I haven't gone AWOL (: im back, anyhow XD I had the whole of this morning to write this (: chapter 6~

Sebastian resembled an ornament in a painting a solitary. Cold flames burned on thick blocks of hardened wax sitting in small silver dishes, casting dark shadows on the intricate wallpaper.

Bocchan…

A wooden cross stared down at him from the library wall.

x.o.x.o.

The door to Ciel's study opened and his butler entered.

The pair of crimson eyes widened and his elegant eyebrows lifted in pure irony. 'My, my, Bocchan.'

A blue sapphire eye narrowed in annoyance. 'Speak up.'

'May I ask what business you might have with the Bible, Bocchan?'

'That's none of your concern, demon.' Ciel raised his face from the thin delicate pages of the Bible and glared at Sebastian, just as the breeze picked up a scrap of paper from his desk and it fluttered towards Sebastian.

Sebastian held the crinkled paper nearer to his face and caught the word 'Lucifer' scribbled onto it in Ciel's rushed handwriting. 'Ah,' he nodded, understanding crossing his features. 'But why would Bocchan want to know that?'

A faint red hue stained Ciel's pale complexion. 'I was just curious, that's all. If you have no business here, just get out and leave me alone.'

'Bocchan, you could have just asked me.'

Ciel snapped the covers of the thick, leather-bound book hastily and slid it across the table to Sebastian. 'How did you demons come about?' he tapped the Bible. 'Was it as these words described?'

'Of course I would know about my ancestors, wouldn't I, Bocchan? There's no need to consult the Bible, is there?' Sebastian's smile widened to the extent of Ciel's brave front shattering.

Ciel desperately grabbed the Bible and hurled it at the demon butler, who caught it expertly in between two long slender fingers. Sebastian placed the book back on the table and leaned across it to stare into Ciel's eyes.

Ciel pressed himself deeper into his chair, his heart pounding violently.

'Bocchan.'

'…get out…' Ciel gripped the arms of his chair. 'Get out!'

'Bocchan, are you afraid?' Sebastian straightened and pushed the Bible back towards Ciel. 'Are you afraid of us demons?'

'Get out!'

'Bocchan, you wanted to know how we are created.' Sebastian walked around the table towards Ciel. 'We demons are the very core of your vengeful, revenge wanting souls. We are the very being of your most wanted desires. We exist for the very reason of fulfilling your dreams and in return we devour your soul.'

Sebastian ran a finger down Ciel's face from his temple down his cheek, and gripped his chin, tilting it towards his face, a cold smile playing on his lips. 'And these devoured souls are reborn into new wish-granters—demons.'

Ciel jerked away from Sebastian's cold touch. 'Get out—this is an order!'

Sebastian dropped to one knee and placed a hand over his chest, still smiling. 'Yes, my Lord.'

x.o.x.o.

Ciel sat in his study absentmindedly throwing darts at the target, every red part of the bulls' eye pierced with a sharp, feathered silver knife.

What can I do for Sebastian?

Throw.

Why will he not speak to me for such a long time?

Throw.

What the hell is wrong?

Ciel hurled his last dart at the bulls' eye, his eye glowing fluorescent violet.

The dart tore a hole in the target, and drilled through the wall. Cracks started from the sides of the perfectly round hole and spread to the surroundings. The wall crumbled in a haze of white.

A shadow was visible behind the dust, and as it cleared, revealed Sebastian, holding the dark in between two fingers, his eyes flashing fluorescent violet. 'Bocchan.' He walked through where the wall had previously been. 'Please control yourself.'

Ciel stood up abruptly. 'Sebastian, I want something sweet.'

Sebastian placed the dart on the table. 'Understood.' He bowed, walking away slowly.

'Sebastian!'

'Is there anything wrong, Bocchan?' Sebastian turned around.

'Fix the mess.'

'Understood.' Sebastian bowed again.

Ciel watched his butler walk away, and when he was finally gone, he brought a fist down onto the table, denting the wood. Damn it! Why couldn't I say it? A single tear slid down his cheek. I wanted to tell him I needed him, and that was why I wanted him to stay my butler forever.

Sebastian's steps dragged on the floor more than usual. I wanted to tell Bocchan that I would always be there for him. But I just couldn't.

x.o.x.o.

Bocchan,

You are becoming more troubled with each passing day. I can feel myself worrying about you more everyday. Please pull yourself together and continue to place your trust in me.

I can assure you I will be coming back soon.

Your faithful butler,

Sebastian Michaelis

x.o.x.o.

Ciel placed another manila envelope into his drawer, placing his pen back into its stand. 'Sebastian…'

x.o.x.o.

Sebastian,

Maybe I've been too hopeful. Maybe I've been too naïve. Maybe you would never forgive me like the way I'd always imagined and dreamed of.

You would hate me forever for your condemnation. I'd never be forgiven. But still I would never let you go. That is just how selfish I am. That is something that will never change. All I can do is ask that you forgive me someday.

Ciel Phantomhive

A/N: okay! I've finally updated! How's my chapter 6? It's a short chapter since I was wondering if I should finish up the whole story by chapter 7… please tell me if I should finish up the story in the next chapter or stretch it a little longer. No worries I plan to write a sequel! PLEASE REVIEW! XD