He was surprised and he felt awkward and then I walked towards my house, troy was following me but a few steps behind, we walked in silence, I didn't talk, he didn't talk either, then suddenly he said 'why are you doing this gabriella?' I stopped walking with tears in my eyes, then I decided I don't want to be weak, so I started walking again but before I could take a few steps troy said 'why?.. why gabriella?' I couldn't hurt him anymore, I didn't want to see him hurt, so I turned around ran towards him and kissed him! It was a long kiss, it was magical, my lips touching his, I felt like I didn't want them to part, but they did because I pulled back. I pulled back and said 'I love you more than anything in this world troy.. but I can't do this.. I can't because.. because I am heartbroken troy! You were with sharpay and I lost my grandma and I am.. all alone troy! I am all alone!' and that point I was crying hysterically! He tried holding me but I kept saying 'all alone! I am all alone!' he hugged me and said 'you aren't gabby.. I was never with sharpay.. and I never will be.. I am with you gabby!' I kept hugging him because I was feeling alone for so long! I just needed to feel safe for a while, troy made me feel safe. Then his phone rang, it was my mum, he told her that he found me and we were coming home. When he hung up he looked at me with a very tender kind sweet look and said 'shall we go?' I nodded and then I walked.
Troy walked next to me now, but he wasn't touching me, he wasn't holding me, he was giving me my space, he was waiting for me to make my move or give him any sign that I was ready. But was I ? I wasn't sure, but I loved him, and maybe that was why I wasn't ready. Because I loved him I feared his loss, so I thought I would just lock him out and never have to face his loss, but I wasn't forgetting about him, i wasn't letting go, everyday I loved him even more.
Occasionally as we were walking I would take a quick glance at troy and occasionally he did the same, but then we were almost home, I was going to let him go again, I didn't want to, and he was thinking is this the end? Will she always be not ready? But then 3 blocks away from my house I stopped walking, looked at troy and said 'I love you.. and that is making me afraid.. because I can't lose you troy! But I can't push you away anymore! I can't because i... love... you..' he took a few steps towards me, kissed me on the cheek and said 'you'll never lose me.. I love you' I smiled at him and then clinged to his neck and hugged him! He then carried me on his arms and walked me to the house. I was very happy, I was where I belonged, with troy. Then we knocked on the door and my mum opened, she saw me with tears in her eyes, she hugged me so tight and said 'you stupid jerk! How could you do this to me?' I said 'I am sorry mum!' then she took me inside and invited troy in for breakfast since it was 7 am. We ate, me, troy, my mum and dad. All the time I was staring at troy with a smile on my face, troy was with me, troy loved me, troy wasn't letting me go. But then his phone rang and it was closer to me so as I was handing it to him I saw the name of the caller.. it was sharpay!