Author's Note: I'm giving this to you a little early. Sometime tomorrow I will post 10 and then you will be caught up to what I've written so far and things will have to slow down.

I wrote this out of sequence temporarily naming it Damon Lemon lol, needless to say, this chapter is going to earn our rating, so read ahead with caution. I hope you enjoy the story! I do not own the rights to the Lifehouse songs mentioned in this chapter, You and Me, Everything, and First Time. Link to the playlist: .com/view_play_list?p=868A8546C4DAF86C (www. youtube. com/view_play_list?p=868A8546C4DAF86C)

A big thanks to MissSherrie, Elohcin, and my WC girls who thoroughly enjoyed this chapter. Three of them knew absolutely nothing about the show and still loved it. ;)

Chapter 9

I lay alone in my bed staring at my ceiling. After our argument, Damon didn't come home. I don't know where he went, but he wasn't here. I sighed, resting my forearm over my eyes wondering if I wasn't being fair. In all honesty, his relationship with Andie, if you can even call it that, was before he even knew me. He broke up with her after the second night he met me. He'd already told me that he wanted to be better for me. Maybe that was a step in that process? Either way, no matter his motives, I didn't really have a valid reason to be angry, it just bothered me that he could do that to that poor woman. And worse yet, due to his compulsion, she didn't even KNOW she'd been used. He just brainwashed her into being fine with it, as if he hadn't used her body and tossed her aside when he grew tired of her.

I groaned and rolled over, realization hitting for the first time where my anger was really coming from. If it was so easy to toss her aside, then what would keep him from getting rid of me when he got sick of me…just like Katherine had hinted? Katherine and her poison strikes again.

I rolled over again and sighed, a tear trickling down my cheek. Why did love have to hurt so much? That's what it was. Even after such a short time, I already loved Damon. I loved him in spite of his faults, in spite of the darkness inside him, and yet, I still didn't know how much of that was returned by him. I knew it wasn't smart…but half the time people love others that they shouldn't. The heart wants what the heart wants, and mine wanted Damon. I wanted Damon regardless of his past, even if it was the recent past. I could tell he was trying…trying for us…trying for ME. He needed to be given credit for that, didn't he?

I was driving myself crazy with all my back and forth, I didn't hear a sound until suddenly music began playing from down the hall…a hall full of unoccupied rooms with the exception of the room Damon stayed in and my own. I listened more closely, feeling more confused when I heard Lifehouse coming from the direction of Damon's room.

I got up and walked to the door, opening it just as the music got louder. The words echoed down the hallway toward me.

All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right. I'm tripping on words. You've got my head spinning. I don't know where to go from here. 'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do, Nothing to prove. And it's you and me and all other people. And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you.

I took in a slow breath before taking a step toward his room and then turning around and going back into my room, closing the door behind me before opening it, and going down the hall to knock on his door. He turned the sound down a little before answering the door, his eyes kind of flat as he stood there in nothing but boxers.

I swallowed hard before I started rambling at the same time another song started. "Listen…I wanted to apologize. I shouldn't have flipped out on you so much; it just bothered me that you could treat someone like that. It made me think I might be next and that's not really fair, but that's just how my mind works because I'm a girl. I may be an odd and different girl, but I'm still one and we think in circles. Anyway, I just wanted to tell you that I was sorry for being so belligerent."

He stared at me, his face beginning to betray what he was really feeling around the edges of his mask. "You said that my past was in my past. If you can't say that and mean it then this is never going to work, because there are far worse skeletons in my past than Andie Star."

I nibbled my lip and nodded. "I know."

He leaned against the door jamb. "Do you? Because I'll tell you right now, Bekah. This…this is NOTHING in comparison with some of the things I've done over the past century and a half…and if you can't handle this…"

I nibbled on my bottom lip. "I know."

"Really, Bekah? Can you really deal with it?"

I swallowed and nodded.

His face hardened. "I don't believe you, Bekah. Go think about it a little more and see if you can actually manage to say it out loud next time and maybe I'll believe you."

He closed the door in my face, leaving me standing in the hall. I stood there staring at the dark wood for a long time before I turned to walk back to my room, making it about halfway there when I heard the music change again. It was another Lifehouse song…my favorite Lifehouse song. I froze and listened the first verse begin, getting louder again as he turned back up the music to drown out the world.

Find me here. And Speak to me. I want to feel you. I need to hear you.

You are the light that's leading me to the place where I find peace again.

My bottom lip quivered as the tears slid down my cheeks before falling to the floor. Then, before I knew what I was doing, I was running back to his door, pounding on it with my fist.

