"Kate...KATE" Reia hissed as she prodded me in the arm.
"Ouch! What!" I replied.
"Um, Moody said to read chapter 24. You haven't even opened your book." Reia said
I snapped out of the dazed state I was in.
"Did he?" I asked looking at Reia.
She had a concerned look on her face.
"Look, whatever happened last night, it was just something weird." Reia said placing her hand on my arm.
I don't think I've ever seen her this concerned.
"I hope it doesn't change anything between us." Reia said.
"Of course not. We were messed up." I said opening my textbook.
"Kate, you've been acting weird all day." Reia commented.
"I'm fine, just a little tired." I replied flipping threw pages.
"Kate I'm worried." She continued.
"There's nothing to worry about." I said with a smirk.
"Oh yeah? Than why are you flipping threw your charms book?" Reia said closing my book and pointed at the title.
I shook my head.
"Whoops, they look the same." I said.
I went to put my Charms book back in my bag and I noticed Snape's shirt was still in my bag. I sighed as I shoved my charms book on top of his shirt and grabbed my Defence Against the Dark Art's book.
" do you need some coffee or something?" Moody grumbled as he hobbled over to my desk.
I rolled my eyes and opened my textbook.
" I asked you a question" Moody said placing his hand over my textbook.
"No, I do not need coffee Professor Moody." I snapped.
"Then get reading!" Moody hissed.
He hobbled away, heading towards the back of the classroom. I sighed again and flipped threw the pages.
Reia glanced at me all threw class, but never saying another word. The bell rang dismissing us from our last class of the day. I shoved my book in my bag quickly and I was one of the first to leave. I didn't even wait for Reia. I walked down to the Slytherin common room and up to my bedroom. I dropped my bag on the ground and dropped myself on my bed.
Tears filled my eyes and slowly fell down the sides of my face. Chance jumped up on the bed and nudged his head against my ribs.
"Chance, I don't know what to do." I sobbed as I petted his head.
He softly meowed and nudged me again.
I glanced down at the floor where my bag was. I noticed a bag with three blue pills fell out of it. I slowly got off my bed and grabbed the bag.
"It's because of these things I'm in this mess." I said to myself.
I held them over the garbage can, but I couldn't let them go. I tried with all my might to open my hand to let them fall. I instead opened the bag and put one in my mouth without really having any control of what I was doing.
I walked down to the potions classroom wearing a long cloak. My footsteps matching my heart beat. I opened the door and saw Professor Snape sitting at his desk alone, marking papers.
"Kate, what are you doing here?" He asked standing up.
"I needed to see you Professor." I said with a smirk.
"Yes, I need to see you too. Look about last night..." He started to say.
"That was last night; I need to see you about tonight." I said as I closed the classroom door and locked it.
"Kate, I need to apologise..." Snape started to say again.
I removed my cloak revealing a red skin tight tank top and a black mini skirt.
"Kate! What are you doing!" Snape asked as he walked towards me.
"You don't like it?" I said with a wink
He grabbed my shoulders.
"What has gotten into you lately?" Snape asked looking me in the eyes.
His gaze was too hypnotic, I couldn't look away. Snape squinted his eyes a bit and then he grabbed my chin.
"You're pupils..." he whispered
"What about them." I smirked
"Are you high?" Snape asked.
"Maybe..." I giggled.
Snape let go of my shoulders and turned away from me.
"Oh come on Professor, I didn't see you complaining last night." I snapped.
"You were also high last night?" Snape asked turning around.
"Whoops" I said with a smile.
"Kate, what in the world would make you want to take drugs?" Snape hissed, slamming his hand on a desk close by.
"Why are you getting upset?" I snapped back
"Why! Because you are taking drugs!" Snape yelled.
I glared at him. I only took the drugs for him and now he's getting pissed off?
"Okay, well maybe I'm not the most experienced person with sex, and MAYBE I needed something to help me out." I yelled back at him.
