Hey guys, chapter four… I hope you enjoy. But if you people don't review, I won't write anymore! Alright, here it is…

Journal entry 4

As I lay in bed yesterday thinking of how I could change my life - an idea struck me.

I thought I needed to be bold and pretty like I once was.

I need to be more exotic and fun, like I knew I could be.

A certain excitement passed through my body and I shivered – like there was a brand new beginning to my life.

I will go back to being the Paige Michalchuk that Hazel, Spinner and maybe even Alex thought I was.

But I'm not going to pretend anymore.

I'm going to be crazy and let it all out.

This is what I needed to do.

So that was the thing that I did to make me feel a little better about myself Mrs. Kwan.

How my day went:

I woke up at 12:30 in the afternoon on a school day, and decided to skip school today…

I got dressed in: huge black hoop earrings, a top basically only covering my boobs, sexy jean short shorts, really hot red stilettos, a scull necklace, and painted my nails black.

After I did all that I headed over to the piercing place down the street.

There were SO many piercings I could get, it was CRAZY.

There was one guy with too many tats and piercings to count that told me how incredibly hot I'd look if I got a bellybutton piercing.

So I decided on that, and a nose ring.

After they did their thing, I walked out almost completely ready for the real funky Paige to come out of her shell.

I just needed to get my hair done.

Okay, I LOVE my two new piercings! They look so hot! My bellybutton ring is pink and my nose ring is black.

I got into my red convertible and drove to my hair place.

I think I was more nervous about my hair than my holes in my body!

I just didn't think I could completely change my hair do.

Well, I DID get the nerve to ask Berta (my barber) to dye it all black and add fire engine red highlights.

And in addition to that, it was straitened and cut to shoulder length.

I couldn't say I didn't look sexy.

Okay so since I don't drink anymore, (and am not willing to change that) I went to my local gas station and bought a root beer.

So now I lay in bed thinking about my day, and I honestly don't regret a single thing I did today.

I don't feel as depressed as I was….

So as I slowly fell into unconsciousness I randomly thought about Ellie… and how come she cuts and burns herself when she can always just change her image….

I guess that only works for some people, or if it works at all.

And I slipped into the darkness…