Snape was confused, what did Hermione mean when she said the key to winning the war was in her desk. He stalked upstairs and into her room, feeling like a pervert snooping in a teenagers room, but when he thought about it she wasn't a teenager anymore she had been an adult for several months now. He made his way to her desk thinking that there couldn't possibly be anything truly vital to winning the war that he wouldn't already know himself. He looked through her drawers not sure what he was looking for he found several quills and jars of ink in the first drawer, a vial of some muggle pills called Tylenol, in the second drawer he found a journal marked private, two folders and a binder. He looked through the journal first. It was her diary as he read the first entry he felt as though he was doing something terribly wrong. Surly this was not for his eyes however he sat down on her bed and began to read.

May second 2001

Today while enjoying the company of Beth, Cici, and Anna I was introduced to David Anna's cousin from Germany. He was a handsome boy and I found his quite charming, the way his eyes lite up as he talked of chemistry, he was going to the university in the fall to study to me an astrophysicist. He gave me his undivided attention which was new to me as I am far from pretty. He invited me to dinner the next evening and I was elated, the last boy to ask me out was Krum and that had ended horribly.

Snape paused, he knew this was not for his eyes however he could not help himself.

May third 2001

As I was preparing for my date with david I was terribly nervous, what if as the evening went on he found be boring and a bookworm as so many others did or worse yet what if he stood me up. Mother could see my jitters and made me a cup of to calm my nerves. At 8 o'clock he arrived and mother let him in and he stood awkwardly in the entry hall making small talk with my father as I finished getting ready. He took me to a fancy new french restaurant on fifth ave. and as the night progressed he did not tire of me or find me boring as I had feared. At the end of the night he invited me back to his place, I declined as I new how my father and mother would feel about it.

May thirst-first 2001

I went to a party with David, Cici and Beth it had been a long time since I had attended a house party and I was enjoying myself laughing and drinking with everyone until I was wasted and David invited me upstairs to the bedroom I protested but he took me up anyways, as we entered the bedroom I protested more loudly this was not something that I wanted I told him but he ignored me and threw me onto the bed and proceeded to take my jeans and panties off ripping them in the process. I began crying out of fear and anguish begging him to stop pleading but he continued. He took out his cock and forcefully entered me breaking my hymn and ripping my vaginal walls. As soon as he came and finished he got up and left me there on the bed tears running down my face. My mind racing, what had I done to deserve this, had I sinned in some way. After what seemed like eternity but was more likely and hour I shakily got up and got dressed. Seeing that my panties were ruined I left them there and went downstairs and out the from door. I called a taxi and went home and took a long shower trying to scrub myself clean. After an hour in the shower and feeling no less clean I got dressed for bed and went to sleep hoping to wake up and find it had all been a terrible nightmare.

Snape was shocked how could she have kept it a secret for this long he calculated she must be four months along now. How had she dealt with it she was stronger then he had realized. He continued to read transfixed by her entries.

June fifteenth 2001

He did it again this is the fifth time, I don't know what I keep doing to deserve this. At least how he was more gentle though I am not sure if that is for my sake or his. I no longer begged for him to stop as it did no good but I knew or at least hoped he would upon hearing my news. As he finished, he looked at me as he had every time since the first time with disgust. I told him in a shaky voice, barely above a whisper I'm pregnant please for the sake of this child stop, leave me and him or her alone. He was shocked and taken back he called me a filthy bitch and slapped me. I began to cry and he merely sneered I am done with your trashy ass and left.

June sixteenth 2001

I go to headquarters today I don't know how I am going to react upon seeing harry, Ron and the rest of the order being pregnant made her far more emotional then she had ever been.

I held up when I saw them and had fun hanging out with them I hadn't seen them since the end of sixth year and had missed them more then I had thought. As I got ready for bed I thanked my stars that David hadn't come back and raped me again. I couldn't take it if he had

It was todays entry Snape thought to himself.

September twelfth 2001

As I lay here I am contemplating what I should do. Pretty soon I will start to show and then they would ask questions, questions

I was not yet prepared to answer and it terrified me. But I have to get to sleep being pregnant was wearing me out.

He sat back and thought about what he had just read. He then remembered why he was in her room in the first place and moved on to look in the folder. He found that the papers that were in it were written in galic a dead language that few knew, luckily he did. It talked about a curse that she had been making that was so strong that it could weaken anyone to the point of almost death including Voldemort. He couldn't believe it, how had she done it. It talked about the trial and error in which she had come up with it. And there was a potion to go with it to strengthen the one who was casting the curse as it would take all the energy out of the person otherwise.

He wondered what was in the binder then and turned and opened it. Inside in her perfect handwriting was a description of her symptoms and what she had gone through thus far in her pregnancy from the nights of tossing and turning to the morning sickness.

He put Hermione's journal and binder away and took the folder to show Harry even though he didn't especially want to since he disliked him because he looked so much like James and he got upset thinking about what he lost in Lily.

Harry was in the dinning room when he saw Snape approach he was filled with a slight sense of dread wondering what he could have done wrong this time, as he didn't especially feel like being reprimanded. He was thinking about where Hermione could possible be and how she was doing, as well as why she left as all Remus said was that there was a miscommunication. Snape came to him and thrust the folder in his hand. Harry opened it and asked what is this his voice full of confusion. Snape told him what is was his voice full of annoyance at having to translate it. Harry could not believe it, Hermione must have been working on this for months if not longer. How had she kept it a secret and why.

He looked at Snape daring to ask, will it work? Snape nodded as far as I can see it should however this potion takes a long time to prepare. Harry nodded in understanding remembering how long it had taken to make the polijuice potion in second year, he wondered if it would take longer then that and sighed.

Ron came in from playing quitich with Bill and Charlie and looked around and asked, "where's Hermione?" Harry said sadly she's gone. Ron paniced what do you mean she is gone, has you know who got her? Oh god I never even told her I loved her I was too scared of her rejecting me his voice becoming more hysterical as he asked each question. Harry had to yell to be heard Ron calm down no Voldemort hasn't got her she left on her own free will, apparently there was some miscommunication between her, remus, sirius and Snape and she left. Snape snorted miscommunication good one remus. Harry turned to him and asked and what is that supposed to mean? Snape said we were testing her and took it too far that's why she left and walked away.