Sorry it's taken so long to update people! I just got highspeed internet (i know sad right) and i'm still trying to get over the fact that i don't have dial up anymore. Anyway in case i don't get to post another chapter today i just want to let you know this is for Train's birthday and yes today is actually his birthday. Me and my friends even celebrated t at school. Any I'll stop rambling so you can read. Hope you enjoy!

Disclaimer: I own nothing, no matter how much I wish other wise. I wonder what I would have to do to become the owner of at least Train and Jenos.

The next morning I was surprised to wake up without anyone shaking my shoulder. It was Saturday but Vanessa normally came up to wake me a little later in the morning. Except today she hadn't. I looked at my clock and it read 11:45. It was almost lunchtime.

I got out of bed and got dressed. I headed down to the dining room and saw Karl sitting at the table reading the paper and drinking a cup of coffee. I sat across from him like I always did. He didn't say anything to me and I didn't say anything to him. It was quiet. That is until Vanessa came in.

"Morning Train. Morning Mr Walken," Vanessa greeted us.

"Good morning Vanessa," Karl said from where he was sitting.

"Morning Vanessa," I mumbled around a yawn. I was still tired. I hadn't gotten much sleep because I had been having nightmares lately. My birthday was in two days and the anniversary of my parents death was in three.

They had been killed the day after my tenth birthday. We hadn't been able to do anything on the day of my birthday and me and my mom had been on our way to get my dad so we could all go out to eat. We had never gotten the chance to. I had been regretting my birthday since my parents had died and now it was only two days away. At least I'd be able to ignore it because nobody else knew when my birthday was.

"How did you sleep last night, Train?" Vanessa asked me.

"Okay, I guess." She was the only that knew I was still having nightmares about my parents deaths. She had even promised not to tell Karl about them. I'm not sure if I trusted her more than Karl or I just felt more comfortable with her, but either way she knew more about me then anyone else at the moment.

Karl didn't seem to notice anything but I knew Vanessa could tell I was lying. She kind of reminded me of my mom. As soon as that thought crossed my mind I saw my parents bodies on the floor of my dad's study. I cringed slightly at the image.

"Are you okay, Train?" Vanessa concerned voice asked.

"Y-yeah. I'm fine," I hoped she hadn't notice the slight stutter. She didn't say anything but I think she was still suspicious.

After awhile lunch was brought out to the table. I didn't pay attention to the food and I didn't eat much. Karl noticed that though.

"Train, are you sure you're okay?" He asked.

"I'm fine Karl," I said as I put a fake smile on my face. I was getting good at doing that. "Don't worry about me."

"Train…"

"Really, I'm fine. Don't worry." I told him as I pushed away from the table. "Is it okay if I go for a walk?"

"Go ahead. Just don't be too long." I nodded and headed out the door.

I was hoping a walk would help clear my head but it didn't. It was just helping me remember the night of my parents deaths. I still hated Zagine for what he did. Even if I had killed him. Him and my parents always haunted my nightmares and it seemed like my nightmares were always the same. They'd start out perfectly fine but then Zagine would show up and he would kill my parents right in front me. I'd never forgive him for what he did. He was the one who had ruined my life.

I looked up at the sky and noticed the sun starting to set. I hadn't realized how late it was. I just hoped Karl wouldn't be to mad when I got back. The last time I had been gone for any longer than a hour by myself was when I took of to the woods and I had been grounded for that.

When I got back to the mansion I could smell supper. It smelled like steak. I didn't realize how hungry I actually was until my stomach growled. As soon as I was in the house I went to the dining room to find Karl eating supper.

"Um… sorry I'm late for supper Karl. I lost track of time."

"It's fine Train. Your supper is starting to get cold."

I sat down in my usual seat and started eating. Supper was quiet like always. For once I didn't like the silence but I couldn't think of anything to say to Karl so I stayed quiet.

Later that night, I was sitting on the windowsill looking up at the full moon. My window was open and there was a cool breeze coming through the window. I didn't mind though.

"Train, get down from there. You'll catch a cold." Vanessa scolded when she saw me.

"No I won't! I never get sick." I told her as I stayed where I was.

"Train." I just looked up at her innocently. "Okay, fine. Stay there if you want, but it's not my fault if you get sick." I nodded my head. " Did you have another nightmare last night, Train?" Vanessa asked as she closed the door and sat on my bed. I had been expecting her to ask this question as soon as it was just me and her.

"Yeah." I told her. I couldn't lie to her anymore. She had figured out how to tell I was lying.

"The same one about your parents?" I nodded and looked up at the moon again. "You miss them don't you?" I nodded again. I didn't trust my voice. I felt a tear run down my cheek and I quickly wiped it away hoping Vanessa hadn't noticed.

"Oh, Train, " She noticed, "I didn't mean to upset you." She stood up and walked over to the window. I could feel her standing behind me.

"I-I'm fine Vanessa." I managed to get out without letting my voice shake to much.

"Train…" She trailed of as she pulled me into her arms. I realized I was shivering. I was pretty sure it was because I was trying not to cry more so than from the cold, but Vanessa's arms felt nice. The way she was holding be it reminded so much of my mom, and that's when the tears decided to show themselves. I couldn't help it.

"Shh. Train. It's okay. It's okay." She kept repeating that over and over again. Before too long I was fast asleep.

Chapter 9