"Damon, let me in. I can…I do. I can handle it. I know it's part of your past, and it's behind you."

There was no response. I rested my head against the door and let the tears fall before I whispered into the wood. "I…I just want to be with you. I…I love you."

The door flew open almost making me tumble into the room before revealing Damon staring down at me with the most intense gaze I'd ever seen.

"Are you sure?"

"Yes, about everything…yes."

He stared at me in silence as the song played behind him.

You are the Light to my soul. You are my purpose, you're everything.

And how can I stand here by you and not be moved by you? Can you tell me how can it be any better than this? Yeah….

"I want you more than anything in my whole life, more than Elena, more than Katherine, more than life itself, but I need you to be able to live with my past."

"I can…I promise."

More silent staring…

You Calm the storms and you give me rest. You hold me in your hands. You won't let me fall.

You still my heart and you take my breath away. Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?

I waited patiently, listening to the words and hoping he believed me. I wanted so badly for him to just hold me. As the bridge played again, my tears fell harder as I thought he was going to turn me away again after staring at me in silence for what seemed like an eternity. Just as I was about to give up and went to turn away, he grabbed my arm and pulled me into his room as the chorus began in a crecendo, the door slamming behind him as he wrapped me in his arms, attacking my lips as he crushed me against the wall. His distinctive scent of sandalwood and citrus floated around me and through me as I melted into him, savoring every touch of his lips and tongue as our bodies aligned so perfectly it made me want to die in bliss.

'Cause you're all I want, you're all I need, you're Everything! Everything!

You're all I want, all I need, you're Everything! Everything!

"I love you, Bekah," he finally panted as he broke from our kiss to stare into my eyes. "I do. I don't know how it happened, but I do."

My tears continued to fall, but now from a happiness I didn't know existed until I heard those words from his lips. "I love you, too, Damon. So much."

He lifted a hand to caress my cheek as the song continued on before lowering his mouth to mine, starting off soft and reverent before the kiss grew in heat and intensity. It went on and on as the song repeated the words over and over that I felt so deep inside me. Time seemed to stop, the only thing demarking its passing was the continuation of the song from the speakers. The song changed to another Lifehouse song that made me smile.

"I never pictured you as a Lifehouse listener," I whispered knowingly as First Time started.

I listened to the lyrics that seemed to be describing us to a tee as he kissed my lips softly before whispering. "A birdie told me you loved them so I got it for you."

"So this was audio bait?"

His eyes sparkled as he looked down at me. "Started off that way, but it does actually fit, doesn't it?"

We listened to the lyrics a moment, speaking of how much easier it was to hide than to let someone else inside, but how it made us feel alive to let it just happen, like being in love for the first time.

I nodded as I nibbled my lip until Damon growled, pulling it free before sucking on it gently. "I want to do that." I moaned as ever so gently he scraped his teeth over the sensitive flesh, being careful not to hurt me, sending shocks of pleasure through my body like nothing I'd felt before. I'd been intimate with guys before, but this was something new and completely different.

Reciprocating his action, I did the same with his lip. His moan in response reverberated throughout my whole body, fueling a fire inside me that wanted to consume and be consumed by him.

"Oh God!" I gasped, resting my forehead against his collarbone, his scent flooding me with every inhale and exhale.

"What is that?" he panted into my neck, nuzzling his nose into the nook where my neck met my shoulder, sending chills through the core of me.

"I don't know. I've never felt anything like it."

He lifted his head to look at me. His eyes were practically glowing in the dark, sending shivers down my spine. He lifted a finger and trialed it from the top of my forehead, down the bridge of my nose to my lips, a tingling trail followed his touch. He drifted his finger over my lips slowly, the pleasure of his touch growing in intensity with each pass until I could no longer stand it, sucking his finger between my lips. I twirled my tongue around it before running my teeth down it as I pulled it from my mouth. All the while Damon panted in my face, his eyes focused on his finger.

With vampire speed, he grabbed my thighs, lifting me to wrap my legs around his waist as his mouth found mine again, needful and demanding as he dashed us to his bed. My hands laid claim to his hair, burying deep in his soft raven locks and grabbing them, pulling him closer because no matter how close he was, it wasn't close enough. I needed him inside me. I couldn't explain the compulsion as it was like nothing I had ever experienced before, but it was as if my soul demanded his and would accept nothing less.

The next steps were a blur as my flannel pajama shirt was unbuttoned and removed in a flash, leaving my upper body exposed for Damon's hands and mouth to explore. His hands were bliss, but his mouth was like heaven, as if every taste of my skin brought me ever closer to orgasm without any contact in the areas I normally needed it to bring on release.

