"I love you, I've loved you along
And I miss you, been far away for far to long.
I keep dreaming that you'll be with me and you'll never go
Stop breathing if I don't see you any more"
My plan didn't exactly turn out so well. Apparently Billy told Jacob he was going to come home very early in the morning, Jacob failed to tell me this so when we got back to his place, expecting no one home. We walked in on Billy, Emily and Sam sitting in the living room looking beyond mad.
After a lecture from Billy and a screaming match between Sam and I, it was decided that both Jacob and I were not to see each other for at least 4 weeks. Obviously they didn't think it through since we see each other every day at school, but we both weren't going to mention anything. Billy and my parents had only band Jake and I from seeing each other when we were 14, that only lasted two days, so I wasn't really freaking out about it.
Being grounded kind of sucks, I'm basically stuck in this house all by myself seeing as Sam is out on patrol and Emily is visiting her mother or something. I'm really not meant to be watching TV but its Sam's fault for leaving me in this house by myself. Embry and Seth have called through to get something to eat but then they just left, it seems Sam has given them all strict orders not to talk to me when they see me. So to keep myself busy for the long day ahead of me I decided to make cookies, even though I have no idea how to bake for that matter. After I searched through tons and tons of Emily's cook books, (she had about 20 billion of them) I found a simple enough recipe for chocolate chip cookies. The book told me I should measure everything out before I started to mix all the ingredients together. I had everything I needed sitting on the bench measured perfectly, as I was breaking an egg into the mixing bowl I heard the front door close shut.
"Hey" A husky voice said almost in a whisper
I looked up from the bowl to see Paul standing on the other side of the room almost in the living room that was connected to the kitchen and dining area. "Hi" I said awkwardly before going back to reading the cook book.
I heard him sigh loudly and step into the kitchen yet keeping his distance. "I'm sorry. For everything." He said with a tone of sadness in his voice.
I paused. "Me too." I heard the shuffling of his bare feet on the hardwood floors, and the heatness from his body step closer to me.
"Everyone has that one person in their lives that no matter how much they fight it, they have a connection, a connection bigger than life." He spoke looking down at me, I kept my eyes on the book fight the urge to look into his big beautiful eyes. "Someone that knows you better than anyone in this world, that you'd take a bullet for, or kill the person that tried to hurt them." As he spoke the words he crept closer, the strange thing was, I was letting him. He was two inches away from me, I wanted him closer. "Imprint or no imprint I love you Savannah, I always have. From the moment I passed out in your room, the moment I saw your big, green eyes, the moment you smiled at me for the first time. I knew that I'd spend the rest of my life loving you. I know I've messed up in the worst way I could possibly, but love is stronger than anything in this world. My love for you is stronger than anything in this world."
I felt as if I couldn't breath, him standing so close to me. Looking me deep in the eyes, I couldn't deny him. But I knew that I had to, I promised myself I wouldn't get hurt again, forgiving him would do just that.
"Paul-"
"I know you don't feel the same." He cut me off. "And if I really love you, I need to accept that. I will accept that, just know that I won't spend another day of my life without thinking about you. Whenever you're ready, if you are ever ready, I'll be here. Forever and Always." Paul gently sat the sliver, heart shaped necklace on the bench in front of me. I knew this was hard for him, he didn't talk about his feelings, he had been knocked around to much to let anyone in. I was the only person he let in far enough to love. I owed him the truth.
"I'm afraid." I started, turning myself around to face him. "I'm afraid for getting my heart broken again, last time it nearly killed me. For two years, I've turned into someone I'm not, I hate who I am, but I know that I'm not going to get hurt. I can't do this again with you, it hurts to much." At this stage I could feel cold tears forming in my eyes, I looked down. I couldn't look him in the eyes while I was crying, it hurt to much. I felt his strong, hot hand grasp my neck gently pulled my head up to look at him. He wiped my tears with his thumb, a great look of sadness written on his face.
"I know you Savannah, you are the most stubborn, frustrating, irritating, kind, warm hearted, funny, beautiful, amazing person I have ever met. I wouldn't have you any other way. I have carried around gilt everyday for the past two years, the only reason I survived knowing that I lost something I loved so much, was knowing that one day, I would see that beautiful smile of yours again. I would never hurt you like that again Savannah. I lost you once, I'm never going to let that happen again."
"Why didn't you tell me this two years ago?"
