It was really sad, packing up things I have had on my bedroom walls since I was 5 years old. I grew up in this house, and now every time I put something new into a big brown box I feel like I'm throwing away my childhood. I haven't done much packing due to the fact I'm sitting on my floor covered in childhood memories wishing I didn't have to pack them away. I had all my stuffed animals, photographs of me and friends, mostly Sam, Jacob, Embry and Quil, I had my blanket Jacob's mom knitted for me. All these memories belonged to this house,
"You alright?" Paul asked holding a box leaning against my bedroom door.
"I'm fine, I never thought I'd miss this house so much." I said with a shrug as I gave him a faint smile. Ever since our conversation at the beach almost a month ago, things seemed to get better.
F L A S H B A C K
"Hey" I said slowly walking up to him taking a seat on the sand near the ocean. The feeling of the water touching my feet instantly relaxed me.
"Hey, thanks for coming." He said taking a seat next to me.
"It's fine."
We sat there in silence for a while, watching the waves roll in and out of the shore. I could hear the birds flying above us in the grey sky. I could smell the salt water, this was home. I felt more relaxed then I have in a while. Paul knew that too,.
"I know this must suck, a lot. And I'm trying to give you your space, to understand everything. But I just want you to know, I have never regretted something so much in my life." I could hear the pain in his voice as he spoke.
"I know." I said quietly.
"The day I lost you was the day I lost everything. I didn't care whatever happened to me, I didn't car e if got hurt attacking some fifthly blood sucker. Because at the end of that day, I didn't have you to call at night." He could a deep breath. "I will do anything in my power to gain your trust again. Hurting you was the worst thing I have ever done. And I've done some stupid shit."
I lightly laughed at that last part. "It's gonna take some time you know."
"I know, just know that no matter how long it takes, I'm not going anywhere, and if I ever get a second chance with you. I'll never let you go again."
"Why did you do it?" I asked looking out to the ocean
"I honestly don't know, I was never attracted to her. I was changing during that time and Sam said it might have had something to do with it."
"Did you love me?"
He took a deep breath, before turning his attention back to the ocean.
"I've always loved you."
We talked more about things we've missed in each others lives. He told me about his little sister, Sarah, being an exact double of him. Getting into trouble with school, getting in trouble out side of school. For a 7 year old the girl is a little nuts. Now that Paul and I are on speaking terms, I guess living with Emily and Sam will be a lot more easier. Since I've heard all the boys basically live there. That will be a challenge, although hopefully Leah will be there. She always rescues me from going slightly insane when all the boys are around. Finally I had packed what I needed to have while I was at Emily and Sam's, seeing as the room wasn't as big as mine, I couldn't have everything I had in my room. So my Sam said I could put all the other boxes in his shed and just have my clothes and other things I need in the room. We still had a lot more stuff to pack, but today my parents were leaving for California, and I would be officially moving into my brothers house. I grabbed a box, it was beyond heavy, it took me sometime to actually get down the stairs without dropping it or falling. Once I dragged it down the stairs, I opened the door with my leg and noticed everyone out on my front lawn talking.
"No its fine, Its not like the box weighs more than I do." I said with a huff as I continued to drag the box out on my porch.
"No muscles love?" Billy asked with smirk on his face.
I rolled my eyes and let out another huff, "At least I can walk old man."
Billy let out a loud laugh before telling Jacob to come get the box off me and put it in Sam's car.
"Oh yeah, just help because you dad told you to. Great friend I've got." I said following him to the car.
"It was more fun watching you suffer." Jacob said as he closed the car door, I hit him on the chest. He then grabbed my arm and started twisting it a little big, I let out a laugh as I kicked him in the shins. This caused him to let go, grabbing the back of my legs and throwing me over his shoulder like I was a garbage bag. Curse his strongness, I kept banging my hands on his back as he used his free hand to tickle my sides making me laugh every loudly.
"Oh Jacob must you always treat my daughter like a human toy?" My mom asked stopping her conversation with Billy.
Jacob's laughter died down as he gently put back on my feet. I gave him a glare as I fixed my shirt making it straight again.
"Savannah did you eat enough?" Emily asked me while washing the dishes
"Yes thanks, it was delicious." I said with a smile knowing that Sam was always on cloud nine when Emily and I got along. It's not that we fight or anything, I mean Emily wouldn't hurt a fly, it's just after everything that happened with Leah I've lost a little bit of respect for Emily, I still like her. I mean she is a great girl, it's just in a way, Emily did the same thing Alex once did to me. I excused myself, saying that I was going to turn in for the night. I walked down the small hallway into my even smaller new bedroom. It was really hard saying goodbye to my parents, but they promised their going to make an appearance for both mine and Sam's birthdays and my graduation. While we were in the attic packing up all the photo albums for our parents Sam found my old key board and insisted that we bring it to his house for my room. Which to my dismay makes my room a lot more smaller.
I haven't really unpacked yet, so I have a lot of boxes lying around with clothes in them. It makes it impossibly hard to figure out what the hell to wear, but I really cannot be bothered unpacking. Tonight was another bonfire, and since me and Paul were on speaking terms I decided that there wasn't any real reason not to go, and Seth would be there. Seth is my absolute favourite out of everyone, he is so damn cute, and he is also the nicest boy I have ever met. I slipped into a pair of dark skinny jeans that hugged at every curve I had, and a purple and white spaghetti strapped shirt that was layered. I grabbed a pair of cream coloured flats before straightening my hair. I walked out of my room closing the door and made my way to the living room where Emily and Sam were waiting for me.
We arrived at the bonfire to see everyone else already there, I stepped out of the car and walked next to Sam who had an arm around Emily helping her carry all the food she had cooked for everyone. I saw Jacob and Seth attacking each other as they usually do, Quil and Embry having yet another fight about some stupid topic, then Paul sitting next to Jared having what's looks to be a deep conversation. Before I could even sit down on one of the logs what were placed around the fire, I felt the heat of two big arms wrap around me pulling me into a hug. I turned around to see Seth standing before me with a big dopey grin on his face.
"I've missed you Vanna!" He beamed before hugging me once more. I laughed hugging him back. He lot go of me then pulled me next to him on a log,.
"How's school going?" I asked.
"It's alright, I've been missing out on a lot of the action though." He said with a sad expression. It must be hard for him, he loves being a wolf more then anything in the world. But Sam thinks school is more important, so Seth rarely gets to go on patrol with the rest of the boys.
"I'd stay in school if I were you, the rest of the boys are idiots." I said motioned to Quil and Embry who were yelling at each other in some language I'm pretty sure wasn't even real.
"Plus, girls dig smart guys."
Once I said that he turned to be with another big grin like I just told him he could have all the money in the world. I smiled back at the cute little boy sitting next to me, god he is adorable. I looked over to see Paul and Jared both looking at me talking to Seth, I gave both of them a smile and a wave. One thing I couldn't deny, Paul's smile, was the biggest turn on ever.