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Warning: guy on guy lemon (sex) in this chapter.

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I was having a great time at my party, I had part ways with Angela after having our sixth dance together. I was grinning as I walked into my house, going into the living room so I take a breather; this was where the grin vanished from my face…Sitting on the couch I saw Jake's dick in Leah's mouth.

Yet what pissed me off the most was that, it looked like he was enjoying it. My gay secret boyfriend had his head tilted to the side and his were glazed over as he was watching Leah suck him off.

Jake groaned gripping Leah's hair to make her hold her head still as he fucked her mouth. Leah was moaning around him. I knew he was close because when I was the one in between his leg he did the same. Jake came a few moments later and when he came down from his high he saw me staring and tried to push Leah away.

I wanted to scream at him. I wanted to end whatever it is that's going on between us, but I felt so nauseous, so sick; I ran upstairs.

When I entered my room, I slammed the door shut behind me. I can't believe he would do that—to me. Tears welled in my eyes; I was hurt, so very hurt—and angry! Jealous even, that Leah and Jacob could perform acts of pleasure whenever they pleased and not have to hide.

I couldn't do something like that openly, besides the fact that I think I would puke if a girl came 3 inches close to my junk; I wouldn't want to do what they did with anyone but Jacob.

I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn't even hear the door shut or open again, or know there was someone in the room with me until Jacob tried to wrap his arms around me. I shoved him away angrily.

He gave me a pleading look, "Edward I'm so—"

I didn't want to hear his sorry, "Don't Jacob! I don't want to hear it!"

"Leah thought that I've been jacking off for two months now." I rolled my eyes at his attempt to make an excuse. "She said she'd give me a head cause she didn't want my dick to be dry and fall off." His voices pleaded with me to understand.

I shook my head disbelievingly, "And you thought my living room was the best place for that to happen?"

"She came on to me!" He stated as though that would fix everything.

"I don't give a fuck Jacob." I sat on my bed and took a deep breath, "I can't do this anymore. I'll give you a week—a week for you to break up with her or else I'm done…we're done" I left him with his mouth hanging open as I walked out my door and went back downstairs.

I avoided him for the rest of the night.

Sometime around 2 am, when there were only a few people left and soft music was playing in the background was when Jacob came up to me.

"Can I still stay tonight—or?" He asked uncertainly.

"Do whatever you want Jake" I all but hissed.

Jacob sighed, "What do you want me to do?"

'Admit that you're gay,' I rolled my eyes as I thought this. "That you and I fuck six days out of seven, that you're cheating on Leah…That you love me.'

But of course I don't say that because though I'm hurt I don't want to hurt him so instead I just said, "Whatever you want."

Jacob's eyes grew sad, "Guess I'll sleep in the guestroom tonight" He mumbled over his shoulder as he turned around, hunched over while walking away.

I don't want him to sleep in the guestroom yet I can't tell him that he can sleep with me or else he'll think that I forgave him for earlier, and that I'm not serious about him and Leah. So I just sigh as I walk away.

"Edward your party was great!" Emily slurred her words giving away how drunk she is.

"Yeah," Sam agreed as he straightens an almost falling Emily. "I can't believe that many people showed up."

"I didn't invite any of them, Alice did," I smiled. "Probably had too much alcohol here though," I pointed to Emily who first hiccupped then giggled and was now laughing.

"Yeah, probably—okay we're leaving now" Sam shook his head when Emily started playing with his nose. "Have you seen Leah? I'm supposed to take her home since Jacob is staying to help you clean." Clean? Clean what? Oh! Right... Clean.

"Jake is in the kitchen so Leah might be there" I told him walking toward the kitchen. We found Jake and Leah talking to Mike and Jessica in the kitchen.

"Leah I'm 'bout to head home." Sam informed the bitch. "You ready to go?"

She nodded, " I'll be out in a minute"

"K' later guys, thanks for inviting us; Ed we had fun," He smiled at me before turning back to the bitch. "Two minutes Leah!"

"Yeah, yeah, whatever'" She waved offhandedly.

"We're gonna bounce too," Mike said. "Your party was great man"

"It was sweetheart," Jessica said giving a chaste kiss me on the lips.

I followed her out of the kitchen, to say goodbye properly.

Jessica has been my best friend since the first day I moved here. Bella and Angela are also my good friends, but they are Alice's best friends. Beside Alice, Jessica is the only other person who knows about me and Jake.

"I'm glad you could make it" I gave her a tight hug.

"Me too, and don't think I didn't notice you're mood change earlier." she said raising her eyebrows.

I nodded knowing I'd have to tell her everything, "We have to go to the spot sometime."

"Hmmm, bye-bye honey" Jessica gave me another hug before leaving.

"Later man," Mike said following Jessica.

"Bye Jess, Mike" I was almost hesitant to go back into the kitchen.

When I did go in I found Jacob and Leah wrapped in each other arms. That sick feeling came back so I busied myself with cleaning the kitchen.

"I'll miss you babe," Leah had her arms around his neck.

"Hmmm" he kissed her temples.

"Love you" she kissed him and I looked away.

"Love yah too. Go before Sam gets more pissed off"

She nodded, "Kay...ah yeah thanks Edward for inviting me I had fun. I'd like to have lunch with you sometimes, so text me when you aint busy." Her words were pretty but the look she was giving me a look that said the lunch will be anything but friendly. "Jakey has my number. Call me tomorrow babe."