"I was scared you'd reject me, not want anything to do with me. And when I tried you wouldn't listen. So I figured that I'd lost you for good, I wanted to fight for you, believe me I did. I was just to much of an ass to do so. But I've changed now, these past two years has changed me. I'm going to fight for you, until we're 83, watching our grand kids getting married."
I wiped the last of my tears, looking at him with a small smile. He really did love me, he really cared for me and regretted everything that happened. Looking into his deep brown hazel eyes I realised I still did love him too, I was just shutting him away, afraid that I'd get hurt again. I turned around, grasping a small hand full of flower, I slowly turned back around to him. I gave him a sweet, simple smile before chucking the flower all over his black shirt. He gasped loudly seeing the mess what was on his clean shirt.
"Ma is gonna kill you." He said grabbing a fist full of sugar and unloading it in my hair.
I screamed slightly with laughter as we ran around the kitchen and living room attacking each other with whatever ingredients we could manage to get. I was covered in egg and sugar while Paul had both milk and flour stuck on every inch of his body. Half an hour later we were both sitting on the kitchen floor still covered in cookie ingredients eating a bowl of pasta bake Emily had made for the boys once they finished patrols.
"Has Em forced you into any hideous dresses yet?" Paul asked with a smile referring to Emily and Sam's wedding which was surprisingly coming up every quickly.
"Millions, but there was this really pretty light yellow one, I think she is gonna get it while she is visiting her Mom but I'm not sure. Kim wants this other blue one, so she'll probably go with that." I shrugged, I wasn't really bothered with whatever dress I wore.
"Your parents gonna be there?" He asked before taking a large spoonful of pasta into his mouth.
"Of course, Ma would jump off a cliff if she had to miss her baby boys wedding day." I answered with a laugh.
"What on earth happened in here?" I cringed at the sound of Emily's voice. Both Paul and I slowly stood up from behind the counter to see Emily, white as a ghost, holding three dresses over her shoulder in plastic covers. "What on earth happened to you both?"
"We were baking" I said with a innocent smile.
She set the dresses down on the sofa as she slowly made her way over to the both of us. "Okay you both into the shower now, Paul I'll get you a shirt of Sam's to wear. Everyone is coming over dinner and I want you both to be clean. Go!" She said pushing us out the kitchen, she's gonna be a good mom I'll tell you that.
After my shower I dressed in a simple white summer dress with just a pair of gladiators, Emily wasn't kidding when she said everyone was going to be over for dinner. The backyard was filled with several tables all lined up together and chairs from any where we could find them. Mrs. Clearwater was in the kitchen along with Emily, Kim and Mrs. Call. Since I'm hopeless with cooking Emily gave me the job of setting the table and putting all the food out, since there was going to be a lot of it. Its funny because Sam and Billy had obviously forgotten that Jacob and I were banned from seeing each other, we have even made fun of Billy in front of them both as we usually do and they didn't even notice. As I was going around the table setting knifes and forks down I could feel a pair of eyes watching my every move. I looked over to see Paul setting up the fairy lights that ran through the trees and along the walls of the house to give us light. I smiled at him, causing him to stop helping Jared and smile back at me. I could feel butterflies in the bottom of my stomach, I went back to setting the table, red in the face.
When Jared and Paul finally got the lights right, the backyard was lit up with fairy lights and big lanterns, it looked beautiful. We had soft music playing in the background, Sam had created a fire near where we ate, we had lawn chairs setting around it. I was carrying several glasses, placing them on the large table when Seth rushed over taking post of them out of my hands.
"I'll help you Vanna." He said with a beaming smile on his little face. I giggled slightly to myself as I thanked him with a smile.
"Paul seems really happy." Seth stated. "I hope you guys get together, I think he needs someone as perfect as you."
I laughed lightly "I'm not perfect Seth."
"To me you are."
"Seth! Come get the plates to give to Savannah!" Sue called from the back doorway holding a stack of plates. Seth rushed off to help his mom as Paul quickly came over to stand by my side.
"That kid doesn't stop thinking about you." He said a little jealous.
"I love Seth." I said looking over at him laughing with Embry at something stupid.
"He's a kid," Paul stated with a frown on his face.
"Naw, is Paul jealous?" I teased with a laugh
"No." He said defensively
"I'll make sure to invite you to our wedding." I said before walking over to Seth taking the plates out of his hands, then kissing him slightly on the cheek to thank him for helping me.
"HEY!"
-Wipes sweat off forehead- Phew, that was a long chapter. I hope you all liked it xD
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