Chapter 5 – Just a little girl
The dawn was painting the city with its colors, it was just like everything dull and gray was sparkling with stardust.
Kagome yawned dearly, damn Kaede and her out of the blue questions!
But really, did she love him back then? Did she love him even now?
Maybe, she had to admit with herself, it could became love, nor Hojo nor Kouga, her last boyfriend, had been able to cause her such a heartbeat, but she blamed it on her age and more maturity, she was twenty seven now, for pete's sake, not an hormonal driven teen.
The chimes on the door rang quite cheerfully for that ungodly hour
"Welcome" but her breath was cut short.
Sesshoumaru somehow felt guilty.
He was engaged with a gorgeous girl, Kagura, since his third year in China, they would get married within the next year, probably, and he was positively stalking the girl at the café.
His mother taught him better, he had a powerful position both in youkai hidden society and in the human political and financial one that could not be ignored. If he was to mingle with a lower class girl, a human nonetheless, he could bring disappointment in both ends and loose whatever his father and him have reached within centuries of hard work. He could fall from his position of lord of the West if he mingle his pure blood with a human.
So in order to keep up as the successor of the great dog general, he had to be careful and choose wisely.
Kagome, on the other hand, was the first who has had the ability to made him think about family and such, the only one who he considered worthy of spending eternity with, back then, when he was just a boy.
Sometimes in the back of his mind, he wished he was just an ordinary guy without lands, companies and responsibility.
She had been close to him for years , so it was only fair to stop by and greet her.
He did, at dawn merely minutes after the café was open, without people watching the, a small lie on his lips before kissing Kagura still half sleeping.
"Good morning, Kagome."
She smiled, eyes sparkling with kindness and recognition, and his heart sunk.
"Sesshoumaru, what are you doing here?" her voice a mere whisper, her eyes wide and afraid.
Good question, what were he doing there? Trying to prove something, anything, that could enhance the rightfulness of his choice in marrying Kagura? Trying to see if his emotions toward her were faded under his perfect control?
"Coffee?" she was slightly shaking, he nodded.
It was a bad idea going there to begin with. It was even worse going again, after a few days pretending it was okay passing in front of the little shop by car or on foot, then stepping inside for his usual coffer leaving tips, sometimes small wild flowers.
Every time watching her, as the few customers of the early morning gathered, relieving in her smile, and her natural light, radiating from her very soul, small talks, as she served his breakfast.
It was just another mistake, something in order to remember times when he was young and careless, nothing more.
He even step so low to tell her of his engagement, cringing when she smiled and wished the couple well.
It was wrong and dangerous but he couldn't help himself to stop.