My hands were busy too, moving from Damon's hair to explore the contours of his muscular back and shoulders before flying back to his hair to tug tightly when his tongue found my breast, twirling around my nipple in deliciously delightful waves. I arched on the bed and called out his name, making him moan against my flesh as his lips closed over the hardened peak and to my total shock, I climaxed with more intensity than I'd ever felt before as Damon stared up at me through his lashes and continued to manipulate me. His eyes were dark and intense, almost primal.

He pulled away, his gaze never wavering as he lowered himself on top of me to claim my lips. I gasped into his mouth as his body came to rest on top of mine, revealing to me exactly how affected he was as well. My body rose on instinct to move against his like a wave as his tongue invaded my mouth, seeking, demanding, taking.

When I moved against him again, he arched his back and closed his eyes, the bliss on his face making my head swim. "I don't know what this is, but I can't get enough," he growled shifting his hips against mine, pushing me toward the edge again. He looked down at me and I could see his fight for restraint.

"I need you. I need you so damn bad, but if you want to say no, you need to do it now." He closed his eyes looking as if he were almost in pain mumbling "Oh god, please don't say no."

I moved against him again, gasping before reaching my hands up to force his eyes back to mine. "I need you too. I couldn't say no if I wanted to, and I DON'T want to!"

His mouth flew to mine, taking completely as his hands moved in a flash to push away my pants and his boxers leaving us both completely exposed. The smells in the air mixed and combined, his sandalwood and citrus so strong it made my heart dance with excitement, blending with my own arousal to create something so erotic to me that it almost felt dangerous and toxic.

He paused and pulled back to lock eyes with me, his gaze intense, but also holding a softness I had come to know and love. I nodded, moving my hands up to cup his face as he entered me. We both cried out as I arched against him, again instinct making it never close enough. We stared at each other as we moved together, instincts and emotions taking over all conscious thought, but I could feel it in our touch, smell it in our union, the lust and love combined in one unfathomable brew that was like the most potent drug in existence.

My cries became louder as I felt my body quake at its core, my muscles tensing from my toes to the top of my head, winding tighter and tighter to the point that I feared I might snap in two. I felt a tingle in my mouth and a longing in my soul and as I fell over the edge in the most all-encompassing climax of my existence, another instinct took over as I leaned up and bit the place where Damon's neck and shoulder's joined.

My mouth filled with a sweet ambrosia that took my climax to a new height as I lost vision. Damon cried out in pleasure as he emptied into me, his body pulling me ever closer. I felt success as if I were finally complete. He was no longer too far away because he was literally a part of me, coursing through my body, filling my veins from head to toe.

As my body found its final release, I removed my suction on Damon's neck, instinctively licking the two puncture wounds I had somehow created, encouraging the wound to close as Damon held me to him softly, caressing my hair.

My body melted onto the mattress behind me, Damon melting beside me, his hands caressing the curves of my skin as he stared into my eyes. My body trembled from the overload of emotions and sensations, the tingle on my skin and inside my mouth fading as a soothing warmth spread all through me.

Damon's hand moved to caress my face, his eyes so soft and tender it made me want to cry harder than the soft tears that trickled over my cheeks to wet the pillow behind my head. As I came down from my bliss, reality began to settle in and my eyes widened.

"Oh, God. I bit you. I'm so sorry."

He shook his head as his fingers moved to cover her lips, drifting across them softly. "No…Don't, I'm not. I will never be sorry for that. It was amazing."

"But Damon, I BIT you, I drank from you. I didn't even know I could do that. I."

He smiled, leaning down to kiss my lips softly before drifting kisses up my nose and forehead and then back to my lips.

"It was instinct and it was stronger than either of us."

I took in a deep breath and moved my hand to my mouth, relieved to find my fangs were gone, making Damon chuckle. "You know enough to know that they'll only come out when you go to feed, silly girl."

I sighed. "Nothing about me is normal. I thought I better check. It was so strange. I never felt a need like that. I think I needed your blood inside me. I kept holding you as close as I could and it was never enough, even after you were inside me. Now I…I feel…complete."

His soft smile widened as his hand continued to caress and explore my body.

"Is…is that normal? I mean, for vampire sex. Is it always like that?"

Damon's eyes morphed slightly before he shook his head. "I've NEVER experience anything like that before, human, vampire, doesn't matter. I've never felt that electricity, that pure bliss."

I smiled and blushed before reaching up to caress the lines of his face. "Well I can say with all certainty that the same is true for me. I've never come that hard, ever."

His eyes danced as did his eyebrows. "Say that again."

I smirked back, "THAT."