His face went from angry to concern.
"Is this what this is all about?" Snape asked, taking a step towards me.
"Yeah, and apparently you still don't want me" I said taking a step backwards.
"Look, if this is based on last night, than you got your facts all wrong." Snape informed me.
I picked up my cloak and put it back on.
"Kate, I am sorry, but this isn't what you think it is" Snape said stepping towards me again.
"Then what is this about?" I asked him, fastening up my cloak.
Snape sighed
"I've never done this before." Snape finally said.
I looked at him in confusion
"You mean the teacher student thing?" I asked
"No, the whole sex and relationship thing" Snape replied.
My mouth dropped slightly. Snape turned away blushing.
"Please tell me you're kidding" I said lightly grabbing his arm.
"I wish I was" Snape replied.
I started shaking. Snape turned around to face me.
"Are you alright?" He asked me, lifting my chin up to look at him.
"I don't know..." I replied.
My stomach suddenly started shooting out sharp pains. I bent over holding my stomach.
"Kate! What's wrong!" Snape asked kneeling down in front of me.
"My... Stomach..." I groaned.
I started shaking more violently and I felt like my head was swimming.
"Kate, what drug did you take?" Snape asked me.
I didn't want to tell him, I didn't want him to judge me.
"I don't know..." I mumbled.
"Kate! Tell me what drug you took!" Snape demanded
"I don't know... "I repeated
Snape pulled my face up, so I was face to face and eye locked with him.
"Kate...please..." Snape asked again.
I tried too look away from him, but he had a firm grip on me.
"UGH! I DONT KNOW" I yelled.
"Kate... Tell me" Snape pleaded.
"I DONT KNOW!" I repeated.
"Kate..." Snape whispered.
Please don't make him think differently of me.
"Ecstasy" I mumbled.
Snape let go of me. I dropped to my knees, still holding my stomach. My eyes started to water from the pain. I heard a cork pop and felt him touch my shoulder.
"Drink this..." Snape whispered holding the bottle up to my mouth.
I took a sip of whatever was in the bottle. It tasted like pumpkin and ginger... He put the empty bottle next to us and held me in his arms.
I don't know what made me cry... the pain or the sympathy Snape was showing me.
"It's okay, the pain should subside soon." Snape whispered in my ear.
"I'm sorry." I sobbed.
"Shh, it's okay. Everything is going to be okay." Snape said as he tightened his grip around me.
My stomach finally started to unclench and relax. The pain started to go away and my sobs turned into quiet tears. Snape lifted my chin up slowly. I still couldn't look at him. I closed my eyes as he lightly wiped my tears away from my cheek.
"Are you feeling better?" Snape asked softly
I nodded my head slowly.
"Do you want to talk about why you would do something as reckless as take drugs?" Snape asked as he pushed as strand of my hair behind my ear.
I couldn't find the words to justify using drugs.
"Kate... look at me." Snape whispered
I slowly opened my tear soaked eyes. I looked into his deep dark eyes. Guilt hit me like a ton of bricks. How could I not trust him to actually respect that I wasn't experienced in bed? How could I not trust him to not think of me as a one night stand?
"I was worried..." I managed to say.
"Worried about what?" he asked.
One last tear fell from my face.
"I was worried that I wouldn't be good enough for you" I replied, as I turned my head to the side.
Snape didn't say anything.
"And I know this isn't enough. There is no excuse for me taking those drugs Professor." I continued.
Snape remained silent and I still didn't dare look at him.
"I just got caught between someone I thought I should be and who I really am" I said as I pushed my hair out of my face.
I glanced at Snape. His head was bowed and he was looking at the ground.
"Please say something" I whispered.
Snape slowly looked at me. We sat there just looking at each other. Snape finally got up from the floor, unlocked the classroom door and left. His robes squished as he ascended stairs. Leaving me alone on the potions classroom floor.