your eyes are still the same brown I love" he said smiling at me.

"Edward…" I whispered, I couldn't think of what else to say

"Love, your crying, shh, its okay" he said hugging me "Shh its okay, I'm here, I'm here."

"I miss you so much" I said crying into his shoulder "I love you Edward."

"I love you to Bella, and I'm right here, you can dream, you have that ability, I will come to you in your dreams, there is an after life, and I will find a way back to you my love, you wont be alone you don't need to miss me, because I will always be with you, okay? I promise you, you have everyone to help you through this, okay? Tell Emmett that Rosalie loves him, and tell the family we said hi." He said, he kissed my lips lightly, I smiled through my tears at him then said "Wait, your saying that like your leaving now, don't leave me yet, you cant leave me yet Edward please."

"Love, Charlie is coming soon, very soon, you need to prepare, you are going to wake up in exactly 5 seconds" he said still holding me "5…4…3…2…I love you"

Present day

Emmett pov.

"You can't leave me yet, Edward please." Bella said thrashing, Alice snapped out of her vision and came over trying to help contain her "Owe." She said and backed away. Bella shot up breathing hard, even though she didn't need it, she was crying pretty hard, old habits die hard I guess.

"Bella, what was the dream about?" Alice said.

"It was Edward he said… he said… I don't need to miss him, that… that I have you guys to help me through this that we all have each other and I have the ability to dream, so he'll always be with me…he said that there is an afterlife and that he will find away to come back to me, no matter what… he also says that Rose told him to tell Emmett that she loves him…and to tell everyone that they say hi." I said crying along, along with Emmett and jasper, and Alice, since they were all touching me in some way. I heard Esme start to sob and I looked up and noticed she was also in the room, along with Carlisle, and they heard what I said.

"Bella, I'm so sorry." Alice said "Uhm...Carlisle, Charlie's just leaving the house now, that doesn't leave us to much time" she said.

"Alright Bella are you ready, prepare yourself, the story is that you want to attend a collage near Ochoco Oregon, you read about it online, and you want to check it out, we're moving there because Esme and I were both offered jobs, Esme at the nursing home in the hospital of were I was offered to work at, since you wanted to check out the school before you applied you thought that you could maybe come with us and stay with us, until the school years over, now, he's going to agree, and he's not going to visit because of his job, don't take offence to that, he's going to want you to visit though, can you agree to that?" Carlisle said getting straight to it

"Uhm yeah, yeah I can" I said taking this all in and preparing myself to saying goodbye to my father, my father who I have hurt so many times before. 'No Bella you have to do this, you have to! Okay I can do this alright' so lost in my thoughts I didn't realize that Carlisle began talking again.

"…so you will all be attending school so we can stay longer in the new town, Bella do you mind attending high school, once again?" he asked. 'High school, again, without Edward' I sighed but agreed "What year would I be starting in?" I asked

"That will be determined once we get a yes from Charlie, Jasper will make some calls, after he leaves alright?"

I nodded and we heard a car up the three mile rode. I took a deep breathe.

"Alright, I'm ready." I stated confident that I was

Minutes later Charlie pulled up to the house, got out of the car, and knocked on the door. I got up and opened it and smiled, and hugged my father "Hi dad" I said then moved aside to let him in, he sat on the chair to the right of Jasper, I followed him and sat between Jasper and Emmett. I took a breath and smiled. I could smell Charlie but it didn't faze me, he smelt like candy, and there was a little scratch in the back of my throat, but it wasn't painful, I didn't feel the need to jump on my father and feed from him, and venom didn't fill my mouth, I looked at Carlisle in surprised and utter happiness, that I didn't feel the need to hurt my father, I smiled and Charlie started talking asking why Carlisle called him here. Everyone looked at me to talk.

"Well dad, you see, Carlisle, Esme, Jasper, Emmett, and Alice, are all moving Ochoco Oregon…and I wanted to check out the collage out there because, I read about it online and its supposed to be pretty nice and since they were moving we thought maybe I could just go with them you know…but I wanted to ask you first" I said quickly and nervously

"Well, I don't see why not, I mean you are almost 18 and your graduating soon, but I thought Emmett was supposed to be in collage already, and what about Edward and the other one, Rosalie I think, sorry I'm not really good with names, where are they?"

None of us really knew what to say to that so Alice spoke up. "They…left us…" I guess it was better than saying that they died, because it would spread through town, and everybody would need a story of why and how it happened, and a lot of people would want to attend the funeral.

We nodded and Charlie said "Oh, I'm so sorry, bells are you alright? And why are you guys moving to Ochoco Oregon?"

"Well Charlie I was offered a job at the hospital, and Esme got offered a job to work at the nursing home, probably to persuade us to move, it's a nice neighborhood and I think we're in for a change." Carlisle said "And yeah, dad I'm ok" I said answering his other question. He nodded and came over and knelt in front of me. "I'm going to miss you

Bells." He whispered "you know I love you" and he hugged me "I love you to dad, I always will nothing will change that not even us being miles apart" I whispered back.

We spent the next couple hours together, talking and stuff, and I started to get restless, my throat was starting to scratch a little more and it was a little annoying, I looked at Alice for help, but she wasn't paying much attention so I said "I need to hunt, or he needs to leave" to quickly and quietly for human ears even when I was right next to him.

Everyone but Charlie heard this, and Alice got up and said "Alright well, I hope you don't mind Charlie but Bella and I were planning on going shopping so she has some new clothes for Oregon and we kind of want to get to Seattle before the mall closes so if you could stop by tomorrow?, Were not leaving for another week."