Damon laughed before rolling me under him to pin me to the mattress, his hands gripping mine above my head. "No, say come again like that because that was hella sexy."

I narrowed my eyes at him, wishing I could turn the tables on him yet knowing I…as soon as the thought passed through my mind our positions were switched, Damon looking shocked as hell below me as I straddled his waist, his hands pinned under mine above his head. I let go and sat up, blinking in confusion before looking around the room.

"How? What?"

Damon sat up and repositioned me on his lap, his head cocked to the side as he smiled at me. "Exactly what I suspected, you're getting stronger after drinking blood."

"But your blood isn't…"

He shook his head. "It's not like humans no, but it's similar, except it has the capacity to change humans or heal them, depending on the situation and whether or not they die with vamp blood in their systems. I also have another theory."

I raised my eyebrows for him to continue as he wrapped his arms around me, bringing me closer with a wicked smile on his face. "I think that thirty may be the time when you're going to transition into something more vampire-like, which is why the curse will be more affected by you then. A living being, with a beating heart, and a vampire's skills; it would make you quite the anomaly, for sure."

I nibbled my lip and stared down at him. "I'm always going to be a freak aren't I?"

He hugged me closer, his eyes dancing before his lips found the column of my neck, their caress beginning to build the tingling electricity inside me again. "There's nothing wrong with being a freak, as long as you're the right kind."

I smiled before capturing his face between my hands and leaning down to kiss him gently. "I love you," I whispered against his pink lips.

"I don't just love you, I…well, something a lot more than that."

My heart felt like it exploded inside my chest before I attacked his mouth with mine, claiming him completely, demanding all of him, and he gave to me freely. I positioned myself to join us again, pausing first to look him in the face.

"I want you to drink from me, Damon."

He looked at me in surprise. "Are you sure?"

I nodded. "I want to be a part of you in the same way that you are a part of me. I want to know if that feels as good to you as it does to me. Please, Damon."

He stared at my neck, tracing his fingers down the column following the line of my jugular before looking back at me with soft eyes. "It would be an honor."

I sank down onto him as he latched his mouth to my neck, puncturing my skin with his sharp teeth. I gasped and moaned, delighted by the sensual feeling giving blood provided. Damon moaned against my neck lifting his hips to meet mine as he drank deeply from me before licking the wound and pulling away to gaze up at me. His eyes looked dazed as he stared before blinking at me slowly.

"Oh God, that's…that's amazing."

I smiled before lowering myself to catch his lips. "Told you," I mumbled before allowing him to flip us again, letting him take the lead as he drove us over the edge of our climaxes together.

I lost track of how many times we came together that night, with only short breaks in between when he would hold me close, caressing my body in a worshipful and yet almost possessive manner that further served to turn me on. As dawn came Saturday morning, Damon threw on some clothes to sneak down to the kitchen and find a little food for us, as I was starting to feel a little hungry.

As soon as he left, I heard a soft knock at the door. I wrapped myself in the sheet and tiptoed over to peek through the door as I cracked it open. Elena stood outside, her eyes sparkling with a knowing look before her nose crinkled and she cringed. I nibbled my lip sheepishly before her smile came back.

"I just wanted to tell you I saw Damon and I swear he's like a different man. I've never seen him…happy…like REALLY HAPPY. I'm so happy for both of you."

I blushed before thanking her.

"I'll be around if you want to talk."

My eyes darted around the hall before I looked back to her. "Actually, I have some questions for you…questions I never thought in a million years I'd be asking my niece, but you're the only one I know who has experience with this."

She blushed and laughed before telling me we'd have a girl's night later. She disappeared down the hallway leaving me alone in Damon's room. I turned back around to take in the disaster left in our wake, smiling as I picked up our strewn clothes and the line of towels that led from the bathroom where we took a nice long bath in the freestanding tub that turned quite dirty. It was almost as if he'd sensed my daydreams from when he'd given me his tour and I first saw his room. I tossed the dirty clothes and towels down the laundry chute and climbed back on the bed just as the door opened revealing a smiling Damon carrying a tray heaped to overflowing with every breakfast food imaginable. I laughed before helping him sit down the tray and pull him onto the bed with me, feeding each other bites of muffins and fruit between stolen kisses and groping hands.

We finished out the weekend in much the same way, leaving me sad to leave his bed when Monday morning came. He apparently felt the same way as he followed me to my room, helped me shower, and watched me dress before following me to the front door with sad eyes. I hated leaving him, but life was about balance, and even if Damon Salvatore now had absolute rule over my heart and my body, I still needed to keep a piece of myself for me. So with a long sigh, I started the car and left him at home as I went to face another day of teenagers and day to day life.