The next morning, I woke up, remembering the last night. It felt like a nightmare, because every time he moved, it hurt. And I couldn't stop thinking of Beckett, while my husband was lying on top of me. I sighed and got up. Caterina entered the room and brought some clothes for me. I got dressed and looked at the bed and saw that the sleeping place of Sinjin was empty.

"Where is Prince Sinjin?" I asked Caterina curiously.

"He's having breakfast with some of his friends. He wanted you to sleep as long as you want. He is so caring, right?" she asked smiling. I mustered her.

"I don't care." I finally answered. She looked at me sadly.

"What is wrong, Miss Jadelyn? He seems quiet nice, in my opinion." she said in a quieter voice, than usual.

"No one asked you for your opinion." I snapped, but immediately regretted, what I said.

"What is that supposed to mean?" she asked offended.

"I am all churned up inside. I would rather be with Beckett, not with Sinjin." I trailed off.

"I know what you mean, but think optimistically. Now you got to see Beckett again, because he works for you." she said cheering me up.

"You know, where he is right now?" I asked with hope in my voice. She nodded, smiling brightly. She bent forward. When her lips touched my ear, she whispered:

"He is in the garden, watering the flowers." I nodded and we made our way outside. We walked around the garden, looking out for him. When I saw him, I wanted to run to him and hug him, but then I stopped walking, too shocked what I saw. There was a young girl, probably at the same age as me, talking to him and touching his cheek in a flirtatious way. She was well dressed as well and he didn't seem to have a problem with her touching him like that. I felt betrayed. First, he tells me about his happiness to work for Prince Sinjin, so he could see me and have enough time for me, making me hope to fulfil our love for each other and then flirting with a trollop behind my back. I tensed and Caterina noticed that.

"Is everything all right, Misses Jadelyn?" she asked concerned.

"Sure, only thing is that Beckett is cheating on me with this girl. Whoever she is."

"Her name is Victoria. She is one of the two daughters of the count." Caterina explained. She was obviously proud of herself, because she knew the answer.

"I don't care who she is. I only care about Beckett. And he is cheating on me. I am Jade West. Princess Jade West! How dare he to do this." I mostly talked to myself. Caterina put her hand on my shoulder.

"He isn't. He loves you. I guess she likes him, too. But he won't take her over you, I'm sure." Caterina said comforting. Beckett seemed to read her mind as he suddenly took Victoria's hand and removed it from his cheek. He said something to her and then she left angrily. He continued watering the flowers, as Caterina pulled me towards him.

"Beckett!" she cheered. He looked up and smiled brightly.

"Morning, little Caterina, morning Misses Jadelyn." he took a bow after he said my name. I smiled a bit.

"So who was this Victoria girl?" I asked, raising an eyebrow. He shrugged.

"Just a nice girl." he answered.

"A nice girl, who is in love with you" I sated irritated.

"Good for her. My heart belongs to another, really gorgeous girl." he said winking at me. I blushed. He was forgiven.

"You want to take a walk?" I asked him rhetorically, knowing that he would.

"I would love to. But not for so long. I still have a lot of work to do. And if I don't finish them, I'll get dismissed."

"I don't think so. It is more important to let the princess be content. Your tasks are subtle for now. Come on!" I said as we both started to walk. Caterina walked back to do something else. I turned around to look at our aristocratic estate, as I saw a shadow in one of the windows vanish. I didn't think much of it, so we walked on.

We were now promenading every day for two month. It was very nice to have him around and I felt content. We walked further from while to while and one day we discovered a place far enough from our estate, that no one could see us. That place became our daily gathering place to make out and to have some fun. We cuddled and were together. My love for him grew everyday a bit more and I could proudly say, that he felt the same.

"I wish we could walk away to be together. Just the two of us." I said, as we were lying there one day. He stroked my dark brown hair caressingly.

"That would be perfect." he answered.

"So why don't we do that?" I asked seriously, raising my head from his cheats to look at him. He looked at me sadly.

"It is impossible Jadelyn. We would be outlawed and everybody would search us to kill us. Would you want that?" he asked me, showing me the consequences. He was a person, who thought about the consequences of a situation, before doing what he wanted to do. If he thought it was to risky, he let it be. Just like now and I knew he wouldn't change his mind, mostly for my sake. I lowered my head again.

"I love you" I whispered sadly.

"I love you, too" he replied, stroking my head again.

It was late evening and we already got back. I was sitting in my bed, watching Sinjin as he undressed, to put on his nightgown. He lay down next to me and we fulfilled our marital duties, once again. Thank god, it didn't hurt anymore. After he finished, he rolled back at his place and looked at me.

"What are you doing, when I am away?" he suddenly asked. I play husband and wife with Beckett. I thought. But seriously, what shall I answer to that question? I cannot tell him the truth. He would rip off my head immediately.

"Not much. It depends. I promenade with Caterina, or I talk to some people on the court." I made up an excuse, but I could still feel his eyes piercing me.

"You mean this servant, Beckett?" he asked, awaiting my reaction. My heart stopped beating as he said his name. I got very nervous and I began to tremble slightly. I turned my head to look at him.

"Um…yes…among others." I answered nervously.

"You seem to like him a lot. You want to explain that to me?" he asked suspiciously.

"We are close to each other, because he was working for my father. That's all." I answered, finally catching myself.

"Do you love him?" he asked, absorbing every move I make, every twitch in my face. But I was good at hiding things and I was also good at lying. I looked him deeply in the eyes, so he would think I was telling the truth.

"No, of course not." I answered. A long awkward silence spread out across the room. I guessed he was thinking about something, so I waited until he talked again. And that happened after felt 20 minutes.

"Do you love me?" he finally asked.

AN: Ooouh. Tricky question. Hehe. What will she answer? I'll tell you, if you review.

To NoName: I thought it wouldn't be bad, if I write the last sentence weakened but sorry, won't happen again.

To Alyson: Well, I wanted to make sort of a describtive s** scene between them, but I just rated it T. So I'll just hint it. Or at least try to hint it.

Don't forget to review and make me happy.

~teddybaer~