"Oh, yeah of course, besides Sue Clearwater making dinner for Billy and I tonight, but, why aren't you coming home?" he asked

"oh, uh, ill wanted to help them pack, they have A LOT to pack, and what I have will only take me like an hour maybe a little longer, so I thought maybe I could just stay here" I said

Oh, alright well, yeah that's okay, uh; I can't come back tomorrow, but could I come on Thursday? You said your not leaving till Monday, right?" he asked

"Yeah dad, not till Monday, we'll be here on Thursday, I promise, love you dad" I said getting up and walking him to the door.

"Alright…bye Bells." He said hugging me then with that he left.

Emmett POV.

Bella did really well with her dad I was extremely impressed. Alice grabbed Bella's hand and said "You know I wasn't kidding, we really are going to Seattle to go shopping, you don't have a lot of clothes and we need to get you something for the first day at the new school, jaspers going to go make the calls in like a half an hour, ha, you fine with starting in 10th grade?" she asked her

"Uh sure, uh do we really need to go shopping I'm really not in the shopping mood, can we go tomorrow?" Bella asked her pleading.

"Alice actually, could you guys go tomorrow, Bella and I, need to do something, Bella knows what it is" I said helping her out, but knowing that Bella needed and wanted to do this as much as I did. She looked confused, then she made and O with her mouth. She probably still has no idea that I know she wants to do this, but yeah.

"What do you guys need to do?" she asked suspiciously

"We just need to do something important, alright, just we need to go, well be back in like two hours, maybe you guys can hit an all night mall some were" with that I grabbed Bella's hand and ran toward the clearing.

When we got close Bella stopped suddenly "Emmett…" she said kind of iffy on the hole going to the field were it all happened.

"Bella, were leaving in a week, I need to say goodbye…I need to visit were it happened we before we leave, and I know that you do to, please Bella." I said pleading

She sighed and her eyes started to glaze over with tears, but she nodded and ran the rest of the way to the clearing, me following close behind. When we got there, she stopped and looked at the fire pit, walked over and fell to her knees, I followed suit, and began sobbing.

'Rose, baby, I love you so much, but we have to go, we have to move and start over again, I don't want to leave were this happened, I don't want to leave you, I'm sorry.' I thought. I heard Bella whispering and I looked over to her.

"Edward…" she cried "I'm sorry, this is all my fault, I just couldn't leave them down here by themselves, I didn't want this to happen, why did this have to happy, I love you so much, I'm so sorry." she repeated I'm sorry over and over again while crying, she grabbed some of the ashes in her hand and started to cry harder.

I came over and put my hand on her shoulder, kneeling next to her crying as well. "Bella" I said between sobs "This wasn't your fault, it was just those stupid, immature, jackass, of a creature, newborns, and you can't blame yourself for this"

This just made her cry louder and harder "Yes it is Emmett, you weren't there, I told her that he couldn't change my mind, that no matter what he did or said that I was going to come down here, he got on his knees and begged me not to, he BEGGED me Emmett! I was going to have Seth take me no matter what he said, because felt I needed to be down here, and he was going to do it to, because Jake told him to, and Jake has more authority over him more than anybody, I told him that it would be safer, I told him that I couldn't let you guys be here by yourselves that I could help but I didn't! Edward and Rose are both dead and its all my fault." I hugged her tightly.

"Bella, no Bella, no, it is not your fault you can't say that, shh, its okay." I said trying to comfort her.

We sat here crying for 12 hours crying, then we said our final goodbyes and I love yous', to our dead beloveds and went back home.

We walked in the house to with her still crying, and my face tear stained. "Oh what happened?" Esme asked coming over to hug us.

"We said our goodbyes." I said. "Yeah…and if you don't mind…id like to go sleep…I'm really glad I have that power right now, so glad." Bella said. We nodded and she walked up stairs, to Edward's room I gather.

"Goodbyes?" Jasper asked, he looked like he was in a lot of pain and I felt bad for him.

"Yes goodbyes brother, that's why I didn't want her going shopping, it was something we both needed to do alone, because of the circumstances, although you all lost somebody also, and although you" I said looking at Jasper and continued "can feel what we feel, it would have put you in to much pain, and you guys didn't loose your love of your life, Jasper you of all people know how emotional Bella can feel. I knew she would regret it if she didn't go, and I knew that she wouldn't' have gone by herself, and I know that she would not have asked any of us to do that. And you all know that to." I finished and sighed and said "I'm going to my room, Maybe I can catch Bella before she sleeps, to get her to let me sleep also." With that I ran to my room, and laid on my bed, if Bella was up she would come in, and let me sleep or she would do it from her room, if she was sleeping I'm not going to bother her.

The next couple days were just with us all packing. Thursday Charlie came and went, and now its Monday moving day. I feel bad that Bella has to move so far away from her father, even though she is the one who brought it up, she knew it had to happen though.

We were just about to get in our cars, all of our stuff was at the new house, we had our new birth certificates, and we were enrolled in Ochoco high school. Carlisle and Esme were driving in one car, while Bella, Alice, Jasper and I were all talking my jeep, we'll be coming back for our cars tonight, or tomorrow. Bella's father kissed her cheek and she got into the car and we were off, she screamed "Bye dad, I love you!" and with that she looked away, blinking her tears away

"Its okay bells." Jasper said we all felt a calming wave.

"Goodbye forks." She whispered.

A/N: Sort of long, but not, tell me what you think, and give me ideas! Reviews and Comments? Yes and please!