I gave a nod as a response and with that she left the kitchen.

After cleaning a little bit more, I finally couldn't take it anymore and with a "Goodnight Jake," I headed upstairs and immediately I did my night time ritual. Shower, brushed my teeth, brushed my hair, put lotion on my hands and chapstick my lips before finally diving under the warm sheets of my bed and tried to sleep.

Yet an hour later I'm still wide awake staring at Johnny Deep picture on my ceiling. I hugged my pillow tightly wishing Jake wasn't sleeping in the guest room. I should've known it would be hard for me to sleep without Jake, when I know he's staying over.

I thought more a moment; well I really want to get some sleep tonight so...I'd just go in his room—just because I need to sleep, nothing else. I told myself.

I opened his room's door and saw Jake staring up at the ceiling. Even though he knew I was here, he didn't speak to me as I made my way to him and got in the bed but instead he turned and wrapped his hands around my waist. Guess he couldn't sleep either.

"I'm sorry sweet pea," He whispered into my neck.

"Me too."

We stayed quiet for a while.

"What do you want me to do?" He finally asked

"Break up with her!"

I didn't have to look at him to know he was shaking his head, "Edward I don't-"

"Want people to know you're gay I know." I sighed. "And I'm not telling you to come out of the closet Jake; you don't have to tell anyone that you're gay but if you want to continue this...relationship—us being together. Break up with her. It hurts me, you know, that I can't be intimate with you in public while she can."

"I know but it's hard," He tighten his arm around my waist.

"You don't even love her so why is it hard to break up with her?"

"I do love her Edward." His words nearly killed me. "I'm just not in love with her and sometimes all I want to do is kill her but I do love her. I've known her since I was little, and I don't want to hurt her."

Tears filled my eyes, "But it's okay for me to hurt."

"Of course not," Jake hugged me tighter. "I just I don't know what to do."

"Well you've got a week to figure out what you want to do"

Okay." I knew he was nodding. "And I'm sorry I made you mad on your birthday."

"s'kay you can make it up to me though," I turned facing him.

He smiled at me. "Anything for you"

I bit my lip playfully, pretending to think, "Well I do like the song birthday sex a lot."

"Yeah? well I like lots of songs too." Jake put in acting dumb. "So what exactly is it you want me to do?" He ran his hands down my back and gripped my ass.

"I think you know what I want," I breathed out.

"Oh but I don't," He nibbled my ear.

I groaned at the feeling, "I want you to fuck me Jake."

"Fuck you, on your birthday?" He continued his nibbling.

"Yes I don't want sweet and slow." I told him. "I want fast and hard. I want the hell pounded out of me." I rolled us over so that I was straddling his waist. "And if I'm satisfied I might consider forgiving you for letting Leah suck you off in front of me in my living room at my birthday party."

Jacob grinned, "You can never keep quiet Edward won't Alice hear us?"

"Alice knows about us babe, and I don't care." I added the last part while trailing a finger up and down his naked chest, and pinching his nipple.

He growled and kissed me. We kissed our tongues fighting for dominance. I stopped him. I didn't want foreplay; I want sex. I took both his and my boxer off. "Hold on" I tell him as went back to my room to get lube and condoms.

Jake grabbed them from me, "Get on your hands and knees at the edge of the bed."

He put some lube on his finger and pushed it in me. I moaned. In, out, in, out, in, out. He added a second and then a third stretching me. I started bucking my hips in time with his finger.

"Jake," I moaned when he brushed against my prostate.

"Mmm, Edward." He says while curling his finger in my ass.

"Fuck," I moan again.

"You like that don't you?" Jake asks.

"I'm ready," I told him.

He positioned himself at my entrance and went in slowly. I whimpered and Jake caressed my back.

It burned but felt good to have him stretching me. I could tell it was hard for him not to move by the way he was breathing.

"Move," I said after a minute or so and he started slowly and increased his speed the longer we fucked. His balls were slapping against my ass. All you could hear in the room were moans, grunts and panting. I leaned on my elbows to allow Jake to go deeper

"Ugh!" I groaned as he brushed against my prostate.

"Fuck baby you're so tight."

My only response was, "Ahhh."

Jacob moaned and starting going even faster.

"Yes," I called out

"Fuck," I could tell he was getting close. His thrusts were harder and faster.

"Oooh, baby! Yes!" My own climax approaching.

"Cum with me babe," He ordered.

His dick felt so good inside me. I came hard screaming Jake's name at the top of my lungs. I saw stars. I felt Jake empty inside me with a loud roar. I collapse on the bed Jake on top of me. When our breathing came back to normal Jake pulled out and went to throw away the condom.

"I love you," He whispered when he came back and lied on the bed next to me.

"Yeah?" I questioned him while moving to straddle his waist again and kissing his neck. "How much do you love me?"

He gripped my hips,"A lot babe."

"Show me," I grinded myself on him. I felt his limp dick hardening underneath me.

Jake grinned, "Wanna take a ride on my disco stick mister?"

"Lady Gaga!" I'm surprised he even knows that song. "And yes, I do" I said pressing down on his hard cock.

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