Hello! Oh my God I think I'm updating so often you'll get sick of me and this story XD my teacher this year REALLY is an ass. He speaks in a continuous monotone and suddenly adds in some high pitched word and the way he claps is kind of gay. Oh God no bad-mouthing. –zips up lips- mmmmmnnMMnnNNmmmNN! (translation: anyway here is CHAPTER 5!)
He watched the small sliver of moon majestically empty generous amounts of silvery white light through the gap in the curtains that had been drawn with just the slightest bit of carelessness. The brightness pooled onto his floor, mimicking rain puddles on a spring morning.
He slid the eye patch from his head and blinked both his eyes, the Faustian contract now visible. A gleam of white reflected off from his pair of mismatched eyes, blinding him for a mere second that seemed like endless years. The night was filled with a melancholic air of withdrawn ecstasy, tinged with a kiss of forlornness.
It was beautiful enough to bring tears of delirium, but yet it would bring along with it a reluctant sorrow, mixing hesitancy with the pleasure.
(A/N: I'm sorry but I suddenly felt like describing a night full of juxtapositions. The night I'm imagining in my head is kind of magical… so I'm trying to describe until people out there can see it like I am! XD)
It would be a waste to stay in his chambers. Ciel slid out from under his covers, still dressed in his nightshirt. Not knowing how to properly dress himself, he slipped his feet into his bedroom slippers, took his cloak hanging from the wall, pushed at the door and sauntered out down the dark, deathly silent corridors.
He stepped into the cool night air, frozen on the porch for a few moments. As he strolled along the Phantomhive Mansion grounds, he realized many things that he had never before known existed. He finally understood how his mansion had been kept so neat and organized. He got to know how the pathways were always clean and why the plants, bushes and trees were always tidy and trimmed and gardened.
And it got him wondering. Where would I be right now, if it weren't for Sebastian, always dutifully carrying out his duties as a butler, and a demon bound to me by the contract?
Why didn't I treat him better last time when I had a chance to, when he was more open towards me?
Why… do I always have to do things first, and regret them later?
x.o.x.o.
From a distance, a tall silhouette of a demon butler could be seen on the roof of Phantomhive Mansion, quietly dark, illuminated by the contrasting white of the almost full moon. Crimson red rubies watched a lone figure crouched on the pathway of the mansion garden, unmistakably trembling badly.
Bocchan… you'll catch a cold if you cry out here like that.
A stinging pain embedded itself in Sebastian's chest like a sharpened, poison-tipped spear. Slowly, the prideful butler crouched down, his eyes never leaving his Bocchan. There was a nagging voice at the back of his head that he thought had long since existed—his conscience.
This is the young master whom you have served for the last few years…
This is the boy who taught you how to feel again…
This is the boy who has been crying for you every night in his tear-filled dreams…
This is the boy who needs you…
…this is the boy whom you need most as well.
His mind was a mess, his emotions in turmoil. Right was wrong; wrong was right. It was impossible to tell. What to do; what not to do, he could no longer decide for himself.
But he knew that the Sebastian from the past would never forgive himself if he were to leave Bocchan out in the cold night, crying all by himself.
Just as he slid off the roof to land behind Ciel, the boy stood up, and walked back towards the mansion without as much as a backward glance.
Sebastian stayed still on the pathway, watching the innocent, ignorant teen close the door behind him and return to his bedchamber.
x.o.x.o.
Sebastian,
Tonight's sky was beautiful. Velvet black with stars as silver as the polished chain of your pocket watch. Do you still keep that watch? It is quite impossible to forget the way you walk around with the old fashioned thing in your face.
I had hoped you would join me in my midnight stroll but I was thoroughly mistaken, yet again hoping for something of the past. The past and present have opened up quite a long distance.
I wonder, if I were to journey back, and change things, would our present, the past's future, still be the same, or would things be different—better perhaps, or take a turn for the worst?
However, thinking of changing the present back in the past—turning back time—is such a childish and impossible thing, and I will give no excuse for my naivety.
Did you see the moon today, Sebastian? It is almost a full moon, and it is also stained a little blue. They say that wonderfully curious things happen when there is a full blue moon. Do you believe it such superstitions?
I shall retire for now. I hope that the day you will respond warmly to me will come soon.
Ciel Phantomhive
x.o.x.o.
Bocchan,
I sincerely hope that you have not caught a cold in this chilly night air. Whatever were you thinking, sitting in the middle of the garden pathway? I was about to suggest you return to the mansion when you went back on your own accord.
The wellbeing of Bocchan is one of my top priorities, among other things. Please do try not to fall sick. It would be a disgrace if word were to be spread.
If the butler of the Phantomhive Household fails to keep his young master in the best of health, where would we be?
I am after all, one hell of a butler.
Your faithful butler,
Sebastian Michaelis
A/N: YAY! There is chapter 5. Wow. To me it's one long chapter. I've never written such a long chapter before XD it's an accomplishment! And I feel happy! (except there's softball tomorrow CURSE IT, it just RUINED my good GOOD mood! T.T)
I write my chapters longer and longer and then you guys want them longer and LONGER and im trying my best… but don't you agree with me on one thing? Short chapters are filled with more suspense! If chapters are too long they might get a little boring… unless the author has the ability to capture her readers with her words! XDD
Wish me luck for training tomorrow! I might update tomorrow if I have time to (: PLEASE REVIEWW! I LOVE REVIEWS! LOTS AND LOTS OF 'EM! XDD 3