I sat on my bed, not understanding what was happening, did I actually leave troy? Did he really say what I heard? What was happening? Why was that happening? I couldn't understand, or I didn't want to face what was happening! I cried a lot, I kept seeing old pictures of both of us, I was wondering 'where did all that go?'. Time passed but I didn't know how long, then I heard my dad knocking on my door and saying 'baby girl, can I come in?' at that point I wanted to open the door, hug my dad, and cry my eyes out, but I didn't want to worry him, I was in too much pain.. a while later he knew that I wasn't going to open the door so he said 'okay.. as you like.. I love you baby' a few tears escaped from my eyes and I said to myself 'I love you too daddy'
About 6 hours later, I went downstairs to drink some water, my body was running out of liquid because of all the running and crying, I found my mum there, she stared at me for a while, she didn't know what to do, but then she said 'are you okay?' I looked at her and forced a smile, but that smile took too much strength from me, I was heartbroken, I couldn't even breathe from all the pain.
I drank the water and was going upstairs to my room again when I heard a knock on the door, I wasn't going to open the door anyway so I kept walking, but then my mum opened the door and it was monica! She saw me on the stairs and said 'gabby, come with me now!' I nodded in refuse, I didn't want to leave my room at all, but then she came whispering in my ears 'it is troy' when I heard his name all our memories together flashed in my head, the good and the bad, until the goodbye, then she said 'chad called me, troy was drinking too much in a bar, and then he got into a bar fight! He is really hurt gabriella... it is bad!' I was horrified by what I was hearing! I was in shock, I felt like I stopped breathing in a while, I could no longer see monica, or my mum, I was no longer in our house, all I could see and hear was troy.. how could he be hurt? Will I lose him? I can't! I just can't!
Suddenly I was woken up by a slap! Monica slapped me yelling 'wake up gabby!' I looked at her and she said 'now is not the time to be weak! Troy needs you!' I grabbed my jacket and got into monica's car. She drove us there, and we ran into the bar, only chad was there, monica said 'where is troy?' chad said 'he pushed me and walked away! I tried to stop him but he is a fighter!' I didn't know what to do, but I found myself walking out of the bar from the back door, I walked a few steps to find troy on the ground, unconscious! I fell next to him and kept moving him and shaking his head but it was of no use!
I opened my mouth trying to cry for help but no words came out! I hated myself at that point, I didn't want to embrace this, I wanted to get rid of it, I wanted to yell for help, I wanted to call chad to come and help troy, I wanted to call the ambulance, I wanted my words back! I kept putting my head on troy's chest to make sure his heart was still beating! I was terrified, this was troy, my only hope, my support system, my love, my heart and soul! I kept shaking him yelling into myself 'wake up troy! Please don't leave me!' I wanted those words to be heard.
But then troy started mumbling with words I couldn't comprehend.. but I heard him saying 'gabriella.. don't go.. I need you...gabby!' I had tears in my eyes, I wasn't sure if they were tears of fear because of how troy looks or tears of joy because of his words. I kept moving my hands on his face, and the other hand holding tight to his, just for him to know that I am with him, I am by his side! He was gradually opening his eyes, I was so happy he was okay, but I was wondering what would happen after, I mean he did say what I heard him saying, I did say goodbye, so what now?
He wasn't quite awake yet, his words were still not understood, but then I heard him saying 'gabriella, please don't leave me.. I love you.. gabby...gabriella' then he was closing his eyes again! My heart almost stopped beating! But then I found myself saying 'I love you' I surprised myself! I opened my mouth but this time words came out! I kept repeating 'I love you troy.. I am here! Open your eyes! Can you hear me?' for a while he was silent then I heard a whisper 'I can hear you..'
I was smiling, I was crying, I could breathe again! Troy got me my words back! So I called out 'chad! Chad over here! Come and help me!' then I found chad and monica coming out of the bar running, and when chad saw me he said 'gabby? Is that you?' I smiled at him and said 'yeah..' monica gasped and put her hand on her mouth then she ran to me and hugged me so tight and said 'thank GOD!'
Chad helped me make troy sit up and then we carried him to chad's car, chad went to bring him a cup of coffee and maybe some water too, I sat next to him just staring at his face, wanting to make sure he is okay.. chad got him the coffee and I washed his face with water so that he wakes up, I helped him drink the coffee too. He was finally starting to wake up, then he looked at me and said 'gabby?' I said 'yeah.. troy I am here' then I found tears in his eyes, I was so touched, he hugged me so tight and said 'I can't believe I am hearing your voice! OMG gabby! I knew you could do it' I looked at him and said 'troy.. you didn't know that.. you said I was weak, remember?' and then I opened the car's door and left. I walked into the bar again to find chad and monica sitting there. Chad said 'is troy okay?' I nodded and said 'yeah he is fine..' then monica whispered in chad's ear 'leave us alone for a while please chad' he said 'sure' and gave her a kiss and told me that he was going to check on troy. I walked towards the chair next to monica grabbed my jacket and said 'well I am heading home now..' monica was staring at me, and then she said 'gabby, are you mad at me?' I looked at her and said 'no.. I am just mad' she said 'I am so sorry I slapped you! I just didn't want you to slip away again' I said 'well, I am here monica' and then I turned away leaving when I found her running towards me and hugging me while crying! I hugged her as close as I could and she said 'I can't believe you are talking again gabby! God I missed you! So much! I love you gabby!' I smiled and said 'I love you too monica!' then she whipped away her tears and said 'and troy?' I looked at the floor and then back at her and said 'not now please, ok?' she said 'okay..' and then we walked outside, I waved goodbye to chad and monica gave him an air kiss. I saw troy staring at me, maybe waiting for me to tell him goodbye too, or talk to him, or maybe he hoped I would run to his arms, but I didn't do any of those things. I just walked away. And again... I didn't look back.